ForeverMissed



This memorial website was created in memory of our loved one, David Navarro, 41 years old, born on September 27, 1979, and passed away on April 27, 2021. We will remember him forever.

David  was a generous soul (would give you his last few Jolly Ranchers..lol), had a wonderful sense of humor and LOVED to fish and play video games. He was an aspiring and talented artist who loved to write lyrics and poems. More than anything he loved his mamma.

One of my favorite memories about David... He was a young boy about 11 or 12. He had received his allowance for doing chores. We lived right across the street from a small strip mall. He asked me if he could go shopping. I gave him a time frame to be back and off he went. I was sure he was going to buy himself some matchbox cars or Transformers but he showed back up with a pair of earrings for me. I will tell you they were the most awful earrings you ever saw but I wore them proudly. I will never forget the smile on his face when he gave them to me.

In the end, Davids belongings fit in a backpack but he still had that same generous heart he had when he was a boy. I brought him some Jolly Ranchers on one of my visits and he loved them. His Cancer doctor told me he insisted she take his last three.

My sweet generous boy, who had nothing, gave all that he had.

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Posted by Kat Ascasio on September 27, 2022
My sweet love. It has been almost two months since I posted. Today is your birthday. How I wish I was surprising you with gifts and hugs and kisses. I miss you everyday, every minute. David, I need your help. If you can put in a word for Julie. Unbelievably she was diagnosed with stage 3c cancer as well. How is it possible, me, you, Bella and now Julie. David, she is all I have left. I won't make it without her. It's too much. It is all too much. Baby boy, I love you. I love you so damn much. Happy Birthday my love. Mommy.
Posted by Kat Ascasio on July 30, 2022
Hi sweet boy. A couple of nights ago. I had a dream. It was about a lot of different things but the last thing was...I was listening to voice messages from a pager and there was one from you.. "Hello mother". It jolted me awake. It felt like you were standing beside me saying it in my ear. I love you baby. I still long to know you are okay. Still so much emptiness and unanswered questions. You were always my strength in this world and somehow you gave me strength in death as well. You are my everything baby. I miss you so much.

Love mommy
Posted by Kat Ascasio on June 3, 2022
Today fuckin sucks. I miss you so much. I failed you. I failed you in so many ways. If I hadn't failed, you would be here with me. I am sorry baby. I am so fuckin sorry. I tried everything I knew. God it hurts so fucking much. I just want you back. I just want to hold you again. I am missing everyone today. You, Bella, Ryan, Boscoe. My heart is broken. My soul is lost.

Love Mommy
Posted by Kat Ascasio on June 2, 2022
I miss you David. So many regrets. So many wishes of a different outcome. I pray you know...I pray you knew....you were everything to me. My world, my hopes, my dreams....you were everything.

Love mommy
Posted by Kat Ascasio on April 27, 2022
I miss you , my love!!!!

Mommy
Posted by Sherri Ascasio on April 27, 2022
David... I know your mama is going through hell since your passing. I just can't believe it myself. I feel so bad. Life is tough and then you die. When I almost lost my Dustin it was the worst time of my life. By the way Dustin says Hi in Heaven. Reach out to your mama in some way so she knows you hear here. It would be a wonderful sign on this day. Miss you nephew.
Posted by Kat Ascasio on April 27, 2022
My baby boy. Today is a hard day.

Mommy
Posted by Kat Ascasio on April 26, 2022
It's April 26th. We were moments away. Did you know I was there with you? Did I do the right thing? You know how much I love you ...right? You know you were my world right? I am sorry David. I am sorry I failed you. I would have given anything to change things for you. I love you so much son, so fucking much!!

Love mommy.
Posted by Kat Ascasio on April 25, 2022
My sweet angel. It has been a while since I posted here. I have been a little consumed with this week...knowing how hard it would be. In two days it will be one year since you left me. I still go back over it my mind over and over and over and over. What could I have done different? Years of tracing our steps together and wondering at what moment I lost you. What mistake pushed you into a world of regret. I know I will see you soon my love. Don't ever forget you promised to come get me when it was my time. Please come see me in my dreams this week. I am trying to celebrate your life this week but I am lost in sadness.

