My baby boy I love u so much. Each day that passes the pain gets worse. Ur always in my mind and I always wonder what u would be like if they helped u to live. I don't no how long I can take this pain I have not been able to hold u and Courtney in my arms and give u the love I have for u both. I hope u and Courtney are looking after each other. Mummy loves u both so much and misses both of u to. Tear are falling and I can't stop them its a big part of my life been taken away with u and Courtney not here with me. U were both to young, u needed ur mummy but the angels decided u was to good to stay so the came and took u. I often think what have I done so wrong in life for 2 of my beautiful baby's to be taken away and I feel so sad inside but try and always put on a happy face just so people don't realise how much I'm hurting. Mummy will be with u both when the time is right and I promise I will never let u go. Love u so much baby boy. Xxxxxxx

My baby boy I miss u so much. U would be 6 today and its mothers day aswel so I'm finding it really hard today. Tear still fall from my eyes and pain in my heart. There's a big empty space in my life without u and Courtney. I hope one day we will be together again. Love u so much happy birthday my boy xxxx

My baby boy im missing you so much. Each and every day is still the same, it dont get easier. My heart is broken. My tear run and my life is just not the same. You was taken away before you could even open your eyes to see who i was holding you so tight all on my own in that hospital bed whilst you slowly slipped away. I couldnt do anythink but hold you. I didnt want to let you go. You was so tiny. Those tiny little hand that i held so tight to let you no i was there, one minute i was so happy that you was here then the words i dreaded to hear that they couldnt help you to stay alive and i was just sat there waiting for my boy to pass. I didnt want you to go. I pleaded with the nurse to help and no one could. I cryed that day and i still cry today. I have your ashes on my shelf in the front room with ur teddies round you so u will always be with your family. Your big sister Courtney is flying high in heaven with you. Look after each other till i see u again then ill hold u both so tight and never let you go. Good night my baby x x x