February 17, 2013
The last few years of my mom's life were hard on me. Not so hard that I had to take care of her because I didn't. She found sources to do that in place of me. What was hard on me was watching her deteriorate dramatically right before my eyes.
Most of you know that alcohol and cigarettes were the primary causes of my mom's passing. Because of those, she not only lost her health but, very sadly, she lost most of her friends, too. And me. I was there, but not often.
Still, she was my mom and I miss her terribly. With each passing year, I miss her more, not less. I knew that when I wasn't visiting that I 'should' and that I'd probably regret it. I like to lead my life without regrets because I know that we do things to the best of our ability at the time so there should be no feelings of regret later.
So, though I have no regrets, I do have memories. Memories of the mom she was. She did her best. I turned out pretty well, thanks to her. I'll never know why she chose some of the paths she chose, but I do know that she did her best.
She was beautiful, sexy, smart and fiery. I have to admit that I do wish she was still here. I have so many questions I'd like to ask her and I'd love it if she were here to see my artwork and the success I'm having with doing what I love...and what she encouraged me to do since I was a little girl. I'm not sure if she sees it now as some may believe. What I believe, though, is even better: she is living a new life, a happier life, with the love of her life...whoever that is. They're probably living somewhere in Greece.
She didn't want a memorial service after she passed. Always frugal, she didn't want me to spend the money. She also didn't want for us to be sad; rather, she wrote to me that she wanted us to celebrate her LIFE.
For many reasons, it has taken me just over two years to do this. Since her family and friends are scattered mostly on the east and west coasts of North America and getting together would be nearly impossible, I thought it would be best if I upgraded this account and added photos.
I've added many of my favorites of her, depicting her life. I've also added some other scans of 'stuff' that depicted who she was. I've updated the background music, too, to a song by Tony Martin, her favorite singer - thanks to her beloved cousin, Lena, for letting me know about that. The song is entitled, 'I'll See You in My Dreams'. I've also added another song, her favorite, 'Symphony of Love'. Thanks to Lena again for letting me know about that!!
I know she also loved singers Sergio Franchi and Jerry Vale. I'll never forget her playing their songs and singing along to them.
I'd be thrilled if you added photos, words, whatever. I believe you can click on 'Add Photos' under her pictures on the right. If not or if you have trouble, please don't hesitate to email me at joyce@joyceauteri.com and I'll do it for you.
Thank you all for honoring my mom by taking a look here. I know she did and I, too, love you all.