dave, 6 years ago today you left. I still remember it like it was yesterday. and this year thunder by the river is also today. not good memories. you are so missed and still so loved. be happy in heaven and know that I love you then and I love you still.

Happy birthday Dave!!! Have a good one up there in Heaven with everyone!!

merry Christmas dave. another holiday has come and you are not here. I really miss the holidays together. I sit here by myself and thinking of you and missing our time together, bumpy as it was at times. but everyone has bumps in the road. I miss you dave and I hope your Christmas with your family in heaven is good, I'm sure it will be. oh how I wish I could just see you one more time and talk to you. I will always love you and miss you. forever until I get to see you again in heaven, I still see your truck and wait for a text or a honk as you pass mcdonalds, I even told Sabrina to tell dean to have the man driving your truck honk as he passes mcdonalds so It would be like you are still here. I miss the house in wisner so much. I drive by it a lot and wish I still lived there even though it is a huge house and way to big for just one person. I hope you are still doing karaoke in heaven with the friends who have joined you there. I'm sure you are. I love you dave as much now as when you were still here. I miss you everyday. I could probably sit here all day and tell you things that's going on and gossip and such like we always did, but I will let you go and enjoy your Christmas with your family and the angels. merry Christmas dave. I love you and miss you every day.

hello dave, its 3 years now since you went to heaven and I still remember it just like it was that day all over again. just the other day the wisner ambulance went past me and I had a flashback that was so real it was spooky. I thought time would ease the pain but it doesn't. I may go on living but the pain and the hurt is still the same. I miss you so very much. I see your truck go by and I wait for you to honk or to text like you always did but it never comes. I cant believe its been 3 years already. I'm sure by now you've got to meet up with david since he passed and I bet you two are having one hell of a chat. I can only imagine, no details on here needed, you know what I'm talking about. I will always love you dave, always. I wish things were different and I really wish I would have went before you or we went together, we both always said we didn't want to die alone and now I will die alone. why couldn't you have waited til god wanted me too. its so not fair. thunder by the river is this weekend and I still have not went back and I wont this year either. Jeremy asked if I was going and I said no, he says dave would want you to go. to some I may come off as a cold hearted bitch but believe it or not I have feelings and I hurt and feel pain just like everyone else does. losing you caused me a lot of pain and we were really getting along and coming together and seeing things differently and then that horrible day came and you were gone. it hurts and it always will. I often wish I would have sat with you just a little longer. I have regrets on why didn't I make you go to dr sooner. you said you would on Monday and you never made it to Monday. there is so much you have missed and are missing it really makes me sad that you don't get to see all the grandkids grow up. jude was your first and you would be so proud of him. I know you would. then you have gunnar and lorelie, ive never met gunnar so I cant say much about him but lorelie she is just adorable, she has the cutest curly hair and beautiful eyes. you would love her to death, no pun intended. Jeremy and jess had a baby girl and named her ivalee , she too is beautiful. she is such a good and happy baby. alexis is so big now you wouldn't believe it and Dominick getting so big as well and playing football. they are divorced now, which is sad but that a long story in itself. but beings that you are above us all now watching I'm sure you already know what is going on down here. I could probably sit here for a very long time cuz It makes me feel like I am actually sitting with you and talking, I miss that, and the gossip that we both shared, lol, that was always fun, just know that you are so very missed each and every day and I think about you constantly. I loved you then and I love you now dave. you will forever be in my heart. now and always. so I will go for now and end with I miss you so much. I love you dave.

hello, let me first say happy fathers day. you gained another friend last week, maybe you have seen him by now. david sadly came to join you last week. i felt bad for all of them. i seen kayla and she really looked so sad. i really felt bad for her . 2 in three years is alot for anyone to handle and the poor babies, jude and lorelie lose another grandpa. very sad day once again. hope you have a great fathers day there in heaven and i still think about you every day and just the other night i had a nightmare of that dreadful night. i get them all the time. i talk about you every chance i get. i still miss you so much, i will always miss you and love you dave. nothing will ever change that. yep still single, shocker i know, lol. that way i will remain, you were my heart and you meant the world to me. you will forever be loved and missed by me. til next time dave, have a fabulous day. i love you dave and miss you all the time.

