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Missing You

May 2, 2013

Hey baby well in five more days we will be celebrating you 19th birthday and I wish more than anthing in this wols that you were here so I could see your face I miss you so much the pain I feel is constant but I manage to keep it togther your brother and sister are getting ready for 8th grade graduation and then it's on to the ninth grade I can't believe how fast they are growing up. I know that you keep a watchful eye over then so I don't even have to ask that of you.I know one thing you sister Kayla keeps your memory alive I see so much of you in her and the things that come out of her mouths help me know that you are still around because it's things that only you would know or say . She keep your Mum Mum going they have a special bond like you and her did I don't know what it is about her but she is very special and Mr. Kaiden the two of them are FB hits everyone loves to see what they are up to and it always something just like you they keep me busy LOl Kyree voice is getting deeper and he has a little bit of peach fuzz over his top lip and Daddy he just got a big promtion but he misses you like crazy our house is not the same we don't have fun like we use to when you were here well baby I have to get back to work I love you so much baby and as always I can't wait until the day I get to hold you in my arms again.


Love Always and for ever MOMMY  

January 2, 2013

Nene I Miss You So Much Cousin Today Makes 2 years since You Flown Away Its Kind Of Hard Not Having You Around But I Know You Are In Heaven Smiling Down. Babygirl we All Will Give Anything Just To See,Hug and Kiss You. This Pain Will Never Go Away. I Miss Her Writting to me On Facebook and always calling Me BigHead and sending me pictures of kaiden All We Got Left Is Pictures and Memories. Till That Day We Meet Again In My Heart Is Where I Keep You Cousin I Love You and Miss You So Much!!!!!

My Grief

January 19, 2012

My Basket of burdens Is filled with the grief of my loss
It is so heavy to carry Although this road I must cross
This pathway through life Feels unbearable at times
And I don't have the strength For this mountain I climb
The Basket's filled with sorrow Oh, how I miss my love
At first, It's impossible to carry, Where is my help from above?
It's draining my strength I can't do anymore This pain goes so deep Right down to my core As I carry this Basket I'll learn to manage the weight
Each step of the way Will become easier they say
But how do they know, Have they been here before?
If so, where's their Basket They're responsible for?
This Basket of burdens You can't see and can't touch
I carry it inside me This pain is too much
Patience is needed to carry This loss that I feel
A shoulder to lean on So, someday I will heal
God sent my family My friends and spirits unknown
So, I won't carry this Basket For-ever alone
Someday, I'll lay down my Basket With burdens? no more
My pain will be gone When I cross through that door
Then I'll know reason For my Basket of Burdens
How God showed me His grace When I couldn't cope with the season
Love and support that He gave When His presence felt unknown He was with me each step When I felt so alone


 

Missing you

January 19, 2012

My Beloved Babygirl my life has be altered there is no getting it back. You were my pride and joy. Whenever I seen you, you would light up my life Even through my illness for some reason when you were around you made your Mum Mum feel better the laughter that we shared and the love is unmeasureable. I still don't know why God took you at age 16 but I do know that I'm glad that I had you for those 16 yrs. Even though I wanted you for a life time. Denise I try to go on but I can't because going on with my life was suppose to be with you by my side. I miss hearing you say Mum Mum do you have a couple of dollars so I can go downtown with Neta and Lexis you knew that I could never ever say no to you if it was my last then you were going to get it. I miss you so much and the pain that I feel daily is everlasting I await the day when I can see you again and hold you again you are my precious angel and I will love you forever and ever

to my baby

September 14, 2011
No one can know just what I've lost;
No one can understand the cost;
All of the  energy that I had have  drain, I Loved So Very Much"

My anger keeps me going its the only strength i have.

Knowing that my angel was robbed of everything.

She had everything to Live for 16 Years was not enough.

And so i hope you understand why i sometimes question my faith.

I wake up every morning hopeing it was all a bad dream.

Hopeing that she'll walk through the door and cuddle me once more.

I know its my turn now to fight and find the truth.

Why my Precious Baby should never have left us that day.

So every night even though i cant see you, i hold and kiss your picture.

Remember that my love for you is stronger everyday.

For everytime i lay down on my pillow i know you are next to me .

Your arms wrapped around me wiping away my tears
 


 

 

 

 

May 23, 2011

My love I sit here and miss you so much I know my life will never be the same because I lost my heart the day you left me. Denise I'm Trying so hard to be strong but the pain that I feel is making it hard and harder. I sit here everyday and light a candle infront of your pictures and talk to you and cry because I want to know why did he have to take my Baby the love of my life. Yes I still get angry and will for the rest of my life. You should still be here with us. No outsider knows the pian that I feel and they just keep telling me that it is going ot get better. I think if someone tell me that again I'm going to snap on someone. I even had someone tell me well atleast you have other grandchildren and I told them yes I have other Grandchildren but They are not you and no one can replace you you were my first and my love. I would have done anything for you. The love that we had can never be replaced my heart will never mend the only way that will happen is for me to be with you again. Denise I have no life without you. So I just sit here and wait for my ship to come in and bring me to you. Denise I love you so much and you always had and will have my heart. How can I have a life without you in it its impossible.  You Mum Mum will always love you

 

Your crazy cousins

May 9, 2011

Well NE NE you would've loved this one. We were in BJ's Saturday morning getting stuff for your party with Malinda & Stacey. Stacey opened up one of the large sheds and stepped inside and Malinda locked the door. She was screaming to get out and people in BJ's were cracking up. I know you would've been laughing your head off if you were there too.

