Damon ray walker (my father)...

Growing up was crazy but we wont get to much into that, But when thing got good they stayed good. you remember that time me, you, Tyler, and my mom (Crystal Walker-D'auteuil)

        (Also deceased July/4/08) traveled to new Mexico in your semi for your work. That was fun, We slept at the truck stop in th sleeper and you and mom slept up front. I remember walking up I'm not sure what time is was (it was early the sun wasnt even up yet) You were the only one awake and you had the semi running building up air. Another memorable thing about that trip was Tyler had to use the restroom and you told him to go in a bottle... Then when started to pee you started to pump the brakes and he spilled it on himself lol thanks for that anyways so I know you cant read this or maybe you can.. But I miss you and mom so much, i often wonder how differently things would have turned out.. cause a lot happened... and I've made mistakes I know.... I'm far from perfect but I know in my heart that yall would've loved me. Even if I made the same mistakes and decisions. So dad make sure you tell mom about what I'm gonna say cause it's time yall and whoever else reads this knows the truth....

So first things were good, My nana had custody of me first after you and mom passed away. Then your big brother (Audie Ray Walker J.R.) my uncle gained custody. So I lived with him and his wife,(Sherri Brown-Walker) and her kids. In the house he currently owns and lives in at Elk City, Ok. Until they got a divorce (I'm unsure what year it was)... So me and Uncle Audie moved into a trailer park in a single wide on South Vanburen in Elk City, Ok.. It was like Jan. Or Feb. In Oklahoma so still cold out we started out with a mattress and some heaters you plug in to the wall... Anyways no need to drag that out, We lived their for a few years. At that point me and Audie were still ok in each others presence lol.

     Later on we moved back to that house that we lived In before, By that time I was old enough that I had friends, And would leave my house to chill with them...  I was 13 when I decided to hit up my childhood  friend (no names because I dont have his permission) I knew he smoked pot (marijuana), So I asked him if he would get me stoned for my first time and he did..

      So my very first time Audies friend's or girlfriend's (I don't know if they were a thing) Audie had a bunch of "girls that were friends" that came around not... Anyways not the point lol back to my story, My very first time smoking pot I didnt get high at first (so we smoked until I did)... I was so high that it was easy to notice, But that's not what happened Rachel's kids found weed in his bag          (It was at my house) When we left to get some munchie food so they told on me... Luckily Rachel, Audie's "friend that was a girl", didnt tell Audie right away. She came to me and told me she knew and that she was gonna tell Audie (I couldn't talk her out of it) but she did make me a deal. She said if I told Audie myself that it would be better off on me. So i told him myself and he was a lot less pissed than i expected, Because at this point whenever he would whip me he would take it way to far (Which made want to rebel instead of do what I was supposed  to). So that time he didnt whip me or anything he was happy that I told him myself.

    But i didnt stop smoking pot in fact it got way, way worse. Pretty soon I was smoking pot almost everyday, Then finally he caught me again... I was in the garage on a summer day, Audie was gone but I wanted to smoke. So I was about to load a bowl while keeping a lookout (I was doing it all the time) and he walked in the door of the garage..

     When I seen him I tried to shove my grandfather style pipe in my pocket, He seen me do it and searched my pockets.. When he found the pipe in my pocket (empty) he threw it down and smashed it, Then he turned around punched me right in the mouth gave me a fat bloody lip (I didnt retaliate).. After that I'm not sure exactly what he did, I think he went Inside for a bit.

   I was shocked thinking about running away (again), I mean who would guessed the first time I got punched would be by my Uncle.. I wont bore you with the details of that, But later my Uncle felt bad, So we loaded up the fourwheelers and went to the river to ride. So all was forgiven, But it kept happening.. He kept laying hands on me beating me with 2×4's and stuff. Now I'm not gonna say I didnt deserve a good ass whoopin most of the time cause I did, But punches, kicks, verbal abuse, plus being a damaged good from my losses and my hardknock life.. 

   It was just to much, But I was putting up with it. I was gonna stay until I was 18, And that's when things got crazy. I'm not going to go into as much detail as I was because of two reasons, 1 I'm not proud of a lot of the things I was doing gang and drug wise and I dont want to tell you about them yet, And 2 because my phones about to die and I'm not at home. So it was the end of 2015 when I met an old friend of mine We'll just call her RB (no permission for name) and we became real close, Well eventually I ran away from Audie's.

     I moved in with my homegirl and her ole man in a 2 bed 1 bath single wide, At Queen City trailer park in Elk City, Ok.

So My blood cousin, We'll call him JS was in a relationship with RB's cousin (Heather Steeg) since they were teenagers! (I had a huge crush on her when I was like 7 and she was like 17 lol) Anyways after I sold Heather some pot and a bag of pills (narco 10's).. She got busted with them and some other charges were tacked on, She went to jail for a few months (I'm not certain how long). When she got out she had her cousin RB pass me a message since I still lived with her, Heather wanted to mess around with me because she thought I was cute.

       At first I didn't know what to think or do or even say, So I pondered on it and eventually decided to mess around (sexually) with her (months later)....

So we messed around for a while without your sister's and brother and nephews knowing. Eventually after getting in trouble in Elk school and kicked out I tried to go stay with your big sister Fern Sparks and go to Weatherford alt. Ed.

    I was seeing Heather still I was in like the 10th grade, So it was like 2016 or 2017 at that point. I was still rebeling, being a little punk teen. Skipping school to go see Heather, Or staying out all night long at her place messing around (sexually)...

    I'm pretty sure I was living at my Aunts house when our secret came out.. All of the sudden everyone in the family hated me, I tried to stay with my Aunt but she wouldn't let me forget about how bad of a person I was.. I even went back with Audie in Elk City Ok. For a while, But he was pretty much the same way always giving me heck about Heather.

So I was done with my family for a long time, And they were done with me also. Little did they know it was more than just a quick f*ck by then, I loved her and now after a lot of events in my life. I'm still with her were madly in love, And engaged.... Just wish I had you guys to support me even though I'm a f*ck up,

Everybody needs somebody...

LOVE

YOUR SON

Damon Ray Walker J.R.

                            R.I.P

       MOM AND DAD I LOVE YOU 4.                                EVER&ALWAYS

Gone but never forgotten, you saw me take my first breath.....

I watched you take your last.....

❤❤✌✌