Hey there bubba I know it’s been awhile since my last post but things have been crazy Ricky totaled his car been trying to figure out what’s going on with Jim health wise and working I try to watch your kids posts to see how they are doing but they don’t really post a lot but I do know you would be so proud of your boy dylie as he is assistant chief following in your foot steps and looks just like you gives me chills when I look at his pictures and he has a belly just like his dad lol could you do me a favor tell mom I said happy birthday and give her a hug and kiss for me please the days don’t get easier bubba because I miss you like crazy and love ❤️ you all the same could you please continue to watch over us and always remember I love ❤️ and miss you fly high my sweet brother and don’t forget to shine ✨ on ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

Happy Valentine’s Day bubba I know it’s been awhile since my last post but I have had a lot going on I was thinking Jim was cheating again so I was dealing with that so please help me make sure he isn’t I love ❤️ him with all that I have and then we have been helping Michelle Ricky and brittani so been busy there things haven’t been the same as I still feel like yesterday that you passed having a hard time with that a lot of unspoken words and it’s been 10 years and the days are not getting better I know I dwell on the past a lot so help me with that but I was never prepared to deal with you passing as you have always been our protector threw the years and Dylan looks so much like you bro it gives me chills and you would be so proud of him he’s a chief at the firehouse he is so much like you so continue to watch over us all and don’t forget we love ❤️ and miss you terribly spread them wings and fly high my sweet brother and don’t forget to shine ✨ on ❤️❤️❤️❤️

Happy new year bubba things are not the same anymore please watch over us and I live ❤️And miss you terribly fly high my sweet brother and don’t forget to shine ✨ on ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

Merry Christmas bubba always remember I love ❤️ and miss you fly high my sweet brother and don’t forget to shine ✨ on ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

Hey there bubba I know it’s been awhile since my last post but I have been going threw a lot had sinus infection they gave me an antibiotic which caused thrush so I have been dealing with that I hate so please help me get rid of it the holidays aren’t the same anymore but we did get together for dinner and presents at Michelle we all enjoyed the time we were together we all felt the love in the air we laughed and enjoyed each other’s company I seen your kids are doing good jordyn got married I still have trouble accepting that they have you with them now but I know that’s what you would have wanted so please forgive me could you please help me get threw whatever I am going threw I am losing weight which is good but I am a little scared bc that cancer shit scares me so please have everything come back normal well I gotta get things done always remember I love you and miss you terribly give mom,dad,and Eddie a big hug and kiss for me please and don’t forget to fly high my sweet brother and didn’t forget to shine ✨ on ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

Hey there bubba I know it’s been awhile since my last post but a lot has been going on we let off lanterns for the anniversary of my passing we all got together did dinner and let them off and I thought Jim was cheating agAin and he wasn’t so that was driving me crazy we had to get the pool ready for winter ❄️ and my car needed ab alternator,Blake’s truck needs a gear box and Kurt’s car needs oil change brake work and wheel bearing done so been busy with all that but that doesn’t mean I didn’t miss you or speak your name bc I am always thinking how things would be if you were still here Berta don’t talk to us much since mom passed which is ok bc she really never talked to us anyways she blocked me on Facebook and all that bc her and Michelle had words just hurts is all but it will all pass to be honest with you dj I didn’t want your kids to have your ashes bc I felt they didn’t deserve them bc all of what they put you threw but I asked you to let me know it’s ok and you did I know Dylan deserved them the most and dj he looks so much like you if gives me chills down my spine I know he was your baby so I came to terms of letting your ashes go I know I was being selfish but I couldn’t help it jordyn got married and I don’t see much of Tyler on Facebook so I don’t know how he is doing well bubba I have to go for now but I will post again soon I love ❤️ you and miss you bubba fly high my sweet brother and don’t forget to shine ✨ on ❤️❤️❤️❤️

