Gary was the love of my life. he was ALWAYS there for me he treated me like a queen and he put me high up on a pedistail. He was my best frend, my lover, my soulmate, I couldn't have asked for better in a man.  He would give his shirt to anyone that needed it and he would help anyone in need.  He never wanted for anything.  When we first got together he told me that he had lung cancer and asked me if i still wanted to be with him and i told him that yes i did he didn't know how much longer he was going to live but i just wanted to spend as much time with him that i possibly could.  So we got together and the first year it was a long distance relationship. The next year I moved to North Carolina with him and our life begin.  It was the best 10 years of my life and I will cherish those 10 years forever. That is something that NO ONE  can take away from me, is his memories.  Yes sometimes those memories can make me cry and sometimes they can make me smile. If I had this relationship to do with all over again I WOULDN'T CHANGE A THING. Even though I knew that one day he was going to die. It 's better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all. He made me feel so very special. No one before him has ever done that and there has been no one after him  when he was on his death bed ,I looked into his eyes and told him that there would NEVER be anyone after him and he looked at me and said not no one and I said nope no one I will always love you, today, tomorrow, and always. No one can ever fit into my heart the way that you did.  You were so special to me and I thank you for loving me. I don't know if you ever realized just how special you really were.  As I sit here and type this I also sit here and cry because i miss you oh so very much and this is valentine's day 2015.  17 years after you have been gone and I still cry my heart aches for you my dear sweet Gary Zane Via.  I also remember on our anniversary you would buy a rose for me however many years we were together that is how many roses that you bought for me and you would always do this on your way home from work . You would never forget for example 10 years equalled 10 roses.  He told me that when he first started doing this that after 12 years he was going to start back at 1 rose for 11 years and keep going like that. Well sad to say that on our 10 year anniversary he was so sick  that he couldn't get out to get me my 10 roses and I told him not to worry about it  because i knew that he loved me, but he couldn't let it go.  So at the time his brother was staying with us so Gary could get to his radiation treatments because i didn't know how to drive back then so he told his brother to go to the store and get me my 10 roses and a card for me and bring it back to him so he could sign it and give it to me for our 10 year anniversary and his brother did this for him and today i still have all 10 anniversary cards that he has given to me and all 10 valentine's day cards that he has bought me, and the last 10 roses that he bought me I still have them wrapped up in aluminum foil and in the freezer. I will never part with them because they are a part of Gary's heart that will ALWAYS  be with me.  We had our good times and we had a few bad times but i can say one thing  we NEVER had a fight if we disagreed on something we would go to seperate rooms and think about it for a while and then a couple of hours later we would talk about it an get everything staightened out.  We never went to bed mad. We were always telling each other how very much we loved each other.  I will NEVER find another man in the world that could care for me so deeply and  I will NEVER care for someone so deeply as I cared and loved Gary.  He will always and forever be my soulmate, my lover, and my best friend.  He was there when no one else was and I just want to say thank you Gary from the bottom of my heart for loving me so very much. I will cherish your love forever.  On what would have been our 11 years together sadly to say he had died right after our 10 year anniversary and it hurt me so very much that I thought that I was going to die too.  But with God's help he brought me through it.  It still hurts very, very bad and I'll  NEVER EVER get over him.  I had to move back to WV because I did have any way of paying the rent on the house that we lived in I wish now I would have stayed down there and got a job and got my license and kept the house every now and then I go back to Winston-Salem, North Carolina and see our landlord that we rented from  which they are good friends of ours and they called Gary their son even though he wasn't they treated him like a son and they even came to his wake. they didn't take it very good and neither did I. They also stayed for the funeral and his last ride with him to the gravesite.  I NEVER thought that I could love someone so much the way that I still love Gary.  NO ONE understands.   They tell you it will get better with time but it doesn't, it keeps hurting and hurting, it doesn't go away. His doctor suggested to me to put him in the hospice home so he could get the proper care that he needed, but Gary was still in his right mind and he told him that he wanted to stay at home for as long as he could. So we did stay at home up until 19 hours before he died, I had to call the ambulance to come and get him and take him to the hospice home when they loaded Gary up into the back of the ambulance and I got in the front seat with the driver and he backed out of our driveway, I knew in my mind that this would be the last time that we would leave the house together and that when I return home that I would be by myself. Because he would have died by then.  We were suppose to have gotten married on the 5th of March but sadly to say God had other plans and Gary died on the 4th of March 1998 at 11:45 am in the hospice home. I had to call my landlord to come and get me because I had no way home, cause I didn't know how to drive. then I had to go through the worse days of my life getting the funeral and wake and everything settled that was in his name  if it wouldn't have been for 2 of his sisters and his brother I don't know what I would have done.  After everything was taken care of, I sadly had to moved back to WV. I didn't want to, but I had no choice. I  also didn't want to leave the memories down there in N.C.  About 3 weeks after Gary had died I was lying in bed half asleep and half awake and as I was lying there  I felt these arms wrap around me and was holding me ever so gently. I just knew it was Gary and he was telling me that he was ok, and not to worry about him, and that he was also saying good bye to me. I jumped out of bed and it took me a few minutes to realize what had just happened.  It mad me feel happy for a few minutes and then i started to cry softly.  Now very snow flake that falls I know that it is Gary makng sure that I am ok.  Oh God, I love him so much. I just wish that he wasn't taken from me at and early age  he was only 50. I love you my dear sweet Gary Zane Via I LOVE YOU WITH ALL OF MY HEART AND SOUL  I love you.   UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN , I LOVE YOU <3.  ALWAYS AND FOREVER  "POOH"

