ForeverMissed
This memorial website was created in memory of our loved one, Frederick Barker . We will remember him forever.
Posted by Carol Barker on September 18, 2020
Hello my love, its 3 in the morning and I'm wide awake. As I do I get up go to loo then cup of tea couple fags,and the back to bed. It's been a long time since I felt loneliness and empty. I just wish I could feel your presence around me,maybe one day. Love and miss you so much more than I ever told you xxxxxx
Posted by Donna Barker on September 1, 2020
Hey dad hope you're okay up there? Just wanna let you know just how much I miss you... Wish you was here right now.. I need a shoulder to cry on... Been feeling down the last couple of days.. Hate feeling this way.. Feels like I have no one... Sarah Shane an stuart don't bother with me anymore. Not a message or nothing.. Feels like ppl think I'm seeking attention.. I'm not dad.. Just feel so alone right now no one gets what I'm feeling.. I'm wearing a fake smile most days. I hate what I've got don't wanna live with it anymore.. I'm always going to b alone never going to b accepted.. I just dunno what I can do... I'm probs doing your head in now.. Like I annoy everyone with my problems so I'll just go... Take care dad love an miss you always xxxxx
Posted by Carol Barker on August 13, 2020
Hello my lovely lay in bed listening to Michael Jackson, gone to soon.
Well the weather has been to hot,plenty of thunder,dog don't like it.cant sleep,miss you more than ever.will always love you and you will never be replaced,goodnight and God bless xxxxx
Posted by Donna Barker on August 9, 2020
Miss you dad wish you was here right now!
Posted by Carol Barker on August 1, 2020
Hello my lovely, been a while since I last wrote to you.things haven't changed much here,miss you so much but I'm glad your not here to try and fight this horrible virus. tomorrow would have been our 45th wedding anniversary, donna bought me a beautiful fone case with picture of me and you on it. Oh and thanks for hiding your sun glasses up Donna's,they jumped at her today from out of cupboard lol,Well I'm off to bed now so nite nite my love,sending kisses xxxxxxxx
Posted by Donna Barker on June 21, 2020
Happy fathers day dad xx I couldn't ask for a better dad... your awesome.. amazing.. my hero.. could talk to you about literally anything... miss our jokes.. untill next time sleep tight... love an miss you xxx
Posted by Donna Barker on June 19, 2020
Hey daddy.. hope your doing okay up there? Please watch over mom an look after her.. shes not been herself for a while now.. shes so worried about her throat... I know Every thing will be okay.. she needs to slow down abit an start looking after herself.. I know I ask her to do things for me but now im starting to feel guilty... shes my mom my world shes all i have ... i do worry about her... its like i feel i have no brothers or sisters...i only have my mom... i promise to take care of her the best i can... till next time dad take care.. love an miss you so damn much xxx xxx p.s always talking to your photo... and still can't find glasses.. I know you took them... please bring them back xxxxxx
Posted by Carol Barker on June 18, 2020
Hello my love,I feel so down at moment, had shane here for 2 weeks,definitely to much and to top it all gotta go and have camera down throat on monday,its been sore 4 weeks now. Cant say I'm not worried because I am. Just have to wait results, until next time sleep tight and always remember I love and miss you so much xxxxx
Posted by Donna Barker on June 17, 2020
Love an miss you dad...really need you by my side.. I cant handle all this alone
Posted by Carol Barker on May 30, 2020
Good morning my lovely, hope your ok. Life down here at moment is total mayhem with this bloody virus,cant do this cant do that. Not been bingo 12 weeks now,but not saved anything. Me and janet been busy making kids garden seats out of tyres. Sarah popped up other weekend and stuart been round a few times. Question for you,have you moved Donna's sun glasses ,there one minute and then gone. I've had bad throat 2 weeks now and keep choking, twice I thought I was a gonna,going ring drs monday if no better. Will speak to you soon, love and miss you so much xxxxxx
Posted by Donna Barker on May 11, 2020
Dad why don't you come an see me?? You always go to Sarah why not me?? Was or Am I that bad?? I know I've always been the odd one out... always feel nothing I've done or do is good enough ! I'm so lonely right now.. got tears running down as i type this to you... love an miss you so much xxx
Posted by Donna Barker on April 24, 2020
Hello dad.. it's been a while but don't think for 1 minute I dont think about you... it's horrible here with this virus... helping mom as much as i can... please look over mom an take care of her... love an miss you so much dad xxxxx