Happy heavenly birthday bubba today you would have been 57 I hope your celebrating with mom ,dad and Eddie as your loved ones here on earth are thinking of you as I always do or even speak your name it still doesn’t seem real to me I love ❤️And miss you so much the family hasn’t been the same since you left and then we lost dad eddie then mom I am always thinking the what if’s sometimes it drives me crazy but I can’t seem to grieve for you the way I am suppose to as my heart was broken there were a lot of unspoken words I truly believe I love you and miss you more then you will ever know I know your watching over all your loved ones please give dad mom and eddie a big hug and kiss for me please well I have to go in and check on Jim he’s having problems injections in his back always remember I love ❤️You and miss you fly high my sweet brother and don’t forget to shine on ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

Hey there bubba I know it’s been awhile since my last post but today marks 10 years you have been gone and it’s not any easier as I am always finding myself looking for you I still play the phone call I got that night it will haunt me forever as you were our protector always looking out for us siblings no matter if we got mad or even you I know your pain free and are happy up in heaven but what about our pain from losing you I know god is the only one with answers I remember eating venison steak with you as you said oh you will like it well it wasn’t to bad I always turned to you when I needed a big bear hug you always made things better when I thought that they couldn’t your smile would light up a room even though we hardly saw it but when we did it would do just that I know your with mom and dad and our brother Eddie could you please give them a hug and kiss from me please just know I still look for signs from you to guide me threw this thing called life I know I have to deal with losing you and accept it but it’s not that easy Dj I am at ease knowing your not sick and are pain free it rained today and I know that was a sign you were with us today and the sun is now shining please continue to watch over us and fly high my sweet brother and don’t forget to shine ✨ on ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

Happy fathers dad Dj jordyn got married and her brothers walked her down the aisle I was so happy when I seen that and always remember I ❤️ and miss you continue to watch over us and don’t forget to shine on

Hey there bubba I know it’s been a little since my last post but things have been hectic I sure hope you celebrated dads birthday yesterday had a few cold ones and having a ball Ricky has skin cancer so I worry about him and his heart isn’t the best I keep telling him to get into dr Grady where we all went and I am not getting anywhere there Michelle had ptsd from finding mon so I have been trying to help her threw stuff and o need counseling and I have a lady to call as to be honest with you I still haven’t dealt with your death bc it’s not fair and I keep saying your away at the bay you will be home soon things haven’t been the same since you left us at a young age it’s just not fair I know your no longer sick but I love ❤️ and miss you I did have an issue with dylie getting your ashes but I know that’s where you would want to be so it’s better now well I have to get back to work now but before I do always remember I love ❤️ and miss you bubba could you give dad ,mom and Eddie a big hug and kiss from me and don’t forget to shine ✨ on bubba ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

Hey there bubba sorry I have posted but wanted to say happy belated Easter we went to rickys for dinner as we always do it was nice to spend time with Ricky and Michelle things have been hectic as I have been going over and setting with aunt Pat and Cheryl as uncle joe passed away as you already know .I still haven’t grieved you bc I can’t seem to accept that your gone it’s hard bc you always protected us younger ones and if I needed a bear hug you were always there to give me one what I wouldn’t give to have one now alot has been going on threw the years and none of it has been good .we found out Ricky has skin cancer and I don’t like that word they have removed 3 and he has two more to go.dylie has your ashes not to happy about that but I know that’s what you would have wanted so I am dealing with it the best way I know how I know I sure do miss you bubba every time I drive by volney fire hall I look at the chicken coop thing on the roof knowing your in there makes me happy bc I know you spent a lot of time there we were raised around that place .Well I am gonna go so I can shower and get things done before bed always remember I love ❤️ you and miss you terribly fly high my sweet brother and don’t forget shine ✨ on

Hey there bubba I know it’s been a little bit since my last post but Jim and Michelle are talking now as they said they were sorry at moms celebration of life so Michelle is buying a trailer and the master bedroom needed a new floor so Jim and I went out and helped them do it and helped Ricky get his truck going and then we found out Ricky has skin cancer not sure the stage suppose to find that out this week I hate that word as we have never had a good outcome from it and the. Dealing with Berta’s bullshit as usual but it’s all good bc I wouldn’t lower myself to argue with her I told her that she will always be my sister and I that I love her and Ricky is back in pennneville fire dept so he hangs with Berta a lot which is fine as firefighting is in our gene all us kids have done it at some point and time I am to old for that shit now lol I am at ease now that dylie has your ashes I was hurt bc I didn’t want to lose you again but I know that’s where you would want them to be with your baby boy well I have to get things done before bed work in the am always remember I love ❤️ and miss you don’t forget to shine ✨ on and fly high my sweet brother