Happy Birthday Dave!!!!! the big 60 you are today. i sit here having my normal breakdown cuz i miss you so much. missing talking to you everyday and missing when your truck drives by mcdonalds waiting for you to honk, i still say there goes dave every time your truck goes by me no matter where i am. the memories are still so fresh in my mind, the day i lost you will always be fresh in my mind. i still have flashbacks. anyways today is your birthday, i want you to have the best birthday possible. you are 60 today, wow. so do your kareoke with your family and friends you have in heaven. sing your heart out. just always know that you are forever missed. not a day goes by that i dont think of you. i will always love you and miss you. i went to kareoke this month and i got up and sang a few songs, i think you would be proud. oh no i wasnt great, i did pontoon with tim and thats always fun. something that you would have done cuz i know you liked that song. you mean the world to me dave and i wishing you the best and biggest 60th birthday up there in heaven. i love you dave today and everyday. so enjoy your birthday and i will talk again soon. i love and miss you every day.

Happy birthday Davey!!! You are missed!!

happy valentines day dave. hope you are having a good one. i am home today, no work, which sometimes i wish i did so i didnt have to sit here and think and be lonely. at least work distracts me. so much going on that some i wont type cuz im sure you are watching and already know bout it. but just wanted to let you know that im thinking about you on valentines day and that i miss you. i love you dave. have a great day and ill see you soon. love and miss you always.

merry christmas dave and happy new year. another year almost over and let me start with how much i miss you still. been over 2 years and the missing and thinking of you never goes away. ill be driving down the highway and i still have flashbacks of that dreadful night. like it was just yesterday. i hate that. but i can tell you that night will live with me for as long as i live. i was devastated and so sad, i didnt want you to leave this world. i love you dave and that will never change and i miss you so much. this christmas was ok, but not like christmas used to be. it seems they just get worse as the years go by, and i loved christmas, it was my holiday like halloween was yours. but its just not the same anymore. i do sometimes wish my life was over so i dont worry so much about the kids, grandkids and all the people we love. everything is just so different. i heard a song today on facebook i wish i could put on here but i dont know how. it was so good. i know you are singing with the angels cuz i know how much you loved to sing and do kareoke. i hope they have kareoke in heaven cuz i know you are in line doing all the songs you liked to sing and new ones too. tonight is kareoke in dodge at the bowling alley. she dont have it much anymore, since the tornado hit pilger. sad but true. its new years eve and as usual i have to work but thats ok, tonight is the one night i dont mind. my legs are giving me alot of pain and it gets so bad that by the end of my work day i can hardly walk. there are times i leave work and just cry cuz im in that much pain. i went for help and they dont seem to want to help me so i struggle with it. but you know me i can push through alot of shit. almost at my breaking point tho. i see dean every once in a while and he talks to me and i thank god for that. havent see tom or helen in a while but they too ask how im doing when i do see them. you are still missed by everyone, you are so loved and such a good person and at times we lost sight of that in each other. but we were doing so much better and then you had to leave. i am grateful to god tho that i got to be with you in your last moments. i thank him for that. i got to hear those last words from you lips. i do miss you everyday dave and i miss you for the rest of my life. i know we will see each other again and until then i will go on talking to you thru this forever missed. i love you dave and enjoy your new year singing and watching over the kareoke in dodge. til next time, happy new year dave. love and kisses. kelly

another thanksgiving come and gone and you are still missed and thought about every day. i hope yours was a good one. i feel so lonely. sad alot of the time, especially when i sit home alone. i added another picture for you. that one is jeremy and jessicas baby they had october 10th. theres alot i want to say but since this is public i wont. but i think you know already cuz i talk out loud alot and i know you hear me. there was a bad accident in wisner thanksgiving morning one car and a 19 year old from stanton. he will be joining you soon. so sad they are all leaving so soon. i sometimes think why am i still here and the young ones all go. sometimes i dont understand it. its said that we all have a purpose here on earth but honestly dave i sometimes wonder what mine is. i dont know. but truth is and always will be, that i think of you daily, and i miss you so much. even though its been 2 years, which i cant believe how fast that went, the hurt is still there and the missing you is still the same. i guess i put on a good front when im not alone but it all comes out when i sit at home. i really wish you were here. i really believed that i would go before you, you were always stronger than i was, you deal with things so much differently than i do. i will say i am becoming you when it comes to naps. i do them alot now and i dont understand why. has to be that part of you rubbed off on me when it comes to that. lol. please never think that you are not still loved or missed cuz you are by me daily. i will forever love you and miss you and you will forever be in my heart. so i will sign off now til next time. i love you dave now and always. forever missed.

