A letter to my uncle.
My Dearest Uncle Evan,
I miss you. I miss your spark.
I miss your smile and the way that it could light up a room and make everyone feel good.
I miss your laugh, your "cackle", the feeling it gave me as a child when I could hear it from anywhere in the house and it would always make me laugh, the way it made me want to hide from embarasment as a teenager and the way it would echo through a room and hang in the air until everyone would be smiling.
I miss your hugs, whole body hugs that would always make me feel so warm, secure and loved no matter what else was happening.
I miss the way that you could see things in a way that no one else did.
I miss all of the advice you would give me, even when I did not want it.
I miss the passion you had for so many things.
I miss your strength and stubborn dedication to the things you believe in, even when I thought they were stupid.
I miss the way you saw the world. How the simple became complex and the complicated became oh so simple.
I miss the world I saw through you. So big, beautiful and diverse, yet so simple and uniform all at the same time.
I miss the way that you could, and often did, make me feel like the most important, beautiful and intelligent person on the planet and yet kept me grounded at the same time.
I mss the late night talks, midnight dinners and hiding from family drama in your room.
I miss your love of theater, cooking, art of all kinds, travel and people.
I miss the way that you helped me to see the beauty, excitement and tranquility in a city, no matter how much I fought you on it.
I miss the person that you were and the way that it helped me learn to accept and understand the diversity and unique beauty that each person has to offer.
I miss your cynacism, and the way that it taught me to ask questions, push for better answers and expect from other people the best that they have to offer.
I miss the person you always saw in me and expected me to become.
Most of all, I miss the person you made me want to be, the person you made me strive to become and the person that I felt so much closer to being when I was with you.
I would give just about anything to have one more day with you. To have the chance to tell you all of these things, make sure that you know how much I love you and ask you all of the questions that I never had the courage to ask. My world and my heart have a huge whole in them without you here but I hope that you knew how much bigger and brighter my world and my life have been because of you. I will always love you and feel so blessed and enriched for having had you in my life.
Your Loving Niece,
Your Princess,
Mandy