Posted by Carol Barker on March 30, 2020
Hello my lovely, I never really asked for much but I'm asking now.will you please look after and guard the family with this awfull virus going around. It's so strange knowing you can't go out but if it keeps us safe then that's what we have to do. Miss you so much, love you xxx
Posted by Carol Barker on March 18, 2020
Hiya my love,I'm so glad your not here right now with all this virus crap going on,but if it wasn't here I wish you were. I'm still finding it hard without you. Hope you know how much we all love and miss you. Speak again soon xxxx
Posted by Donna Barker on March 18, 2020
Hello dad. . I'm so glad your not here to fight this horrible virus.. I'm scared cus of moms health .. please keep her safe I need her.. i will do my best to look after her.. its gonna b hard when they do a lockdown! hope your okay .. love an miss you so much xxxx
Posted by Donna Barker on March 2, 2020
Hello daddy.. well another birthday without you... I know your watching over me... just wish i could feel you here... love an miss you so damn much xxxxxx
Posted by Carol Barker on February 20, 2020
Alright my lovely, god do we all miss you.lay in bed thinking as you do. Hope car passes MOT tomorrow. I'm trying to make some tea light holders with your ashes in got girls and myself, don't know how they'll turn out.well I'm going close my eyes now,until I write again ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤love an miss you xx
Posted by Donna Barker on February 15, 2020
Hey daddy .. just lay here thinking of you an playing songs... god I miss you so much... if i of known you was goin when you did i would of lay by you all night to remind you just how much i loved you.. an tell you just what an amazing dad you was... couldn't of asked for a better one... wish you was still here with us.. miss your laughter an you jokes an stupid comments an silly phone calls... i will never stop loving you an never stop thinking of you...hope to feel you around sumtime soon... love you daddy xxxxx
Posted by Donna Barker on January 29, 2020
I'm sorry I've failed.... I'm sorry I'm.not visiting mom so much.. I'm barely leaving the house these days... I dont know what way to turn.. Kids keep fighting an arguing they wont go to school.. I keep trying to bring myself up then I fall back down... i promise i will do better... i will see mom more...anyway hope your good up there...an sorry just needed to rant.. love an miss you god damn much .. wish you was here xxxxx
Posted by Donna Barker on January 27, 2020
Hello dad. Hope your okay? Please guide me in the right direction.. I dont know what to do anymore I love an miss you more each day that passes xxx X
Posted by Carol Barker on January 19, 2020
Alright freddie, I hope your watching over me right now,I still feel guilty for ringing the nurses the day you left us.if only we knew then what we know now I would have been by your side to say goodbye, but no one told us it would be as quick. I'm so sorry ,please forgive me, love you forever xxxxx
Posted by Carol Barker on January 7, 2020
Hello my lovely, happy New year.well now xmas as gone thank God it's time to start sorting my life out. Had a great holiday with Darren but still not as gd as you wasn't there to play pranks on him. Looking forward to Mexico in November, and just booked weekend away in August with janet and 2 girls to abber,time to get myself sorted I think. Speak to you soon, love you so much but miss you more xxx
Posted by Donna Barker on January 1, 2020
Happy New year dad... hope you had a good celebration up there with family... wish you was here with us to celebrate.... one day we will be reunited .. untill then love an miss you always xxxxxx
Posted by Carol Barker on December 26, 2019
Merry Christmas freddie,yesterday was horrible with out you,but I did feel your presence,it's so hectic here Shane drinking to much but he won't listen,sarah trying to keep awake but struggles,and me I just go with the flo.had some lovely gifts but miss a gift of you as always. I know your ok up there along with all our departed family watching down on us keeping us safe, until next time LOVE AND MISS YOU
Posted by Donna Barker on December 25, 2019
Merry Christmas dad... another Christmas without you... been lay awake all night thinking about you... this has to b the worst... Your not here matilda an nancey with their dad... I feel so alone... was gonna ask mom if i could stay with her but she got Sarah shane kids an dogs there an mom was really stressed.... what i would do just to see you hear you feel you one last time.. Hope your havin fun up there with the family an looking down on us... Love an miss you so damn much dad xxx xx
