Oh well baby I just wanted to let you know how much I still miss you. I miss your voice and I miss your smile. I love you so much and I don’t know didn’t think I’d be able to make it without you, but God has comforted me and strengthen me and made the way but one thing I do have those great memories that smile that laugh those funny jokes that you tell,it’s nothing like having you here though just want you to know I love you and I miss you so much

Hey baby oh how I wish that I could hear your voice how I wish that I could hear you say hey midget when I think about you son I smile because I see I see your smile and your smile is so much like your mom i smile when I look at my mouth I think about you cuz your mouth was made like my mouth and you had the most prettiest smile and you had such happy laughter, I know you had some problems and I know that you were recovering from them . I just thank God that I had the time to speak to you before you left I had the opportunity to hear you say Mom I'm just calling to say I love you that meant so much to me when I think about it now those are the words that ring in my ears when I think about you and I think about your smile I think about those crazy jokes that you used to tell not really jokes but just funny things that you would say that would just have me on the floor and I remember the times even though you were a grown man I could still hug on you and rub your head and just hold you in my arms I miss that I miss that I miss you baby I miss you so much I wish you were here. It was a rough 2 weeks because we remember it was exactly on the 12th when I was communicating with you and sending you scriptures and ministering to you don't go up on that Hill you were so concerned about your friend and you said I think you went up on the hill and I said please don't go up there I said because I don't know what I would do if something happened to you you said I'm not going up there mama I promise I don't know if that was the heal that you was at I don't know if that was the place and I have a whole bunch of I wish I would have especially when I know that I believe God that if I if I ask him to bring you back to put life in your body that he would do that and I didn't pursue that and for that I'm sorry but anyway baby I love you and I miss you I miss you so much rest in peace my baby.

I miss you

I miss you son every day and there is not a day that goes by that I don't crave for your presence. MY heart still gets very heavy, it hurts very deeply because you were taken from me. I Im trying to understand how this could happen and I don't blame God that this happened to you I don't know how to explain it but I'm sure I'll  understand it in the by n by I know God loved you still loves you because your spirit still lives on. I still love you and I miss you so much I miss you so much and I'm sure you already know your murderer was murdered .Sometimes I wonder if I had prayed for Mercy for him if he could still be here and face his day in court, so that I could have better closure, he took you from me I prayed and I told the Lord that if he turned himself in that I would pray for Mercy and if he doesn't then I won't pray for Mercy. So the Lord didn't give him Mercy. It is not about him. It is about you you're good song you were a sweetheart and I thank God that he put you in my life for whatever time he gave me with you. I give God the glory and I love you son rip

My son I thought it was going to be easier by now knowing that you're gone , it's hard for me to put in words how I'm really feeling right now. I just know that I'm still hurting and I miss you so very much. I have my days and I look at you and I smile and I think about all the things good things good memories that took place in your life and mine and then on days like this I heart aches and miss you so much and I just wish I could just here one word from you and tell you that I love you. I Love you babe. mom

Son it was about this time last month and I actually felt like I was losing my mind when I got the news on the 1st of last month that you were gone away that someone took your life. God I thought I would die I felt like I could not get my breath and then I did and then I wanted the nightmare to end I wanted to wake up and to find that it was all a bad dream but it was true you're gone and you're gone forever from me. Thank God for the comfort that he gave me in knowing that you're in heaven with him and that he answered my prayer and sent ministering angels to minister to you as you were leaving this world and that you're okay that you made conversation with him and made things right before you left this world that's the only way I was able to give you up the only way. So one day we will see each other again and hold each other and you'll get to call me midget and I'll smile and my heart will be complete again because I will be able to hug you and see that beautiful smile and pretty eyes that you had and be able to hold you in my arms again forever. I love you baby and I miss you so much until we meet again by baby

My sweet sweet baby it's hard for me now to put it in words how I'm feeling I feel such a great lost a lost so deep that it's unexplainable. The comfort is that you are with my Lord and that he sent his ministering angels to minister to you at your last minutes and that you prayed to our father. That gives me Comfort, but I still have this deep deep void in my heart. I heard your voice today on a recording at Christmas time and my heart sank realizing that I would never hear that voice again in real time. It hurts so deep I love you baby. From the very first time I saw you when you were born I knew you were special, special to me special to your dad and above all special to Our Father in heaven and I know now he's holding you now, and I know you're looking down on me now with compassion​ and saying mom I'm okay I'm alright. I I love you baby and I will see you again God bless you baby.

DJ was a beautiful person inside and outside. He is still my brother and I loved him dearly. He will live in my heart forever. I miss him so much already. Just the thought of him never calling me again breaks my heart even the more. But God comforts me even now because I know I will see him again