Losing you Emily, changed me

Not for a day, or a week or a month, but forever

-- Momma 

Posted by Sammi Charney on March 15, 2022
I think about you all the time Emily. We were supposed to meet and never had the opportunity.. You were a really special , kind and genuine person. I will visit your resting place when I find myself down there, I promise.
Posted by Abbey Gowan on September 6, 2021
Happy Birthday, Emily <3
I miss you so much everyday.

With love, Clambake
Posted by Abbey Gowan on March 15, 2021
I can’t believe it has been 5 years since you have been gone. We all miss you very much Emily. ❤️
Posted by Abbey Gowan on September 7, 2020
Happy Birthday Emily. I know I am one day late on leaving a message here, but I posted photos and videos from you for your birthday yesterday. I miss you, and always wish we could’ve gotten to know each other better. I think of you and your family most days, as I’ve learned to count my blessings and see the beauty in every day life. We all miss you Em, and the world isn’t quite as beautiful without you but I know that you’re looking down at all of us, probably wondering what the heck crazy things we’re all doing now, haha. Anyways, happy birthday Emily. You are never forgotten
Posted by Michael Nielsen on March 16, 2020
You are and always will be missed.
Posted by Michael Nielsen on September 6, 2019
Happy heavenly birthday Emily Rose 
You are never forgotten!
Posted by Michael Nielsen on August 24, 2019
Emily Rose, I never knew you but I knew your mom and aunt June. If you were even half as beautiful spirit as them than I can’t imagine your moms heartache every day. I hope you are at peace and know you were loved and will never be forgotten.
Posted by Jake Appleton on August 1, 2017
Emily, you were the only girl I can ever say I truly loved. You were my best friend and the only one I could share anything and everything with. We shared a physical and spiritual bond I have not found elsewhere in this world. We promised to get married if we both got past 40 and were single, I wish I could have honored that promise. I miss you and I need you, you fulfilled a role in my life that I cannot get by without. I woke up again today crying, after dreaming about you. That time I was holding you, saying I would never let you get hurt, I should have held on longer. I'll love you and miss you for the rest of my life- Jake <3
Posted by Bernadette Walker on February 18, 2017
A truly sad day today. Ginger joined her daughter and I am so very sad. I will miss you Ginger. 
Posted by Alexander Wessels on February 13, 2017
Dear Ginger,

While I can't imagine the pain you are going through, I hope that you may not feel only grief. Rejoice, for even in a life cut short, Emily touched the hearts of so many people so deeply. Rejoice, for what you created and what she grew to be. Even though she is no longer here, her beauty has already made an impact, her unbridled confidence to forge her own path, style, and attitude inspire all of her friends to tackle life head on. Like a blaze, Emily's flame erupted and left a burning mark on our hearts, before returning to peace and rest. Rejoice for your daughter who, only with a mother so loving and joyful, could have grown into the beautiful and loving woman that she was.

Grieve for her loss, but remember to rejoice proudly for the life she did have. <3
Posted by Ginger Davis on February 10, 2017
Every day I think of you, not a moment goes by that I wonder where you are. My heart hurts my baby girl - I put my thoughts under stories here, but they are just words, that is all I have now.
Posted by Ginger Davis on September 6, 2016
On this day, 25 years ago, I was elated with joy of the birth of my Emily Rose, so perfect, so wanted and so loved.
On Emily's special day today, I wish her love in heaven above as I am trying to stay in her spirit and celebrate her life.
I remember all the special and kooky birthdays from years passed. Oh, how you made me laugh and always brought a smile to my face.
There is no greater torture in this life as your mother to live my life without you.
The loss of you in my life has been traumatizing, and I have no other alternative than to accept your death.
I will try to enjoy this day before me, because you would have wanted that.
Please everyone light a candle on Emily's Birthday today, at 8 PM, and take a picture and post it to her Facebook, If you can
I need this.
Happy Birthday baby,
I loved you more than you will ever know, the tears I shed today is selfish of me, but the overwhelming loneliness and sadness is so apparent in my mind.
It is not fair for any mother to go through the death of a child, especially one with one child that was her everything in life.
I love you Babe
- Mom
Posted by Don & Carol-lyn Davis on September 6, 2016
Whenever we see a child's book we think of you and the happy hours spent sitting in our laps reading to you. Today we bought "Curious George", one of your favorites, in remembrance of your 25th birthday.

Grandpa and Grandma
Posted by Marina Clambake on September 3, 2016
I miss you so very much. I miss our strange little conversations throughout the week about doodles, and clambake and sprout queen. I've tried to leave a note for you so many times here, and I always find myself closing out of it because it's too much.. I think of you everyday still, and have printed out your drawing for me , and hung it on my wall. I miss you dearly Queen Sprout.. rest well angel
-Clambake // The seashell lady <3
Posted by Nicholas DeOrnelas on July 13, 2016
I've been wanting to say something, but nothing would come to me. Every time I opened this page, I had to close it shortly after, or the squeezing in my throat would be too much. Now though, I'm here fighting through the pain and tears.

