Hey girl, I know it has been a looooong time since I've written on here. I come here and "hang out" with you and listen to your tunes but I haven't written because first off I feel like I say the same thing each time and because I wanted it to be a positive upbeat post and I haven't felt upbeat for a while. But I do miss "talking" to you on here so here I am. Ugh!!! So another accident and what a hassle it has become!! I sure could use your attitude and spunk to get things set up and this chick straightened out!!! I'm trying to keep in mind that I work for the church so I don't freak out on her, so far I have but it's close!!! Anyway, I'm trying real hard to keep sane until camp opens and I can have my own place again and I need sunshine!!!!!! God, I miss you!!!!  I hung out with Jess and the kids the other day and it was so awesome!!! I haven't kept in touch with Kim, Aim and Mikey anywhere near like I should and want to but I hope with the nicer weather I will feel more energy and enthusiasm for life, then I'll visit. So, not much new happening here, just counting the days until camp opens up again....by the way it's 59 days!!!! :) I miss doing your walk so much!!!! Somehow that made me feel better and closer to you so I have really missed planning and doing it. Damn covid has really messed life up....in every way!!! But things are getting back to "normal", whatever that is!! Haha. I wish that you were still here and I could have a girls time at the camp, you would have loved it there!!! As much as we loved having a little fire in your back yard, you would love it at my happy place!! I hope to have a cookout and fire with "B", Kristel and as many of your family that wants to come to try to reconnect again. You definitely were the glue that held us together! Although I think about you numerous times a day, every day, its been nice to "talk" to you again on here. I sure do miss you!! I would LOVE a "visit" HINT HINT!!!! I suppose I should go and get ready for the kiddos. I'll be back and I won't wait so long to "chat" with you, okay? Luv & miss ya MUCH!!! xoxo Nanc

Hey, Dar. We got our 1st snow last night. Not loving it but it was bound to come at some point. Thought I might work some today but the Registry's website is giving me an access error. Blah. Spending more time than reasonable just trying to come up with a meeting schedule for the Budget Committee...double blah! I need to give that up and let someone else deal with the headache. I know I haven't posted pics of the kids thru the years...I forget and time flies by... they are growing so fast! Hailey Darlene is 10 and Tyler is 8. Such good kids! You'd love them! And they love you...inasmuch as they can, considering they've never met you...but they know about you and what a special person you were to all of us. I think of you and miss you every day. XOXO "B

Hey "Al"- "B" here...tried to leave a message for you on your birthday but was having issues with computer compatibility. Seems the universe would prefer that I update my computer and ditch "ol' reliable". Digging my heels in and standing my ground, for now at least. Anyway, regardless of whether I leave a message on here, you KNOW I think of you every day. While I haven't "moved on" I have learned to move forward. Kristel texted me the other night...the kids were asking about how old you'd be if you were still here. I love that you are an integral part of the family to them even though they never met you. You are lovingly remembered and always missed. Happy Belated Birthday. "B

Well, that was crazy!!! My computer and phone have not been letting me get on this site. But..... I finally got through and here I am!!!  Happy Birthday!! I think it's more of a present for me than you that I finally was able to get here!!! Anyway..... Happy heavenly birthday!!!  I really miss you!!!! I don't know if you celebrate there but if you do, I bet it's amazing!! Although I'm sure every day is amazing!! I really want to do something special for your birthday but it's a Tuesday and everyone is working and I'll have to go back to work later. I really miss doing your walk too. That helped me feel more connected I think. I hope we can resume the walks next year. Just know that even if I'm not on here...i am always thinking of you!!! I will NEVER forget you and how very special you are!!!  Luv & miss ya MUCH!!!!! Xoxo. Nanc

11 years...some days it seems an eternity since we were together...other times it doesn't seem possible that you've been gone that long. At this time 11 years ago I was making calls to let family and friends know that your struggles were done and that God had blessed you with a peaceful passing. I clutch that thought like a lifeline when missing you drags me to a dark place. Things could have easily ended with you in a car accident suffering and alone over an embankment in some remote town in Vermont. And so, I take comfort in God's gift of a peaceful passing surrounded by those who loved you so dearly. I remember you every day and talk of you often. I will love and miss you till I, too, breathe my last breath. XOXOXO "B   