Posted by Donna Barker on December 6, 2019
Hey daddy sorry it's been a while.. my life has been up an down.. don't worry not a day goes by that i dont think of you an wishing you was back home where you belong.. I miss you so very much.  Ppl say it gets easier but it's not.  It dont feel real I still can't grieve please don't think i dont miss or love you... You are my dad my hero my everything.. it's so hard with out you here.. another Christmas without you I'm supporting mom the best I can.. need your help your guidance... please go an see mom an let me know if I'm doing ok looking after her? I love an miss you so damn much dad... untill next time. Sleep tight xxxxx
Posted by Carol Barker on November 22, 2019
Fred,it's really getting hard without you,I have never felt so lonely in my life. Yes I got kids and that but it's not the same as having you here. I just don't know what to do, please give me a sign or do something just to let me know your by my side. I go to sleep hoping I can dream of you but l can't even do that,until next time , love you xxx
Posted by Carol Barker on October 31, 2019
Hello my love,today I'm feeling so lonely, no-one can tell how hard life without a loved one for whom you've shared and cared for for 43yrs would you feel so empty. If only you could let me know and show me how to carry on. I will always love you, xxxxx
Posted by Matilda Edwards on September 28, 2019
hi grandad, i hope youre doing okay. i miss you so much, i cant believe its been a year already. it feels too real. i wish things wasn’t how they are right now,. i love you so much grandad, rest well xx
Posted by Carol Barker on September 27, 2019
Freddie,it's been 12mths since you grew your wings. It's been so hard without you,there is a hole in our lives thats was left when you went which will never be filled. They say time is a healer but I know I will never get over losing you, miss you more than you'll ever know, goodnight my love ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
Posted by Donna Barker on September 25, 2019
Hello dad... things are hard for me at the min... why did you have to leave? I feel so lonely... I know I have mom but i need you too... why don't you come see us?? I never feel you around me... is it because it still dont feel real? I try to reach out for you but your not there .. hate putting my stress on mom it's not fair shes going through enough with out my problems.. just wish i could see you or even feel you by me... I need my dad .. I'm sorry I need to go you don't need to hear my problems too... love an miss you so damn much xxx xx sleep tight daddy xxxx
Posted by Carol Barker on September 2, 2019
Hello my fred,been in a nice weekend break down port Isaac, very nice place but wouldn't do it again.poor dolly was left looking after Monty again and Sarah's kids aswell. She needs a break herself now,kids was manic,to say the least.
You left us nearly 12 months now and I still can't believe your not coming home, can't deal with the lonely ness, a hole that no one can fill, I do miss you dearly. Talk soon my love ❤ xx
Posted by Donna Barker on August 21, 2019
Hello dad... Finding it hard right now.. wish you was here still... please dont hate me but i feel cold hearted .. I've not grieved yet.. I dont know if it's normal or not... it just don't feel real an its almost nearly a year since you left us... all i want is my dad back... miss you soo much... love you daddy xxx
Posted by Carol Barker on August 19, 2019
Hello freddie,as I sit here writing to you ,I keep asking myself why so soon. I can honestly say it's horrible being on my own.Im finding it hard. But hay ho I'll keep taking the pills and try my best , speak soon my love . Miss you so much xxxx
Posted by Carol Barker on August 8, 2019
Hiya freddie, on holiday with janet Martin and hazels kids up skegness, to many kids for me but can't moan it's free.i have scattered you around the beach so hay you've been Skeggy aswell. Miss you so much,it's harder than I thought but got kids keeping me going ,well I'll say bye for now ,LOVE YOU xxxx
Posted by Donna Barker on August 3, 2019
Dad it was yours an moms wedding anniversary yesterday... was so hard an awkward so brought mom some lovely bling hearts for living room an a butterfly for your garden.. love you dad xxxxx
Posted by Donna Barker on July 27, 2019
Hey dad just wanted to say hello.... hope your doin ok up there... god I miss you so much... been looking after a mom the best I can... come see us all soon please.. love an miss you loads xxxxx
Posted by Carol Barker on July 21, 2019
Hiya freddie,just been sat here playing such beautiful songs and everyone has made me cry,wish you were here to share them with me. I've been so down these last few days but that's to be expected.