Love mommy.
Posted by Kat Ascasio on February 15, 2022
I dreamt of you and Bella the other night. It was a good dream. You were pre-teens and I knew in the dream you had passed. There was so much love. Bella was there too and you both looked beautiful and like you were reborn. I pray that was a revelation. Still not a day goes by that you don't permeate my thoughts. That I don't feel pain, regret. After that dream I just wanted to go back to sleep and see you again. That was several days ago and you have not been back.

David if you can some how read this, see me, hear me, please come see me again in my dreams and talk to me. Tell me you knew I was there with you in the last minutes. Tell me you are with Jesus. Please baby, visit me. I love you so much.

Mommy
Posted by Kat Ascasio on January 18, 2022
I don't ever stop thinking about you. When other people said that, I thought it was just something they say...but it is true. You permeate my thoughts always. Bella too. Mostly it is incredibly painful. Still so many regrets and wishes and prayers gone unanswered. Every time, every single time I go to close my eyes to sleep, I am ported back to your hospital room....and the pain. It is hard to believe it will be a year soon. This week I was just wishing to go back to 5 years ago...when they were was still hope of saving you. When my Bella was here. When Covid wasn't here yet. Covid and dumb ass Trump robbed me from precious moments I could of spent with you. Those are the thoughts that rob of me of sleep.

I love you so much David Joseph. I love you so damn much!!

Mommy
Posted by Kat Ascasio on December 27, 2021
My sweet boy, Christmas has come and gone and what I wanted never showed up. YOU. I have been seeing Bella in my dreams so much but you never come see me. Nothing has changed. Every night when I close my eyes I still see you there in the hospital bed, reaching your arms out to me. I would give anything to have you back. I was in the backyard yesterday and saw a plane flying over head and I thought....the last time I was on a plane....I still had hope. Now that hope is gone. Only regrets are left. My baby, my love, my life....is gone.

Mommy
Posted by Kat Ascasio on December 2, 2021
I am missing you so much tonight....everyday. I beg God to let me have a piece of you, something...some word, feeling something. I beg God for mercy. I miss you David. My heart is completely broken. So many regrets. If only we knew...time would of been so different. Baby boy.....I don't understand. I am just broken and lonely without you.

Love mommy
Posted by Kat Ascasio on November 15, 2021
I don't come here as often, not because the pain has diminished, not because I don't hurt as much as the day you left me, not because I don't miss you unbearably but because.....it doesn't make me feel better. I think of you everyday, I cry everyday. I regret everyday. I am ported back to your hospital room everyday. A beautiful life never lived.....

Mommy
Posted by Kat Ascasio on November 2, 2021
I love you my sweet boy!! I love you. I love you. I love you so much. I miss you so much. God it hurts so much. Six months and it still hurts so much.

Love mommy
Posted by Kat Ascasio on October 19, 2021
Everyday , all day I think of you. Today....thinking about all the times I gave up, friends, family, places, homes, people, jobs to try and save you and in the end....I still lost you. I prayed for you everyday and....I still lost you. I brought you up in the church and...I still lost you. I got you help...and I still lost you. I lost you. My love, my boy, my heart and ....I still blame myself.

Mommy
Posted by Kat Ascasio on October 17, 2021
I don't want to be here without you. I love you!

Love mommy
Posted by Kat Ascasio on October 9, 2021
I miss you baby!!

Mommy
Posted by Kat Ascasio on October 3, 2021
My Dear Son, every time I close my eyes I see your face, hear your voice. So close and yet so far. I still cry everyday, many times a day. It feels like someone is stabling me in my heart. Today I was thinking about the day you were born. How it was just you and me, alone, I was scared. Then on the day you left me...it was just you and me...alone, I was scared. Did you hear me wailing, sobbing, begging? It was always supposed to be me that went first, I prayed your entire life that you would find love and peace and then I would go. I think that is why I can't except it. I was never supposed to be here without you.

When will I know?

Love mommy
Posted by Kat Ascasio on September 27, 2021
My sweet boy, today would have been your 42nd birthday. The 27th you were born and the 27th you left me. The best and worst day of my life. It hurts so much. I know I say this all the time but I still can't believe you are gone. I remember everything about you. I was so blessed 42 years ago with you. I don't regret one single day. I love you, I love you. I miss you so much. David...can you hear me talk to you? I wanna hold you. I miss you baby....I miss you so much.