Hey there bubba sorry it’s been awhile since my last post but have had alot going on helping Michelle move and Ricky fix his truck as he is back to work enjoys it drives dump truck and he is back in penneville fire dept with our sister I need to ask a favor watch over our brother Ricky a little closer as he had a sore that wouldn’t heal so he went to the drs and they are gonna do a biopsy dr thinks it maybe skin cancer boy we can’t seem to stay away from that horrible disease and as you know your kids have you with them now I was a little upset about it but I know that’s where you would want to be so I am ok with that just having a little hard time but I will get threw it well bubba I am at work I will post again soon could you please give mom ,dad,and Eddie a hug and kiss for me please and I love ❤️ you and miss you bubba fly high my sweet brother and don’t forget to shine ✨ on ✨

Hey there bubba I know I didn’t post on New Years but I am having a hard time with all this Michelle let dylie have your ashes I know that’s what you would have wanted but kinda of having a hard time with that I know they are your kids and deserve to have them but I just can’t bc I know all the hurt they caused you and yes I know you were always forgiving and I should do the same I am trying but I can’t get over the fact I won’t be able to see you well in my dreams yes and they are just your ashes but I know your soul is with us so I am trying bubba I know the days don’t get any easier and haven’t since you left I often speak your name bc I love ❤️ and miss you well always remember I love ❤️ and miss you bubba I got things to do I will post again fly high my sweet brother and don’t forget to shine ✨ on ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

Merry Christmas bubba sure do love and miss you just hasn’t been the same since you left us I am always speaking about you the memories are all I have left now bubba and trust me I will keep them alive please watch over us and continue to guide us always remember I love and miss you bubba don’t forget to shine ✨ on and be with mom ,dad and Eddie today fly high my sweet brother

Bubba I am sorry I haven’t posted in awhile but things have been hectic mom passed away October 20 th at 820 as you already know I am having a very hard time with this so I got myself into counseling to help cope and your kids are being very selfish they contacted Michelle and want your urn ⚱️ well I told Michelle they didn’t want anything to do with you when you were her they all wanted to change there last name and want any baby pictures of you and them your wedding pictures and any family pictures that we have well I have them and no they aren’t getting them it maybe mean but they don’t deserve them in my eyes and they want us to send your urn threw the mail what are they thinking I told Michelle if it gets to the point she can’t handle them contacting her about your urn I will bring you to my place and let them contact me I told Michelle that she can’t be giving you to your kids as mom had you with her for 9 years and you should stay where she left you.The thing about it all mom passed on thrusday they were asking for your urn on Friday and they didn’t come for her celebration of life we had so they goes to show you our family mean nothing to them and jordyn got engaged to an older man and they all think it’s great boy you wouldn’t allow that I just don’t understand as dylie got your shit gun bc he begged for it mom gave in and gave it to him but I will stand my ground they aren’t getting your urn sorry to be so mean but look from my point I have to go post on dad and eddies web site always remember I love ❤️ you and miss you terribly fly high my sweet brother and don’t forget to shine on

Hey there bubba today you would been 56 it’s just doesn’t seem fair I am always asking myself the what if’s and it drives me crazy I am having mom out today so she isn’t alone I try to have her out once a weekend as it gets her out of the house and time with us.Make sure you drink a cold one with dad and Eddie today drink one for us it’s just not right you had to leave us so early I can’t even some days as I drive myself crazy as I lost you then dad and then Eddie they say time heals all wounds well I am here to say that’s a lie bc it doesn’t still seems like yesterday that you left us .And dylie looks so much like you it gives me chills looking at his pics you would be so proud of him Dj he has accomplished a lot in his life and did it all on his own he definitely takes after you so cheer him on from heaven above and continue to watch over your loved ones I am always talking about you or speaking your name to keep your memory alive and that’s just not fair all we have is memories and let me tell you I cherish everyone of them you will always live on in my heart ❤️ I often talk to you dad and Eddie hope you guys are listening I sure do miss them big bear hugs you used to give sure could use one of them right now well I gotta get ready to go get mom always remember I love and miss you terribly fly high my sweet brother and don’t forget to shine ✨ on