Emily, I wish we could have had more time together. The one sister I'll ever truly have, and you are gone before we could really see our story play out. Even though we grew up apart from each other, it was as if we spent our entire lives together. We were kindred spirits, and I would give anything to have you back. I wish I could say more right now, but this pain in my chest is just too bad right now.

I love you little sister. I miss that "Player 2" I never had the chance to have
Posted by David Shaw on July 9, 2016
The things you did for my friends, my family, and my self will never be forgotten. The group isn't the same without you. It just doesn't feel right without you here. I miss you so much, em. I wish you could see this. I wish you could know how much we all ache for you. You made me so proud to be your friend. I don't know where you are. I don't know what happens after this. I just want one more minute with my friend. I still owe you that lunch <3
Posted by kevin mitz on July 7, 2016
I miss you paco your smile I'll never forget a personality ill always remember you are forever in my heart I love you Paco.
Posted by ally nash-le on July 6, 2016
I had the biggest urge to message you and talk about the wonderful thing that is pet-parenthood on the 4th of July and exchange advice in how to combat the loud scary noises and soothe the furrchildren
I know we didn't talk much but I do miss seeing your posts and silly stuff.
I hope you are having a blast and laughing tons wherever you are now.
I also hope that your mom is okay. I'm sure you check up on her though
Posted by Martha Weathers on July 6, 2016
Ginger, My heart is so sad, Emily was a sweet soul and really enjoyed your time here at the cabin. So sad, God wrap you in His comfort knowing how she impacted others.
Posted by Ginger Davis on July 6, 2016
Every day I suffer, you were like my twin, our souls like one.

I will love you forever till we meet again.

Posted by Ginger Davis on May 30, 2016
I love you baby, miss you more than you could ever imagine.

- mama
Posted by Ingrid Erkman on May 29, 2016
Thank you for the joy you brought into my life. Your time here was way to short and I will miss you dearly. Thank you for bringing us Stinky and thank you for all the big bear hugs and smiles almost every time you greeted me. I hope you are in a better place. Please don't worry too much about your Mom. She is a very strong woman.
Love to you,
Posted by Katrina Quiocho on May 19, 2016
I miss your smile as you came to the lounge to hug us.
I miss your ridiculous jokes.
I miss your optimism.
We weren't very close, but the impact you left on my and other's lives is tremendous. Thank you for being our friend and loved one.
Posted by Jason Harris on May 18, 2016
"I miss you" is an understatement. It's more like "I distract myself because at night I wish I could have a conversation with you". I miss things we had in common and a little secret...

I miss your hugs way more now than you miss mine.
Posted by Carrie Hise on May 18, 2016
Emily Rose.. Your Mommy misses you very much. I know this because we are inner-connected.. Always have been. I wish I could do more.. My heart breaks for her! 

I wish you were still here and that I could have hung around with you more than that one time at the cabin. Even though that trip would have been way better had it just been us girls, we still had some fun! I remember leaving there with an indelible impression of this young, vibrant girl I had met. 

I knew she was special.. Funny, smart and unique. Like no other! Adorable, trendy and with a smile (and those dimples) as big as a mile. I read the tributes and watch the school memorial and realize how much you meant to a world of people and the diversity of who you were as a person and its clear how much you will be missed. Although I did not know you too well, I know enough to be able to say I loved you and miss you too!

RIP Beautiful Girl - I hope to see you on the other side!
Posted by Danielle Tristao on May 17, 2016
Emily, I only know you through your mother's stories. Her love for you is beyond this world so I know you are feeling it. I wish I had the pleasure of meeting you in person. Shine on beautiful girl
Posted by Joshua Darsey on May 17, 2016
I knew Emily since she was 4, and this still isn't real for me.
Even when I hadn't seen Emily for a couple years, she'd always have a hug and a smile for me. She was a bright light that was undeniably one of the nicest people I've ever met. A true testimony to the greatness of her Mother.
Posted by Mona Ku on May 17, 2016
We just met once in person but we liked each other right away. I would have loved to spend more time with you .. but we all will meet again .. one day .. Love, Mona
Posted by Melissa Hartman on May 17, 2016
Emily, you are a bright light in this dark world. Knowing you in my life has been a gift I will cherish forever. Ginger, I love you too, for bringing her into the world. May your heart find peace, we love you Emily.
Posted by Bruce Brackett on May 17, 2016
Emily, What a beautiful young woman you turned out to be... I have many wonderful memories of you my dear. It breaks my heart to see you go cousin! May you rest in peace!

