I really don't know why I have always remembered this and to this day remember it like it was yesterday, I have so many memories with you that I couldn't possibly share all of them ! Memories of just you and I ( before Michael was born ) memories with Michael , memories with twins , and memories of Topsy and all of us kids together !! I am not sure how old I was but we lived in Rupert on 102 south B street and you were really sick and grandma took you into the emergency room . Grandma came back and you weren't with her and she told me you would be in the hospital for a few days because you needed surgery and I was not used to you leaving us and for some reason I was so scared of something happening to you and I cried so hard and I remember the pain in the pit of my stomach and I would cry in your pillow and couldn't catch my breath to breathe , I fell asleep because I exhausted myself and woke up in the middle of the night and I wanted to be close to you so I got your white silk long night gown in your top drawer and it smelled like you and I held it close to me smelling it and laid back down with it next to me face laying on it ! I somehow felt comfort with that nightgown and I woke up to grandma kissing my forehead and covering me up