When grandpa was living with me I would write all the time and he was always interested in knowing what I was writing. It was for musical purposes. The one inparticular that I spent the most time on was untitled at the time but had to do with loss of a loved one (for me) and it was unfinished when he moved to Texas. I wanted him to see it when it was finished, and I had planned on singing it to him if I saw him again. I didn't get that chance but I thought I would share it here now for everyone else to see.
If You're Listening Up There
There's a dream that echoes loudly in my head
And it rearranges memories, as I fade away in bed
Somewhere tangled up in time
the hidden corner of my mind
What is this behind my eyes
Some kind of life outside this time....
There's a need that weighs so heavy on my heart
And it's crying out inside
for the one who played the part
and though I know you can't be here with me
you're still the baggage holding onto me inside
...and if you're listening up there
why don't you press rewind...
They always say in time the pain will go away
but they were wrong because for me the hurt
became another kind of pain...always a million ways to need you still today...
Now the need still lingers on time after time
hiding out somewhere inside, until I start to fall apart
And then the angry me inside
never allowed to ask you why
Were we supposed to just get by
with all these questions left behind
Now I'm not saying that I don't love my life
but the day you died was the knife inside my heart...hmmm
...and it was there you see, where the pain would leave this mark
Inside I know you can't be here with me
Still you're the baggage holding onto me inside
...and if you're listening up there
why don't you press rewind...
Besides my own kids and husband I'm not sure anyone has seen this or heard it yet...I think I may have even made a few minor changes but ultimately this is it...I am sure somewhere out there grandpa has heard it already...
I love you all<3