Love mommy.
Posted by Kat Ascasio on September 20, 2021
I realize it has been a whole two weeks since I have been here. Maybe that means I am getting better, but I think of you 100 times a day. Cry several times a day. Live in a world of denial that you are gone. My baby. I miss your laughter, your jokes, your hugs...I miss hearing "I love you mom". The other day I saw a video of a mom being goofy and the look her son gave her reminded me so much of looks you gave me when I was being silly. I broke down. God David, I still can't believe you are gone. Your birthday is coming up next week. 41 ...only 41....it should have been me...not you. I love you so much baby, so much.

Love mommy
Posted by Kat Ascasio on September 7, 2021
I haven't been able to sleep lately. Racing thoughts of you and Bella. My love, my hope, my baby. If I could give up all my happiness to go back and be a better mother to you, to find a way to save you....I would do it. I would give up everything to give you life again...a good life. I failed you. I failed you. I failed you. I failed you. God forgive me. I will never forgive myself.I miss you.

Mommy
Posted by Kat Ascasio on August 31, 2021
Everyday....I miss you everyday. I am not the same. I will never be the same without you. I love you so much David...so much.

Mommy
Posted by Kat Ascasio on August 17, 2021
It's been hard losing you and Bella so close together. I miss you son. I miss you so much.

Mommy
Posted by Kat Ascasio on August 8, 2021
I hope you and Bella are running free and playing together. The last thing she did was grab a piece of pizza. I would like to think she was bringing it to you. My two angels. I miss you both terribly. Life is cruel to take you both and so close together. I love you everyday baby.

Mommy
Posted by Kat Ascasio on July 27, 2021
Today is hard. Tuesday, the 27th. The day you came into my life. I will never forget that day and the day you left me. I will never forget that day.

I need you.

Mommy
Posted by Kat Ascasio on July 27, 2021
My sweet boy. Even though I don't come here as often, there is not a day that goes by that you are not the forefront of my thoughts. Our Bella has been very sick and not wanting to eat. I suspect she will be leaving us soon. I pray you will be there to welcome her and you will be best buds. I wish you were here. I was taking care of her this morning and thinking, I was supposed to be taking care of you. I would have given anything to have you here with us. That was the plan. I never even considered it would be different. I love you so much!!!

Mommy
Posted by Kat Ascasio on July 23, 2021
I haven't been here in a few days, because I have seen you in my dreams. In one dream you were young, maybe 4. We were being rescued from a fire and then apocalyptic hurricane. Once we were saved, I was holding you saying "you were so brave, you were so brave". Just like I said, last time I saw you.

I love you so much.

Mommy
Posted by Kat Ascasio on July 17, 2021
I was always annoyed that you had so many FB pages. Now I cherish them, read them everyday, hoping for some morsel of you I hadn't seen before.

I still have not accepted you are gone. I miss you horribly sweet boy.

Mama
Posted by Kat Ascasio on July 12, 2021
I have been having a hard time lately. I miss you so much.

Mommy
Posted by Kat Ascasio on July 11, 2021
I woke up feeling so sad and heavy today...like a lot of days. God I wish you were David. I miss you so much. I miss your sense of humor. I miss being your mom. I am a mother without a child...I am nothing.

Mommy
Posted by Kat Ascasio on July 6, 2021
It's Tuesday. :( . I cannot stop thinking about when you said "mom, hold my hand". I want to feel your presence. I want to know where you are. I sit with your remains sometimes and try to get a sense of you and there is nothing. Nothing. I watch things and here people talk about there departed loved ones "I felt there presence" "I know they are watching over me" "I saw a sign"...I see, feel, hear nothing. Just darkness. Just sadness. Just despair. You are gone. I don't know where. Just gone. I need you. I miss you. I don't want the pain to go away because it is all I have left of you.

Love mommy
Posted by Kat Ascasio on July 2, 2021
I love you my sweet son. I want you back. I want to hear your voice. I want to do word search with you. I want to be expecting your call. I want you to call me a dork. Did you, do you know how much I love you. Do you realize, I spent my entire life trying to save you? My love. I want to hold you in my arms. Where are you?

