Me and my brother had a special relationship you would think we were twins always inseparable we both moved to my gramas house at a young age and after he got in a relationship I did to & we lived in the same house for many years & if we weren't 2gtr we were always on the phone or writting letters always supporting each other thru good & bad time he was always a shoulder to lean on as I was his, I swear I would think we were going to die 2gtr never in my wildest dreams did I think he would be missing in my life I always imagined growing old with him & remembering all the stuff we did growing up , he was always my chair my stair my wall if I couldn't reach something as a child he would raise me up , I still can't believe & don't want to except his gone I think for me is better to just keep pretending his in a nother contry living a happy life that's the only way I can go on.. He knows as well as me that we never abandoned each other I was always there for him I remember telling him not to be sad or worried because I would never turn my back on him or stop calling him or helping him with whatever he needed & I know he would never abandon me, I was mad at him at first for leaving me but I had to understand that it wasn't his fault he would still be here if it wasn't for that man that came into his life that he wanted to help because he had a kind heart but at the end he took his life.... Why I don't know, how can a person do that to the only one that feed & have him a place to live I don't understand. I hold a broken puzzle in my hands & even though I manage to put some pieces 2gtr I still can't figure it out but I know my brother wouldn't leave me and leave me wondering what happened to him so holding these extra puzzle pieces gives me the streth to know I will see him again because he wouldn't leave me wondering I know he will help me putt it 2gtr so with that I know I will see him again my mind and heart is at piece cus I kept my promise & never abandoned him till that last day I was always there for him & still 2 this day I will always be.... I Love my brother he knew it and I know he loved me to ........