Hey Dad its 9:53pm on Sunday Feb.15,2015.. And I'm relaxing watching TV for few bf bed. Not much happened today just cleaning n doing some laundry. Hopefully our wreath will be ready tomorrow. I can't wait to pick it up and show mom. I seen it the other day but it wasn't finished..I think its going to be beautiful. There is a flower on the wreath for each one of us that holds you in our hearts...from mom and all us kids down to great grand babies... They are calling for a ton of snow in the morning like 4-8 inches.. Don't worry I'll be OK dad. I'll drive real slow...I go to court this week to go bf the judge to see if he will give me or medical records from the hospital. Idk what it will give me but I know in my heart theory neglected a serious situation for 7 days dad bf they did anything or even ran a damn test...its be and I'm still pissed off and very angry with kdmc...you wild still be here with me and everything wild be fine. I miss you dad very much and its still hard for me everyday. Goodnight dad and I love you with all my heart n soul!!!

Happy valentines Day Daddy!!! I sent some roses up to heaven on my Fb just for you. It's tonias birthday today and I know she misses you today. Me n Tonia went over to visit mom. Tonia had flowers sent to her today. I got her some chocolates and a card from you bc u always got her candy. Me n Tonia went n got you some beautiful red and whites roses for your room. I know those were your favorite flowers. Rebecca won grand champs at her competition today at EKU. The wildcats won against South Carolina 53-23... Still 25-0 and staying strong dad. I wish u were here to actually see them play. I miss hearing you cuss ky even when they made a basket lol. I miss you so much dad. Goodnight night dad and I love you very much

Dad it's 9:48pm on Friday feb.13,2015... Friday the 13th... And it felt like it at work today. So glad it's the weekend bc I need couple days to sleep in. Miss you like crazy dad. Goodnight and I love you beyond the stars!!

Hey daddy it's 7:46pm on Thursday feb.12,2015... And I'm in the bath tub relaxing. It's been a crazy few days with everything going on at work and with mom. I did go by for a second and she looks very sad. Rebecca is staying with her tonight. We don't know what to do dad bc she won't listen or meet us in the middle for anything. We love her and just trying to make things easier on her but she doesn't see it that way at all. She'll be ok dad and I promise between mike n Tonia shell be ok. On a happier note the wildcats won yet again the other day and I forgot to tell u about it . 71-69 against lSU.. 23-0 and still going strong dad. I miss you so much dad. I love you with all my heart a d soul

Hey dad it's 8:51pm on feb.10,2015 and I'm just watching some tv for a few. Took Zues to get his nails clipped today and then just came home n relaxed. I miss you dad so much more than u know. It's not getting easier but it has brought me mike n Tonia closer and that's good. Miss you daddy and love you more than u will ever know..xoxo

Daddy it's 9:38pm on Monday feb.9,2015 and I'm laying in bed chilling out n relaxing.. Oh boy what a day.. If I've ever missed you so much . It defiantly was today. I don't have to go into detail about what went on at mothers today bc u was there and u already know. I'm going to do exactly what you've always told me to do.. Ignore her.. Damn bill n olive are bk in the picture and u already know what time it is... I will say this I swear to you bf it's over Im going to knock the dentures out of that assholes mouth.. The top ones for you and bottoms for me.. I miss you so much dad and wish u was here. I feel like everything me Tonia and Michael have worked hard at trying to fix was all for nothing and not appreciated at all. She's about to learn the hard way bc you've spoiled her to the core dad. Love you daddy and miss you more than you know

Wildcats beat fla dad..68-61... It was a tough game though...fla played their asses off too.. Throwing 3 pointers trying like hell to win and they came close. Wildcats still stand 23-0 undeafted and #1 in the nation on all polls dad. I love you daddy. It's Sunday so I'm going to come over n visit with you and see if u need fresh flowers. Love you dad!!!

Daddy it's 9:30pm on Sunday jan.8,2015 and I'm just sitting in bed thinking about you. And how much I miss you.. Hearing ur voice.. U calling me.. Seeing ur handsome face.. Everything about u dad I miss.. I really didn't do much of anything today. Jim n I went to tonias n picked up a twin bed and brought it home and that was it. I've just pittled around the house being lazy.. I've got so much stuff that I need to get done but I just really don't care if I do or not to tell you the truth.. I just sit around and think about you every minute of everyday dad.. I love you so much and miss you more than u know dad.. Xoxo

Daddy it's 10:07pm on Saturday jan.7,2015 and I'm watching the uk game. It's 2nd half 30-28 with fla ahead rigjt now... I have faith in the cats that we will take this one home like the others. I hope your up there watching and rooting for your wildcats like I know you are dad. Miss you dad. Goodnight dad and I love you all the way up to the clouds daddy!!!