"Goodbye"

May 2, 2011

Day by day I think of you,

How can all this be true,

I can't believe you're really gone,

It feels like you took half of me with you along,

Just the thought of you makes me cry,

I never even got the chance to say goodbye,

 

Everybody tells me that everything will get better but I don't think it will ever,

Me and you were like ice cream and cake always great together never making a mistake,

 

I know we didn't always agree on everything but we would always manage to work it out,

So many things I never got the chance to say,

I never thought you'd leave me this way,

 

You were my cousin, my partner in crime, If it was ever a problem I was there right along with Stacey, Shiela, and Linda traveling behind,

 

My love for you is like no other,

You will always be in my heart as I live my life days at a time,

I'll never forget your beautiful smile and the way you always called me "YOUR RERE",

 

I would take your place if I had the choice,

But now I have to let you rest,

Although without you in my world's a hot mess,

 

I just want you to know I miss you with all my heart,

And I wish we never had to part,

Knowing your always be by my side,

Now I guess this is my final goodbye......I love you NeNe.

 

P.S. I hope you like my poem, Its from the bottom of my heart this won't really be my final goodbye I'll still visit your page...Anyway ilu lil cousin...REST IN PEACE BBY GIRL.....

 

 

My Denise Nicole

March 30, 2011

Baby I avoided this page for so long I just couldn't bring myself to write about your past when I feel like I should be looking forward to  your furture I miss u so much I am hurt beyond words I'm so lost I wake up everyday wanting to see u come down the stairs . I look out the window hoping to see u get off the school bus and that's not going to happen . I won't get to buy u a car just think I was worried about u driving because I thought U would get hurt lol, I won't get to see u go on your prom graduate from high school college have children of your own I feel so cheated my life is incomplete without we miss u so much in the house and just being in our life Kyra and Kyree miss U so much you can tell how much Kyree misses U but  Kyra hides her feeling but u can tell that she really misses u by some of the things that she says she really looked up to you you were her big sister and she missing out on all the things that u and her were suposed to do together . Ms. Looks for U all the time and Mr.K Is just Mr. K LOL .Daddy is really hurt talks about how he can't beleive that your gone he won't get the chance to give u away on your wedding day and now he don't have anyone to talk to about his school work or compete with beacuse we don't pay him anymind u always ask what he was doing in school lol .Baby I just hope you know how special you were to me and that I love so much and I always wanted what was best for you being a parent is the hardest job I ever had because that meant I had to be stearn with u but it was only because I love U well my love I'm getting sad so i have to stop writing but I will be back on here with some of the funny things you use to do .

                                                         I love you more that you will ever know my presious baby girl and i can't wait until we meet again .

Baby Girl this on will really make you laugh

March 29, 2011

Nene you know how you always teased your mom about her spelling and talking well babygirl I talk to her everyday all day and guess what the talking has gotten worse my name for her is mush mouth remember the guy on Fat Albert that could'nt talk well babygirl that is who she talks like now. But what makes it so bad she have me talking just like her and the crazy thing about it is that we understand each other. Now thats crazy. Remember how you use to call me all the time well now I'm getting the calls from Kayla and baby she is a little Nene Brewing her and your mom are always going at it word for word. One day she called me and your mom told her it was time for her to go to bed and she told you mom I'm not going to sleep I'm talking and then your mom tried to take the phone she told her to get out of my face. Denise you should see the pictures of her with these shades on and her hand on her hips. She is a little Diva. Denise Kayla miss you so much she is always talking about you and everything in the house is yous let Kayla tell it. Babygirl we all miss you so very much and want you back so bad our lives are not the same without you. Your cousins really really miss you the triple threats have not been the same without you March 26 they all went to the Rick Ross Concert along with your uncles and Aunt Monnie and Karina and Tyree all of your cousins went and they all had their crying moment. Because you should have been there with them with you hot outfit on. Babygirl why did God have to take you from us I still do not beleive it was your time go. But they say Don't question God's work and they say that the day we are born it is already written in the book the day that we are going out. But if this is true why did he take you at such a young age when you had'nt even started living your life. Baby if I could only change the hands of time I surley would in a heart beat. I'll Love you always and forever until I can see and hold you again.   