hello my love, today is 2 years since you went to heaven, and let me tell you it still feels like yesterday. i still have flashbacks of that awful night, i cant seem to shake them. ill be driving down the street and they just pop in my head, so many songs bring them back. i doubt they will ever go away. i keep telling myself, what could i have done different so the outcome could have been different, i honestly thought i would go first, i really did. not a day goes by that i dont think about you and miss you so much. jeremy wanted me to go to thunder by the river this year, but i still cant bring myself to go. maybe some day but i doubt that. my back is messed up, got some disc issues, they want me to have a mri to see exactly what is going on, then pilger was lost in the tornadoes, so devastating. oh lisa's dad, red, you knew him, he was in a accident while at work and it killed him. more sad news, i guess a student driver turned in front of him, he was loaded too from what i understand. lisa was crushed as was i from your passing. the nurse at the drs office asked me if i remarried, im like no. it was nicoles mom, she said she didnt know my name has always been martinez. then she asked me how long ago, i said 2 years on monday. this was thursday, friday. jude and lorelie came in to mcdonalds on their way to the fair, you would be so proud of him, he is so smart. you could sit and hold a conversation with him, unless of course he got side tracked. hes getting so big. lorelie is just the cutest thing. got the curliest hair, just beautiful. jeremy and jessica are having a girl in october. cant wait to meet her. they are naming her ivalee faith. its growing on me. at first i wasnt to keen on the ivalee part, but its growing on me. havent talked to jr or jackie in quite some time. my fault. i wish i was more outgoing like you were. i mainly just keep to myself and stay home. i still talk to maryjo alot. shes been such a lifesaver in my life. thank god for her. she has helped me alot thru all of this. i havent seen or talked to the boys either. i guess les is living in fremont and was on disability but then rumor has it that he lost it, so i dont know from there. jesse and angel live in wisner with gunnar. dont know much more about them. kayla and abe and kids live with julie in uehling. of course the kids too. abe made manager at mcdonalds. sure is different from years past. good changes too. i think you would be proud of him. i am. boy i miss you so much. smoky just sitting here next to me, as usual, by my side. the other day he decided he was going to take himself for a walk and went to the church on the beemer/lyons road, you know the one, im sure. little brat. i see your truck alot, your boom truck, you know the one you always wanted, lol. im just kidding. you would hate it. i know. every time i see it i wait for it to honk but it doesnt and i get sad. i will always love you dave. as long as im living i will love you and miss you every single day. i have memories, some good, some bad but they are mine and i will never forget the years we had together and i wish we could have more. so i will leave you with this news for now and i will talk to you again soon, im sure. i love you dave and i miss you so much.

hello dave, happy 4th of july. i hope you enjoyed the fireworks up there, i bet they were beautiful. i was going to go to the ones in westpoint but the baby smoky didnt like the noise, you know how he is. so i came home to be with him, i tried to sit outside and watch some in town here, but of course he got nervous so we came inside. but its ok. i dont know what i would do without him, i would miss him as much as i miss you. i do you know, miss you so very much. im sure you heard or seen by now the devastation that pilger suffered. i havent drove down to see it in person, but diane has taken several pictures, so ive seen it thru her eyes. so many people lost everything, i feel so badly for them. volunteers go everyday to help, and i know you would of been there every chance you could have. from what i understand the bar will not be reopened, and i really havent heard how much damage was done to marys house, but from what i hear lindas is ok. but charlene was in the coop when it all happened. there was 1 death of a 5 year old little girl in the devastation. and another in a car i believe. i have not ever in all my years seen a tornado that big, double at that too. it was huge. also look for lucky up there, he has also passed. im sorry to say. that story i will save for another day, tho not a very good one. so now you have shorty and lucky with you again, i do miss you every single day dave. i still have flashbacks of that night, like it was yesterday and its been almost 2 years. i cant believe how time has flown by. it really still feels like yesterday. well i will let you go for now and i will talk to you again soon. i love you dave and miss you every one of them.