Hey girl!! I know it's been a long time since I've written here but you know I think, remember and talk to you every day even though it's not here. It was an emotional werkend!! Uncle Freeman is no longer with us, wherever he is.... sleeping in Christ or with you all already I don't know but you do. So, if he's there... give him a hug from me and Mom. I miss you so much still. At times it is there, in the background but I can deal and other times it still takes my breath away!! Xoxo. I didn't do half of what I wanted to do this summer and camp will be closing soon. Yeah, I'm pretty bummed!! Anyway, I just wanted to hang with you for a while. I hope to get to the cemetery again and beautify it for you, Dad and Freeman!! Luv&miss ya MUCH!!!! Xoxo Nanc

Hey girl, Well, camp has opened!!! and I am so excited!!!  I so wish you were here to enjoy it with me!!! I would love to have us all get together there and have a fire and drinks and just be crazy!! I am hoping now that people have gotten shots and things have opened up, that I can have some cookouts, and just hanging out times there. Well, kids will be here any time now so I have to go but I'll be back soon. Luv & miss ya MUCH!!!! xoxo Nanc

Hey girl, I know I haven't written for a bit but sometimes I just don't know what to say or how to put it into words. But you know I'm always thinking about you!!! Like now, not sure what to say but I needed to be here. So I'm going to listen to your tunes and hang with you for a bit! God I miss you!!!!! Luv ya MUCH!!! xoxo nanc

Hey girl. Happy Easter!!! I often wonder what it's like in Heaven. What do you do? Do you celebrate holidays? Or is every day a celebration?  What ever it's like...whatever you do...I wish I could be and do it with you!!!  I miss you!!! I hope you know, you are never, ever forgotten!!! Xoxoxo Nanc

Hey girl, Another week begins!! Only about 40 more days until camp opens. I can't wait!!! I NEED sunshine and water and some peace!!! I am kind of conflicted about it because I see Mom getting smaller, frailer and more tired. I kind of feel like I'm abandoning her but I need this place and this time for me....I'll just have to visit her more regularly than last year. Sometimes I wonder how long before she's with you and not us anymore. It kills me to see her each day just get less herself but I wouldn't want to not be with her either. See?? I'm a mess!! I just pray she likes life until she's not here anymore. Anyway, enough of that!!! By the way...... I'm still waiting....I really could use a visit!!! Well, I suppose I should go now. I'll be back soon. Luv & miss ya MUCH!!!! xoxo Nanc

Hey, Dar, it's Me, B. I don't write often but think of you always. I had a few moments of quiet and was able to fix Nanni's song. I love it! Hailey and Tyler have grown so much and they each have their own phones now. Tyler helped me select your background scenery and began looking at all the pics in the Gallery while Hailey began reading Your Life and all the Tributes that have been left through the years. They have "known you" since Day 1. They know that you are with God in Heaven watching over us and keeping and caring for all our loved ones who have died...pets as well as people... You are Not Forgotten...ever. XOXO "B

Hey girl. "B" did it!!!!!  This is the song!!! We are going to tweak it a bit and try to get rid of the talking before and after and not so much of a pause before it replays. But this is it!!!!  sorry to say this is exactly how I feel but it is.... I'm kinda a mess!!!! But I love this song and needed to share it with you. Thanks "B"!!!! You DID make me smile and thanks for being there for me!!!!
Xoxo nanc

Hey Dar, nope I didnt forget.... I just couldn't get that song on here for you but "B" said she'd help me. So, I hope to be back soon with the song. It's not peppy but it hits home with me!! Be back soon...in the meantime, just know I'm thinking of you and miss you!! Xoxo nanc

Hey girl, I heard a new song that REALLY hits home right now!!! I'm going to try to upload and share it here a little later. Rough days lately but I'm hanging in there!!! Keep looking out for me, okay.  I'll be back hopefully with that song! Luv & miss ya much!!!! Nanc

