Happy Birthday in heaven son. I know you are having the best time of your life in heaven. I just wish I could be celebrating it with you like we used to. I miss the days of going and shooting pool together and kicking butt. I have to hand it to you, you knew how to shoot some pool and you taught me well on how to play like i didnt know what I was doing so you could run the table. Maybe when we get to be together again we can shoot a game. I love you and miss you so much son. The pain is still here within me and Ill never be free of it till I get to wrap my arms around you again. Yes I know you dont want to see me crying all the time but I must I cant hide and be strong all the time. I seem to be getting weaker at hiding and holding it back. I just want to hear your voice again and see that smile feel that dead leg just touch you again.  My life will never be the same here. Save a place for me Im coming to see you baby.  I love and miss you you. Love mum