Coach,

You’ve been on my mind a lot recently. I wish you could see how many lives you impacted. I hope all your DJA Jags are making you proud! Happy Birthday!

Jags on 3! 1…2….3….

Happy birthday to you!! Felix Eloy I miss you so much. I so wish things could have been and was different. I love you bubby and miss you more than you’ll ever know!!

It is hard to believe you are gone. I miss you so very much. I love you so very much. My heart hurts so much. I am so proud of you and you make me smile. Sending you kisses and hugs. I LOVE YOU.

As the days, month, and years go by I miss you more and more wondering were would you be now, I see your picture everyday and wonder. Love and miss you Vivian.

10 yrs ago you was taken from us. I miss you more than you’ll ever know. I love you 

Hey coach, I hope you know the impact you’ve made on my life. You taught me so many life lessons and I wish you were here to see the man I’ve become. I’ll always love you coach

Felix Happy Birthday!

Happy 50th birthday lil brother!! I sure miss you and so wish things were different. I love you

I miss you. Everyday I see your picture in my dresser and think why, only God knows. I do cherish all the days we did have. Love Vivian

9 yrs has gone by since you became an angel. We were split as children and I tried so hard to contact you with no luck, as adults I tried even harder went as far as knowing your work place and you chose to ignore me for whatever reason. I find myself today wanting to get online and find you knowing you’re gone!! I hope we meet again someday and we can be siblings again!! I love you so much!!

Happy Birthday to my sweet boy. Yes, you were taken way too soon. You are truly missed each and every day. Jeanne was talking about the carebear you two went to the mall to get. Just sad the way things ended up. I love you so very much and miss you. Love you with all my heart. Sending you many kisses and hugs. HAPPY BIRTHDAY

Happy Birthday to my baby brother. I wish things were so different. I miss and love you so much

Well, here I am again just to let know how much you are missed. You will always live in my heart plus you will always be loved today and every day. It is hard to believe that it has been eight years. Plus still no closer! Just wanted to share my hugs and kisses with you. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH TODAY AND ALWAYS. KISSES AND ONE TIGHT HUG.

8yrs where has time gone?? I miss you today just like I did in the day you left. So many unspoken conversations that needed to be…..so many unmet family!! I miss you so much little brother!! See you real soon I love you ❤️

Happy Birthday to my wonderful son whom I love very much, You are so missed each and every day. I love you so very much. Just wish there was a phone so I could your voice one more time but I know that would not be enough. Just remember you are a great person and always will be. I love you and sending you hugs and kisses

Well, here I am again. I love you and miss you so very much. It has been seven years and I still do not what happened. I love you with all my heart. Sending you a kiss and many hugs. Just remember one day soon I will see you. LOVE YOU. Your Mother loves you very much.

Another year , your kids are in there 20’s now, u r still in our hearts and in our minds. Missed so much by so many. Love forever Collette and Kushan Rana

7 years have gone. I miss you so much. You may be gone but never forgotten. I miss you my lil brother.

Cousin Phil, you are truly missed, and loved by so many. You should still be here with all of us. It's so wrong of how this all happened and no one told your mom. I think of all the times of us growing up together and all the great memories that I will have for ever. I love and miss you with all my heart and soul. Happy birthday... Hug my dad and brother for me. Love u so much cuz. Love cuz Teena

Well, here I am again. I just wanted to let you know just how very much you are missed. My heart bleed and my mind is thinking about you. I love you so very much and always will. I know I keep saying I will find out what happen and why I was never told. Going to go see this summer what and where this happen... I miss you so very much. Happy Birthday to my wonderful son. You are always in my heart and with me until I meet you again. I Love you and have a wonderful birthday my sweet loving son. Kiss Phil and one big hug. Happy BIRTHDAY

6 days today you left us, it’s so wrong how we found out but the point is your a peace now. I love and miss you so much and wish so many things were different. Felix my baby brother your always in my ❤️.

Well, today is 6 years and the pain I feel is just as strong as day one. I love you so very much and miss you and your smiling face. RIP I will see you soon.

