Every Christmas is heavy with sadness. Every time your birthday rolls around there’s a void in me and our moms hearts that will not go away. Why didn’t you fight harder to live ? It’s awful to think you gave up. Now present day March 11,2019 there is only myself and mom left  oh and Darrel of course but you know how that is- he’s not blood. You were part of us and we miss u so very much. Dads gone and the beloved beast died 12-15-16. It’s ironic how Christmas is now the worst holiday for me. I wish everyday u and dad and beast were here. Mom and I are lost without u all.  I love u gene. Rest In Peace