My name is Aaron. 

Chris was a friend of mine from middle school all the way into our early adult lives. We lived together, got our first jobs together, laughed together, cried together, and shared our visions of the future. We shared the most personal stories of our lives with each other, from our families, friends, and love interests and everything else. I would not be who I am today without him. 

I will be married soon, to a wonderful women. Chris and I were suppose to have kids that would grow up to be friends like we were. It pains my heart to think it will never come to fruition. 

Chrises memory never leaves me more than a short period. The pain of losing him has matured into a copia of different emotions. His death has made me mature more than any other life experience to date. Everything happpens for a reason I guess. It’s whatever. 

Thank you Chris. Thank you. I cry as I write this but I know now it had to happen. I feel you watching over us, guiding us, consoling us. Thank you. I know you get the letters I leave you at the cemetery. Continue to watch over us. Help Wayne and his kid, watch over Isaiah and his family, I hope Dustin hasn’t lost his way, and continue to send my family reassuring messages the way you have been. 

I believe in things now I never did growing up. I appreciate the way I see the world now, in a way I never would have been able to. You can never genuinely appreciate the good times  until you’ve experienced the bad times. I can appreciate now that times are good. A time for everything.  “Ecclesiastes 3”

Continue to teach us lessons and watch over us. We miss you Chris. I miss you. We love you. I love you. Until we meet again my closest friend. 

Your friend -Aaron. 

I hope she dies soon, not because i hate her but because i love her, she was diognosed with terminal cancer and is going to die from it, so she is at the end of her life, she is on her death bed, if she dies now she will avoid all of the suffering, the longer she remains alive the more she will suffer which is why i hope she dies sooner than later. i know this is Burr's page but i think my thoughts are related to his death. and i hope that Deanne can accept our mothers death the way i have (even though Ma hasn't died yet) Mom is on her way back home to heaven, where we all end up, and i hope that she can understand that Christopher is lucky because he returned home at such a young age, he does not have to deal with all of the shit we who are still alive have to deal with, he no longer has to deal with world events like the world we still live in where terrorism exists, he does not have to worry about what we have to deal with, he is in heaven because he fulfilled the reason why he was sent here in the first place, life on earth is like a job, Chris did his job and God took his soul back, God took his soul back because he did not belong here longer than his reason for being here, none of us do, we are here for a limited time, some are here longer than others for reasons we may never understand, all of us die but we do not die, when we end our time here on earth we go back to heaven, heaven is where we all live, earth is where we all come to die, then we return to heaven where eternity exists, life on earth is like a job, we come here and when our job is complete we go back home, i accept that Chris died because it means he went back home and i am happy that he completed the reason he came to earth, don't get me wrong i am not happy with the way he died but i had no choice in that matter, and i am not happy with the way my mother is leaving either, but we do not have control over that. life on earth is temporary and we are born only to complete the reason we were sent here, then we die and go back home, as for you who are reading this, i am assuming that you know my mother's history with her kids, i found out she was terminal, i want to remember her when she was active, she is on her death bed and i refuse to see her, trust me i know that she understands, i am in touch with her, i sent her flowers, a teddy bear, and a card, she loves carnations, which i sent her, and also appreciates a simple card (even more), the teddy bear is for her to hold as she thinks about me when i am not there, the card i wrote to her does not say get well (because we both know she is dying) i talked to her on the phone and told her i love her and i hope she feels better, none of this (fake) get well soon crap, i know she is dying, (there is no more get well soon) and i wanted to be honest with her, as i said if you know our history you will appreciate what i wrote, i saved it in a file for future reference. here is what my sister Debbie read to her:  
Mom, life is a mystery and everything happens for a reason, our time on earth is temporary, heaven is our real home, every choice you made was the right one even if you think you made some mistakes, they are all forgiven. love, Keith
i felt that would be better than "please Mommy don't die" death is a BIG part of life so accept it even if you think you can't, you really have no choice either way. we all die.
Keith.  