Mommy
Posted by Kat Ascasio on June 29, 2021
I haven't felt your presence at all. Is this my punishment? I made so many mistakes. I have been playing the "what if" game. Its weird how the mind plays tricks on you. Sometimes I can't tell what is a dream and what is reality. You can't be gone...you just can't be gone. I am so sorry I let you down David. I am so sorry.

I love you so much.

Mommy
Posted by Kat Ascasio on June 22, 2021
i keep thinking about when you asked me to hold your hand..."squeeze it tight" you said. Your hands were still wrapped with gauze because of all the skin that had pulled off your fingers. Were you scared? Did you know you were dying? Your gone, just gone. Today at the doctors office for my Cancer check up...I closed my eyes and tried so hard to wish myself back to your room. When I walked in and you were trying to surprise me with a cake you made for me.

I just want to be back there....be back there with you. Why can't I just go back.

I miss you so much Davey Joseph. I miss you so fucking much.

Mommy
Posted by Kat Ascasio on June 21, 2021
You know, I compare every hard thing to what you went through. Tomorrow is my every three month Cancer check. They are always horrible and invasive. Nothing I could go through compares with what you went through. So every hard thing I go through I say...."Is someone peeling your skin off?" 

You were so incredibly brave.

If only I could have a few moments back with you. I know every parent or person who has lost a loved one wishes that. I just still can't except the reality, it will never happen.

I love you so much David Joseph. You left such an open gaping, throbbing wound in my life. There is no cure. No way to repair. Only when I see you again.

Mommy
Posted by Sherri Ascasio on June 17, 2021
I wish I could hug you both right now..
Posted by Kat Ascasio on June 17, 2021
Another day of suffering. Another day without a heart...you took it with you.
I was remembering the last few hours with you. When they were bathing you and you kept reaching up. I wonder what you were reaching for. I pray it was our Lord. If only you could of spoke then and told me. I need to know you are okay. I am so lonely without you. Even if we weren't together. I always knew I had you. I always knew I was your mom, you were my son. My soul is in agony.

Mommy
Posted by Sherri Ascasio on June 17, 2021
Posted by Kat Ascasio on June 16, 2021
I saw that number pop up on my phone yesterday. That number I will never forget. 1 (310) 423 3277 - Cedar Sinai. I stared at it for several minutes, my mind wondered if this had all been a bad dream, something I dreamt and you were calling me to say "mommy, can you get me grub hub", "Mom, can you talk to the doctor", Mom, I love you." It wasn't a dream. In fact I am in the nightmare, living it, you are gone. It was the counselor Samantha, calling to check on me.

I have tried so hard, wishing myself back to a few months ago. I am still stuck in this current hell without you.

Mommy
Posted by Kat Ascasio on June 15, 2021
It wasn't supposed to end this way. You shouldn't have had to pay for my sins.

God, if only I could go back and find some way to save you. It's torture. Why my baby??????

Mommy
Posted by Kat Ascasio on June 14, 2021
I dreamt of you last night but not how I had hoped. It was another tragedy. I finally saw your face again and for that I am grateful.

I miss you so much baby. So much.

Mommy
Posted by Kat Ascasio on June 11, 2021
I have started to dream again....when will you come visit me?


Mommy
Posted by Kat Ascasio on June 9, 2021
You were so fucking brave. When you went through chemo alone because of Covid. You were so fucking brave when the sores were so bad you couldn't talk anymore. You were so fucking brave as I watched them removed bandages and your skin peel off with it. You were so fucking brave when you knew you were dying. You were so fucking brave ...I am so proud to be your mom. I love you so damn much. I hope you knew that. I hope you knew ...you were everything to me. I tried so damn hard my whole fucking life to save you. The agony is too much sometimes.

Mommy
Posted by Kat Ascasio on June 8, 2021
Tuesday's have become the hardest day of the week. I miss you my love. I miss you. I want you back. I want to hear your voice. I want to look in your eyes. It can't be true. It can't be true that you are gone.
Posted by Kat Ascasio on June 6, 2021
Every day...Every day....I can't believe you are gone. My mind and heart won't except it.

I love you so much my darling son.

Mommy
Posted by Kat Ascasio on June 4, 2021
There has not been a single day without crying since you been gone, I suspect there never will be. I miss your sweet face, voice. I miss my boy.