Hey there bubba stopping into to talk for a bit I sure do love and miss you I have been having mom out one day a weekend to get her out of the house bc Michelle doesn’t take her anywhere and Kurt was mowing Sunday and seen a big snake so we all go out back to see this big snake well to my surprise it was huge a red tail boa not sure how it got there or if someone is missing it or let it lose needless to say Blake mowed over it a few times but you were never afraid of snakes but wow and to ask you to keep a watch over our brother Ricky he is suppose to start driving over the road I told him it’s not a good idea with all his heart issues it pisses me off bc he is the only one paying bills there I tell you what something happens I am going after everyone of them so please please keep a close eye on him I asked dad and Eddie too but I have to cut this short as I am at work but wanted to post on your page always remember I love you and miss you fly high my sweet brother and don’t forget to shine ✨ on

Hey there bubba today marks 9 years you have been gone it doesn’t seem possible I often speak your name to keep your memory alive this day is never a good one for me as a lot of un spoken words I talk you at night before I close my eyes hopefully your with dad and Eddie having a few cold ones the pain doesn’t get any easier bc truthfully I am still waiting for you to come threw my door and say hey bitch lol as you always did you always were my protector and I have been lost without it and Dylan looks so much like you gives me chills seeing pictures of him you would be so proud of him he is a good boy well gotta get in the shower for work tomorrow I will post again soon always remember I love ❤️ you bubba fly high my sweet brother and don’t forget to shine on ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

Hey there bubba please be with Eddie today as it marks one years since he left us drink a few beers with him for us give him an extra tight hug and kiss from us please I love you bubba fly high my sweet brother don’t forget to shine on

Happy 4 th bubba drink a few for us today we were talking about you yesterday as I had mom out and Bree and Noah came out for a cookout and bomb fire them mosiqutos were horrible so we came in early boy dylie looks so much like you it’s unreal you would be so proud of him bubba please continue to watch over your loved ones and don’t forget to shine ✨ on bubba fly high my sweet brother

Happy Father’s Day bubba sure do miss you these days aren’t getting any better seems like I am in a dream and you dad and Eddie will be here with us I often speak your name to keep your memory alive as I miss you terribly days aren’t getting any easier hopefully you dad and Eddie are drinking a few beers drink some for us could you please keep an extra close eye on mom things are just unreal there and if you were here they wouldn’t be going like they are if I had the room I would bring her back with me and your baby Dylan looks just like you Bri gives me chills when I see pictures of him but then again I am proud bc he will carry your name on with pride he is such a good boy well bubba I have things that I need to get done always remember I love ❤️ you and miss you terribly fly high my sweet brother and don’t forget to shine ✨ on ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

Hey there bubba I know it’s been awhile since my last post but mom had a stroke so I have been trying to get things done so she can have phyical therapy.Today is our brother eddies 54 th birthday so please be with him have a few beers him for us today I know dad ,him and you are catching up which is good and life just isn’t fair bubba we lost you dad and Eddie and our pain will never go away I often speak of you guys bc it still seems like a dream that one day I will wake up and you guys will be here and oh my your son dylie gives me chills he like just like you so you would be so proud of him I often speak your name to keep your memory alive I am always wondering what if’s drives me crazy you were our protector threw the years and I am lost without that.I have to get back to work but before I do always remember I love ❤️ you and miss you bubba fly high my sweet brother and don’t forget to shine ✨ on ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

Hey there bubba I know it’s been awhile but I wanted to stop in and say have a few beers for me as today dad would have been 73 rd birthday and to ask you to watch over mom extra close as she will need all of her kids and she had another mini stroke and had a lot of fluid on her brain so could you please make that disappear and watch over her her short term was effected but she is getting that back everyday her strength isn’t the greatest but she gets some back with the days that pass which is good .it just isn’t fair bc these days don’t get any easier when you lose a loved one I am always speaking your name and thinking of you I just can’t come to terms I won’t be able to see you only in my dreams and I talk to you as well we’ll always remember I love and miss you bubba fly high my sweet brother and don’t forget to shine ✨✨✨✨✨on

