TRIBUTE TO MY BELOVED LITTLE SISTER ESTHER BY GLORIA NZEGWU
Writing a tribute on your honour is very difficult for me.
8th of February 2021 was the worst day of my life.
It feels like years but it has only been weeks.
And yet that is still too long.
I still talk about my sister as if she was still here with me, laughing during the good times and crying during the bad ones.
I lost a couple of loved ones in the past but it never hit me this bad.
I miss being able to call you any time and spend hours talking about everything under the sun.
We grew up and grew apart, as most siblings do.
Esther graduated, served and settled in Abuja.
I returned from Europe to join my mum and the rest of my brothers in Lagos, then got married and settled in Lagos.
We had our own set of friends and our own set of goals for our lives,
I in Lagos and you in Abuja but that still didn’t change the fact that we were sisters and very close to each family thanks to social media.
My sister would do anything for me.
I always wish you were still here with me.
We prayed fervently for you to wake up on that fateful day,
But I can understand why God would want such a beautiful angel on his side from now until eternity.
Just know that I love and miss you,
And this is the tribute to you, my baby sister.
I sit here and ponder how very much I’d like to talk with you today.
There are so many things that we didn’t get to say.
My sister, I know how much you cared for me, and how much I cared for you.
Each time I think of you, I have the feeling of knowing that you miss me too.
An angel came and took you by the hand, and said your place was ready in heaven, far above…..and
you had to leave behind all those you dearly love.
You had so much to live for, you had so much to do…you were deeply concerned about your boys’ education.
It still seems impossible that God was taking you even though we begged Him for days to bring you back.
For you to have refused to come back, I’m certain you are happy over there.
I’m glad you are God’s General though your life on earth is past, in Heaven it starts anew.
You’ll live for all eternity, just as God has promised you.
Though you’ve walked through Heaven’s gate, we’re never far apart, for every time I think of you,
you’re right here, deep within my heart.
Little did I know that morning, God was to call you home.
In life I loved you dearly, in death I do the same.
It broke my heart to lose you, you did not go alone.
For part of me went with you the day God called you home.
You left us beautiful memories, your love is still me guide.
Though I cannot see you, you are always at our side.
Nothing seems the same since you left, our early morning exchange of prayers, our late night telephone conversations.
I keep wondering how this could be, you had so much to live for.
My heart keeps dropping, and I feel of a sharp pain at a thought of realizing that you are no more with us.
I was truly blessed to have a sister like you, you allowed me to get away with a lot of things being the quiet one or maybe because I'm your big sister.
I will miss our talks, and your comforting voice.
My darling baby Sister and best friend, I wish you sweet sleep.
I am a believer and I know that those sleeping in the Lord will rise.
The Bible says that God will open their eyes.
No suffering, sickness, yes not even pain.
Those who did good, eternal life they’ll gain.
So… sleep on my sweet sister Esther! Sleep tight!
We will see again on that glorious morning.
For now with you the sky is night, but after night will come daybreak.
Therefore I will wait hoping to see you awake.
An incredible sister, to me and my brothers, a wife to my dear friend Ishaya, a mother to my darling nephews, Daniel, David and Collins.
Thank you for the way you brought up the boys in the way of the Lord, you taught them love,
value and unity.
We will forever value you and never forget your influence in our lives .
This is the legacy we have from you.
A good sister is hard to find, and in your heart, you were always kind.
You fought for us all in one way or another,
Not just as a sister, wife or mother, but for all of us you gave your best.
So it is real that this extraordinary human is no longer with us in the flesh.
Now the time has come for you to rest.
So go in peace, you’ve earned your sleep.
When we consider how much we love we cannot express it more than God who lavishes His love upon us.
I know that I cannot bring you back for He has lovingly taken you away from us but by faith, we believe He knows better than we do.
Your love in our hearts, we’ll eternally keep.
With the help of his angels they flew you to your heavenly place
God’s garden must be beautiful, he always takes the best.
It broke our hearts to lose you but I’m glad that God called you home.
Never thought I’d lose you so soon, but here I am, standing alone without you by my side.
We’re sisters for life.
But now you’re gone, I don’t know what to do. With four brothers ahead of me, I didn't enjoy being the only girl and as a little girl, I kept begging my mum to give me a sister, my joy was complete when you were born, now you are gone.
Without you, I’m feeling weak, I can’t sleep at night.
I’m trying to hold on, everybody is saying be strong for Esther’s boys.
I’m trying to be strong, but when will the strength come?
It just doesn’t feel right, I’m waiting here with tears running down my face for your return.
Death does not make sense.
I have stopped trying to understand it.
We live.
One day we die.
That's all.
It doesn't make sense to me.
You’ve loved me unconditionally and stood through thick and thin.
You’ve shared my joys and sorrows, my laughter and my tears.
You’ve been my inspiration, as we grew up through the years.
When we were little girls we laughed and played together.
Then growing up you stood by me, through good and stormy weather, always my sister, forever my angel.
You will always be my angel eternal, my sister, you loved me from the heart.
You never argued with me, yes, we disagreed just once when you made your choice of a husband.
