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This memorial website was created in memory of our beloved Fern (Saitowitz) Gerard, 52, born on May 6, 1965 and passed away on August 23, 2017. Each one of us was touched deeply by her glowing spirit, her love for life, her selfless nature, and her deep love for her children.  For so many reasons, we will remember her forever.  

You are invited to read about Fern's life and enjoy the photos and videos and music that made Fern the jewel that she always was.  Please make your own contributions as you are inspired to do so.  You can click on the "Stories" menu option and add your own memories as often as you wish.  If you have any questions, please let us know.


May 6, 2023
May 6, 2023
Thoughts of love for your Birthday my Fenie ❤️
Miss you so.....
Love you for ever ❤️
May 6, 2023
May 6, 2023
Happy Birthday beautiful Fern !!
Forever in all our hearts
Forever missed
August 23, 2022
August 23, 2022
My Fernie,
You never leave my thoughts...
Love you, miss you.... ❤️
August 23, 2022
August 23, 2022
Dear Drew,
I hope you find comfort today in all the memories of the good times you and Fern shared. She sounds like a wonderful woman from all the stories you tell about your "together times".
August 27, 2021
August 27, 2021
Drew always talks so lovingly about you and your life together. I feel the love between you every time he relays stories about your good times and adventures together. You will always live on inside his heart and ours as he continues to weave the fabric your life story forward.
Fondly with hugs, Mary Ann
August 23, 2021
August 23, 2021
Fern, I will never forget you, I think of your wonderful spirit often, you are missed!
May 6, 2021
May 6, 2021
Dear, Sweet Fern,
You would have been soooo proud to watch your nephew, Josh, have his Bar-Mitzvah just a few days ago - this week of your Bday 2021 !
And it reminded me of when we all were here together in Atlanta to watch & celebrate the Bat-Mitzvah of Josh's sister Sarah back in 201__.

You would be so proud of Zoe doing her best at UC Santa Cruz ... and the fine young man Reef looks like he's becoming !!!
Miss you so very much on your birthday today
xoxoxo
May 6, 2021
May 6, 2021
Today celebrates Fern who came into my life and became the only sister I ever had. ❤
I miss her humor, grace, wisdom and courage. She was one of a kind and I often think to myself these days when faced with challenges or obstacles, "what would Fern do?" Grateful to have known her light.
August 24, 2020
August 24, 2020
I will always love you and I will always miss you! Thank you for being you!
August 23, 2020
August 23, 2020
Dearest Fern,
After hearing all the wonderful times and experiences you shared with Drew my hope is that you are now in a place where you are still experiencing them as well as receiving the love he carries in his heart for you. May you be forever blessed. You were a very special lady to him and by relaying his memories to us, we carry you in our heart also.
May 6, 2020
May 6, 2020
Dear Fern; I have heard so many heart felt comments and seen such beautiful photos from Drew about you that I feel I have been part of the life you two shared. You two have been such amazing soul mates that you have raised the bar for any couples seeking a bonding relationship. Even though you had such a short time together, you can be rest assured that it was as gratifying as my husband and my 52 beautiful years together before he was taken to heaven. God bless and happy birthday.
May 6, 2020
May 6, 2020
The missing you is highlighted always on this special day ... your birthday.
The light you brought & shared with me is still shining !!
Love and miss you always !!
August 19, 2019
August 19, 2019
Dear Fern,

You will always be missed as a great soul, amazing friend, and extraordinary human being. Keep smiling.