"I first met Chris when he was about 2, another nephew I was happy to meet, I got to know him only briefly but did get a chance to hold him in my arms and like all of my nieces and nephews he accepted me as someone who he seemed to have a connection with. years later, when he was about 8, I went to Vegas on vacation and met him again, I gave him the nick name Charley Bucket because of his blonde hair and he did sort of look like the kid from the movie Willy Wonka. I lost touch with my family about 2 years ago and recently getting back in touch, I learned less than a week ago that he died, the night I got the news I got drunk, cried and cursed at God. I know it in my heart that we all come here to earth for a reason, we are offered the challenge to take on our own life path, shown what our purpose here on earth will be, than we either accept or decline without being judged by God. Christopher accepted his challenge. we see our entire life path in an instant, are told of our mission and when we will (die) leave earth. we are born into a human baby, with some memory of heaven which goes away with time (before a year) because we can not know why we are here because if we did we would try to rush the completion of our reason here so we could return home to heaven. but our reason for being here can only happen if the rest of the chips fall into play, for example: Bill Gates couldn't have started his mission to cure aids without money, he could not have made that type of money without the advancement of the internet, so he could not have jumped into aids research when he was 17 in the 1970's. how many times have you heard the term de je vu? how many times have you heard "my life flashed in front of my eyes"? I bet many because we all know what both of those mean. let me bring you back to heaven for a moment, we are all shown our life in a flash even before we are born, and people who almost die say they saw their life flash before their eyes. the reason we have had de je vu is to remind us that we have seen that situation before, de je vu is a tiny memory of when we watched our life happen in heaven even before we were born. some people die when they are 90, some when they are 20, in retrospect it is the same time, at the end it all was a flash. there are no clocks in heaven, time is only of this earth. we are all sent here, each for our own reason and we leave when it is time for us to leave. Christopher had a very important reason for coming here, the way he died was very powerful, and so was the reason he was born. it had to be the way it was because the message he left needed to be that powerful, there are kids at the age he was who needed the message he sent, his death sent a message to the people who needed to hear that message, he saved countless lives, those people he saved will effect other people in good ways because they avoided following his path, (he was the fork in the road) one of them may even find a cure to a disease that there is no cure to at this time, so Chris sent the message to that person not to do that drug, and saved their life, he saved someone who will eventually save many more people, that person is very important to the human race because they will figure out a cure to what ever ailment is hindering the human race. the person Chris saved is very important to the future of humanity, but if Chris never came here to earth all of those people would never had a chance, no matter what. Christopher Wrath was more important to humanity than the person he saved because if he never came here those people wouldn't have had a chance. knowing what I know I don't cry for Chris, what makes me cry is thinking about how his mother must have taken it. Chris is a hero Deanne. love Keith."

I started keeping journals of my feelings, poems and letters about and to  my son when he first passed away...3 weeks after Christopher passed away I was sitting on my bed...asking God to please give me the answers to why my son made a decision to take his life. I picked up my journal and started writing. I was just writing what came to me without thinking or stopping to review what I was writing. After a while when I was done I sat back and read what I had written. I broke down and cried.  After reading my journal I realized the answers I had been searching for were in my journal. I believe God was telling me the reason why my sons life ended one month shy of his 21st birthday. Here's how it happened.

Jesus came to me on a February Day, sat down beside me, took my hands in His and said "Listen carefully to what I have to say.

God had chosen you to be Angel Christopher's new Mommy. This was because only you could have given Christopher the beginning of life, held him so, protected him so and always kept him safe and warm. And because only you would be sure to teach him all of the life lessons he will need and all of this life’s qualities he will need when he becomes Gods' Special Angel.

What he has learned from you will inspire Christopher to be the brightest of all Gods Angels. Christopher will forever be the brightest of all. Because you held Christopher in your loving arms he will now be forever strong. A special part of you he will keep and always will be free...cherishing all of time you spent teaching life’s lessons to Christopher".

"Now close your eyes and feel your heartbeat. I need to hear you say with all your love from God to you, that you will forever be OK. Make a promise to yourself and promise to God you will be OK, for this tiny Angels time to go to Heaven had come.   So remember how it felt when you held Christopher close and cherish each giving day. The both of you will always and forever be ok, forever connected for all of time; God will help you through until the end of time".

Jesus looked at me and said “it's almost time to leave; a part of me is now inside of you and never will leave, now take my hand and listen close”.

“The joys Christopher brought you can’t be compared to any other gifts you have received throughout your years. The pain you now feel is like no other, but the promise you made to God is for always and forever. You kissed Christopher’s beautiful face and held him close to you. You loved your new bundle of joy but this tiny gift from God to you will soon walk with God through Heavens door”.