Well soon it will be six years and my heart still bleeds for you. I miss you and still have no answers on how and why I was not told. I love you so very much and miss you so very much.... God knowns in his heart and soul how much you are loved and how much you are missed Love you baby boy

Hey Baby Boy was just sitting here thimnking about you. I thought I would stop by to say hello and how much I love you.. I sttill have no answers but do not think I have give up.... Love you and miss you so very much....Kisses my sweet boy. I do promise I will see you soon

Well hello my loving Son. I just wish things would have been different. I love you and you will always live in my heart .Some times I feel like I am a failure and really do not care to move on > I just want to say I am done.. But you will never know how much I miss you and want to how just how much I love you and will always love you. Rest in peace my loving angel. Love you YOUR MOTHER

Happy Birthday to my baby brother!! I love you so much and wish things were different!! I hope your watching over us. I miss you.

Just still can not believe you are gone. I am so heart broken and fell I failed as a Mother I should have been there to hold you. Just know I love you and you will always live in my heart. Kisses my baby boy Love you forever I am so lost and do not understand why no one to this day has contacted me.... But believe me the fight is on. My heart breaks every day . You was a good kid and never had a problem with any thing,,,, You will never know how much I miss you. I love you so very much. I am and always will be YOUR MOTHER.. LOVE YOU MY SWEET SON

Today is the day. It started like any other day, until the saddest news was sprung upon us, so unexpected, so unfair. I am sure you were watching from above watching all the sadness and tears trying to let us know it was ok and don’t cry. Well 5 years has past your young students are now young adults, I am one of there parents and we speak of u often. You molded them, you were like a reason for him to get up in the morning because they were doing archery. Thank you for taking the time to guide my son and set a good example to him and be kind to him. The world needs more Coach V’s.

Well I know in a week it will be five years that you was taken from me and the pain is just as bad as the day we found out... I love you so very much and would love to sit down with you and have a heart to heart talk with you just one more time... My heart bleeds with so much pain... I love you and miss you so very much... I always say now TOMORROW IS NOT A PROMISE... So show your love and kindness …. hugs my sweet baby boy.... You will always be the baby boy to me.. Love you YOUR MOTHER

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! I MISS YOU SO MUCH!!

Hey Coach, it’s been about 3 years now and I still remember the day we got the news you passed. It was so sudden..I remember how you always sat the guys around the locker room and talked to us about how to act like young men. I hope you’re resting peacefully..

I can not believe it has been 4 years since I saw your smiling face. I miss you and think of you daily! I love you Felix!

Thank you! At Midnight I spent a long talking and even laughing with you. Going thru Memory Lane and most of all you proved me you were there. It was an awesome feeling to feel your presence although I wish you were truly there. Left you a video on my FB and Twitter page. Forever you are loved and remembered. I celebrate today your life. Love you ALWAYS...

Today marks 4 years you was taken from us all!! I really have no words to say. I think of you often and hurt for you. I am not sure what some people were or are thinking. You belong to mom and I and I am not sure why we cant have you. We are family and blood, and I am sure you know how bad we hurt, and maybe someday your girlfriend will understand how we feel and bring you home to us, that sure would be lady like. Well my brother until we met again. RIH I love you!!

Well today marks 4 years that you were takin from us. Feels like yesterday when I received the call. Miss you and think of you often. Sorry for anyone who never had the chance to meet you. Or a student who didnt have you teach them. You were one great guy. Thinking of u today.

November 20th is approaching which will mark 4 years that you are gone. I am ALWAYS thinking about you, talking to you in prayers, and STILL hurt and angry that you are gone. I leave notes here to keep this page alive, to keep your memory alive. So far this page continues to be active and available for all to read and comment. You know what has been A LOT on my mind is that there was a memorial service for you done by friends, but I would like to do one from the family. But, make it a CELEBRATION OF YOUR LIFE....because you lived life to the fullest and you ALWAYS had that beautiful smile, and beautiful heart. Maybe for 2018, because your family does love and miss you also. We didn't know of your passing til many months later, and it feels so unfair we didn't get to say goodbye. I love you so much my sweet cousin and you are always Lucas guardian angel. Thank you for being my cousin, my friend, and I am so honored that we shared beautiful memories together as children growing up. I can still see you singing and dancing to some old jam, and also I can NEVER forget you waiving hello at me while I was in a coma. You came to me, and it still hurts to know you were gone. I still feel guilty and wonder why God took you instead of me? I feel that it should of been me NOT YOU!!! I am not sure if I will write on this memorial as much, but I write a lot about you on my FB,Twitter, and journal. I love you Phil.... See you soon :)