Best,

Your Doctor.
May 6, 2019
May 6, 2019
Time flies but not fast enough to not think of you very often. You were an inspiration to me and will be for the rest of my life. you are truly missed.
May 6, 2019
May 6, 2019
Missing you everyday, Fernie - especially today! Happy Birthday! Much love, Tams.
May 6, 2019
May 6, 2019
Hard to believe that it has been 2 years now since we celebrated your last Bday together back in 2017, Fernie. The memories of you are abundant and so very rich and wonderful !! Happy Birthday and much love!!
August 26, 2018
August 26, 2018
I only met Fern once for about 15 minutes but in that short period of time I got to soak up her spirit and get a sense of what a wonderful woman she was. Her smile was so warm and I could feel an endless amount of love in the big hug she gave me. I'm grateful for those 15 minutes and i will forever keep her in my heart.
August 23, 2018
August 23, 2018
Miss you so much Fern! There's a hole in my life still that can never be filled.
And yet there are so many things about you and the way you treated your two beautiful children, your loving family, your dear friends, and even the people you would meet for the very first time in say Trader Joe's.
Forever thankful to have been your husband, love, and life partner.
I will do my best today to celebrate the many things you shared that brought smiles to us all. The deep reservoir of positive memories from you makes the sadness/grief pale by comparison. 
Thank-you for your beautiful smile, and selfless heart, and wings to fly higher that you so generously shared with Zoe, Reef, me, and so many others!
You have changed me for the better forever.
Love you!!
May 6, 2018
May 6, 2018
You are so deeply missed Fern.
I would like to share one of my favorite moments with Fern with everyone. Not only was it such a representation of Fern's character but also inspirational. I was visiting Drew and Fern one morning and while Drew was preparing us some tea, Fern and I had a moment together. I sincerely asked her "How do you seem to find this constant energy to fight as hard as you do?" She gave me a big smile and said. "I wake up everyday, very tired, and usually with some pain somewhere. I let myself feel bad for a few minutes and wish and pray things were different. then I take a deep breath..and say Fern.."Get your fight back!" and I carry on fighting." I am tearing up remembering this. When I was driving home I remember telling myself I will always remember those words and apply to my own life whenever hardships arise. You are loved and missed.
May 6, 2018
May 6, 2018
Dear Fernie, I am thinking about you and as always missing you! May your soul be swimming peacefully in the oceans! Today we will eat some of your favorite foods! I love you!!!
May 6, 2018
May 6, 2018
Miss you...like the desert miss the rain !
Love you always...
February 15, 2018
February 15, 2018
Fern always had a beautiful vase of flowers on her kitchen sill. The sunlight, the colorful, delicate flowers, and Fern's gentle but strong presence enveloped us in a warm, sacred and loving vibration which goes on forever.

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May 6, 2023
May 6, 2023
Thoughts of love for your Birthday my Fenie ❤️
Miss you so.....
Love you for ever ❤️
May 6, 2023
May 6, 2023
Happy Birthday beautiful Fern !!
Forever in all our hearts
Forever missed
August 23, 2022
August 23, 2022
My Fernie,
You never leave my thoughts...
Love you, miss you.... ❤️
Recent stories
May 6, 2021
I remember Fern blasting dance music in her front garden and doing cartwheels with Reef and Zoe.  I remember she always had beautiful bunches of fresh flowers that seemed to sparkle in the light from her kitchen window.  Fern, a warm, kind, generous, sensitive and amazing mother and human being.  Such a smart woman who enjoyed a compelling conversation as much as I do.  You are missed and appreciated deeply!
August 23, 2020
Have you ever lost a star?  a planet ? a constellation ?  perhaps even a galaxy?
In any case, it has been a stellar loss.
I remember telling Fern that she was the sun in our lives ... 
I felt like Zoe, Reef, and I were her inner planets that got to bask in the daily radiance of her sunlight.
Surely she had numerous other planets and moons comprised of each of you. She enjoyed all your orbits as you each felt her pull and gravity upon you.

One day i just had to buy her this large metallic sun to hang in out entryway.  I told Fern that this best reminded me of who she was --> the center of our Solar System .. our brightest star. 
But then maybe she was also a constellation -  that of the mermaid with angel wings.

Could it be that each of us is composed of an entire galactic orchestra of cells that all play beautifully together (in harmony).  So we are indeed each a star as well.
Yet, every star will one day run out of their hydrogen gas fuel.  

When Fern left us, the universe lost a critical element --->
A central star, 
a favorite constellation, 
perhaps even a galaxy...

Each one of us were invited into our beloved's part of the universe,
or created in their stellar nursery ... their nebula.
What a gift it is to be invited into the inner orbit of your beloved's solar system.
When their radiance collapses into a supernova, then we are left to travel
alone once again ... and we come back to our own inner galaxy, constellation, star ...

T.S, Eliot wrote something that takes my thirsty eyes to a new telescope,
when he wrote:
'We shall not cease from exploration.
And the end of all our exploring
Will be to arrive where we started
And to know the place for the first time."

And we have a chance to be more than just lost:
Lost & Found.

Thank-you Fern for all you gave to each of us in your radiant lifetime here.

The waterfall pic

April 23, 2018

In May 2017, I went on a hike with Drew and Fern to a waterfall near where they live.  This was remarkable because the last time I had seen Fern, only 6 months before, she was not able to walk on her own.  She was so happy to be outside in beautiful nature.  She insisted against our wishes to hop over the rocks and cross the stream on her own, which she danced across with relative ease.  Being with her was both uplifting and inspirational - a memory I will treasure forever.

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