May 24, 2020
by Ruth Kenyah
Dear Uncle James,
I remember when we were children, you always brought a packet or two of biscuits when you visited us at home in Nairobi – we even called you ‘uncle biscuit’ :) They were those milky and thick Marie's, and you allowed us to eat all of them with tea. Because when you visited us in Nairobi you stayed overnight rather than travel back home to Nakuru late, when bedtime came, you’d ask dad to switch off the TV so we could read the bible, then you would lay your hands on me, Konnie and Ngumo and pray for us. One time, you visited with your brother, uncle Njuguna. I’d never met him before and didn’t know that he’d lost two fingers on his right hand. Our house-help at the time took me aside and told me that if I dared even shake his hand I would lose my fingers too. The prospect terrified me. You noticed that I wouldn’t shake uncle Njuguna’s hand and as you washed your hands for supper, you asked me why and I told you. I remember how you laughed in your characteristic chuckle, wiped your hands and simply stated “Wacuka, that’s not true” then you led me to uncle Njuguna and stood there while I shook his hand.
As a pre-adolescent, I remember how you’d draw me to your side in greeting, then ask me: Wacuka, niwitikirire Jesu? Wacuka have you accepted Jesus? I could never give you a straight answer. The idea that you maybe saw all of my childish waywardness and hoped I would change, embarrassed me to no end and I always hoped you’d forget to ask whenever we met. But your memory is legend and you’d always find a way to ask me every time. Such was your commitment to sharing the gospel of Jesus with me. You didn’t push, but you always made sure to tell me that Jesus loved me.
Your overwhelming acts of kindness and love to us as a family have altered our life paths forever. You and auntie hosting us during school holidays in Nakuru (always an early riser, you woke with enthusiasm and your loud singing of praise songs filled the house – much to the chagrin of us kids (especially Nyambura - :) ) who hoped to sleep in. Even after you left for the US, Auntie continued the tradition of having us over on school holidays and extended anytime drop in visits as we got older that we loved. To this day, Nakuru is our second home.
Because of you, Konnie got into Kabarak and later on you helped her plan and move to the US to study. You were as much a father to her as you were to Wambui, Nyambura, Eva and Isaac; even standing in for dad at her graduation. Your relationship with dad has been a model example to us of how friendship can be born out of blood and kinship as much as choice. You referred to each other simply as ‘cousin’ -kassin to Nyambura and me- but to us, it’s a word loaded with affection, history, connection and love and the depth and meaning from it has grounded and bonded us cousins to this day.
For me the running and avoidance of God that I did as a child ended in 2001. By the time Konnie, mum and I visited you in Mobile in 2006 and I told you about accepting Christ, I was a ministry intern. You hugged me again to your side and told me what great news it was and we talked for hours about the challenges of church ministry work. At your house in Mobile, you cooked ugali and whole tilapia for us. It was the only time we had seen or experienced any man in our family cook and it blew our minds. Mum and I expressed our surprise in humour and auntie joked that she didn’t understand why you wanted her in America if you could cook for yourself. What also surprised me most was how comfortable you were in the kitchen; standing there in front of the hot cooker, turning and turning the ugali until it was ready. You didn’t seem bothered or affected to be in a white, striped button-down shirt neatly tucked into khaki’s, chopping onions and tomatoes to fry the fish while the women folk and youth (auntie, mum, Konnie, Isaac and I) sat and listened to your jokes and stories. All through the cooking and talking, you never broke a sweat even though it was lunch time on a hot Alabama Summer day because as we learnt that afternoon, you were not only used to cooking for everyone and enjoyed doing it; you were also an avid walker/jogger/runner and flipping ugali could not compare to that.
This memory is one that will stay with us the most because that day you showed us fully the man you truly were; kind, generous with your time and counsel, unhindered by traditional ‘gender roles’ and confident in your place in the world. You were always sure of who you were and doing dishes (because you also did those) could never erase that. It is these and other values that we have seen in your children, our cousins, and those that anyone who knows you will recognize in them as truly you.
When you and I spoke to you in 2019 on the evening after Cucu’s funeral in Nakuru, you talked about how you planned to return to Kenya permanently. You told me you had academic manuscripts that you had started to work on and we talked about helping you edit them for publishing. It is my hope that those who experienced and saw your passion and commitment to education for all regardless of age, background, gender or relation to you would find a way to help your legacy live on.
The morning Nyambura called me, barely able to speak, with news of your accident and passing, like everyone else, I couldn’t believe it. When I told dad later the same day, he choked up and hang up the phone before I finished speaking. Mum was similarly affected. You were a friend and confidant from the day she married dad and she wouldn’t have gotten through her time abroad if it wasn’t for your calls to check up on her. That night I prayed for a long time for God to raise you up again. As a family, we have struggled to understand why He, the God you made sure to bring into our lives and who later saved us, allowed you to go the way you did and even at all. We still struggle to understand and God hasn’t yet given any answers yet. I don’t know if he will. What we do know is that he has welcomed you home nonetheless and because you are absent from us in body, you are present with him as we all will be and so we believe that we will see you again.
With love and affection always, until we meet again:
Wacuka Kenyah
With
Konnie Kenyah, Ngumo Kenyah, Florence Kenyah (Mama Wamaitha) and Kenyah Ngumo.