Daddy it's 10:18pm on Friday feb.6,2015 and I'm watching a little movie in bed. It's been a long week. I feel much much better today n my face isn't as swollen as it was. The new antibiotics is working. Went n checked on mom today and she was doing ok. She misses you very much dad as we all do. Mike is still on the boats but was able to get off for couple hrs today n he visited mom. I rode with Johnny n Tonia to Ollie's dept store and I bought me a book to read. 1001 ways to talk to your angel. Well ur my only angel and I know that as a fact so I'm going to see if it helps me to see or communicate with me dad. I hope so. I just hope you left this awful world knowing just how much I love and miss you dad. Your always going to be my #1 in my life no matter who I'm with or where I'm going... I miss you so much .. Goodnight dad and I love you very much

Hey daddy it's 9:13pm on Thursday feb.5,2015 and I'm sorry I did talk to you yesterday or lastnight. I went bk to the dr bc of my face it was horrible. It looked like someone punched me in the face about 100 times. The dr gave me a different antibiotic and 40mg of steroids. He said the steroids wld help the swelling to go down and it did a little bit. I feel better today but yesterday I came home after dr and literally slept from 1:30 to 10 at night. Jim woke me up couple times but not for long.. I didn't feel good. Cheryl called me and mike was texting me and I didn't hear a thing. I was out. Talked to Cheryl today and I'm going to go see her tomorrow. I keep saying that but when I get off work if I'm not sick mom has me running everywhere.. It's crazy. But Cheryl said johna.. He is 4months old already.. Marley and delaney their bdays are coming up again. I wish u was here to see all the babies dad. I know how much you loved all the babies. Tonias bday is coming too. She's going to be the big 40 dad. I know you wld have loved to be here for all of us. God had bigger plans for you.. Maybe he took you for you to watch over us n be our angel.. Idk dad but I sure do miss my dad very much.. Love you daddy and I'll talk to u tomorrow.. Xoxo

Dear dad, the other half of my heart.. It's 8:48pm on Tuesday feb.3,2015.. It's been exactly 90 days and 2hrs since The Lord above took you from me.. I'm mad but also glad that ur not going through any pain and ur up there walking n hoping ur doing ok.. At 9:30pm exactly 90 days ago i got a call from Cheryl.. The worst phone call I've ever had in my life.. The call I wish that had never happened. Mike bought me a beautiful journal to write in everyday like I do on here.. And I have a few times but I've written and talked to you on here since the day you left and I feel like if I stop it won't be the same.. I went to dr today bc I've gotten bit on my head by something.. Dr said a spider but what I seem looked like an ant. My whole left side of my face is swollen almost eyes shut.. Wasn't that bad earlier.. Wish u was here.. Even though u was always in the bed n not able to do anything .. You always mad it better for me and made me feel better dad. I miss you really bad dad.. Goodnight dad and I love you always and forever

Hey daddy it's 7:32pm on Monday jan.2,2015 and I'm doing absolutely nothing but sitting in the recliner and looking at my red bird that chirps randomly all the time.. I know it's you letting me that you are with me. On this exact day on nov.2nd I remember it plain as day. You had a good bath and you got clean shaved.. Me Tonia Johnny and Cheryl was there. You were in such a good mood and you were feeling great.. You looked great.. Tonia n Johnny brought you a strawberry milkshake and you ate almost all of it. And you slept that night better than you ever had.. You said it yourself.. I can't tell you enough how much you mean to me dad and how much I miss you.. Goodnight dad I love you more than you know!!!

Hey daddy it's 8:21pm on Sunday jan.1,2015 and I'm watching a movie.. Nothing else on but the Super Bowl and u know I'm not into that stuff. Exactly 90 days ago today it was a Saturday and me n Lacey spent the day and most of the evening with you.. We got you to drink 2 strawberry boost drinks while me n lace ate French fries.. Then all 3 of us just took naps on n off that day lol.. That was a good day bc u was feeling good dad. I wish that was the same for today. I miss you dad very much. I got you some beautiful flowers to put in ur room today.. Red roses and orange Lillie's.. Wish u was here with me dad.. Goodnight and I love you very much!!!

