My baby girl,
Things for me have been pretty rough lately. Al is in hospice. I don't know if he will make it to heaven, he has his own beliefs about God, Jesus and heaven. I pray for him a lot and I know God hears. Ryan came for a month to help me out here at Al's. I don't know how I could have made it if not for his visit. I miss you so much, I think of you all the time. It's hard to believe it's been 5 years since you went to heaven. The boys' family is growing, but I can imagine that you already know that. Watch over us daughter, life is hard and I don't always think too clearly. Your baby graduated from high school. I wanted so to be there, but couldn't get away from here long enough to even visit. I hope the boys know how much I love them, even though I don't see them enough. After Al passes, my life will go back to the way it was before he got sick. I will miss him and I can't say that I will see him again in heaven. He doesn't acknowledge Jesus and doubts God. He is being prayed for whether he believes or not. You are still an inspiration to me and I will always be proud to be your mom. Ryan and I talked about how much we miss you and how God decided to take you too young. I guess we aren't suppose to know God's plan, but I believe that you are where we will be when it's our time. You are in my heart always. Mom