Desaray, it still seems so unreal. I can not wrap my head around any of it. Everyone tells me due in time it gets better, but from were I am sitting, it dont. I wake up and go to bed thinking of u. Thinking maybe I didnt do enough, or I should have done something a different way. I look at ur pictures and think back on how much u had to offer to the world. You trusted everyone and tryed so hard to be everyones friend, even if they did u dirty. Cause all u wanted was to be loved. I am sorry I didnt get to save u this time. My heart breaks each time I think of u or hear ur name. So many questions left un answer and I hope due in time we find them. I hope u know that u was loved dearly. I have my moments were I am sad, mad, angery, and hurt in so many ways. I know u better than anyone and I know deep down u was not alone and I know u didnt do any of this to ur self. People are so cruel baby girl, I tryed to tell u to stay away from those people. U always said mom, they not bad people cause deep down u really wanted to belive that. Ur daugther now has to grow up missing the best part of life, and thats getting to know her mom. I wont let her forget u or tell her the good parts of u. U had been fighting a battle for a long time and I wanna say the battle won but I cant cause I know the battle didnt take u, someone did. I am sorry baby girl I am so sorry, momma loves u and dont u forget that. TO THE MOON AND BACK.