Just still can not believe you are gone. I am so heart broken and fell I failed as a Mother I should have been there to hold you. Just know I love you and you will always live in my heart. Kisses my baby boy Love you forever

As spring breaks begin I can't help think of you. We were cheated out of so much. I never stopped caring, thinking and loving you. I just wish you were here. I am trying to get mom to move this way, this is where her family is!! I wish dad could come as well but you know dad and snow,they don't mix, lol. Mom needs to understand she and I are alike and we are gonna bump heads but we will get over everything. Mom is all I have now besides my babies and husband and I think she needs to be here and I am sure you would agree. Lil phile I miss you so much. Until we meet again I will hold you near, I love you lil brother!!

Just thinking of you my sweet cousin. I think and talk to you in my prayers almost every day. I love & miss you ALWAYS. Well, my book is nearly done, and it will be available on Amazon soon. I did write about our encounter when I was in the hospital. I wish you were here to share this new adventure in my life. Well, there is nothing more to say. I am so very lucky to had you in my life and still have you in my heart and soul. See you soon my beautiful cousin/brother. (I am STILL MAD you are gone and hurting to where tears are trying hard to come down my face but I am fighting it big time. My heart is beating hard and it hurts because I miss you. I don't need any holidays to remember you, for you are ALWAYS with me)

Hey coach. I know I haven't really ever left anything here, but I never knew what to say. Everyone always says you were a great coach, and they're right. To this day you have been one of the best educators I've ever had. You didn't just teach me about exercise, you taught me about respect, pride, and when I needed advice, you helped. I remember you always told me to do Dual Enrollment. Well, now it's my second semester in the program, and you're part of my motivation to keep going. I'll never forget the last time I saw you. It was the day before you passed, you shook my hand and smiled at me when we said goodbye. Everyone always said it would get easier with time, but it really never did. I still miss you a bunch, coach. But I know you're in a great place. Rest easy, Coach Vicens. You're the best. I hope all of us (your old students) make you proud.

My sweet cousin.. It's been a rough few couple of weeks. I had major surgery and you know I was scared. I chatted with you the day before and of asking you to be there if it's my turn to go. You are so much apart my heart and soul and chatting with you almost every day helps me stay strong, and positive. I am in the process of writing a book and included the part when you called out my name, smiled, and waived at me. The part that gave me strength, determination, and a sense of a stronger faith. I miss you so much. Talking to you every other day is nothing compared to actually speaking to you person to person. I did try to reach out to Melanie to ask a few questions but she never responded. I respect her and left it alone. I just wanted to do something special for you from me to you and get updated info on your life at the time of your passing. I only have childhood memories, and when we were young adults years ago. No matter what, I will honor you not only in my heart and soul but will do something special. Once I heal, and I am ready to travel, I have plans on coming to your town in Lakeland, Fl and your school, and get a feel for you. I do feel you always but I need to witness the positive effect you had on your friends, students, and co workers. Looking forward to hear their great stories and experiences with you. You mattered so much" you made a difference, and changed lives to the better. God had a purpose for you in this world and you achieved it. I am so proud of you and honored to have you in my life, my heart, soul, and memories. Hey! Thanks for looking out for my baby as always you are his guardian angel and a great role model. I love you

Happy New Year lil man!! Sure do miss you. Took our mom to the Casino and a band last nite and well let's just say mom was a bit nervous lol. You and I could have had a blast there with her. I love you so much and my heart breaks. Well lil man I will close and see you someday. I love you

Happy New Year lil Man. I wish you could have been here last night. I was with your Sister and talked to you DAD and I talk to him a lot. He misses you just as much as we do. I still can not believe you are gone from us. Well just wanted to say Happy New Year and dance down the golden lanes for me. I miss you and love you with all my heart. Kisses and hugs little man. See you soon. I say prayers for all who misses you and never got to say there goodbyes because no one knew and just to let you know I am still waiting for my answers. I LOVE YOU always your MOTHER