Gary was the love of my life. he was ALWAYS there for me he treated me like a queen and he put me high up on a pedistail. He was my best frend, my lover, my soulmate, I couldn't have asked for better in a man.  He would give his shirt to anyone that needed it and he would help anyone in need.  He never wanted for anything.  When we first got together he told me that he had lung cancer and asked me if i still wanted to be with him and i told him that yes i did he didn't know how much longer he was going to live but i just wanted to spend as much time with him that i possibly could.  So we got together and the first year it was a long distance relationship. The next year I moved to North Carolina with him and our life begin.  It was the best 10 years of my life and I will cherish those 10 years forever. That is something that NO ONE  can take away from me, is his memories.  Yes sometimes those memories can make me cry and sometimes they can make me smile. If I had this relationship to do with all over again I WOULDN'T CHANGE A THING. Even though I knew that one day he was going to die. It 's better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all. He made me feel so very special. No one before him has ever done that and there has been no one after him  when he was on his death bed ,I looked into his eyes and told him that there would NEVER be anyone after him and he looked at me and said not no one and I said nope no one I will always love you, today, tomorrow, and always. No one can ever fit into my heart the way that you did.  You were so special to me and I thank you for loving me. I don't know if you ever realized just how special you really were.  As I sit here and type this I also sit here and cry because i miss you oh so very much and this is valentine's day 2015.  17 years after you have been gone and I still cry my heart aches for you my dear sweet Gary Zane Via.  I also remember on our anniversary you would buy a rose for me however many years we were together that is how many roses that you bought for me and you would always do this on your way home from work . You would never forget for example 10 years equalled 10 roses.  He told me that when he first started doing this that after 12 years he was going to start back at 1 rose for 11 years and keep going like that. Well sad to say that on our 10 year anniversary he was so sick  that he couldn't get out to get me my 10 roses and I told him not to worry about it  because i knew that he loved me, but he couldn't let it go.  So at the time his brother was staying with us so Gary could get to his radiation treatments because i didn't know how to drive back then so he told his brother to go to the store and get me my 10 roses and a card for me and bring it back to him so he could sign it and give it to me for our 10 year anniversary and his brother did this for him and today i still have all 10 anniversary cards that he has given to me and all 10 valentine's day cards that he has bought me, and the last 10 roses that he bought me I still have them wrapped up in aluminum foil and in the freezer. I will never part with them because they are a part of Gary's heart that will ALWAYS  be with me.  We had our good times and we had a few bad times but i can say one thing  we NEVER had a fight if we disagreed on something we would go to seperate rooms and think about it for a while and then a couple of hours later we would talk about it an get everything staightened out.  We never went to bed mad. We were always telling each other how very much we loved each other.  I will NEVER find another man in the world that could care for me so deeply and  I will NEVER care for someone so deeply as I cared and loved Gary.  He will always and forever be my soulmate, my lover, and my best friend.  He was there when no one else was and I just want to say thank you Gary from the bottom of my heart for loving me so very much. I will cherish your love forever.  On what would have been our 11 years together sadly to say he had died right after our 10 year anniversary and it hurt me so very much that I thought that I was going to die too.  But with God's help he brought me through it.  It still hurts very, very bad and I'll  NEVER EVER get over him.  I had to move back to WV because I did have any way of paying the rent on the house that we lived in I wish now I would have stayed down there and got a job and got my license and kept the house every now and then I go back to Winston-Salem, North Carolina and see our landlord that we rented from  which they are good friends of ours and they called Gary their son even though he wasn't they treated him like a son and they even came to his wake. they didn't take it very good and neither did I. They also stayed for the funeral and his last ride with him to the gravesite.  I NEVER thought that I could love someone so much the way that I still love Gary.  NO ONE understands.   They tell you it will get better with time but it doesn't, it keeps hurting and hurting, it doesn't go away. His doctor suggested to me to put him in the hospice home so he could get the proper care that he needed, but Gary was still in his right mind and he told him that he wanted to stay at home for as long as he could. So we did stay at home up until 19 hours before he died, I had to call the ambulance to come and get him and take him to the hospice home when they loaded Gary up into the back of the ambulance and I got in the front seat with the driver and he backed out of our driveway, I knew in my mind that this would be the last time that we would leave the house together and that when I return home that I would be by myself. Because he would have died by then.  We were suppose to have gotten married on the 5th of March but sadly to say God had other plans and Gary died on the 4th of March 1998 at 11:45 am in the hospice home. I had to call my landlord to come and get me because I had no way home, cause I didn't know how to drive. then I had to go through the worse days of my life getting the funeral and wake and everything settled that was in his name  if it wouldn't have been for 2 of his sisters and his brother I don't know what I would have done.  After everything was taken care of, I sadly had to moved back to WV. I didn't want to, but I had no choice. I  also didn't want to leave the memories down there in N.C.  About 3 weeks after Gary had died I was lying in bed half asleep and half awake and as I was lying there  I felt these arms wrap around me and was holding me ever so gently. I just knew it was Gary and he was telling me that he was ok, and not to worry about him, and that he was also saying good bye to me. I jumped out of bed and it took me a few minutes to realize what had just happened.  It mad me feel happy for a few minutes and then i started to cry softly.  Now very snow flake that falls I know that it is Gary makng sure that I am ok.  Oh God, I love him so much. I just wish that he wasn't taken from me at and early age  he was only 50. I love you my dear sweet Gary Zane Via I LOVE YOU WITH ALL OF MY HEART AND SOUL  I love you.   UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN , I LOVE YOU <3.  ALWAYS AND FOREVER  "POOH"