A Father's Love


My earhtern father he wasn't always there He wasn't always around So often times I wondered did he even care.

My earthern father He wasn't always true Sometimes he let me down sometimes he made me feel sad and blue. My earthern father at times he was hard and even difficult to be found.

 I can't quite understand the patience of this man Always seeming to find a way to disappoint and hurt Was he tired or just not too alert?

I spoke those words not to bring hurt or shame to my daddy's memory or even his name. But to bring glory to my Heavenly Father.

You see I used to be like all the other little girl so long ago you know. Wanting him to be there so desperately, didn't you know That I need you so, I never wanted you to go Did you ever think daddy that I wanted you to stay Before you up and left on that sad day.

I didn't know like I know now Jesus, yes He will be my friend So even though it is so My earthern father was often on the go.

Yes, I know I told you this before My Heavenly Father was always there with me Always there walking with me As my earthern father was walking out the door.

At times carrying me Loving, comforting, and caring for me Every second, every moment, Of every single day, and even when I didn't see you too busy looking for my earthern father, Heavely Father at those times you stood even closer.

I guess my earthern father never knew Or understood the burden I was carrying He was probably too busy to notice Dealing with all the demons of everyday trouble

At times I guess he forgot That he had conceive a little girl in this world That just wanted him to come back to town And share a little bit of his love

Every once in a while From time to time You know, just take her to the playground

I had plenty of questions for Daddy Never really got any answers Why would you leave me daddy Didn't you care that I am your daughter?

I am so glad my Heavenly Father He didn't leave me that way To the decisions of my earthern father To whether or not he choose to stay

He stepped in and showed his special love WOW! That's the meaning of a true father's love, Redeeming back a daughter through a son's love. Now that's really all I need to know For now and it really is enough

And as for the rest Well that's just earthern stuff Thank You Heavenly Father For sharing my pain

So I say bye bye earthern father I knew you couldn't stay I'm beginning to understand You never stayed around too long That just wasn't part of the plan

Didn't you know that I needed you Daddy I never wanted you to go But later I learned what it meant to obey And I was rewarded the years of the daughter-father delay. So I knew you had to leave my dear daddy to only my Heavenly Father does this apply: I Will Never Leave You Nor Forsake You, everyone else must say goodbye now have came your time, a time I can no longer deny.

So glad that I gave you your flowers while you were here father. There we're always constant reminders that there may not be no tomorrows had I not done that it all would have been lost. And I would have been left with what ifs... and regrets and a heart full of sorrows.

Now you may be questioning is she not bitter is she real ok?, how can you show love this guy when he wasn't there on any on your special days, sure of course I was bitter and very mad, I even had a right to my pain but to tell the truth I was mostly scared I could hold on to it or I could let lose I thought you knew by now that it is that Heavenly Father's love that special gift from above. This is that special love that my heavenly father grew to bring about that special breakthrough.

And put a stop to Satan's horrifying games. Now I can see this most stuning and wonderful thing.

God sent a daughter in all of her pain to go and rescue a father from his guilt and his shame to bring about a love that could break this thing to finally put an end to this demolistic blame.

Bringing about a purpose to this thang. And through it all God worked a plan to free a father and a child from this family legacy and now we are finally free to be able to give God thanks for our family tree.

Gratitude unlocks the fullness of life. It turns what we have into enough and more. It

turns denial into acceptance, chaos into order, confusion to charity. It can turn a

meal into a feast, a house into a home, a stranger into a friend, Gratitude makes

sense of our past, brings peace for today, and creates visions for tomorrow.

( Melody Beattle)

My earthly father wasn't there when I was growing up. Growing up without my dad was a hard thing for me to accept. I remember looking at all the other girls with their dads. But, me I did not have a dad to talk about or talk with. First of all,  he was not there to wipe my tears when I cried. But, My heavenly father was waiting on me to reach out to him and allow him to wipe away my tears. Somehow I ignored God, I wanted my daddy to be there to  tuck me into bed and tell me stories. Even though my earthly father was not there, my heavenly father was right there waiting on me to reach out to him. But, oh I wanted to be like every one else, to have a loving father for a little girl to look up to. Someone to scare away the monsters and bad guys, to take away all my fears. Not knowing that my heavenly father promised to take away all these things. But, I continued to ignore my heavenly father. I remember as a child around my dad's mom or sister,  searching for pictures or eavesdropping for his name to be called. With my heavenly father he was just a whisper away, all I had to do was call on the name of Jesus. But, I continued to ignore my loving heavenly father. My earhtly father,  was missing in all areas of my life. There were many nights I longed to have him in my life. I grew on up to be a teenager, started dating, my dad was not there to guide me or teach me about the slick willie. Therefore, I was not wise to the games that happen while dating. Even when I got married he was not there to give me away. I am not sharing out of spite, or to bring shame on my dad. This was my life, this is what I lived. Even though my earthly father was not there my heavenly father was right there all the time. Because the bible says he will be your mother and your father. But, I ignored my heavenly father and became angry that my earthly father paid me no attention. In the process of ignoring my heavenly father I did things that meant me no good. Even though I felt all alone I was not  alone, I just did not know it.  God was there all the time. Our earthly fathers get to choose what they want to do. Unfortunely some don't choose the right thing.  God gives us all a choice,  But, one thing he does promise is that he will be there for the motherless and the  fatherless. He will be our mother, he will be our father. Instead of me looking to God who was there all the time I felt sorry for myself, and continued to ignore God. I went through a lot because of this. I did not realize what God was lovingly doing in my life then. Amazingly it was only when I truly stop ignoring my heavenly father that was when I got my earthly father, and was able to enjoy him the last few years of his life. I thank God for those memories that I have today. He made it all possible. My heavenly Father did it. No one could have done it any better. I love the outcome so much better. I did not realize God's love and plan for my life , then,  but I realize it now!! Praise God!!