Mommy, you always did everything and anything you could for me. You sacrificed so much for my happiness growing up until the day you passed.
Though not many people knew you, the ones that did, you touched their hearts. You had an attitude for those that got on your nerves (I was one of them sometimes) but you still wished the best for everyone. You remembered so much about the people you met, even those who you only met once. You always asked how they were doing and wished them well.
You kept to yourself and never wanted to get me upset with things that were bothering you or causing you pain because you didn’t want me to worry. It hurts so much that you didn’t tell me earlier about your condition. I know we talked about this, and you didn’t want to hurt my feelings but it hurts that I didn’t know for so long.
Though you had a rough life, you were happy every single time you saw and talked to me, and said so many nice things about me to people. Everyone that I told about you said you did such an amazing job raising me. You taught me to treat others how I would want to be treated, the value of a dollar, and to take it one day at a time.
You always said, “Everything happens for a reason,” and you’re absolutely right, but sometimes I don’t like the result. You’re no longer in pain. I hope you’re happy, and looking down on me and everyone you knew.
I now don’t have you here to tell about my concert stories, to tell me you’re proud of me, or to see you at the kitchen table when I came to see you smiling from ear to ear. I know for a fact you’re with me in spirit, and I’m so glad we made the video of you telling me everything I won’t hear again. It’s going to be tough going forward, but as blink-182 said, “be strong when things fall apart.”