I really am missing my son daily I thought maybe it would get easier in time but it doesn't never will those who have lost a loved one a son knows where I'm coming from I gave my good days but there's not one day that goes by that I don't miss or think if my son weedy I pray that each day the lord looks over him and he's at peace he lived a life that was fast and lived money but we talked and he was drained tired and just alone somewhere in life where not one person could help him with the cure he needed but God and there's more than once that we prayed and prayed and cried together that if anything at all that God would put his heart soul and kind at rest so he could actually be himself he was a funny guy living and would give anyone the shirt off his back and an animal a home if needed all the shut weedy got into like that skin head bulldhit that wasn't my son but living in prison made him be that and one thing about my son once he was deviated in something than he would live it to the fullest and stand behind and in front of it no matter what the price was that he had to pay he was down for the real shit he got into and would die keeping the oath he made to all that was by his side in good bad indifferent that he take to his grave so the Nan he was was himself I just miss him dearly and want all u to know and pay close attention to ur sins if u have any cause we think we know them but at times they try to reach out and tell us they hurting it they have problems they need help but never ask cause they think there week so plz all of u with sons abd daughters too watch pay attention talk old and communicate with them get to know them as who they r weather or not u like who or what they r doing because there will come that day that I will miss them dearly in ur life and wish u would of did more as a parent for them so love and enjoy them and let them be them I live u weedy miss y even more so so fuckin much son and I know ur looking down on mama and see her wishing if she could have one thing in life from god that it would be to just see u and hold u hug u and tell u once again mama loves u son oh so so much u know this I know I miss ur presence and ur voice in the house and through the neighborhood sin live u sin u do rest now I'm coming soon to be with u I promise u 

One day we were in church and weedy disappeared I ask his brother Alan where's yr brother Alan and he said over there mom under the chairs so I looked and weedy was crawling in-between the chairs of people and all u could hear was women saying ooh my  oh goodness and jumping up and it was weedy he was going and touching the ladies with nylons on rubbing his hand on there legs it was so funny not me but his brother wanted to go get him but I did and the ladies just laughed and smiled weedy get ur ass over here son and leave the ladies legs alone sin he said but mama they feel so soft and nice I just laughed what more could I do he's always been a lil ladies man since gif knows when and still was the day he lated to rest this is just a memory that made us all laugh at church when he was talked about