Cousin Bruce W. Brackett
Posted by Christine Romero on May 16, 2016
OMG, I'm crying. I'm SO SO SO SO sad for you, as Emily's mama. I love you and wish things could be different. :(
Posted by Ginger Davis on May 16, 2016
My life will never be the same without you in it, my pain is endless and I will never forget you and I will always cherish your love, humor and smile.
I soo loved you baby
- Mom
Posted by james boyer on May 16, 2016
to love life, to love it even
when you have no stomach for it
and everything you’ve held dear
crumbles like burnt paper in your hands,
your throat filled with the silt of it.
When grief sits with you, its tropical heat
thickening the air, heavy as water
more fit for gills than lungs;
when grief weights you like your own flesh
only more of it, an obesity of grief,
you think, How can a body withstand this?
Then you hold life like a face
between your palms, a plain face,
no charming smile, no violet eyes,
and you say, yes, I will take you
I will love you, again.
Posted by Renie N Ornelas on May 16, 2016
Your love in a short time will always be special. Love you Emily Rose.
Posted by Renie N Ornelas on May 16, 2016
I'm not good at this kind of thing however you will be missed Greatly. We are sad and will cherish your time with my mom at her last moments. Uncle Willy Ornelas
Posted by Simone Bushard on May 16, 2016
I miss you so freaking much Emily... Whenever I walk around at school I remember having the silliest conversations. I love you Banana!
Posted by Samantha Charney on May 16, 2016

I'm so sorry we never had the opportunity to meet in person. I always felt like I had to look out for you and bring you up when you were feeling down.

I hope I made some impact in your life, because you made an impact in mine. You're in my thoughts every day, I miss you darling.

You were a beautiful person and are missed by many, literally all over the world (even here in Canada). You won't ever be forgotten.

I treasure the pictures you drew for me and always will.

Maybe I'll see you again one day.

Love you darling.

Posted by Don & Carol-lyn Davis on May 16, 2016
Emily will always be in our hearts because in there she is still alive.
- Grandma and Grandpa
Posted by Dylan Cobain on May 16, 2016
never have I met a person I clicked with so fast. Emily was the light in my life she was my best friend and my backbone not a day goes by I don't miss her
Posted by Laura Qanadilo on May 16, 2016
I think about you both everyday. My heart and head cannot ever ever understand this!!!!! I want Momma G. And the family to know that I think and send love and healing to your hearts everyday for the rest of my days. You must know Ginger what a amazing mother and best friend you are to Emily and she knows this. It's doesn't help the pain , but you are amazingly strong, and I cry often. I can't say how much I love you we have been friends and have history and although we may have lived apart, I have never lost my love and connection for you and know the joy of having a daughter being so close and bonded as one. My heart is heavy since that day, and will never be the same because we are connected for always. I love you so much momma. There is no greater loss than this. I can't stop loving you and keeping you close to my heart
Posted by Laura Qanadilo on May 16, 2016
There will never go a day that I don't think about you both! I love you so much! I know your momma and and we grew up together and lived some great and not so great times, but Momma Ginger always had me laughing and feeling calm no matter what was happening she was always there for us baby bears. You must know what a very special person your mommy is. I love you and her so much. I only met herbonce when they were 2 months old, but I know Em and my daughter Alia would have been great friends. You are
Two In the same with your sense of humor. Momma G... Please let me in, for I love you

~ Laura

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Posted by Sammi Charney on March 15, 2022
I think about you all the time Emily. We were supposed to meet and never had the opportunity.. You were a really special , kind and genuine person. I will visit your resting place when I find myself down there, I promise.
Posted by Abbey Gowan on September 6, 2021
Happy Birthday, Emily <3
I miss you so much everyday.

With love, Clambake
Posted by Abbey Gowan on March 15, 2021
I can’t believe it has been 5 years since you have been gone. We all miss you very much Emily. ❤️
Recent stories

5 years.

