The moment you left tore my heart to pieces I’m trying to be strong but my heart can’t handle what my eyes see this must be a dream this can’t be me I must be sleep I tired to wake up many times I tired to act like this wasn’t really me this can’t be my reality wow God I can’t believe this is really my reality.  I can’t believe Elijah that these bastards really took you from me now I have to face my reality that my son is gone the fact that I’m moving along and your not here its a nightmare that I never wanted to share I have to share this nightmare with many because Elijah you were loved by so many but the fact that your gone I can’t handle my heart is weak.  I can’t handle the pain they say I’m strong I guess that what they say but really you see the pain in my eyes they never tell lies if only they knew that my heart is broken and the pieces can never be put back together again because it’s missing you In  reality whatelse can I do a part of me died when you left and my life will never be the same I been crying I even screamed I even asked God why I couldn’t stay quiet I asked him and at the end I am still lefted with many questions and still no answers to my questions why wow God this is really my reality why did they kill my son he never deserved what was dealt to him and forever I will ask why is this my reality

I don’t know where to start man I don’t regret one moment with you fatboy we knew each other for 7 years and that still wasn’t enough time to enjoy your presence but the time I did get I appreciate every sec I remember one day we had a bet you wouldn’t kick me to the ground so I took off my shoes like yea this will give me some balance man you kick the sh*t outta me I flew lol man then when I dropped you off one day and you had a attitude and before you left I knew I had a back camera so I’m like close my trunk for I could see how mad you was I was screaming but I can go on for days I love you dearly cuzzo fly high you live you laugh and you definitely loved your family and friends your one of the most loyal person I’ve met I’m just glad I had the chance to call you my friend give my momma a hug & kiss for me you made it Elijah 

Eli,
Kid I remember you exactly as that! I remember meeting you for the first time, your smile stood out. I met your brothers  JJ & DJ first, not to long after you came along. The memories of you helping me cleaning my yard are priceless because we could never do that ! You had so much to say about school your brothers driving you crazy... lol.

I remember you ringing my doorbell at 6:45am before going to school to tell me Ms.Lulu your Christmas lights are on , I’ll turn them off for you when you forget . Awww dear thank you! Halloween too you guys all made sure my decorations were taken care of . It was all the little things you did that made me a proud neighbor.

One day I told DJ don’t ride your  bike on the neighbors grass they get weird when you do that. DJ being DJ his little bad ass said how like this he went onto ride his bike on  the neighbors grass ... lmbo You came to my aid yelled at DJ not to be doing that, cause the neighbored would come back and talk to me about you guys. You looked at me so seriously saying Ms.Lulu should I whoop his bad ass . If you tell me too I would . That look you have me of seriousness was priceless. 

Being around you guys was one of my best times, no stress, I had all the help I needed, I felt protected some how, most of all I knew you loved me. You didn’t say it with your words but your action spoke loud. 

When I would go to the market I knew I had to pick up a few snacks cause you guys worked hard with me to help me on my yard. The secret to get you fellas to work was feeding your belly’s ! Man did you guys have great work ethic here all it took was a snack . 

Eli you left beautiful memories with me and when I heard of your rainbow crossing it broke me down a piece of my heart left with you kid . You had such high energy and laughing was your illness . Like bro stop laughing cause then I start and I don’t even know why I’m cracking up. 

Kid your in paradise now with all the angelic creatures and our Heavenly Father. Love us from up above walk with us when we feel lonely.  Help us when we can’t help ourselves . Dear God help us all find peace in our hearts and open our minds to forgive all who have bent us with the separation of Eli. Love you kid , blessings in the sky.

Eli forget me not,
Ms.Lulu