Hey daddy it's 10:24pm on Saturday jan.31,2015 and I literally just walked in the door. I went with Tonia n Rebecca to her competition at EKU for cheer leading... We wish u was here bc she won 2nd place. We was proud of her but the coach doesn't want anything less that 1st.. He's a really hard but great coach.. I think I'm going to turn in for bed now dad. I'll talk to you tomorrow.. Ky won again yesterday against Missouri 68-53 now 20-0 not lost not one game dad.. I know ur proud of them cats.. I miss you daddy and I love you with all my heart and soul

Hey daddy it's 9:46pm on Friday jan.30,2015 and I just got out if the shower n sitting n watching tv. I'm not going to write a lot tonight bc my belly is cramping from that time of the month.. So I'm going to try n lay down... I miss you dad very much.. Goodnight and I love you

Dad it's 8:08pm on Thursday jan.29,2015 and I've had the worst day ever today. Work wasn't too bad.. I made a good meatloaf and it was really good.. I was thinking about you the whole time bc it reminded me of me helping you with your meatloaf.. Cutting the onions,celery and everything else you put in it.. But yours always was the best. I went n checked on mom and she's doing ok today. Soon as I left work I stopped at speedway went in to get a drink and locked my damn keys in the car... Tried my damnedest to not call Jim.. But couldn't get hold of anyone... Well there we go cussing one another in damn parking lot lol... Some guy looking at me like I'm crazy.. I looked at him and said what you looking at lol.. But we got.. I know I'm going to get a spare tomorrow.. You don't know just how much I miss you dad..my best friend in the whole world and I can't call you just to tell u what's going on anymore.. I miss everything about you dad.. I'm getting fat bc all I do is go home grab a blanket and sit in recliner from time I get home until I take my shower.. And I repeat the same routine everyday.. I just don't feel like doing nothing at all.. Love you dad and miss you very much... Goodnight dad

Hey dad it's 8:34pm on Wednesday jan.28,2015 and in bed just about to go out. I miss you dad very much and this is still not getting any easier. I just try to keep in bk my mind that things get better and that time heals all wounds. Not so far but I'm trying. Ur brother bills daughter Kathy had her a grand baby yesterday a 1st time granny. Goodnight daddy .. I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH!!!

Hey daddy it's 9:09pm on Tuesday jan.27,2015 and I'm just laying in the bed watching the tube. Today wasn't too bad.. Work was little crazy but not too bad. Today was Johnny's 43rd birthday.. I know right .. Old man lol.. Took mom to dr garner today and I had an emotional melt down in his office.. They put us in the same room that you and I would be in.. And all I seem was you in there dad and it seemed so real.. It just comes n goes. It still doesn't seem real that your gone.. Garner gave me the name of a therapist that I cld talk to and said if I needed a referral that he wld get it to me.. Idk it might work n help or it might not but it can't hurt.. I miss you dad very very much and I just pray that your ok .. Goodnight dad and I love you

Hey daddy it's 8:17pm on Monday jan.26,2015 and I've had my bath and now laying in bed. I'm so tired. My phone as been in and out of service messing up as usual. And it's a different phone I don't understand. I've got a big day tomorrow mom has to go to garner so when I get off work I've got to take her. Olive is there with her now bc mike left this morning to go bk to the boats. I worry about him too dad u know how clumsy and goofy he is. I'm going to try n lay down a little bit early to see if I feel better tomorrow dad.. Goodnight daddy and I love and miss you with everything in me dad.... So wish u was here with me

Hey daddy it's 9:48pm on Sunday jan.25,2015 and I'm just now laying down to watch some tv. I've had a productive day today. I went to moms this morning and me n mike loaded up the tv from the living room and took it to tonias.. She's going to put it in her basement. Mike bought one off Craigslist yesterday a big flat screen 47' for 150$ pretty good deal. Tonia n the girls are still not feeling too well.. They all went to clinic and they have upper respitory infections. I'm going to go get checked out tomorrow just in case.. I've not been able to breath real good in last few days. Mom was doing ok I took her a cup of chili from Wendy's and she was eating. She misses you dad I can see the sadness in her face all the time. Our lives are just empty and incomplete without you. Dad you were the one that help all of us together. You were the boss that told all of us what to do n how to do it. I miss you more than you will ever know dad. Goodnight and I'll talk to u tomorrow dad.. I love you bunches