I remember when we were children, you always brought a packet or two of biscuits when you visited us at home in Nairobi – we even called you ‘uncle biscuit’ :) They were those milky and thick Marie's, and you allowed us to eat all of them with tea. Because when you visited us in Nairobi you stayed overnight rather than travel back home to Nakuru late, when bedtime came, you’d ask dad to switch off the TV so we could read the bible, then you would lay your hands on me, Konnie and Ngumo and pray for us. One time, you visited with your brother, uncle Njuguna. I’d never met him before and didn’t know that he’d lost two fingers on his right hand. Our house-help at the time took me aside and told me that if I dared even shake his hand I would lose my fingers too. The prospect terrified me. You noticed that I wouldn’t shake uncle Njuguna’s hand and as you washed your hands for supper, you asked me why and I told you. I remember how you laughed in your characteristic chuckle, wiped your hands and simply stated “Wacuka, that’s not true” then you led me to uncle Njuguna and stood there while I shook his hand.
As a pre-adolescent, I remember how you’d draw me to your side in greeting, then ask me: Wacuka, niwitikirire Jesu? Wacuka have you accepted Jesus? I could never give you a straight answer. The idea that you maybe saw all of my childish waywardness and hoped I would change, embarrassed me to no end and I always hoped you’d forget to ask whenever we met. But your memory is legend and you’d always find a way to ask me every time. Such was your commitment to sharing the gospel of Jesus with me. You didn’t push, but you always made sure to tell me that Jesus loved me.
Your overwhelming acts of kindness and love to us as a family have altered our life paths forever. You and auntie hosting us during school holidays in Nakuru (always an early riser, you woke with enthusiasm and your loud singing of praise songs filled the house – much to the chagrin of us kids (especially Nyambura - :) ) who hoped to sleep in. Even after you left for the US, Auntie continued the tradition of having us over on school holidays and extended anytime drop in visits as we got older that we loved. To this day, Nakuru is our second home.
Because of you, Konnie got into Kabarak and later on you helped her plan and move to the US to study. You were as much a father to her as you were to Wambui, Nyambura, Eva and Isaac; even standing in for dad at her graduation. Your relationship with dad has been a model example to us of how friendship can be born out of blood and kinship as much as choice. You referred to each other simply as ‘cousin’ -kassin to Nyambura and me- but to us, it’s a word loaded with affection, history, connection and love and the depth and meaning from it has grounded and bonded us cousins to this day.
For me the running and avoidance of God that I did as a child ended in 2001. By the time Konnie, mum and I visited you in Mobile in 2006 and I told you about accepting Christ, I was a ministry intern. You hugged me again to your side and told me what great news it was and we talked for hours about the challenges of church ministry work. At your house in Mobile, you cooked ugali and whole tilapia for us. It was the only time we had seen or experienced any man in our family cook and it blew our minds. Mum and I expressed our surprise in humour and auntie joked that she didn’t understand why you wanted her in America if you could cook for yourself. What also surprised me most was how comfortable you were in the kitchen; standing there in front of the hot cooker, turning and turning the ugali until it was ready. You didn’t seem bothered or affected to be in a white, striped button-down shirt neatly tucked into khaki’s, chopping onions and tomatoes to fry the fish while the women folk and youth (auntie, mum, Konnie, Isaac and I) sat and listened to your jokes and stories. All through the cooking and talking, you never broke a sweat even though it was lunch time on a hot Alabama Summer day because as we learnt that afternoon, you were not only used to cooking for everyone and enjoyed doing it; you were also an avid walker/jogger/runner and flipping ugali could not compare to that.
This memory is one that will stay with us the most because that day you showed us fully the man you truly were; kind, generous with your time and counsel, unhindered by traditional ‘gender roles’ and confident in your place in the world. You were always sure of who you were and doing dishes (because you also did those) could never erase that. It is these and other values that we have seen in your children, our cousins, and those that anyone who knows you will recognize in them as truly you.
When you and I spoke to you in 2019 on the evening after Cucu’s funeral in Nakuru, you talked about how you planned to return to Kenya permanently. You told me you had academic manuscripts that you had started to work on and we talked about helping you edit them for publishing. It is my hope that those who experienced and saw your passion and commitment to education for all regardless of age, background, gender or relation to you would find a way to help your legacy live on.
The morning Nyambura called me, barely able to speak, with news of your accident and passing, like everyone else, I couldn’t believe it. When I told dad later the same day, he choked up and hang up the phone before I finished speaking. Mum was similarly affected. You were a friend and confidant from the day she married dad and she wouldn’t have gotten through her time abroad if it wasn’t for your calls to check up on her. That night I prayed for a long time for God to raise you up again. As a family, we have struggled to understand why He, the God you made sure to bring into our lives and who later saved us, allowed you to go the way you did and even at all. We still struggle to understand and God hasn’t yet given any answers yet. I don’t know if he will. What we do know is that he has welcomed you home nonetheless and because you are absent from us in body, you are present with him as we all will be and so we believe that we will see you again.
With love and affection always, until we meet again:
Wacuka Kenyah
With
Konnie Kenyah, Ngumo Kenyah, Florence Kenyah (Mama Wamaitha) and Kenyah Ngumo.