December came,you were nowhere to be found...My tree of green  had turned blue, or maybe that was the color of my heart, from  missing you...  the world was colder , I felt older... the month of Decemeber, came with so many loving memories, that I remember about you, I started to sob like a baby...wishing you'd come walking throuogh the  door, like you did so many times before...talking about your day and me, not saying much, than something catches your eye and you know somethings wrong, by just looking at me..and you could change the way I felt,  there was no room for tears, your world was bright and sunny, always waiting to invite you in, with a welcome smile that captured your heart and you knew it wouldn't be long and you would be on the mend...a forever friend to many...it didn't matter what her title was to you, she was there for you, and made a difference in your world...for her, I wished for the promise of tomorrow, a day without sorrow, free from the pain, and to always remember her laughter, which still bings a smile to my face and our last hug ,..Decemeber came and forever I'll remember you, the  the imprint you left on my  heart, that will always remain,  the gift of you...love forever and always....chris

Saying good-bye I miss you, my dear friend, well I should say sister….Cause we loved each other as sisters, little did I know How much it would hurt inside my heart, to have you not here…. you’re gone and everything feels wrong, without you here…to smile, to laugh without you here , How dare us…to think life goes on… Well it does, but not without you implanted in our hearts….and I take comfort in knowing I have a lifetime of memories to reflect Upon, some of them shared times together, some shared memories through stories, however they were made we shared them together, and they became ours.. Days will pass and turn into months…I know I will feel better inside, right now the pit of my stomach has that pain , that aches, from the emptiness, from a loss that runs deep inside…only time can heal ones grieving heart… The winter chill, made us feel numb for while, slowly we will feel some warmth upon us, and we might even smile again…………laughter will come, with memories forever in our hearts…..and to think we would ever forget you……...you see that is what was so hard about saying good-by to you, is because we could never forget you…I know anyone who ever knew you, would never forgot someone like you… I love you and will always cherish all our special memories ……and forever you will be inside my heart…. And I will always miss you………….. Love Chrissy…..

Where usually I can write a poem, song or story to put my thoughts together  I find it most difficult  when it comes to my mom. In all that she has battled in the last several years I somehow knew that she would survive as she was stongest person I have ever known. This last battle was too much for anyone. She will be with me always in who I am. Everytime I sarcasticaly respond to a statement she is there. When I am told I am a strong and independant person she is there. When I find humor in lifes battles she is there. When I support those in my life or help them resolve thier problems she is there. In all that she has taught me to be she will always be a part of me and loved forever.