Hey girl, Barb and I hung out for a bit today and had a nice walk. We looked through some pictures at Barb's today too.  I love looking at the old pictures and it made me smile to remember all the good times but now as I sit here I am hit with the devastating feeling of your absence. God I miss you!!! I'm So glad the weather is getting better before I totally lost it!! I'm in one of those moods where nothing seems right. I don't know how to get out of this feeling. Anyway, I just wanted to hang with you for a bit. Keep looking out for me, okay? Luv ya & miss ya MUCH!!!! xoxo nanc

Hey girl, just thought I would say hey and hang with you for a bit. It's beautiful out today and it reminds me of the days we would hit the road with music blasting and the windows down. I can't wait to plant something at camp in memory of you and Nan, probably a butterfly bush. And I'm going to try improving my lawn and a vegetable garden. I can't wait!!! I also want to really spruce up yours and Dad's spot!! Lots to do this spring and I'm looking forward to it!! As always.... You are thought of each and every day, even if I don't write. Luv ya and I miss ya MUCH!!!! xoxo Nanc

Hey Dar, I know I haven't chatted here with you for a bit but you know I'm always thinking of you. It was a crazy week with school vacation and I wanted to have something positive to say here. So, I got some time off on Wednesday and it was nice out so I went to camp. It was great being there even if it was to shovel snow. I can't wait to be there again but I will miss Nan!!!  She always had a kind word, a hug and a smile to greet me!! But I'm sure you are enjoying her company. I'm glad!! Tomorrow is March.... So the real countdown will begin!!! Well, I'm going to go to church and then go work and hang with B ....As always, we miss you!! Luv ya!!!! Xoxo nanc

Hey girl, Yup, me again!!! :) I don't really have anything new to say, I just wanted to say Hi and hang with you for a bit before the kids arrive. I think it's going to be a long day!!! I already feel caged and the day hasn't even begun!! Not a good sign. Well, I suppose I should go get ready for the kiddos. I'll chat with you later. xoxo Nanc

Hey girl, Good morning!!!  and. Happy Valentine's Day!!!! Just know you are loved and are never forgotten!!! Oh yeah..... By the way.... I'm still waiting for a vist!!! :)
Xoxo nanc

Hey girl, Well today was a bust!!! I felt like I needed to "feel" you so I drove to the cemetery and was totally bummed that it was all snowed in and I couldn't get to you. I know you are not there but we spent so much time there together cleaning and chatting that I thought I may "feel" you there. So here I am "chatting" with you instead. Thank God for this site!!!  "B" sent me a video of 2 old ladies dancing around in their kitchen and singing into a wooden spoon and it made me laugh and cry. I laughed because I remember the times we actually did that to Jumping Jack Flash and many other songs and it made me cry because we can't do it again. God, I'm a mess!! BLAH!!! Sorry, I'll be fine...I just really miss you!! So, if you could come visit that would be awesome!!!!! Keep looking out for me, okay? luv & miss ya MUCH Nanc

Hey girl, It's Friday.....Thank God!! I hate that I feel like I'm just counting off the days instead of looking forward to them and enjoying them. This winter has really been hard!! But it's February so I'm going to make it!! :) Well, I guess I should go make muffins for the kids for breakfast. They're going to be wound up today because of Valentines Day. Ugh!!!  Wish me luck!! :) I'll be back!!! Luv & miss ya MUCH!!! xoxo Nanc

Hey girl, it's friday!!!!!  This week was much better than last week and i've noticed it's not as dark when I get done work!!! I have to notice and remind myself of these things to keep me going. It's about 90 more days until my happy place opens!!! Not that I'm counting or anything!!! :) ;)  I can't wait to be out in the open, around people, water, sunshine!!!! This has been a really hard winter with missing you and the isolation! But, I'm going to make it...hopefully with a smile still in place!!! Well, I should go now. I'll be back..... Luv & miss ya MUCH!!! xoxo nanc