oh one more thing, i forgot to tell you i added some pictures of jude and lorelie on here for you to see. they too are getting so big. enjoy them. love you dave always.

hello dave. happy fathers day to you. i hope you are having a great one with your dad and your brothers. i spent the whole day cleaning and sanitizing. it was fun. lol. i still miss you every single day and i think about you constantly. i still have the flashbacks of that night. to be honest i could do without those, not that i will ever, ever forget that night. no way i could. i also miss the house. yes it was a huge house and way to big for one person but i really do miss it. i drive by sometimes just to see it, i did the other day and i believe mexicans bought the house. also bad news, lucky has passed on, maybe you have seen him by now. i dont know all the details, but i know she was pregnant and they got ignored, i wish she would have called me or something, i would have went and got him til she could be home again. very sad. but im sure you are with him and shorty. i bet shorty is loving seeing you again, lucky too. not too sure about max, kayla and abe took him after you passed but couldnt handle him so they gave him to the pound. so i dont know what came of him. i will tell you that izzy is very happy where she is, i got a letter from the lady to let me know that izzy is doing great and shes even been to new york a couple times. romeo is on the farm and i bet he is loving that, he really needed that, but you know how he liked to run. i really wish i could see your face again, i miss you so very much. i just want to sit and talk to you and see you and do things with you. i love you dave and i always will. have a great fathers day and always remember and know i think of you always and miss you so much. i love you dave, til next time.

hello again, i just wanted to wish you a very happy birthday dave. i also wanted to let you know that you are so missed by all. everyone remembers you, you left such an impression on people, which is a good thing. abe is back working at mcdonalds again, which is good, he always did a good job. the kids cute and honory as hell, which im sure you would love. they are adorable. loralies eyes are gorgeous. jude is getting so big, talking like a grown up, its so cute. but im sure you see all that as you are looking down on them. jesse and angels baby i havent seen but in pictures, he also is very cute. i so miss you every single day. i also still see that day in my mind like it was yesterday. that part i wish would go away. but one thing that will never change is the love i have for you. i will always love you and miss you each and every day. i added a couple songs on here for you. probably not the choice you would make, lol. i really do miss talking to you each and every day. maryjo has a party coming up for her birthday. i know how you loved going to those parties. i wish i could say that i would drink for you, well i can say it, but in all honesty i probably wont do it, i dont know why. the last i heard about les is that he is living in fremont and sorry thats all i know. but im sure you are looking down on all of them. i hope you are having a great 59th birthday dave. i love you and miss you so much. til we talk again always know that you are in my thoughts each and every day and will be til the end of my life. i love you dave.

happy easter dave, yep im a couple days late i guess. sorry. i spent the day at jeremy and jessicas and then went over to kari and adams for a bit. came home and sat and did nothing. it was fun. hope yours was good, im sure it was you were also with family. jeremy and jessica are having a baby now. due in october. kind of exciting. last week kayla and abe moved back from missouri and brought jude and lorelie to see me. you would be so amazed at jude, getting so big, talks like a champ. so cute both of them. lorelie just so happy all the time, always smiling, so i bet even your bold approach wouldnt make her cry, remember how jude used to cry when you first got there. but he got over that. she is such a happy baby. so cute and the hair, wow, she has lots of it. you have a birthday coming up on monday. i think about you daily, i have even though its almost 2 years, which i cant believe. time has gone by so fast. i loved you then and i love you now dave, nothing can ever change that. i miss you so very much. i will stop here and talk to you again on monday. i love and miss you dave.