Hey dad it's 10:21pm on jan.24,2015 and believe it or not I just got home.. We were suppose to go eat for Johnny's birthday but they are all sick. So mike and mom came and met Jim and I at the bull.. Little bar that has slot machines. We just put 10$ in them and damn it mike made me get up bc he wanted to play the game I was on.. Dad I be damn he hit 1000$ damn lucky butt. But total I spent 30 and came home with 120$ so that wasn't too bad. I had a good time and was glad mom came bc me n her just sat n talked and played slots together. Me n mom have been getting along really good dad and I know that's all u wanted. I miss you dad and wish u was here but I know in my heart your always with me. Gods night dad and I love you beyond the stars

Daddy it's 9:29pm Friday jan.23,2015 .. I've thought about you all day today as everyday dad. I'm just still really confused idk. Spent the afternoon with Lacey and took her to the mall to get some jeans and other things.. I think me n her needed that time . Lacey is a good girl dad.. Goofy but good girl.. I enjoyed my time with her today. I came home today and had a feeling that someone was with me.. Idk I can't explain and I know everyone will think I'm crazy .. But I started talking to you out loud and asking if you were here with me and if u was would u please show me or talk to me please.. And the little red bird that I got for the tree that was ours starting chirping like crazy.. I was in the kitchen and my bird is in the living room.. It won't go off until u touch it. Well I knew right then that u was with me dad. I knew it. So I talked to you for bout an hour with Zues looking at me like I'm nuts .. But I know u was here.. I miss you daddy and love you very much.. I want you with me all the time.. Goodnight dad

Daddy it 10:08 pm on Thursday evening on jan.22,2015 I'm just sitting here in bed relaxing. Today was crazy at work.. My god I felt like throwing them residents in the river and not looking bk.. They r spoiled rotten.. Olive stayed with mom lastnight.. She's doing ok. Mike came home today bc they made him leave the boats to see a dr... Guess what he has dad?., the gout in his knee.. Lol he said it was Huge and real read.. They gave him a shot and some other meds and said he could leave bk on the boats on Sunday evening. He definitely has your DNA .. I went to dr today just to get my meds.. He started talking to me about you and of course I started crying .. He referred me to a shrink I guess.. I'm going to go bc it won't hurt and maybe it be good to get my feeling out and to talk to someone.. Bc I've really been having a hard time with this dad. I put on a front but deep down I'm going insane inside. I miss you dad and I hope I see you soon. Goodnight dad and I love you very much!!

It's 8:48pm on Wednesday jan.21,2015. Dad the cats won again yesterday and I forgot to tell you..18-0 now they played against Vanderbilt 65-57... They r on a roll this season dad. I go to dr tomorrow same as always.. I think he thinks I'm crazy dad.. I don't give a damn what he thinks lol. I just know I miss my dad more than anything and it ses to get harder n harder bc I find myself wanting to hear ur voice and it makes me feel better kinda like ur there. Idk dad it's hard to explain I just wish this didn't ever happen. I miss you dad and love you more than you know.. Your girl Friday.. Lol

Hey daddy it's me again. 8:15pm on Tuesday evening on jan.20,2015.. I'm sitting here getting ready to watch the crazy housewives on tv. I was just thinking about you and wondering if u see me and what ur doing. I read something the other day on a grievance website and it said.. 80% chance that if u wake up in the middle of the night to pee or whatever it may be then it means that someone was looking over you.. I get up every single night since I read that and I talk to you just to see if it's you dad. I want to know that your ok and I don't need to worry about you. You stay on my mind every second of the day dad. I just miss you and wish u was still here. Goodnight daddy and I love you so much!!