Good morning!!! I was going to come visit you last week but it was the week from HELL and I wanted to wait until I could visit with a better attitude. So, I survived last week and although it was a lot to deal with, yes, it could have been worse!! See?? Better attitude!! :) I hate coming to visit and just complaining but I guess that's no surprise to you... you always did have to nudge me through the winter. Anyway.... I'm here all day with the kiddos...snow day!!! So, I suppose I should go but I'll come back later and listen to tunes with you and chat. I hope you know how very much you are missed!!! xoxoxo nanc 

Hey girl, It was a rough day today!!! Still January and I feel like i'm going to go crazy!!! I just keep telling myself I can make it through this winter!! I don't want to sit here and complain so I'm just going to enjoy "being with you" and listen to some tunes. God I miss you!!!!!  Thinking of you always!!!! xoxo nanc

Hey girl, Just wanted to say Hi. Not much time this morning..... I have a kid that shows up at the dot of 6:30. So much for my alone time here. Anyway, just needed to hang with you for a minute! Gotta go get ready for my kiddo, I'll be back!! Xoxo nanc

Hey girl, yup!! Me again!! Just need to hang with you for a bit. Getting ready for church and that's not even the same anymore!! Ugh!!! This is such a crazy place now. I know a lot of how I'm feeling is probably the winter blues ...  I NEED sunshine and water!!! And a visit from you!!!! I'm doing the count down to camp opening!!! I know I shouldn't wish away the days but you know how I hate winter. Anyway, just wanted to pop in and visit. Love & miss ya SO MUCH!!! XOXO nanc

Hey Dar, nothing new here really just needed to say hi and "be" with you for a bit. Some days the hole you left in my life and heart when you left are sooo big and consuming that I struggle to get through the day other times I can think of you and talk about you and smile. Yeah, I know, I sound like a crazy person but we knew that already, right!! :)  I miss you!!!! Keep looking out for me, I need it!!  Luv& miss ya MUCH. Xoxo nanc

Hey girl, yup, me again!! Dear God, this is going to be a loooong winter!!!! I already feel like a caged animal and it hasn't really even begun!! Thank goodness I have here to come to or I think I might lose it!! You remember how I was in the winter, right?? Well, add in Covid!!!! Yeah, things are not going to go well!! Sorry for the rant!! Just need to sit here and be with you for a while, okay?  Keep looking out for me, okay? I miss you so much!!!! Xoxo nanc

Hey girl, Happy New Year!!! Not much to say right now except .....  I miss you!!! Just needed to hang with you for a bit and let you know... You are not forgotten!!! 
xoxo  nanc

Hey girl, well you have another person to greet ..... Uncle Harold must be so happy to be with Jesus!!  Had a good day today looking for thrift store clothes that reminded me of you. B and I found a few things, we were thinking of you as we shopped. You are missed more than you could even have imagined!! Still hoping you'll visit me!!! Hint. Hint!!! Luv & miss ya MUCH xoxo nanc

Merry Christmas Dar.  Thinking of you and your whole family.  It’s hard for them to move on without their ‘glue’. But they are doing a great job in your honor. Always, Mrs B. 

Merry Christmas, Dar! Oh how I miss our old tradition of hanging out at your place Christmas Eve... So much has changed...you're gone, the kids have grown, relationships are fractured, COVID threatens every get together...the list goes on and on. One thing that has not changed and never will change is that each and every day I have "our moment" when I don my Dar necklace and Dar ring. No matter how busy I am or what distractions are around me, that is my one constant. And now you have become our Keeper of Souls Passed, a one man Welcoming Committee...I have no doubt you fill that role completely. Keep our Tuck Man close, we weren't ready to let him go quite yet. Give Dad a hug for me, too, it seems I've been missing him more lately than usual. XOXO "B

Hey girl, MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!! Missing you, as always!!! I sit here and think that we are all scattered to the winds and can't connect because of this damn virus but I believe that if you were here you would somehow find a way to get us back together!!! You definitely had a way of getting things done!! We try to keep in contact by text or email but it's not the same!! Anyway, I just wanted to spend some time with you and to wish you a very Merry Christmas!!! Give Dad and Nan a hug for me okay? I'll be back later... Luv and miss ya MUCH!!!! Xoxo nanc

