Today Is Suelyns birthday! You loved birthdays, others and your own!
Eric, life today is so unfair! You should be here. I miss your everything!, life will never even come
Close to how it was. Memories flood my soul, anytime, anywhere and in my loneliness state, I cling to them.! They are always close in my heart and sometimes I laugh, thru tears as the memories float by! I miss you, my son! Missing you has taken up a room in my heart forever!!

Eric, the days go by, the years fly, however memories stay close! Yesterday, 7 years since your death!! I managed to stumble thru the day! I fight anger...this is so unfair! I think we are in for more horrible things, as the world gets uglier almost daily. Today I want to run in the trees and just scream..I wont...it's unacceptable, so I will stifle my screams. It never gets easier!  I get tired of hurting--- I just get so tired! And I just want you here!!

Miss you so much Eric. Thinking of you today!

Miss you so!!

Eric, I miss you so much

Happy Birthday Eric! I miss you every day! Sometimes it still doesn't seem real that you're not here anymore. Love you so much!

Oh! My son, my heart cries, the years go by, but you are still the same . Today you would celebrate! You loved anything to celebrate and be excited love you, forever

Eric I can't believe it's been 6 years and then other days it seems forever. Why you why why I ask.. Miss you so much my beloved brother

Eric, I am so sad today. I feel so very alone. I am just tired of this feeling . However, as long as I live this will never leave me I think on all the memories, like you and I shopping at Mervyns . You were the best "shopper"! All the other things we did, you and me I know I failed you and I am so sorry. Knowing you, forgiveness comes easy. I miss you way too.much, my sweet precious son.

Eric 6 years.. 6 years ....how do I keep going...with the pain and agony. My is so broken, and the stress of life is too much. I love e you so much

Miss you so much Eric.. I wish we would've been told more in the hospital so we would've had a chance to tell you good bye and how much we love you. I often think of when I came in to see u after u were intubated - you turned your head up me and I know I were trying to tell me something .. I just wish I knew what it was. I hope we're doing what you would want us to for your boys and grandkids. Live u forever

Eric, 6 years ago......we were in Jefferson 
City, as you lay in the hospital. As I try to think back, my mind is in a fog!  I don't know, I just don't know. I never knew anything could hurt so hard! I wish I could just , I don't now what!!""" Eric I miss you more than more! And love you more than that!"

Missing you sweet Eric

Eric, mom and I have been talking about you a lot the past few days. Missing you so much! I love you

Eric, we visited the beautiful cemetery yesterday. (3-25-23). It is the saddest most beautiful place on earth. We added some purple flowers and a purple fan! It hurts so very deep. The pain just goes deeper to the inner most parts of my soul.

Eric, I miss you so much.. your kindness and laughs. This months brings some sadness..i think of you often and just think of how unfair it is that your gone. Everyone who met you was touched by your kindness. I couldn't be as kind as you were. I wish I could call you again and we could share our laughs and struggles in life. I just wish we would've known we wouldn't talk to you again and had someone tell us how serious it was  Mom and I will be visiting your grave tomorrow Love you my brother!

Time goes so fast.....and so slow....Eric, I miss you so much, everything about you. I don't know why this has to be. It is soon 6 years to the day you died. The memories are so clear in spite of the first year, I lived in a total fog! As I sit here and look at the trees starting to turn green...I think you should be here to see spring,and all the newness. Your grand boys are growing and you would be so very proud of them! It is so wrong that you aren't here ..I am so sad! I miss you, my son

Meant to post this yesterday... I miss you so much Eric! Happy Belated Birthday my dearest brother. I love you!

Oh! Eric, your birthday, 2022. I miss you so much. It isn't Fair! Life is just plain crappy...I don't know any answers, but I just miss you so much. There is so much to share with you.
I could go on and on, and on some more! Whats the use! Whats the use....I miss you

Eric, today you are in my thoughts....as always. Time heals nothing, my son! I love and miss you. Today my mind went to Starbucks. "Mom, you gotta try this. It is the best" not being much for coffee flavors, I tried it! It was very, very good. He was so pleased that I liked it! Eric, I so want to share a carmel marciata with you!