Shared by Abbey Gowan on March 16, 2021
Today has been 5 years since you passed away, and while I’m still sad, I got to see the beauty in life today. 
4 years ago today was one year since you had passed. 2017. I remember not knowing how to feel really. You were one of the first people I knew that had passed away, and so young. I didn’t know what to do on that day, but I wanted to honor you. I remember a few things from March 15th 2017. I helped my friend give our other friend a stick n poke tattoo in her car. I bought a glass bottled beverage as well, but we never opened it. My friends drove me to this place in Ohio called Lick Road. It’s completely abandoned and there’s a small bridge that overlooks a creek. There’s an overgrown path and it’s beautiful in the summertime. My friends took me there to be alone and reminisce on your memory. I remember throwing the unopened bottle into the creek. The rest of the night was full of adventures that lasted until the sun came up.
This year I went back on March 15th 2021. This time felt different. My fiancé took me, and I wish I could message you about her because it’s something so happy I want to be able to share with you. She took me and our best friend. I wrote your name on the bridge and we went hiking in the dark without flashlights. An unexpected thing happened. I was feeling sad, and it wasn’t until we heard voices that that changed. We met a super nice couple in their earlier 30s with their sister, and their 3 small kids. At first we were scared of each other until we yelled out to the them. We talked about how worried we were to go to the end end of the trail because it was dark, unknown. But we decided to go together. We walked with 5 strangers until we came to the end. It was nothing insane, but it was so nice to have company and to not ben alone. I listened to their young son talk about his school, and how he stepped into the creek on accident. He showed me the horse shoe prints on the trail with his flashlights. Their mom even played with them by pretending to hide from us in the woods but couldn’t get away with it. I told the kids about how when my friends and I were younger, we would come here and hike too late at night. 
It might be small, but I’ve learned to appreciate these small moments. Last night I promised myself I would do something special for this day. I thought the night wouldn’t end with me standing on the bridge upset, but we met others. We were afraid to go down the trail until someone came with us. And in the end, it felt so nice to walk with others on that small adventure. It reminded me that there are still fun times to have, and great people to meet. Though the night seemed dark, and full of terrors, I was not alone tonight. It meant the world to to me. 
As your mother said said, Losing you, Emily, changed me.
Missing you always. With love, Clambake
Shared by Taylor Lyne on February 12, 2020
It was 2007 when I first met Emily and she was the most wonderful, kind, caring individual that was so sheik cool without even trying to be.  She was 2 grades older than me and it was PE that brought us together but it was her heart that brought us to truly know one another.  We didn't date for very long, much more than a month or so, but I remember texting her nonstop & being infatuated with her while on vacation in Key West & making sure that she was priority #1 when I returned home.  We went out on a date, kissed, and all was well.  To this day, I truly can't remember why we stoped "talking" but I genuinely do regret it as I wish I could have at the very least remained her friend and SOMEHOW influenced 3/15/13 to the point where she didn't go outside to her "yoga spot" by hwy 85.  I had since moved from Los Gatos but out of all of the people I met there/formed a friendship/relationship with she's one of the ones that I wish I had somehow held onto for longer and kept close, even just as a friend as her kindness was endless & loving nature proved true every day.

I heard, 2 years after my graduation, that she had somehow passed in some bizarre manor which I couldn't help but dig into until I found out exactly what had happened.  I can say for a fact that she was not whatsoever the type to kill herself but can 100% confirm that she was the type to absentmindedly slide down a hill while drunk & find herself at the end of not one, but two, cars which ultimately ended her life.  

Seven years later and here I, and certainly others, am still reminiscing about "Mufasa Paco DeOrleans" and how she spread nothing but a ray of sunshine in any room that she entered.  I am eternally sad that she went the way that she did.. alone, spontaneously, and much, much too early.  I know for a certainty that she blessed every life that she encountered and never meant to do harm to any that crossed her path.  Emily was nothing but a bundle of joy that tried nothing more than to improve the lives of others, care and listen when given the opportunity, and somehow always know how to cheer you up.

Although she was originally this 2 year older "hot" junior when I was a freshman & we met, I came to know Emily as much much more and truly regret the fact that I, nor any of us, could have kept her from the untimely ending that she met.  She was much more than the one time hook up that she/I had, at a secret spot she knew of behind the LGPD station near DTLG that I've visited many times since her passing in remembrance of her and can't help but shedding tears.  Emily Rose DeOrnelas was a blessing that wasn't deserved, and perhaps it's true, that "only the good die young" because she was most certainly not only the good wherever she went, but much more than that.
I know that Emily will be forever missed & loved by all those that she met, made friends with, talked to about Pokemon or her furry babies or her ever so bright plans for the future.

You will forever be with & missed by all of us, Emily.  I'm sorry I didn't do more keep you with us.

28th Birthday

Shared by Abbey Gowan on September 6, 2019
Happy Birthday Emily. Today you would have been 28 years old. Today I visited your page as I always do for your birthday, to leave you a happy birthday wish, and to remember you. I wrote a song about you a few years ago. And I even found your brother and contacted him. I wanted to show your mom the song.. your song Emily. It’s for you. It’s the only song I ever finished. I heard about your mother and it broke me even more... She loved you so much. We all did. We miss you so much. I want people to remember you, and to still miss you. I hope they always do.. because I will always miss you. I will always remember you. And I know you’re up above watching over us all. Bree, and Dylan too. I’m getting a tattoo for you soon. It’s going to be a plant sprout with a tiara. It’s going to say “California Show Your Teeth” around it. Your brother takes care of your fur babies for you. And the rest of us do what we can to take care of ourselves.. things have always been so different now that you’re gone. But i know you’re only waiting for our time to come home with you as well.. And until then i will celebrate each birthday for you. in your honor Emily. Losing you changed us all, not for a month, or a year, but forever. We love you, Happy Birthday