hello dave, still thinking of you and so missed and so loved. wanted to let you know that you became a grandpa again, this one is a boy from jesse and angel, they named it gunner davey smith, very thoughtful to name it after you. no i dont talk much to any of them but you know small towns, word gets around. but i do keep up, try to anyways. time sure is going by so fast since you went to heaven with your other family. but you are always thought of here, by me and so many others. i still miss you so much. i also still have flashbacks from that night like its happening all over again. i dont know if those will ever go away, but your memory will live with me for the rest of my days, no matter how many of those are left. i love you dave and miss you terribly. so til next time . love always kelly

hello dave, happy valentines day. I know you got some chocolate there in heaven. I got the neatest letter on Saturday. the place that took izzy and romeo in wayne, the lady that was there to pick them up that day kept izzy, she had her groomed which was a complete shave but she was still cute, she also said that izzy was the most well behaved chow she had seen and as you know she was. anyways Saturday she sent me a thank you letter for giving her izzy, she sent the letter cuz she knew how hard it was for me to watch them go. she was going to put them in the car and izzy just turned and looked at me and wouldn't get in the car, I felt so bad, I had to walk over and help her get in the car. she also sent me a picture of izzy now and she looks so good, they are taking such good care of her, shes been to new York a couple times. I was so glad to see that. I don't know exactly who took romeo but jenny told me that he went to a farm, which is really good cuz that is what he needed as much as he liked to run. im so glad they are happy. so I hope that was a good valentine gift for you this year dave. I still miss you so much, I love you dave and happy valentines day.

merry Christmas dave. things just aren't the same without you here. I miss you so much. when I need someone to talk theres nobody there. I don't know if things will ever be the same again. I try but I still have such bad days sometimes. holidays will never be the same. nothing will and I miss that so much. spending time alone cuz everyone has other families they have to spend time with as well. I want to wish you a merry Christmas for you and your family that you are spending it with. I love you dave now and always.

hello honey, I just wanted to wish you a very happy thanksgiving, the holidays just aren't the same with you not here. I miss you so much. I talk about you all the time and I think about you constantly. I think back on the memories we had and the past holidays we had together. I still have flashbacks of that night, I wish those would go away. they come at random times so suddenly. nothing could ever make me stop thinking of you. I love you and miss you everyday.

i put some new pics of jude here for you. and kayla had the baby. she named it lorelie jo. very nice isn't it? I put some pictures of her too so you can see your new granddaughter. she is so cute. I get to see her in person today. they are coming to visit. great news huh. I guess larry's cancer is back and he wants to see the kids. but I get to see them too. excited. love you dave . missya

oh yea to let you know that kayla will be having her baby girl on the 7th. will post some pics to this site later so you can see your new granddaughter lorelie, pretty name huh. they have moved back to Missouri, cuz of you know who, im sure you've been watching. stupid shit, huh. will let you know more later, love you and miss the shit out of you.

hello dave, well Halloween has come and gone and I really missed seeing what kind of crazy costume you and tim would come up with this year. I think my favorite is the ugly hooker year, boy you guys were ugly. but it was fun. boy do I miss you. sitting alone really sucks. but I give thanks to tim and maryjo. they have been great. especially maryjo, she is the best. love you dave.

hey dave, just a note for you. missing you always, last week on my break had this overwhelming urge to text you. still wait and hope for you to come in the door. just wanted to let you know that I still think about you daily and miss you even more,. I love you dave.

just sitting here bored so got on computer and seen this thing a man with his wife 75 years and she passed, he wrote a song for her. so beautiful. that's a long time and we didn't have 75 years but I miss you so much, miss the talking and just someone to sit at home with. I had to give up the house, im so sorry,. but I have all the memories. always in my heart dave. I miss and love you.

its been a year ago today that we lost you dave, I miss you so very much, I feel like it was just yesterday. there isn't one moment of that day that I don't remember or have flashbacks about. this is also the weekend of thunder by the river again. bad memories, but good ones too. I lost you and I miss that, the talks we had, the arguments, the good and bad. I miss you so much. rip dave.

cont:   dad and brothers and friends. things will never be the same here without you. your roses are beautiful. i took a picture of them for you. 2 of the rose bushes you planted last year are blooming too. you would love them. you loved your roses. i miss you so much dave. i love you and you will be forever in my heart. happy fathers day, i am thinking about you always. l love you dave.

hello dave, Happy Fathers Day Dave. today is fathers day and i no we would be preparing for a bbq, cuz that is what you liked to do. and you would wait to hear from your kids to wish you a happy fathers day. i remember most everything and i miss you and everything we did together and just talking to you, although i still do that, i hope you hear me. have a great day spending it with your