Hey there bubba first I want to say sorry for not posting but a lot has been going on and happy Easter bubba I had mom at Oswego er Wednesday bc she was weak and disoriented so I brought her she had covid April 6 th so we thought maybe she was a little dehydrated but they did bloodwork X-rays and urine everything came back normal so I made her a drs appt for Friday so Brittani and I took her bc she wasn’t getting any better well dr rotella came in room listened to our concerns and sent her to crouse bc he said she was having signs of a stroke just like we thought well it was confirmed she had a mini stroke her short term isn’t the greatest but hey that’s fine by us we will deal with it I am asking you to watch over mom and be with her during this time bc her anxiety is up bc all that has happened to you dad and Eddie she is very anxious doesn’t want to be there we all decided we have to do what’s best for mom her so please watch over mom I love and miss you bro gotta go post on dads and eddies website continue to shine ✨ on I

Happy st Patrick’s days I know it been awhile since my last post a lot going on had to get a different car bc my terrain needed to be inspected and I couldn’t get the check engine light to stay off the weather is nice today 63 sun is shining boy I seen a picture of Dylan oh my gosh he looks so much like you it scares me so he is carrying on your name with all of you grows a beard in the fire dept as he was raised around volney so he is in so is jordyn and Tyler your kids would make you proud bro continue to watch over them and please could you please watch over the rest of us mom hadn’t been feeling good I hope you have a nice cold beer with dad and Eddie to celebrate nothing has been the same since you left us us siblings hardly talk but if one needs the other we are all there well I am gonna go for now I will post again soon always remember I love ❤️ and miss you bubba x
❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️don’t forget to shine on

Hey there bubba the weather here has been crazy cold and snowing I have been on isolation for 5 days as I tested positive for covid that shit is so stupid if you were here you’d be doing something outside as you always were outside the days aren’t getting any easier bubba please continue to watch over your loved ones fly high my sweet brother and don’t forget to shine ✨ on ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

Happy new year bubba hopefully you had a few drinks with dad and Eddie I know it doesn’t get better bc I often speak your name and love ❤️ and miss you terribly please continue to watch over all your loved ones your kids are getting so big and Dylan omg he looks so much like you gives me the chills when I see his pictures but trust me your boy is caring your name on more ways then one it’s hard to believe they are adults now I have watched them grow threw the years and yea they make me feel old lol well I have to see about getting my sensors in my car always remember I love ❤️ and miss you terribly spread them wings and fly don’t forget to shine ✨ on ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

Merry Christmas to you bubba it doesn’t seem the same anymore Christmas just seems like another day now as we lost you dad and Eddie just isn’t fair bc if loved could have saved you all you would be with us today I remember in our younger years we would snoop our gifts always unwrapped them to see what we got them wrap them back up you would always say if mom finds out she’s gonna be pissed it just doesn’t feel like Christmas anymore we have lost to many loved ones and it’s not fair they say god doesn’t give you things we can’t handle well I am here to say I can’t handle it please continue to watch over your loved ones spread them wings and fly my sweet brother and don’t forget to shine ✨ on ❤️❤️❤️❤️

Happy thanksgiving bubba these holidays aren’t the same since you dad and Eddie have passed the days just get harder with days that pass it’s not getting any easier pleas be with dad and Eddie to continue to watch over all of us and don’t forget to spread them wings and fly my sweet brother and don’t forget to shine ✨ on ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

Hey there bubba it’s been ☔️ raining the last couple days I am so over this weather I know winter is around the corner and how I hate that season the cold is what gets me I know you always enjoyed winter ❄️ But not me please continue to watch over mom as I worry about her I sure do miss you bubba things aren’t the same since you left it’s not getting any easier I don’t understand why you had to leave us at such and early age I know god had different plans for you but what about all your loved ones as our ♥️ are broken please continue to watch over all your loved ones give dad Eddie and little grandma a hug and kiss from me please tell them I love ❤️ and miss them I will post again til then continue to spread them wings the fly and don’t forget to shine ✨ on   