You were very happy to confide in me that you have fallen in love with a man from Nasarawa State and I screamed! Nasara whatttt?
For me, it sounded like out of this world, like I was going to lose you but you stamped your feet and married the love of your heart.
Since then, we have never been drawn apart.
You were a friend who helped me through difficult times, because with you, we can discuss everything and anything.
Your comforting words were worth much more than dimes.
You always helped me with a smile and never frowned.
With you, I cannot have a grudge.
You respect everyone, never been rude to Mama, our brothers or me.
Having a sister like you was not just a trend,
It is knowing I could always turn to you, my best friend.
One morning I found you in eternal sleep;
I tried to wake you as I began to weep but all my pleas you could not hear.
I find it so very hard to believe that you have gone and I must grieve.
I call out your name -- you answer not, everything seems so strange and surreal.
I ask every day is it a dream or real?
Where is the generous soul for which I was glad to have as a sister and friend?
Where is the forgiving and understanding heart?
Where are the bonds that were there from the start?
I miss all the little ways you showed you cared.
You sent me a very beautiful fabric for Christmas through your son Daniel on his way back to Uni on the 8th of January, which was your last gift, I will always keep it with me.
There were so many good moments we shared;
You were my trusted confidante and best friend.
I look at your smiling face in all my photos, memories flood my mind as I touch the mementos.
For the happy times you and I have had, which now bring tears and makes me sad.
Life was not as long as we'd like to think.
Esther loved every ounce of me and me of her. Yet, each moment of every day since, it’s like being in a dark place unknown to me.
Please God, comfort my heart and that of my brothers.
The hurt, the pain that I live every day is unimaginable.
I have accepted she is gone.
But the constant ache in my heart won't go away.
I miss her and talk to her every day and I get a pang of pain when I see two sisters sharing a moment.
I had an amazing sister and I know I will see her again but until then our relationship will live on.
I still reach for the phone to call her and it does get overwhelming. Nothing gives me comfort.
I miss having a sister who was also my best friend.
She was so special and I'm lost without her.
She loved me unconditionally.
I have no one to call and check on me every now and then.
Our memories make me even sadder because I know there won't be anymore and she left with so much more to do.
I have not gone one day without crying and I only miss her more now I have arrived in Abuja.
I just want her back and I know she's with me in spirit but it's just not good enough.
When does it get better?
Esther was an incredible wife, mother, aunt, sister and a friend.
She was without question a sweet and loving person.
My one and only baby sister, a beautiful lady who equalled as my best friend.
She was a motivator.
With her, I never went wrong in any aspect of my life.
She was an angel, a heroine of faith.
We shuffled around a whole lot as young children and had formed a bond that is indescribable.
You put me high upon a pedestal and I felt your love till the very end.
You were always proud of me, I remember paying you a surprise visit when you were in the University of Nsukka, and you were very excited to show me off to everyone.
Thank you for all those times you showed you cared.
Thank you for your loyalty, love and generosity.
Esther came to Lagos last year August to honour me on my birthday, unknown to me that would be the last time I would see my sister.
She left three lovely boys, so painful, so sad.
I’m hurting so much for my darling sister.
It’s unbearable pain and I’m feeling so miserable.
I am still having trouble believing that she’s gone.
My little sister passes away so suddenly, what a rude shock.
My heart is breaking into a million pieces.
I can’t put into words how I am feeling.
My Christian beliefs teaches me to accept loss as part of the circle of life, but this particular one makes my heart drop within.
Can my life ever be the same again without my little sister Esther by my side?
This is the most difficult thing I have to endure.
My beautiful, amazing, kind, caring, strong, brave, and hard-working sister devoted to God, family and friends.
She had the most beautiful smile that would light up a room.
The hardest part is the fact that she was the central force of our family and now we have to learn to do certain things without her.
Who will remind us of everybody’s birthday and wedding anniversary within the family?
She would even send a second reminder as she knows the rest of us are not good at it.
She was the most humble person you could ever hope to meet; and life will just never be the same without her in my life.
Thank you my dear sister for the special things only you could do.
I just can't believe that she's gone and that I won't see her again or hear her voice.
When does the pain ease?
Will a second pass without her in my mind?
Do tears ever stop?
I'm totally broken hearted, I wish the yearning in my heart will cease.
My sister who wasn't sick died alone within the ten minutes that her husband left her sight to fetch her food.
No family member was there to send her off.
She must have been very frightened and certainly all alone.
Friends and prayer partners offer gentle words and prayers to console me with Psalm 34:18
(The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit)
As a Christian, I know she is safe in our Heavenly Father’s arms, fully restored, redeemed and made whole.
According to
1 Corinthians 15:52
“in a moment, in the twinkling of an eye, at the last trumpet. For the trumpet will sound, and the dead will be raised incorruptible, and we shall be changed.”
Nwaeka, as I fondly called her, was an epitome of beauty, good manners and great values .
we sorely miss you and know you are resting at our Saviour’s feet.
Good night my beloved sister for we will surely meet again on that glorious morning.
Adieu, Ma Soeur.