Good morning!!!! Sitting here waiting for the kids to arrive and I just needed to be with you for a bit. I really don't know what to say but I just needed to be here with you and listen to your tunes! :)  It's definitely not as good as a phone call from you...which I miss terribly... but its a piece of you and I need that this morning!!! I guess I should get ready for the kids. Luv & miss ya MUCH!!!!! soooo much!! xoxo nanc

Hey Dar, God I miss you!!! I'd love to be able to chat with you again. Things are just so crazy and I feel so unsettled. I don't know how to deal with things, what I would give to hear your opinion on things.  My heart hurts with this missing piece that is yours!!! I bet you've met my friend Nanette. Isn't she wonderful??? Give her a hug for me okay?  I really would like a visit!!! I just need to see you again and hear your voice!!! I miss you terribly!!! Luv & miss ya MUCH!!!! XOXO nanc

Hey girl, Happy day after Thanksgiving!!!  I had a nice day with Jess, Matt and the kids but I thought of you often throughout the day. I am thankful for all I have but oh .... What I would give to chat with you again...to hear your stories, laugh, sass and well...evetything!!! I miss you!!! Luv & miss ya MUCH xoxo nanc

Hi mom, HAPPY belated BIRTHDAY! It’s not really belated because I celebrated you privately this year. I needed the day to think about you alone... besides, i do have the Neilsen genetics of belated birthday wishes, so, in that sense, I am on point. That’s the theme of 2020, alone, in many senses of the word... I think you’d find this year to be your best year! The amount of people you’d have the opportunity to say “bite me” to is astronomical and the number of people you could “set straight” would be legendary. I miss you daily, think of you daily, miss you daily and love you always! ❤️ your dolly

Hey girl, HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!  I spent time yesterday remembering you by doing yard work like we used to and listening to your music. It was nice!!! Then went and got a piece of cake that "B" made....yup, German chocolate!!  we miss you and we REALLY missed holding your walk this year but even though things didn't turn out like we wanted..doing your walk and the gown gala....you were and always are remembered!!!! Things just aren't the same without you though!!! Luv & miss ya MUCH!!!! XOXO nanc

Hey Dar! Happy Birthday! I made you a cake yesterday...with the coconut pecan frosting but, of course, just like the 10th anniversary of your passing, the celebration wasn't anything like I had hoped or envisioned. I know that you know what's in my heart and that I think of you each and every day. There is some sad shit going on right now and I often reflect on how you would deal with it...or not (haha!) I'm doing my best to keep the promise I made to you and will continue to keep your spirit alive. Wish you were here. God, I miss you. XOXO "B

Dear Darlene,,
Your mom (my sister) is coming over to visit Uncle Freeman and me tomorrow. SO much has transpired since you left ten years ago. But we don't forget your special uniqueness and care for ALL your family members, from the youngest to the oldest!  We are so thankful for the hope of reuniting with you when Christ Returns.
                          Lots of love, Aunt Pauline XO

Hey girl!! Remembering you, as always!!! Today, this year is a tough one for many reasons. First off...10 years!!!!!! Also, Usually we're so busy preparing and getting ready for your walk that I don't have the time to feel the total loss and loneliness of your absense. Today...that is all I feel!! I am going to try real hard to honor you with joy and good memories, not sadness.... I could use some help ....wanna send me happy vibes? I'll be back later, okay?? Luv & miss ya MUCH!!! XOXO nanc

10 years! 10 years of missing you, 10 years of not being able to hug you, 10 years of not being able to hear your voice, 10 years of unimaginable unfathomable unpredictable change, 10 years without YOU. Undoubtedly the worst 10 years of my life with only a few glimmers of happiness and good times that were still less spectacular because I couldn’t share them with you. I was a full person while you were here and now that you’re gone, I’m just less. I’m less without you, I know it and feel it every day and with each passing year I empty out further. Earthly circumstances are surely helping this along, as I’m sure you can see from up there.
I love you mom, I wish there was some more profound way to express it but there isn’t and it’s really very simple, I’m just a kids who loves and misses her mom, today and everyday.