My Denise

March 23, 2011

Baby I avoided this page for so long I just couldn't bring myself to write about your past when I feel like I should be looking forward to  your furture I miss u so much I am hurt beyond words I'm so lost I wake up everyday wanting to see u come down the stairs . I look out the window hoping to see u get off the school bus and that's not going to happen . I won't get to buy u a car just think I was worried about u driving because I thought U would get hurt lol, I won't get to see u go on your prom graduate from high school college have children of your own I feel so cheated my life is incomplete without we miss u so much in the house and just being in our life Kyra and Kyree miss U so much you can tell how much Kyree misses U but  Kyra hides her feeling but u can tell that she really misses u by some of the things that she says she really looked up to you you were her big sister and she missing out on all the things that u and her were suposed to do together . Ms. Looks for U all the time and Mr.K Is just Mr. K LOL .Daddy is really hurt talks about how he can't beleive that your gone he won't get the chance to give u away on your wedding day and now he don't have anyone to talk to about his school work or compete with beacuse we don't pay him anymind u always ask what he was doing in school lol .Baby I just hope you know how special you were to me and that I love so much and I always wanted what was best for you being a parent is the hardest job I ever had because that meant I had to be stearn with u but it was only because I love U well my love I'm getting sad so i have to stop writing but I will be back on here with some of the funny things you use to do .

                                                         I love you more that you will ever know my presious baby girl and i can't wait until we meet again .

                                                                           Love Always,

                                                                           Your   Mommy

I Miss You

March 11, 2011

Hey Babygirl its your uncle Leon I visited this page s many time and just couldnt stand to write anything i miss you so much im trying to stay strong but its hard im crying right now I will never get over you being gone because it isnt fair at all I want you back here so bad my life isnt the same nomore nene I miss seeing you talking to you protecting you i just wanna see you so bad i try talking to your grave but it dosent give me comfort I have s many questions I wonder if your ok, where did you go, will i get to see you again Nene i miss you so much aand wish it was me in your place so i wouldnt have to deal with this there is nothing in this world i wouldnt trade to have you back including my life NENE if I could take your place and bring you back i would do it in the blink of an eye I just wish you would have called me I would have told you how to unload the gun in fear that what happend would happen you could have always talked to me about anything thats what i was there for. You could have told me that you were having problems with eric i would have been on my way to pick you up and go knock on his door for you i would have faced whoever or whatever with no regrets i was supposed to be you protector from this crazy world. I was going to come up the day it happened to get my leather jacket and I should had If I would had came denise you would have still been here with me babygirl. I miss you so much and these word cannot express the way i feel I hope to see you soon.

P.S. Please babygirl give me a sign that you are still with me spiritually love you and always will forever Love your Uncle Leon

Lost without you

February 10, 2011

My Love, My Life, My World, My Everything

Babygirl Mum Mum is so lost without you to the point that I don't even know what I'm doing or sayng anymore. My Life has no meaning without you. Sometimes I really think that I'm going crazy. I'm still tryng to make some sense out of all this and you not being here this is so damm hard because I know you should still be with me 16 yrs was not enough even though I thank God for giving me 16yrs with you but I wanted more years. I should have been the first to go not my First Grandchild. I will never get over thiis and the hole in my heart will never close. Baby we had so much to do together so much more laughter and joy to share with each other. I will never understand why God took you from us. I love you so much babygirl.

Mum Mum

February 5, 2011

i remember you eating sunflowers seed unitl your mouth was dry. You would always say to me you and the other triple threat, oh aunt Neicy everytime I said something old fashion or try to act young. The way you laugh and the smile on your face and the crazy thing you would do,she kept us on our toes never a boring moment. For some reason you cried everytime I came near you when you were a baby. i see you now running around your Mum Mum house, the little girl who sneaker was alway new and white. You kept a eye on Marcus when your Mom watch him for me, I can still see you coming down the step on Catherine street to open the door for me, and smiling. The world is empty without your present. The little fighter in our family. LOVE YOU ANGEL NOW AND TO INFINITY AND BEYOND WILL LOVE YOU UNTIL THE END OF TIME

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My Joy

February 2, 2011

My Love my Life today is one month since you left us. But it seems just like yesterday. Baby girl I was prayng that I would'nt wake up today to deal with you not being here. My baby My Love My Everything I need you so much. The hole in my heart will never close. They keep tellng me That I have to life on for you. But Little do they know I relly don't want to live on. When God took you he took me to. They don't know that it s not that easy to continue with life. The only reason that I'm here is because if I take my own life I will never get to see you again other then that I would have been gone from this life. You were my Love My Life from the first day I laid eyes on you 16 years ago. And I said that is my Baby. and from that day on you were my Baby. I Love and miss you sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo That the paiin is so painful. I Love you My Love ,My Life ,My joy ,My everythng

Your Mum Mum forever and ever

January 30, 2011

She was our little fighter, our precious angel. I would always push her bangs back and she would always say (stop aunt neicy) and laugh. I WANT HER BACK, GOD PLEASE WHY DIDNT YOU TAKE SOME ONE ELSE. I WILL LOVE YOU DENISE FOREVER, I WILL THINK OF YOU EVERYDAY SUNRISE AND AT SUNSET. MY LIFE BECAME HELL WHEN YOU LEFT US, I WILL NEVER CELBRATE ANOTHER NEW YEAR. THERE IS A PART OF THIS FAMILY THAT WILL NEVER BE REPLACE. A HOLE THAT WILL NEVER CLOSE. I AM ANGRY AT GOD FOR TAKING HER, WHY. I LOVE YOU DENISE

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