“It's time to say goodbye, remember this bond between us is forever in our hearts. I have to say goodbye for now and take Christopher home”.

Today is the 9th month Christopher has been in Heaven,I know Everyone who has ever been Blessed to have known Christopher if only for a very short time will have the special memories you have shared with Christopher in your hearts forever, A Son, Grandson, Brother, Uncle, Nephew,Cousin, And Friend as we all will miss, now one of Gods Angels. some say the pain will Eventually fad but the many Awesome memories we all have of Christopher will Always be with each and everyone of us. Dear Christopher every tear we all cry is for you...find what it is you left us for..and one day we will all make new memories.I can speak for everyone who knew you, we miss you but most of all we all love you.It's so true you never know how special someone is untill we lose them may God forever hold Christopher in his arms as we all once had.and may Christopher find peace and never have pain...I Love You...Mommy..xoxoxoxo

Hi christopher, I miss you,i cant begin to tell you how much I love you I promise you I will always keep the memories I have of you close to my heart....if only I could have just one wish you would be right here...im always going to keep you alive in my mind, you touched the lives and captured so many hearts of everyone who has been lucky enough to have you in their lives...i remember the day you were born ill never forget your lil face and your beautiful blonde hair...i wish I could hold you again I would never let you go....please never forget how much everyone lovaes you...when my time comes to finally be with you again I hope you will be the first person I see.if I know you I can bet a million hugs and kisses you will be the first one at heavens gates waiting for me and you would be saying here comes my mom... You would get there extra early and wait.....i love you I want you to be happy And find everything your searching for...keep smiling...ill be with you again someday...please visit us...xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo mommy

Date: 2012-04-10 00:39:04
 Title: LOVE WAS NOT ENOUGH

                     
                 IF LOVE ALONE COULD OF SAVED YOU
                          CHRISTOPHER
                     YOU NEVER WOULD OF DIED
                   
                I MISS YOU MORE THEN WORDS CAN SAY
                YOU WILL REMAIN IN MY HEART ALWAYS
                 AND FOREVER UNTILL WE MEET AGAIN
         
            
                 MY HEART LEFT WITH YOU THE DAY YOU DIED
                 I WISH I COULD SEE YOUR BEAUTIFUL FACE
                 AND HOLD YOU SO TIGHT IN MY ARMS IF ONLY
                 FOR A SHORT WHILE,LONG ENOUGH TO TELL YOU
                 HOW MUCH I HAVE ALWAYS LOVED YOU,I KNOW I
                 WILL NEVER BE THE SAME.THE PAIN WILL FOREVER
                 REMAIN WITH ME.I WISH I COULD SEE YOU AGAIN.
                  I LOVE YOU BEHOND WORDS.I WILL NEVER LET THE
                  OF YOU FAD AND YOU WILL NEVER BE FORGOTTON
                       I LOVE YOU CHRISTOPHER
                            MOMMY...XOXOXOXOX
 

 
..To my dearest family, some things I'd like to say
But first of all, to let you know, that I arrived okay.
I'm writing this from heaven, here I dwell with God above
Here, there's no more tears of sadness; Here is just eternal love.

Please do not be unhappy just because I'm out of sight;
Remember that I am with you every morning, noon, and night.
That day I had to leave you when my life on earth was through
God picked me up and hugged me and He said, "I welcome you."

"It's good to have you back again, you were missed while you were gone,
As for your dearest family, they'll be here later on.
I need you here badly, you are part of my plan,
There's so much that we have to do to help out mortal man."
God gave me a list of things that he wished for me to do
And foremost on my list is to watch and care for you.

And when you lie in bed at night; the day's chores put to flight,
God and I are closest to you, in the middle of the night.
When you think of my life on earth, and all of those missed years,
Because you are only human, they are bound to bring you tears.
But do not be afraid to cry, it does relieve the pain,
Remember there would be no flowers, unless there was some rain.

I wish that I could tell you all that God has planned,
But if I were to tell you that, you wouldn't understand.
But one thing is for certain though, my life on earth is o'er,
I'm closer to you now than ever was before.
There are many rocky roads ahead of you and many hills to climb,
But together we can do it by taking one day at a time.
There is a very wise philosophy and I'd like to share it with you,
That as you give unto the world, the world will give unto you.
If you can help somebody who is in sorrow and pain,
Then you can say to God at night, "My day was not in vain.
And now I am contented, that my life is worthwhile,
Knowing as I passed along the way I made somebody smile."