Hey Girl, it's me, "B". This is the weekend that changed all our lives 10 years ago. I wish I had some profound message to leave you today, but I have none at the moment. Rest assured that even though I have learned to live on and don't frequent this page as much as I used to, there hasn't been a single day since you passed that I have not thought of you. I remember you fondly, pass along your legacy to anyone who will hear, and try each day to keep my promises to you. So much has changed since you passed...in the family...in the world...some exciting and some unsettling. Nanni and I often comment on what you would think of all this and that...we seem to always be on the same page. No official Memorial Walk this year and certainly we won't be pulling off the grand Get Yer Gown Out Gala as we had hoped. None of that really matters in the long run because the bottom line is that I still love you, I still miss you... no event and no amount of time will change that. You were my BFF ~ my sidekick since Day One, and I will honor that for as long as I live. XOXO "B

Hey girl, I think about you always!!! I was floating around and swimming yesterday and I kept playing back in my head ALL the times at your pool. What fun we had!!!!! I miss you!!!!!  I don't know what is happening with your walk this year but trust me......I WILL WALK FOR YOU!!!!! Even if we can't have a public one...ill be walking and i'll get a shirt made, I CANNOT let a year pass where you are not honored!!! I'm thinking I may go to the cemetery today and check things out. Just wanted to say Hi and hang with you for a bit. And to remind you that you are NOT forgotten!!!!  I luv & miss ya MUCH!!!! XOXOXO Nanc

Hey Dar, what can I say??? I miss you more than I can express!! I miss Dad too!!! I'm glad you guys are together!!  it is so crazy down here, I don't know if you can see, watch, whatever.... But it's not good here!!! I can't figure people out!! I guess that's why I stick to my own little world. Anyway, I needed to come here and say Hi to you and say Happy Birthday to Dad. You have to know that you are always remembered and missed and never will you be forgotten!!! Xoxo Nanc

Happy Mothers Day, mom ❤️ I love you and think about you all the time, especially lately with everything going on. I wish you were here with me to talk to and get a hug from. I’ve needed it so much in the last year. I realize now that I fractured when you died; each day, month, and year, since has just caused that break to get bigger and widen and now I feel completely broken. I’m not the same without you. Sending you love and hugs and kisses from hell on earth.

Hey girl, Happy Easter!! I wrote to you yesterday but apparently it didn't go through. I can only imagine the celebration that goes on in Heaven!! Definitely a different kind of Easter here but the reason for the day was the same even if the day itself was different. Just wanted to pop in and say Hi and I luv & miss ya MUCH!!!! XOXOXO Nanc

Hey girl, just wanted to say Hi and hang with you for a while. It's really weird around here. Streets are bare, no school, no work, no gatherings, it's crazy weird!! I can just imagine what kind of jokes and sassy comments you would come up with to lighten the mood. Haha, I can only imagine!! Thank God for "B" or I would go crazy and I'd be 200 pounds by now with another month to go!!  we miss you!!!!! Like CRAZY!!!! keep lookin out for us!!! Luv & miss ya MUCH!!! XOXOXO nanc

Hey girl, sometimes I still can't believe what's happening here. It's so crazy!!! I am trying to find the peace and purpose in all this. Some days I can see a lot of good coming out of all this chaos and other times I see people losing their lives and it's just so sad!!! I just needed to sit here with you for a bit!!! I luv and miss ya much!!!! Xoxo nanc

Oh man!!! I wonder.... Can you see us all down here? We are in crazy times right now!!! My heart hurts for you!!!! I would love to hear your voice . .. telling a joke and just being you!!! I miss you and all your sassy attitude!!!  I just know you would scoop us all up and take charge. Please keep looking out for us!!! Luv and miss ya MUCH!!!! XOXOXO nanc