Just thinking of you! Wish i could still call you!

Eric, we visit the cemetery at Jacksonville several times a year. It is a very sad, bitter sweet time. I gave you a purple flower..I could just hear you laugh and say, "mom, purple". We will go again Memorial Day when you and all servicemen will be rightfully honored...I love and miss you . My heart is,broken

Oh my son. 5 years and I miss you so much! Years and time does nothing, just day by day strength to get thru..The world is in such a mess, however, your smile would make this all better I miss you so much and love you more .oh! How I need a hug from you

We didn't forget you yesterday; i meant to get back to adding something here. Miss you and your kindness so very much! Love you my dear brother

Eric, I miss you more today than yesterday and less thani will tomorrow Today we celebrate you. It is the date of your birth. I love you so much my son.

Miss you
. my twin

Eric, Easter Sunday! He is risen!  He is risen, indeed!
We had a very nice service this morning.
I miss you, my son!

Eric, today we went to the cemetery. It is always stressful and sad, as we should be seeing you at your home..
I Miss you so much...

Missing you so much...Time heals nothing. I just know I have to face each day, for the rest of my days, without you

Miss you

Missing you so much...Time heals nothing. I just know I have to face each day, for the rest of my days, without you

Eric I miss you so much...the talks and laughter we shared. You were so kind to everyone, and you lived life with such high integrity. I could always trust you would be there for me. I hope heaven is real so i get to see you again. You will ALWAYS be in my heart, and you will Never forgotten. I love you my brother.

Eric, 4 years ago you died...Time does not heal
I just have to learn, each and every day how to live without you. Some days are almost unbearable
You are such a great son, brother, dad, "papa"!
Eric, I miss you

Eric, as the hours and days pass, my heart hurts! You loved life and were so positive and happy! Never will forget your phone calls as you grocery shopped.
I miss you

Eric...I think of you so often during this Christmas season as you loved it as much as I do. Hearing the Chipmunks Christmas song brings such happy memories of you..it was one of, if not ur favorite song. Its just seems so unfair that ur not here enjoying the shopping and happy spirit u had shared with your family and to all you touched. I love and miss u so much!

Eric, this has been a horrible year and this month is So very hard. I am So sad and can't hold back the tears! You know this.
Path.   of life is so lonely.  You are never far from my mind. 

Miss you Eric

Eric, the Times goes by and I miss you more today than yesterday and less than I will tomorrow . Thanksgiving is soon. I want to hear what you are cooking. I want to hear your voice,your laughter..I miss you so much.. You are 50 now..I love you my sweet, silly boy

Happy Birthday Eric!! Miss you so much!

3 years!! Is that a lifetime, a minute or a second! I miss you so much, Eric. My heart hurts and it only gets worse. The pain never goes away! I love you, my son, my silly little boy! I am so thankful I am your mom!

Missing you so my.especially today my beloved brother. Rest in peace..i love you

Eric, I can't even tell how it has been since you died. I can ve driving and think: THIS IS NOT TRUE. You will forever be with me .As we visit your final resting place. We cry, laugh, pray, and cry some more! You are missed, my SON

Eric, this year is soon over. Time does not heal at all. My days will never be as they were. My heart is so

Eric, today is your 48th birthday! I miss you more than i can even put into words! It doesn't get easier at all. I am so very sad

My son, my son! I miss you as the days go by! Time heals nothing....only God can heal and He makes a way to get thru each day. The tears sneak out of my eyes and roll down my cheeks

Eric, i miss you so much....your my star in the face of the sky.

My son. . I miss you

Eric, a couple years ago my life was good. Getting up to see a new day was ok. (Even tho' i am not fond of mornings). March 2017 everything changed!

Eric, i just miss you so very much.....I miss you more as the hours, days, weeks, month and years go by..I am so very broken...

My son the time goes on and I miss you so much. Sometimes I think this is a night mare. Then i realize, it is reality and I am broken. I miss you more than words can even say