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Hello Dave today is your birthday and I wanted to wish you a very
Happy 58th birthday !!!!! I listened to you sing kareoke today.
I found some cd's of you from Pilger, roadhouse, and coach mans, that
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hello dave, just sitting here thinking about you, as i do every single day. but i just wanted to let you know that im thinking about you and missing you so much. i wish that you could be here and make things better. i love you dave and miss you so much. just wanted to let you know.

hello dave. today is easter so i wanted to wish you a happy easter as always. and to make sure you got your easter chocolate, which i know how you love your chocolate. last night was tims 60th birthday party, which you would have fun at, singing and being with friends. it was fun, i went for you, course i didnt sing for you but i had fun. have a great easter, i love and miss you so much.

i miss you so much everyday. i still wait for you to come in the door. daryl bruning passed this past week. so you will be seeing him soon. you are as much in my heart now as ever. it will be 8 months tomorrow and to me it feels like yesterday. i relive that day often. i see it in my head all the time. i love and miss you so much dave.

hello dave, its st patricks day today, time for corned beef. wisner had the usual parade and stuff yesterday. i didnt go cuz i was to much of a wimp to sit in the cold, but jude, kayla and abe went, they came by yesterday. hes getting so big and talking so much. still chunky but so cute. you would be so proud granda. you will be happy to know they have another one coming nov 4. i love you.

continued --anyway-davey we miss you alot- and we know your watching over us--

well davey - its been 7 months & it aint getting any easier for us -big tim, - jr.(as you called timmy ) or me. we still look 4 u at karaoke-just not the same. big tim still hasnt sang the toby keith song -i'm not as good as i once was --cuz that was you & his song- but we are trying hard to move on. big tim wears your work jacket & jr has your cover-alls . he said your laughing at him em.

Happy Valentines Day Dave. I wanted to go and buy you the box of chocolates as i did every year. It was a lonely day for me. I miss you so much. Every day i wish that you were here. This being alone sucks and I want you back. Theres so much i could use your help with. I love you Dave and i miss you so much.

Happy New Year Dave. Its no 2013 and i dont know whats in store for the new year but i sure hope its a lot better than the last one. I wish you were here to bring in the new year together but in my heart and my head we are together and i hope this year brings good luck and fortune to us both. I love you Dave and i miss you every day.

Merry Christmas Dave. I love you and miss you every day. This christmas just isnt the same without you here. I hope you spending christmas with your family that you lost. MERRY CHRISTMAS TO YOU DAVE. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU SO VERY MUCH.

Happy Thanksgiving Dave!!!!. the holiday season is here and its the first one without you. so lonely without you. i miss you and i love you.

Life just isnt the same without you here. i miss you Dave so very much and when it comes to dealing with some situations i look for your guidance and want your opinion. I miss listening and watching you sing at kareoke. I just miss you all the time. I still have my conversations with you and wait for your answers. Dave i miss you so very much!!!. I Love You Dave. always.

i miss you dave, i still wait for the texts everyday and i wait for you to come in the door every night. i cant seem to grasp the fact that you arent coming back. you are in my thoughts every day. i hope you hear me when i talk to you. i love you dave and miss you so very much.

It's been one month today since you went to heaven, and i miss you and still wish you were here. I talk to you everyday just like you were here. I love you Dave and i miss you so very much. Today we would be in Texas visiting Jr and Jackie and i really wish we were. I miss you Dave.

we miss you davey=not the same w/o your morning txts etc. you were a true friend which are hard to comr by

just wanted to let you know that i miss you and love you and think about you every day. i miss our conversations and/or just sitting in the same room with you. i love you dave.

i will miss him everyday. he was so generous with people. he also humored me alot with my crazy ways and ideas. i love him so much. forever in my heart you will be and in my life. god is taking care of you now. i love you dave.

Davey always had a smile on his face and a kind word for everyone that was fortunate enough to cross his path.

Such a sweet amd gentle man taken too soon. Love u davey

I didn't really have the pleasure of knowing Dave that well or unfortunately that long but, I do know that he made Kelly happy & for that I love him. I know he will truly be missed by all who did know him. R.I.P Dave, you are a good man!

You were the best father I could have even ever asked for! I love you and miss you so damn much! It's still just not real, you can't be gone. I will make sure that Jude knows all about his Grandpa! I love you so much Daddy!