So if you meet somebody who is sad and feeling low,
Just lend them your hand to pick them up, as on your way you go.
When you're walking down the street and you've got me on your mind,
I'm walking in your footsteps only half a step behind.
And when it's time for you to go, for that body to be free,,
Remember you're not going, You're coming here to me.

THE NIGHT BEFORE CHRISTOPHERS INTERNMENT I HAD A VISIT FROM JESUS
I WAS STANDING IN THE SKY NEXT TO THE ESCALATOR GOING TO HEAVEN. THERE WERE BLUE AND WHITE CLOUDS ALL AROUND. I SAW A YOUNG BOY STANDING NEXT TO AN OLDER MAN WEARING A WHITE ROBE WITH A BROWN ROPE AROUND HIS WAIST. THE OLDER MAN WAS JESUS,TO HIS LEFT WAS CHRISTOPHER, LOOKING STRAIGHT AHEAD. JESUS HAD LONG BROWN HAIR WITH CURLS DOWN TO HIS SHOULDERS. THE BOTH OF THEM WERE ON THEIR WAY TO HEAVEN.
JESUS LOOKED TO HIS LEFT AT ME, WITHOUT ANY EXPRESSION ON HIS FACE. I NEVER SAID A WORD AS I WATCHED THEM GO UP CLOSER TO HEAVEN. I HAD A VERY CALM PEACEFUL FEELING INSIDE ME. I WAS RELAXED, SOMEHOW I KNEW CHRISTOPHER WAS IN GODS HANDS NOW AND WILL BE FOREVER AT PEACE.
JESUS LET ME KNOW WITHOUT ANY WORDS CHRISTOPHER WILL NEVER AGAIN FEEL PAIN AND WILL ALWAYS BE WITH ANGELS WHO WILL GUIDE MY SON.I KNOW CHRISTOPHER IS IN A FAR BETTER PLACE AND NOW HE IS TRULY AN ANGEL
BUT I KNOW CHRISTOPHERS TIME ON EARTH WAS TOO SHORT. THE PAIN I WILL FEEL FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE WILL BE LIKE NO OTHER,CAN I HONESTLY SAY I'M ACCEPTING CHRISTOPHER'S DEATH...NO...I DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY CHRISTOPHER WAS CALLED HOME AT A YOUNG AGE.I KNOW EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON FOR WHY MY SON HAD TO LEAVE,AND GOD HAS HIS REASONS FOR CALLING MY SON HOME,CHRISTOPHER'S LIFE IS OVER AND FOR THE LOVE OF GOD,I HAVE TO ACCEPT AND SOMEHOW TRY TO UNDERSTAND WHY,I ALSO KNOW NOW IF THIS IS WHAT CHRISTOPHER WANTED AND IS TRULEY AT PEACE.I NEED TO ACCEPT AND BELIEVE GOD WILL FOREVER TAKE
CHRIS AND LOVE AND PROTECT AND KEEP HIM SAFE.
ONE DAY I'LL HAVE THE ANSWERS TO ALL MY UNANSWERED QUESTIONS.MY HEART ACHES.I WILL FOREVER HOLD CHRISTOPHER'S MEMORIES IN MY HEART,I WILL WAIT FOR CHRISTOPHER TO COME AND SIT WITH ME..I PROMISE I WILL NOT TRY AND KEEP HIM HERE..I JUST WAN'T TO TELL HIM SOME THINGS HE NEEDS TO KNOW....I LOVE YOU SO MUCH BABY.....MOMMY...XOXOXOXXO

Deanne this is when Chris came to Arizona and got to meet his cousins all over again. He spent most of the weekend with his cousin Brian at Jennifer's house playing video games and watching movies. He was out numbered by females at my house so i thought it would be best for him to hang out with Brian at Jen's. They had a great time together and the next day we all met at Jen's house for a bbq/pool party. Alot of memories were made that day. I am so happy that we had the opportunity to spend time with him. Missing you Chris.

