way back when, back to 86, when you was about to cut your cake, your real birthday gift came. I can only imagine the things you may of been dealing with to only add me too the list..i recall, often, how jalapeno cheese dip and lays was your favorite snack, you was a Pepsi fanatic..i seem to find memories of you holding my hand walking me thru the city to school at washingtonpark elementary,  again holding my hand cross country.  West coast back to the east. I remember the first time you bailed me outta a mess..i remember the first time you seen your grandson..i remember the days where they seemed like they would never end..remember the time, long ago..i was convinced I was adopted lol, how you had showed me my birth certificate an assured me I wasn't..mom..i remember a time u may be wrong..you was right tho..and I see now the reason you kept us away from your relation..family is only immediate an what's so said is that immediately after you left..they immeaditly left..i recall the time aunt Louise was formula one driving with frita going bonkers with the door ajar. Lol. I remember...ninja turtles in the morning an video games  the park..i remember you filling more then the role of a single mother..i don't know how you did it. I can barely handle my own situation at times...im lost..but I recall..you can only find yourself when you are lost..i don't mean for this to be a rant..or anything other then a recollection of you, I miss you. More then what is able to be missed. 3rd class rock star...1st class artist huh lol. #booboo