Good evening daddy.. It's 8:00pm on Monday evening jan.19,2015.. I just got out of shower and getting ready watch a movie. Checked on mom today and she's ok. Lacey is staying with her while mike is working.. Next week told her to stay at tonias and we will get Jim n Johnny to fix her shower. I need to get with Cheryl sometime this week to open up savings accounts for the grand babies and the great grand babies... I need Cheryl's help there's too many of them dad. I just wish u was here to be a part of their lives. I will try n do everything I can to do for them as u wld if u were here dad. I know Rebecca and Lacey seem ok but I know it's really hard for them bc they was with u everyday just like I was dad. We all miss you more than u know. But all I can do is try my best to do what u wld want me to do and make u proud. I love you daddy and hope ur doing ok.. Goodnight dad

Hey daddy it's 8:14pm on Sunday jan.18,2015 and I'm just sitting here soaking in the bath tub. I've had a very long and bad day today. I could really use ur advice about some things. I miss talking to you dad and u telling me ur opinion on things. You prabobly already know it's Jim and I arguing and fighting. Let me just tell you this coming feb.2nd will be 2 full years that I've not taken any pain meds.. I swore to u I will never touch another one dad and I meant that period. Well u know Jim takes them now and it's starting to get to me and I just don't know what to do or how to deal with it. I just really don't want no part of it. So I didn't speak to him all lastnight and he woke up this morning n started cussing me bc I wouldn't go get him any. And of course I was a piece of crap n no good u know what. .. And i went to tonias to talk to her n just get away.. And I've still not spoken to him n hopefully he will get the point that I'm not living like this period.. I'll move bk in at ur house.. But I know it wld feel weird for me without you there. I just cld really use my dad right now just to talk to bc u always hugged me n made me feel better dad. I don't want you to worry about me dad bc I'll be ok.. U know me I'll knock him the F### out.. He just won't listen to me when I tell him he's only going to go down from here it doesn't get any better. I know that for myself and I learned the hard way. I miss you dad and wish u were here and I cld just come over to you and talk.. I'll talk to u tomorrow I'm shrinking like a prune in the tub... Goodnight dad and I love you more than you know!!!

Daddy it's 7:43pm on Saturday jan.17,2015.. Rebecca won 1st place in her division today. She got a nice jacket, trophy and a nice blanket. I'm proud of her and hope she enjoys what she does bc she's really good at it.. I know you was with her today and watching over her dad. Ky won again today 70-48 against Alabama crimson tide lol... 17-0 right now and still undeated.. I've tried watching every game since they started and they been playing really good games dad. I went over to your n moms house today for little bit and on my way I stopped and got you some fresh flowers to put on ur table beside you.. I try to keep them fresh at all times bc I know how much you like ur flowers dad. I miss you more than anything and wld anything if I could have you bk here with me dad. I hope your doing ok and up there in no pain and enjoying yourself with ur mom n dad and ur brothers.. But I sure wish you was still here with me dad bc I need you I really do.. Goodnight daddy and I love you so so much!!!

dad i love you and miss you every day.The kids are really growing jonah is here today he just smiles and laughs.Dad i need you to know that you will be with me always and forever in my heart.I guess i can always be daddys girl no matter how old i get. I love you

Hey daddy it's 8:32pm on Friday jan.16,2015 and I'm just sitting around the house cleaning up a little bit. Tonia and Johnny took Rebecca to Indiana this evening for her cheer competition. They are 1st place as of now but no doubt in my mind that you will be with Rebecca and cheering her on all the way dad. Took mom to garners office today and she is doing good dad. Mom is still not drinking.."I can see ur thumbs up right now saying good job".., mom misses you a lot too dad as we all do. Mike leaves on Monday to go on the boats for his 1st 28 days... Lets see if he can keep it lol. No I think he will do just fine as long as he keeps his mouth shut. I met Lacey's boyfriend the other night. His name is Braden and seems to be a good kid. He is 18 yrs old and plays baseball for fairview. She's still at McDonald's and seems to still like it. I miss you dad and miss talking to you and seeing you everyday.. Goodnight daddy and I love you

Hey daddy it's 8:38 pm on Thursday jan.16,2015 I came home laid down n fell asleep and just got up .. I'm tired do I'm going upstairs to lay n watch little tv.. But I wanted let you know I love you and miss you more and more dad.. Goodnight and I love you dad

