I AM SO TIRED OF BEING ON THIS EARTH I AM STRUGGLING HERE I WANT TO TAKE THIS BOTTLE OF SLEEPING PILLS AND BE DONE WITH IT BUT IT IS A SIN AND I WON''T SEE YOU AND JEFF IF I DO BUT I CAN'T TAKE THE BACK STABBING LYING PEOPLE ANYMORE THE ONES I LOVE MOST AND WILL DO ANYTHING FOR THINK THEY CAN DISRESPECT ME BY SCREAMING AT ME AT THE TOP OF THERE LUNGS AND LYING ABOUT ME THAT I AM A PIECE OF TRASH AND SHOULD BE CRUMPPLED UP AND THROWN AWAY AND MAKE UP THE OUTRAGEOUS LIES ABOUT YOU AS A MOTHER THAT NEVER HAPPENED UNTIL THEY NEED SOMETHING FROM YOU AND THEN IT'S NOT CAN YOU DO IT IT'S JUST YOU HALF TO AND NEVER A THANK YOU IT'S JUST EXPECTED OF YOU AS IF YOU OWE THEM THEN YOUR GARBAGE AGAIN AND IF YOU NEED SOMETHING YOU HALF TO BEG OR THEY SAY OK AND IGNORE YOUR NEED I WISH I COULD TALK TO YOU BUT THIS IS THE ONLY WAY I CAN AND I KNOW NO ONE WILL SEE IT NO ONE CARES ABOUT YOU AND I IT'S ALWAYS BEEN YOU AND ME NOW IT'S JUST ME I MISS YOU SO MUCH MY LOVE AND MY BEST FRIEND AND I PRAY TO GOD PLEASE PLEASE TAKE ME FROM HERE AMEN! I AM SO DONE THIS PAIN IS UNBEARABLE AND I HOPE GOD SEES THESE WORDS AND FEELS THE PAIN

IN MY HEART AND HEARS ME AND GRANTS ME THIS I AM DONE I LOVE YOU MY DARLING!!!

I CAN'T HELP BEING SELFISH I NEED YOU HERE WITH ME YOU ARE STILL MY WORLD TRYING TO FUNCTION EVERYDAY LIFE IS SO HARD MOST DAYS I SIT IN MY ROOM STARRING AT THE TV UNABLE OR WANTING TO GO ANYWHERE OR GETTING DRESSED WHAT'S THE POINT! ON OCCASIONS WHEN FAMILY DO GET ME OUT WE DO THINGS THAT YOU AND I LOVED DOING AND THIS YEAR THEY GOT ME TO CONCERTS AND I GOT TO SEE OUR BAND BUT IT DOESN'T MATTER WHERE I AM OR WHAT I'M DOING YOUR RIGHT THERE MY MIND AND MY HEART ARE WITH YOU AND THAT IS THE ONLY PLACE I WANT TO BE AND THANK YOU FOR COMING TO ME AND TALKING TO ME AND I COULD HEAR YOU AS IF YOU WERE LAYING NEXT TO ME I FELT YOUR ARMS AROUND ME AND I KEPT SAYING IF I DON'T MOVE HE WILL STAY BUT OF COURSE THAT CAN'T BE BUT I COULD HAVE STAYED IN THAT MOMENT JUST TO HAVE YOU WITH ME I MISS YOU SO MUCH AND THIS PAIN IS TO MUCH AND I CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE I WISH MY TIME HERE WOULD HURRY UP I CAN'T WAIT TO BE IN YOUR ARMS AGAIN AND TO NEVER HALF TO PART AGAIN THEY SAY IT GETS EASIER IN TIME WELL IT DOESN'T YOU JUST GO THROUGH THE MOTIONS AND YOUR PAIN JUST GOES DEEPER INSIDE AND YOU LEARN TO SMILE AND LAUGH ON THE OUTSIDE WHILE YOUR DYING ON THE INSIDE BUT YOU ALREADY KNOW THAT I MISS EVERYDAY AND EVERY NIGHT EVERY SECOND EVERY HOUR AND EVERY BREATH UNTIL THE SECOND I CLOSE MY EYES AND TAKE MY LAST EARTHLY BREATH AND TO OPEN THEM AND TAKE A NEW ETERNAL BREATH AND SEE YOU IN A NEW LIGHT TAKING MY HAND AND GUIDING ME INTO ETERNITY TO LIVE ON FOREVER I LOVE YOU ANDY BEST!

To my little brother, I miss you dearly,We had alot of hard times when we were growing up,but you always seem to make us laugh,you were a cut-up. I wish we had more time as adults to spend together but life sometimes gets in the way! I love you always and miss you!!! Love your big sister.

My heart still aches for you the same as it did 2 years ago when you went home to be with the lord and I will always love you and you will always be my soulmate time will never change that                DARLING ANGEL I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU                            YOU ARE MY HEART AND SOUL

You are the love of my life you are my soul mate life will never be the same until I'm in your arms again and were living through eternity free of any pain so until then you will be in my heart mind and soul I will forever love you until we're going on in heaven and never be apart again I love you xoxoxo