Mommy
Posted by Kat Ascasio on June 2, 2021
I keep thinking about how you were supposed to be here ...life was going to be hard, trying to get you completely recovered...now life is impossible.

You weren't supposed to leave. We had plans.

Love you,

Mommy
Posted by Kat Ascasio on May 31, 2021
"You are my sunshine...my only sunshine...you make me happy when skies are gray...you never know dear, how much I love you...please don't take my sunshine away"

There has been no sunshine since you been gone.

Mommy
Posted by Kat Ascasio on May 30, 2021
I can see your face so clearly, hear your voice. I still can't believe you are gone. My love, my heart, my purpose. I miss you.

Mommy
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Posted by Kat Ascasio on September 27, 2022
My sweet love. It has been almost two months since I posted. Today is your birthday. How I wish I was surprising you with gifts and hugs and kisses. I miss you everyday, every minute. David, I need your help. If you can put in a word for Julie. Unbelievably she was diagnosed with stage 3c cancer as well. How is it possible, me, you, Bella and now Julie. David, she is all I have left. I won't make it without her. It's too much. It is all too much. Baby boy, I love you. I love you so damn much. Happy Birthday my love. Mommy.
Posted by Kat Ascasio on July 30, 2022
Hi sweet boy. A couple of nights ago. I had a dream. It was about a lot of different things but the last thing was...I was listening to voice messages from a pager and there was one from you.. "Hello mother". It jolted me awake. It felt like you were standing beside me saying it in my ear. I love you baby. I still long to know you are okay. Still so much emptiness and unanswered questions. You were always my strength in this world and somehow you gave me strength in death as well. You are my everything baby. I miss you so much.

Love mommy
Posted by Kat Ascasio on June 3, 2022
Today fuckin sucks. I miss you so much. I failed you. I failed you in so many ways. If I hadn't failed, you would be here with me. I am sorry baby. I am so fuckin sorry. I tried everything I knew. God it hurts so fucking much. I just want you back. I just want to hold you again. I am missing everyone today. You, Bella, Ryan, Boscoe. My heart is broken. My soul is lost.

Love Mommy
his Life
David was born in San Diego Ca, I was a very young single mom. It was just me and my boy against the world.

He chose to accept Jesus Christ as his Lord and Savior at Lake Murray Church in San Diego when he was 12.

His favorite thing in the world was to fish. He use to fish almost every Sunday after Sunday services at Lake Murry.

His Best friend is David Sanchez. He told me "mom that is my brother"
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Something you wrote

Shared by Kat Ascasio on October 17, 2021
Lots of things run through my mind, one of them being endless time, along with sun rays from the sunshine,thinking about the troubled past I've left behind,wondering where and how I recieve such sign's, from thoughts that seem to cross my mind,and make my eye's fill with tears to remind me I'm not blind, There a reason for all things, this I believe is so true, even though sometimes it seems hard just to view, when you are searching for something, you believe with your heart you'll understand that that thing was always there from the start,even when times get stuff, and it seems like no one's around, if you believe in a higher power, more things will be found, on the inside and the outside I know this all to be true, no matter what you believe in, there's someone or something SPECIAL for you.... written by Anonymous aka A- NON just another ARTIST Painting a visual portrait of words that should be expressed, by someone for something, before I let me eyes rest,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,

My Heart hurts for my sister

Shared by Sherri Ascasio on September 2, 2021
I still can't believe your gone.  You were my sisters world.  She was always your number one cheerleader.  She always had you as her first concern. And always fought for you.  I know you are looking down on your mama and watching over her.  You are her forever angel now and you are the best angel she can have.  Stay strong sister.  

Halloween

Shared by Kat Ascasio on May 12, 2021
One of the stories I love to tell about David was at Halloween. I guess he was about 6 or 7. I was a single working mom and hadn't planned well for Halloween. I had worn a Lady Bug costume to work that day and decided that was the best we had so we were going to make it work. I put black pants on him instead of tights and off we went.

EVERY door we came to they would say "ohhh what  a cute lady bug". David would say in the saddest voice you ever heard..."I am not a LADY BUG....I am a MAN BUG".  LOL

I am pretty sure I traumatized my kid that Halloween.