Hey daddy it's 9:00pm on Wednesday jan.14,2015 and I'm getting ready for bed. I went and got the jewelry that we ordered when u passed away. It's little pandora beads that have you blown into the glass. Jim got me a bracelet for Christmas to put it on. But I think I'm going to wear it on a necklace so u can always be close to my heart. I can fill this page up dad everyday of how much I'm hurt and how much I miss not only my dad but my best friend forever. I love you daddy and hope to see you soon.. Goodnight dad

Hey daddy its 8:29pm on tuesday Jan.13,2015 and today is Ms.Lacey"s big 17th birthday. we went to tonia's and mom came over also to celebrate lacey's day. it doesnt seem real that she's already 17 dad. tonia said she didnt even want a party bc it wasnt normal for her without you there. but i think she had a good time dad overall. she sure misses you just like the rest of us do dad. sometimes i sit and think how long its been and how it still to me does not seem real to me. then other times it hits me like a ton of bricks. i just wish i could talk to you one last time and tell you how much i love you dad..i kmow that you know i love you but i dont think you realize just how much i love and miss you dad. there will be so many things that are going to happen in my life that i wont be able to share with you or have you with me...36 yrs of having you in my life was not long enough..sometimes i feel like that if i would have never left the hospital that maybe i could have done something or maybe i would have known what was going on or what was to come..or even what they did to you or what they gave you..idk i just know that im very angry with the hospital right now dad..i wont keep going on and on about it bc you never did like me saying anything to them but they did something damn wrong that night and the whole week you laid there with nothing..i love you daddy and i miss you very much...goodnight

Hey daddy it's Monday jan.12,2015 at 8:41pm... And I think I'm filling this page up talking to you.. But I don't care it makes me feel better. Dad I went today after work and picked up ur death certificate and oh lord it really hit me that this is so REAL.. Then I got to reading it and it really really stated to piss me off bc of the stuff they put on there for reason of death... Dad I swear with everything I love and with every breath I take .. I will find out and get to the bottom of this bs.. I just know in my heart that it was not ur time to go and that u wasn't ready.. This happened all bc those doctors are complete damn idiots period. I love you daddy and I will figure this put I promise you that.. Goodnight dad and I love you

Hey dad it's 8:54pm on Sunday jan.11,2015.. Just got done getting a shower. I went to moms today and me and Tonia took Christmas tree down and put it away. I cleaned up your bedroom and took your lights down. I ran the vacuum little bit bf I think it broke lol. I didn't do it... Mom was doing good and Phyllis came over to visit.. I think mom was glad to see her. Jim and I went to the mall and guess what I got.. A massage lol.. Tonia n Johnny got it for us for x-mas.. It was great until I heard Jim next to me sounding like he was having sex lol... I swear that's what he was sounding like.. But Jim loves that kind of stuff lol. I miss you dad and wld love nothing more than to have you here with me to talk to u about things going on in my life... It's not the same without you here.. I just hope your with me every step I take dad. Miss you daddy .. Goodnight and I love you !!!

Hey daddy it's me it's Jim and I are getting ready to watch a movies. It's the first time I've really felt like going anywhere.. I wanted to let u know that uk won yet again 70-64 in double overtime against Texas.. Totally undeafed dad.. It's amazing.. Love you daddy n miss you more than you know..

Hey dad it's 7:43pm jan.9,2015 on Friday evening... And guess what it's your girl Friday lol.. Everytime we went somewhere you would tell everyone I was your girl Friday then you wld go on to say sat,sun,mon, and then say well my girl everyday of the week. I miss you more everyday dad. Mom Tonia,Johnny and mike went to the casino tonight just to get out of the house and play a little slots. I hope they win something they might share lol.. Your right no they won't dad. I wish u were here with me dad bc I've got so much to say to u and to talk about. Things that I don't tell anyone else.. Things that I only talked to you about and you completely understood me. I sure miss you dad.. I love you daddy with all my heart and soul!!!

