Happy Birthday Mommy
December 27, 2019
It's hard to believe that today would have only been your 69th birthday. It's hard to believe that you are not here for me/us to wish you a very Happy Birthday. It's hard to believe there will be no more movie dates on your birthday. It's all so hard to grasp. It's hard to believe that you're not here to ask me to make your favorite dessert, banana pudding. Never thought there would not be more opportunities. I remember last year, you told me that you found a restaurant in Atlanta that made banana pudding, but "it couldn't touch mine." And, you even told the owner of the restaurant that it was good, but "couldn't touch your daughter, Nikki's." You were pretty clear about your likes and dislikes. Banana Pudding was one of those desserts that you would ask me to make for any and all occasions. No matter the size of the dish, it was never large enough. I'd put some aside for you for later even though you would eat pudding until your stomach hurt. On Thanksgiving, you would ask that I make two dishes, one for you only, and one for everyone else. Lol. It was serious for you, and everybody knew it. This year, was very different without you. Though you weren't here to make your special request, I was thankful, and honored your spirit with a banana pudding. Never did I imagine, these past two years would be so life changing. I thought we had more time. More Thanksgivings, Christmas', birthdays... more puddings. There was more to see, to do, experience. It's hard to believe that you're not here to celebrate your day...to read your cards, open gifts, shoot pool, talk smack, take a walk, relax or enjoy your favorite dessert, BANANA PUDDING! It's truly hard to believe. Love and miss you Mom. Xo