Until next time ,I LOVE YOU
Posted by Carol Barker on July 13, 2019
Bit late but happy birthday freddie,so strange not buying you anything yesterday,love and miss you more an more each day xxc
Posted by Donna Barker on July 12, 2019
Happy birthday dad... love an miss you so much.. Will have drinks for you later xxxxx
Posted by Donna Barker on June 26, 2019
Hello dad.. hope your okay... love an miss you loads.. wish you was here to help me through this tough time xxxxx
Posted by Carol Barker on June 17, 2019
Hello my lovely, it was so strange yesterday kids bought stuff for father's day .I'm so lonely now a days but it's to be expected. Just got into bed so I'll say nite my love ,miss you xxxxx
Posted by Donna Barker on June 15, 2019
They say it gets easier but i dont think it does... i think of you everyday.. i giggle to myself about our lil jokes... how i wish you was still here.. but i know your in a better place and at peace.. dont get eating too many cakes sweets an chocolate up there... say hello to nan an grandad for me.. hope they are okay... my girls think of you all the time.. always talking about the good memories of you.. well i gotta go an sort matilda some food... will chat later daddy... we love an miss you so damn much xxxxxxx take care xxxxxx
Posted by Donna Barker on May 19, 2019
Hey daddy hope your ok up there? I so wish you was here with us.. i need your help... love an miss you loads xxxxx
Posted by Sarah Carpenter on May 6, 2019
Hiya dad just got home been up to see mommy myself mom Nigel and George and scally started doing ya garden yesturday starting to look nice ,went carboot today didn't get any thing though hop u behaving up there talk to you soon my darling love always xxxx
Posted by Donna Barker on May 6, 2019
Morning dad. Hope your well? Its nice to start feeling you around us.. still dont seem real to me.. when i go to moms it seems your at the hospital... days dont get easier... miss you like mad.. you probs hear us talking about you an the silly little things you use to do. Memories will stay in my heart forever... im doing my best to look after mom for you.. im goin to nan an grandads garden soon do some work on it.. its hard without you here.. i hold back my tears every day... just wish i could get a message from you just so i know your ok... hope my marley being good for you.... anyway im goin back to sleep for an hour... love an miss you so much dad... till i see you again.. have fun sleep tight xxxxx
Posted by Carol Barker on May 5, 2019
Been a couple weeks but not much changed,Monty still being a little shit,made you a nice little garden out front but still some more to do,hopeing to do back fence this week.well I'll speak to you soon xxxxx
Posted by Carol Barker on April 24, 2019
Hello my freddie, I'm writing this with tears rolling down my cheeks lay in bed.as you know we went away last week,wasn't same without you.i was going to put some of you on beach but we never went over but saying that I do wanna go Aberystwyth one day and I'll take you ther if that's ok.well I'm off to sleep now my lovely so I'll place a kiss on your forehead and whisper I love you ,nite nite xxxxx
Posted by Carol Barker on April 8, 2019
Hello lovely, I take it your heard donna and myself talking about you yesterday, yea dolly asked if I was going bingo and you know what my reply was,then she said you can go with and make me win big.oh yes you did come and I did win £120 thanks to you,will come in handy for next week when we go to brean and yes I'm taking you aswell,well I've been and had x-ray on thumb just gotta wait results on Friday, it's probably arthritis.well I'm going to chill now doing some art work so I'll come again tomorrow and have a chat again, love you so much and miss you more ,nite my love xxxxxxx
Posted by Carol Barker on April 7, 2019
Alright freddie, these days dont get any easier knowing your not coming home,but I know your resting your tired body in gods garden.hope your sitting on a nice bench looking down on us all,until tomorrow sleep peacefully, love you xxxxx
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Posted by Carol Barker on September 18, 2020
Hello my love, its 3 in the morning and I'm wide awake. As I do I get up go to loo then cup of tea couple fags,and the back to bed. It's been a long time since I felt loneliness and empty. I just wish I could feel your presence around me,maybe one day. Love and miss you so much more than I ever told you xxxxxx
Posted by Donna Barker on September 1, 2020
Hey dad hope you're okay up there? Just wanna let you know just how much I miss you... Wish you was here right now.. I need a shoulder to cry on... Been feeling down the last couple of days.. Hate feeling this way.. Feels like I have no one... Sarah Shane an stuart don't bother with me anymore. Not a message or nothing.. Feels like ppl think I'm seeking attention.. I'm not dad.. Just feel so alone right now no one gets what I'm feeling.. I'm wearing a fake smile most days. I hate what I've got don't wanna live with it anymore.. I'm always going to b alone never going to b accepted.. I just dunno what I can do... I'm probs doing your head in now.. Like I annoy everyone with my problems so I'll just go... Take care dad love an miss you always xxxxx
Posted by Carol Barker on August 13, 2020
Hello my lovely lay in bed listening to Michael Jackson, gone to soon.
Well the weather has been to hot,plenty of thunder,dog don't like it.cant sleep,miss you more than ever.will always love you and you will never be replaced,goodnight and God bless xxxxx
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Freddie was born 1950,we met in march 1975,married In August 1975.had 4 beautiful children that produced 6 grandkids and a great grandson.sadly freddie past away 28th September 2018.god be with him .
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Shared by Sarah Carpenter on April 5, 2019

lol where do we start I can tell you lots and lots well about the camping holidays ,one in particular it was windy raining we trying to get get tent up dad said I gotta sit down Carol then blow me down lol he said to our mom you got a cuppa tea going what lol that's just the start till next time dad you not getting away with this mate xxx