Melissa Alyssa I  remenber when we were kids and mommy had to work I was so home sick that I had my head on your knees and you were playing with my hair and said mitha dont cry mommy's coming in the morning then we go home kay :) lol miss and will never forget EVER still watch our favorite zombie movies resident evil :)

Wayne Wrath 
For My Brother Christopher Wrath

When the word got out about my brother's death, I received a lot of e-mails, texts, and calls. Most of the comments were from people that wanted to know what happened.
How he died. Details. I didn't feel comfortable talking about the details of my brother's death and I am still not. Instead, I will talk about how he lived. Chris was a very outgoing person.
He would say "Hi" to anyone that flashed him a smile. He was very personable and loved being around people and talking to them. A lot of the times I was with my brother and someone would say, "Have a nice day." my brother's rebuttal was "You have a very nice day too!". I would smile at him because I knew that only someone as caring as him would let you know that he truly wanted you to
have a "Very nice day.". Throughout my life, up until almost 14 months ago before my son was born, I have had one major goal that I have always worked towards. Being a positive role model in my brother's life. From the time we were little feeding spiders crickets and me telling him about different insects late at night, up until January 1st, 2012 when he told me he wanted to start doing Jiu Jitsu with me. (Providing I bought the Gi and paid half his tuition. lol) A small price to pay for leading my brother in the right direction yet again and sharing another thing in life that I love with someone that I love. I feel like I have accomplished that goal. I would like to share with you a couple of the memories I have of my brother and I. Memories that bring a smile to my face when tears
run down my cheek from the sadness. Chris had to have been about 4 or 5 years old and he was visiting me at my dads house from Rhode Island for the summer. I was coming home from school and did not know that Chris would be there. I opened the door like I do every day and walked inside the house. I saw my dad sitting on the couch and he was looking at a large cardboard box in the middle of the floor. I immediately thought COOL! A PRESENT FOR ME! When I walked towards the box Chris popped out from inside the box with his arms held high in the air and he had the biggest smile on his face. I ran over to Chris and gave him a big hug. Even though I was about 10 at the time, this moment, along with watching my son being born, is the highlight of my life. I know that the love I feel from this memory will give me the strength to continue on my journey with Chris in my heart. 11 years later Chris said to me one day that he wanted to start getting ready for his license and he wanted to learn how to drive.. Ugh oh. Chris didn't know how to get to Sunset Station from the Stratosphere but he wanted to drive. So I took him to an empty Elementary School parking lot to teach him how to park. This was when I was driving a mini-van. :/ So Chris started the van up and within 15 seconds we managed to drive over a curb, into some shrubs, and almost get stuck on a boulder! I was laughing so hard I couldn't tell him how to reverse! He looked so panicked which made it even more funny! Needless to say after a few jokes at his expense, we manage to get the van back onto the ground and learn how to park. :) My brother could make me laugh when I was sad, mad, excited, or however I was feeling. He know me just like I knew him. The bond I had with my brother was very special to me. The last memory I will share with you today of my brother and I is a very recent one. My brother and I lived together and we would have a lot of talks. We talked about anything and everything. Before bed we would talk about what dreams we would like to have or what dreams we had the previous night. A lot of the time, if Chris and I bother got home from work at the same time, we would sit at our dining room table, open a beer and talk about our day at work. This particular night we didn't do much talking. Instead, we starting rolling a dice back and fourth. That turned into 'who can roll a '6' first'. Then that turned into 'who can roll it the closest to the edge of the table without it falling off'. My brother and I sat at this table for TWO HOURS just rolling a dice back and fourth laughing and enjoying each other's company. I think that moment pretty much sums up what my brother means to me. No matter what happened that day, or how I felt, or anything like that, just being around my brother was enough for me. ............ My brother and I told each other "I love you" at least 3 times a day. I am so thankful that my last words before he walked out that door were "I love you too." Rest In Peace Chris. I love you.

Your brother always,
Wayne.

THIS WAS WRITTEN BY ASHLEY AIKEN, ONE OF HIS GOOD FRIENDS. i THINK IT IS A VERY NICE SENTIMENT. THANK YOU ASHLEY.

Son, Brother and Friend to so many..Anyone who knew Chris knows how kind, generous and loving Chris was. Willing to share whatever he had with you, no matter how little he had. A personality that lit up any room he entered..My heart is broken and I am truly saddened to have lost a Brother. I pray that you're with God now and sharing your spirit with heaven. Rest easy Chris Wrath...You'll forever be in our hearts. ♥ —