Happy Halloween bubba it’s been taking the last t couple days and chilly volney had a drive thru truck or treating I am sure you would have been there as you loved doing things for the kids I often speak your name as I love being and miss you bro doesn’t seem possible you have been gone 8 years and days don’t get any better i love ❤️ and miss you please be there for dad and Eddie and continue to watch over all of us and spread them wings and fly my sweet brother and don’t forget to shine ✨ on   

Happy belated birthday bubba I posted something on Facebook for you I just didn’t get a chance to post on website you would have been 55th oh how I wish you were here to celebrate I know it’s been 8 years since you left us still seems like yesterday I often speak your name or think of old times it doesn’t get any easier bubba hopefully you had a few beers with dad and Eddie and the rest of our friends and family they are so lucky to have you as not a day goes by that I wish you were still here but I understand gods way as you were in pain and I know you are healthy and raising cane up there but that makes me feel better well I had a few beers yesterday to celebrate your birthday as Justin and Ashley got married on your birthday I will never forget there anniversary and of course it rained yesterday as it had every time since you passed I know they are happy tears. Things are ok here just missing our loved ones continue to watch over your kids and your family always remember I love ❤️ and miss you terribly and time isn’t healing all wounds bc of love alone could have saved you,you would have never left us spread them wings and fly bubba and don’t forget to shine on ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

Hey there bubba I know it’s been awhile since my last post but I have been busy but that doesn’t mean I forgot about you bc that isn’t the case I alway think of you and how much I love ❤️ and miss you I am not sure you had anything to do with the karma Goodrow got but if you did thank you as they both deserve it not just one and I seen pictures of Dylan omg he looks so much like you gives me chills down my spine when I look at them he diffently is you threw and threw he is carrying your name on with looks and all .Mom is doing ok she still has her days where she cries bc she lost you then dad and then Eddie for awhile there she had me worried bc she kept saying she didn’t know how much more she could handle so continue to watch over her please and could you do me a huge favor give little grandma Inez a hug and kiss for me please I M sure your with dad and Eddie catching up on old time good I am glad as long as you guys stick together that’s all that matters please continue to watch over all of us and don’t forget to shine ✨ on fly high my sweet brother xoxoxoco

Hey there bubba it’s been nice the last couple days which is ok but we had. HeT advisory for yesterday it sucks bc you loved the warm weather you did winter ❄️ too you just loved the outside in general could you please give dad Eddie and little grandma Inez a hug and kiss from me please continue to watch over your loved ones and fly high my sweet brother And don’t forget to shine ✨ on always remember I love ❤️ and miss you bubba ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

Well today marks 8 years that you have been gone and it stills seems like yesterday I hope you dad and Eddie are all together give them hugs and kisses for me please they say time heals all wounds well I am here to say different bc it doesn’t ease any of the pain bc it still seems like yesterday boy let me tell you your son Dylan is a mini Dj his looks and all gives me chills down my spine when I see pictures of him but it’s a good thing as well bc he will continue to carry on your legacy as he is a firefighter ‍ just like you and is a hard worker which is good he will go places in life and I am sure you know jordyn has a bf now he looks like he is older and I don’t see much of Tyler’s posts so I can’t tell you how he is doing but I am sure you continue to watch over your kids and please continue to watch over your loved ones and can you do me a favor give little grandma Inez a hug and kiss from me I have always told myself you were on vacation and you would be back my mind knows different but my heart ❤️ doesn’t I still wait for you to walk threw my door and say hey bitch lol as you always did well always remember I love ❤️ you bubba take care of dad and Eddie and yourself fly high my sweet brother and don’t forget to shine ✨ on ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