Hey daddy, it's 8:17pm on Thursday jan.8,2015.. Just got out of the bath just relaxing. I been really tired lately. I go to bed kinda early but I just haven't been sleeping really good. I looked at my eyes earlier and they are black underneath. I been stressed out and can't seem to quit thinking and asking myself what happened st the hospital with you. Idk but I feel like I'm going crazy. I miss you dad and just really wish you was here for me to talk to. I swear I wld give up everything in my life just to have you here with me again. You were my go to person for everything. I love you dad and miss you more than you know.. I'll talk to you tomorrow.. Goodnight dad

Dad I forgot to tell you that uk won yesterday 89-86 against ole miss. Uk are 14-0 now.. I know in my heart that you are their angel watching over and helping them play awesome games. Their best season yet. I just wish u were here for me to see how happy you are for them.. I love you daddy

It's Wednesday jan.7,2015 at 8:19pm.. Just got out of the bath tub just relaxing and taking a soak dad..thinking about you of course like always. I miss you dad and can not tell you enough. Checked on mom today and she was good. Mike has Joshua but he was sleeping when I was there. He's getting big dad and so funny. I'm going to go visit Cheryl tomorrow and see the little babies. I bet they r getting big also. I love you dad and miss you so much.. Goodnight dad

Dad it's jan.6,2015 at 8:47pm.. I been In bed for an hour and still tired. I've thought about you non stop the last several days dad. Everything going through my mind.. I get sad,aggravated then get pissed off then back to being sad again. I still can't understand what happened and what went wrong I really can't. I have so many questions that I want somebody to damn answer bc I'm pissed off that your gone.. And it's somebody's damn fault. I miss you so much dad and wish u were here. Goodnight and I'll talk to you tomorrow.. Love you dad forever

Hey daddy it's Monday jan.5th 2015 at 9:16 pm and I'm so tired and from doing nothing at all.. I'm mentally exausted dad. I miss you so so much.. Goodnight dad and I love you very very much!!!

Dad it's Sunday jan.4th 2015 at 4:47pm.. It still feels weird not going over on Sunday and giving u ur bath and trimming ur beard and cutting ur hair. We had a routine that we did everyday .. Tuesday,Thursday, and Sunday was our bath days.. Monday,Wednesday,and Friday was the days that we exercised after dialsys in the afternoons. Before ur stomach starting hurting you we're getting strong enough to lift ur leg up by yourself dad. Our next step you were going to try sitting upon bed and then onto ur chair. You wanted so bad to show garner that u cld do it. I miss you dad so bad. I've become completely lazy since you been gone. Nothing to do and really I don't want to do anything.. I'll talk to u bf bed dad. I love you with all my heart !!!

Goodnight dad it's 9:50pm and 5 comes early... I'll talk to u tomorrow dad... I love you with all my heart dad!!

It's January 1st 2015... And exactly 2 months ago on this day at 9:23 pm I got a call from Cheryl that u had gone into cardiac arrest.. The worst day of my life dad. I kept saying to myself that you would be ok bc you always came through everything that the doctors said you wouldn't.. But this time was different, I couldn't even go in there to see you or hold your hand.. And I hate that and I think about it everyday. I was the one with you wherever you went or whatever u was doing I was there right by your side, I wasn't and I'm still not ready to say your gone. I miss you so much and I really don't think everyone understands dad. When I'm at work I'm ok and when I'm with mom n the rest of them I'm ok.. But on my way and while I'm home I'm crazy.. My phone doesn't ring and I don't hear from you every hour. I just wish u was here . I don't care about anything else.. They say your with me everyday and I wish this was true dad.. I love you more than you will ever know !!

Hey daddy it's Friday jan.2nd 2015 at 9:29 pm and again I'm going to bed early. Dad it's been exactly 59 days and 23 hours since that horrible night at the hospital when I lost you. That night keeps repeating over and over in my head. I can't explain it I just know I can't stop thinking about it..why, what for, was there anything that I could have done.. Did you know and why didn't you tell me.. Idk sometimes I think I'm going crazy. So many questions that are making me go insane. I know you wouldn't want me to be like this, but dad it's hard for me to just go on.. Maybe it will get better but it seems worse dad. I just miss you so much and don't understand.. I know it's selfish of me but I just want you back dad... Goodnight dad and I love you more than you know

HAPPY NEW YEARS DADDY!!!! I wish I was with you celebrating another year.. I miss ya dad... I love you very much

Goodnight dad I love and miss you.. It's 8:47 pm on Thursday jan.1st and I'm hitting the bed early again. I been tired a lot lately. I live you dad !!!

Hey daddy it's me.. It is Wednesday dec.31st and in 2/12 hours it will be the end of 2014 and it's been horrible for me... I miss my dad very much.. Don't worry about me tonight I'm just staying in and watching a movie.. Goodnight daddy I love and miss you every minute of everyday :(