You always ran and hollered Aunt Mayce as soon as you saw me when you were little. I watched you grow into the most beautiful lady. We were close when you were younger but time and things made us have less time together for the last couple years but that didn’t stop you. When I saw you just a couple days before you passed you ran up to me and hugged me and yelled Aunt Mayce just like you did when you were little. I love you just as much now as when you were little. You’ll never be gone to me. I love you Dizzy Dezzy.

Desaray, it still seems so unreal. I can not wrap my head around any of it. Everyone tells me due in time it gets better, but from were I am sitting, it dont. I wake up and go to bed thinking of u. Thinking maybe I didnt do enough, or I should have done something a different way. I look at ur pictures and think back on how much u had to offer to the world. You trusted everyone and tryed so hard to be everyones friend, even if they did u dirty. Cause all u wanted was to be loved. I am sorry I didnt get to save u this time. My heart breaks each time I think of u or hear ur name. So many questions left un answer and I hope due in time we find them. I hope u know that u was loved dearly. I have my moments were I am sad, mad, angery, and hurt in so many ways. I know u better than anyone and I know deep down u was not alone and I know u didnt do any of this to ur self. People are so cruel baby girl, I tryed to tell u to stay away from those people. U always said mom, they not bad people cause deep down u really wanted to belive that. Ur daugther now has to grow up missing the best part of life, and thats getting to know her mom. I wont let her forget u or tell her the good parts of u. U had been fighting a battle for a long time and I wanna say the battle won but I cant cause I know the battle didnt take u, someone did. I am sorry baby girl I am so sorry, momma loves u and dont u forget that. TO THE MOON AND BACK.

Rest in Heaven Cous!!!

Desaray, momma loves u to the moon and back baby girl. I am so sorry that I didn't get to save u this time , momma would give anything to have u bk in my arms . Ur daughter is so beautiful and she reminds me of u everyday. As long as there's a breath in me she will always be took care of and loved . U will be missed dearly by many people but mostly family. Tell Dakota Southerland we miss and love him too. Fly high my angel and rest til we meet again .