I miss this woman more than words can ever express. 20 years from now it will hurt just as much as it does today. We've really been through some stuff since she passed. I've had some of the lowest points in my life over the past 3 or 4 years and there's been times that I LITERALLY was done... Just DONE. But it seems that mom always seems to know when I've made up my mind to just give up because she'll visit me in a dream and do what she did best... Motivate me to keep fighting. Even in death she finds a way to tell me when I'm being a stubborn ASSHAT or when I'm wrong or when I need to stop whining and just suck it tf up and move on. We had our moments, but she was as much a mother to me as she was her own kids. I only wish my kids would've had more time with her and that she were here to meet her great grandson because guaranteed, she'd love him to pieces. It breaks my heart knowing that my grandbaby will never get to meet his MawMaw. RIP Mom. You are on my mind all day everyday and I'm still cussing you sometimes for spoiling this damn brat of yours. I love him, but, my God can be get on my nerves sometimes.