Hi dad I miss you so much. I cry sometimes just thinking of how my life has changed since you've been gone. It's been 4 years and a couple months since you were tooken away. I used to call you and visit you, but now I can't and it breaks my heart. But you are in a place with no fighting and peace tell all my family I love them and I know you watch over me. Come in my dream if you can every dream you are in its amazing at the end we hug and you give me a kiss on the head. Also visit me if you can, find a way to communicate with me or let me see you again.

I lay awake every night just thinking of you and our life, seems so long ago we were together but my memories keep it embedded in my brain fresher than ever. I close my eyes and see your face, your beautiful eyes and smile that always took my breath away. I lay awake just thinking of you how things went and how i wish it could of been different between me and you, you was always the one ,their was no doubt, you are the shorest thing to enter my heart from the start. we had so much fun when we started out we was unseperatable without a doubt, but now your gone and i feel so alone no one to understand me or how i feel noone who talkes to me and makes me feel how you made me feel. We use to fight and make up and you know i loved you so much, i couldnt stand to see you sad, i did everything to not make you mad. i'd give anything to have you back, to hear your voice to hear your laugh, it's so hard being left behind i think about you all the time, the way you loved me unconditionally, the things we been through no one could see. you will always be my one true love no one will change that no one ever could, you made me happy, you made me sad, you made me the person that now i am, you made me strong you made me love you are the most memorable person and for that you are my number one. It's just so hard without you here seems like your not gone but in reality you are, but i know you are with me every day watching over me and watching our daughter play, i see so much of you in her it makes me happy to know i have a part of you in her. i think of you every day not one time goes by that i dont see your face, or hear a song that reminds me of you or a place we went or things we do. sometimes i wonder why i had to looses you cause not one thing makes since why i had too. i wanted you 4-ever a family too it wasn't suppost to be this way it was suppost to be me and you, ride or die is what we use to say, i just never imagined it be this way. I miss you like crazy, i miss you so bad i will never give up on what we had, i may have been forced to move on, and so did you but in our hearts we always knew it was me and you ride or die and one day my love will be together up in heaven with each other, but for now i'm ok i live this life every day, i have our daughter and i love her so much i guess if i cant have you she will help me through cause the love of my kids will carry me too. One day we will meet agin in another life we will be together agin but till then watch over me, be by my side and always catch me, i learnt to deal cause you have too but always know i'm thinking of you boo....