Merry Christmas my loving son. I just want you to know I slept the whole day because I did not want to deal with Christmas alone. You and NO ONE ELSE knows this breaks my heart. I spoke with you father the other day and he is willing to fight with me. As I told him he will always have a piece of my heart because he gave me a wonderful son as you are. I hope when I come through the golden gates that you and Nick are there to greet me. I am sending you big hugs and many kisses. I love you little man and always will. SEE YOU SOON. By the way dance down those golden lanes they have up in heaven. I know your sister is hurting too. So send us a sign that you are looking down on us. Ok going back to bed. Love you and miss you so very much. MERRY CHRISTMAS, I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH.

MERRY CHRISMAS!! I love you so much and wish things could have been different. I think of you and Grandma all the time. You are always in my heart and thoughts. I love you!!

Happy Angel Birthday to you, Happy Angel Birthday to you, Happy Angel Birthday my sweet Phil!!!!! Happy Angel Birthday to YOU!!! I love and miss you very much. In honor of you today, I will bake brownies, order pizza and celebrate all the memories of your awesome life. I promised you that you will NEVER BE FORGOTTEN..forever honored and remembered. I will make sure of it. My kids will always know about you and this day. Today we will sing for you and remember always I love and miss you.(I May even bake a cake)

My wife, just today, noticed I have both of my ears pierced. She started playing with my earlobes, then asked how long I had them both pierced. It made me think back to when I did them. Then I remembered it was Felix who pierced my right ear. It was our sophomore year at Robinson High School. It was near Christmas and we decided right before the school break that when we returned to school in January we would have our right ears pierced. George Michael (Wham) was still a big deal, and Boy George was still on the radio, but both were considered radical for having their right ear pierced. So we thought we were really doing something about accomplishing this.

This was my Fe-Dawg Vicens moment! I miss that dude! I will continue to pray for him and his family.

Saabir Muhammad (Kevin Haney)

Happy Birthday to my wonderful SON to whom I miss so much and am still in shock that you was taken from so many whom loved you so deep and true. Believe me I am still digging for answers and I have talked to your Dad many times in this last few weeks. He loves you and misses you too. I just think about the funny this you did in the past. The time you and Jeanne went to the mall and got me my care bear. I still have it and going to place it on my bed because the bear means the world to me. Ever time we went to the store you always wanted hot wheels which I still have. Well they say only the GOOD DIE YOUNG. and that you was. I will see you real soon. Again HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY LOVING SON. You forever live in my heart. Huggggggggggggggs and kisssssssssssssssssss LOVE YOU so very much

I just wanted to drop in and tell you that I love you and miss you. This so unreal to me. You was so young and so loved by many. Here is a little something that I found today and hope you enjoy this as much as I did. No one know my feelings about things.  “We've got this gift of love, but love is like a precious plant. You can't just accept it and leave it in the cupboard or just think it's going to get on by itself. You've got to keep watering it. You've got to really look after it and nurture it.”


― John Lennon So very true in what this is saying. My heart aches so much but I know one day some I will see you. I love you my sweet baby boy. I could go tomorrow and I am ready to say goodbye to this world.

It's 5:50am my sweet cousin and today marks 3 years you are gone. Time goes by but you live on forever in my heart and soul. I talk to you all the time in prayer or just any ocassion. I miss you so much and miss that smile. I still have this paper that I wrote down your address, phone number and email. I want to write and call you but I can't. It still hurts a lot, and I carry you with me always. I promise my kids will know all about you and learn how great you were and maybe carry a little of you in them. I can sit here and still remember your birthday parties, or Christmases since it's in the same month. So much I remember and don't want to ever forget. Please come back to me, even in a dream as you did in the past. I would like to just sit down and chat with you, have you listen or just give me that big smile. You are my best cousin/brother and I truly hurt, miss, and love you. Thank you for being with me and remaining in my heart and soul. Until next time, see you later. I love you