Hey there bubba I know it’s been awhile since my last post but we are trying to get things done as we moved the trailer to our land and trying to get things settled and everyone’s been sick and working so that has taking up some of our time mom went to have a echo cardio done as she is retaining her fluid and her kidneys aren’t where they are suppose to be everyone’s kid ants are suppose to be at 50 % and hers is at 37 so we have to watch that next thing on my agenda is getting her hear in aids to help with her hearing her eyes are fixed so that’s a good thing I am trying bubba I can only do so much with me working but I promise I will get her appts that she needs to make sure she is ok well I am gonna go so I can take a shower and relax always remember I love ❤️ you and miss you don’t forget to shine on and fly high my sweet brother

Hey there bubba this weather is crazy cloudy ☁️ today yes we need the rain but it’s crazy I hope your with dad and Eddie making up for lost time and show our brother we weren’t ashamed of him the way he was us as it hurts bubba as we lost out on so many years with him bc he didn’t want anything to do with us and I hope you would give little grandma a hug and kiss for me please as I am sure your up there spending time with family I just can’t seem to understand why our brother didn’t have more to do with his kids as jr is having a very hard time with all this so please keep him close to you and I need you to watch over mom as they think she may have CHF abc he feet are always swollen she goes for a echo soon so we should get answers from that but please watch over her extra close well I will post again gotta call moms cardio dr I will post again soon I love ❤️ you sweet brother and shine ✨ and bubba ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

Bubba I ask you for your presence today as we having callings hours today and funeral tomorrow for our brother Eddie we are angry upset with our brother for the choices he has made so please be there with us we will go honor our brother as we weren’t embrassed by him like he was with us he deserves to be honored as he was a great firefighter ‍ and a friend to others so please help him understand why we feel the way we do and give dad and Eddie a hug and kiss from us fly high my sweet brother

Hey there bubba as I am sure you already know our brother Eddie passed away Wednesday from this horrible disease I know he isn’t suffering anymore and he is no longer in any pain which I am greatful for but what about is here on earth the pain we have bc we lost you dad and now Eddie so with that said can you please watch over mom as she seems to be doing ok but I still worry about her well I gotta make a memorial for our brother now I love ❤️ you bubba drink a few with dad and Eddie fly high my sweet brother

Hey there bubba I know it’s been awhile since my last post but a lot has been going on our brother has cancer as I am sure you know well about 3 weeks ago they told him there is no more they can do for him sent him home on hospice so please watch over him extra he was mad at you and dad for not healing him for the cancer as Berta told him it was out of your guys control so he understand now so please when it’s his time to go please be there for him as he is scared and I don’t want him to go alone so please you and dad need to be there for him and take good care of him for us and now I ask you to watch over mom as well she went to the cardio dr and she has had a silent heart ❤️ attack or several so now I worry about her even more they thinks its congestive heart ❤️As her feet are always swollen up so I am getting things done so she can have her echocardiogram done so we know more well I am gonna go for now I will post again always remember I love ❤️ and miss you terribly fly high my sweet brother please watch over mom and Eddie

Hey there bubba I know it’s been awhile since my last post but a lot has been going on our brother has cancer as I am sure you know well about 3 weeks ago they told him there is no more they can do for him sent him home on hospice so please watch over him extra he was mad at you and dad for not healing him for the cancer as Berta told him it was out of your guys control so he understand now so please when it’s his time to go please be there for him as he is scared and I don’t want him to go alone so please you and dad need to be there for him and take good care of him for us and now I ask you to watch over mom as well she went to the cardio dr and she has had a silent heart ❤️ attack or several so now I worry about her even more they thinks its congestive heart ❤️As her feet are always swollen up so I am getting things done so she can have her echocardiogram done so we know more well I am gonna go for now I will post again always remember I love ❤️ and miss you terribly fly high my sweet brother please watch over mom and Eddie

Hey there bubba I know it’s been awhile since my last post but a lot is going on had to take mom to drs appts make calls for her worried about our brother Eddie and had surgery to remove cysts was out of work 6 weeks went nuts as I wanted to work but I came back may 11 th so that’s a plus I hope you were celebrating dads birthday with him and please watch over our brother Eddie as he is scared they changed his chemo again and he looks to skinny so please bubba watch over him. And make this chemo work so he can start gaining weight back as we can’t lose him as we lost you so please just keep an eye on he has bad days and says to our sister Roberta is all this worth it I just want him to fight bubba so please help him I would like you to have it where he has more better days and this chemo shrinks the tumors and have him go in remission and our brother Ricky is doing ok he has days where his back hurts bc he always over does it well bubba I will post again soon always remember I love ❤️ and miss you don’t forget to shine on fly high my sweet brother ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

Happy Easter bubba sure do miss you I think a lot of you during the holidays and it sucks please be there for our brother Eddie as the chemo he was doing was working now it’s not please help them find the right one as we can’t lose another one and please continue to watch over mom and continue to watch over all of us they say time heals well it doesn’t well i am gonna get but before I do always remember I love you and miss you terribly fly high my sweet brother

Hey there bubba sorry it’s been awhile since my last post but I had surgery yesterday and a lot had been going on I have had mom over to spend time with her please watch over mom as she still cries when we speak your name and she misses dad as well so please watch over her as she is lost and she is getting older hard for her to walk a long distance so please bubba watch over mom and your daughter jordyn is dating an older man which I know you wouldn’t be happy with so please watch over your kids as well always remember I love ❤️ and miss you dearly I will post again soon fly high my sweet brother

Happy valentines ❤️ Day bubba I know it’s been awhile since my last post but a lot has been going on as my heart rate goes up in the am and I have a 10cm cyst with blood flow to it and I need your help with all that is going on with me please bubba and our brother Eddie is doing better as the chemo he is doing now is working shrinking the tumors which is good as he has been scared and worried and his liver looks good and I see jordyn has a bee bf and I don’t think you would approve as he looks so much older then she does and if you were here you wouldn’t allow it so please continue to watch over everyone well I have to go see what I can find out about this guy jordyn is dating always remember I love ❤️ and miss you bubba fly high my sweet brother

Merry Christmas Bubba it’s been a horrible year as I haven’t been in the Christmas mood in a long time and with the news of our brother just made it worse on the plus side the NP said his liver looks better and I think Berta said his tumors may have shrank so that’s a plus the chemo they are doing is working he had a long rough road ahead so please continue to watch over him as he is shutting us all out not sure why as he really needs family now I keep telling myself that your at the bay and you will be home soon but I know that’s not possible but my heartaches everyday since we lost you and dad nothing is the same and never will be the same boy let me tell you now that Dylan is older he looks so much like you it scares me but it’s good in away though as I can see you in him well I am gonna get things done always remember I love ❤️ you bubba and miss you a great deal fly high my sweet brother and don’t forget to shine on please continue to watch over all of us

Happy thanksgiving bubba as I just told dad things aren’t the same since you guys have left us I hate the holidays as that is the worse time of year especially when we have loved ones that can’t be with us during that time well your kids are grown up you would be so proud of them and man Dylan looks just like you it scares me sometimes well I am gonna go bubba always remember I love ❤️ you and fly high my sweet brother and don’t forget to shine in ❤️❤️❤️

Happy Halloween Dj well the sun is shining today but still bit chilly out so you know what that mean that nasty stuff is right around the corner things here haven’t been the same since you left us they say time heal all wounds well that’s a lie bc it still seems like the day we lost you and please be there for our brother Eddie he is scared and nervous please have him get the chemo and go in remission as we can’t loose another one to that horrible disease mom had her cataracts done ✅ she says she can see better next is hearing aides for her well bubba I am gonna go for now but I will be back to post again always remember I love ❤️ and miss you fly high my sweet brother and tell uncle terry and little grandma I love ❤️ and miss them as well

Hey there bubba I forgot to post on here yesterday but I did wish you a happy birthday on Facebook ally was going on our brother Eddie started his chemo yesterday and I told him it was a good sign as he started it on your birthday that he was gonna best this and walk talk so please watch over him while he is starting the chemo make so he can handle all the chemo and not get to sick bc he does 3 days a week for 3 weeks and then goes for a scan to see if the cancer cells are dieing and he has a 8.1 leason on his liver please make that go away and have him go in remission as we can’t loose another one and this cancer shit is for the birds why does it seem to attack our family well bubba happy 54 th birthday I am sure you were up there partying hard with dad and family fly high my sweet brother and don’t forget to shine on