Today's thoughts...11 May 2011
I guess one of the biggest reasons I wanted to come back home to the place where you left this earth is because of so many good memories we shared. I am determined not to let Bean "D" take that away from me!
Remember when you and I first came here to our home in W2? Remember when we were standing on the back porch looking at the woods and admiring how much we liked this house? Remember picking out your room? I remember how excited we were that it would be ours. We were a little unsure of our new beginning but we knew it would all work out. I have a picture of you standing on the back porch while it was still under construction. I'd give anything to have that and so many other days back! I know I can't have that but no one will take your memory or love from me!
What makes me sad is that so many people knew of the danger you were in, but didn't bother to let me know. They thought you could deal with it. It's a shame, but I'm not bitter at all. In fact, I am kind to everyone because it's like I always told you - it's YOU that you can't run from. I'm just sorry that the people have to live with what they may have been able to do. Your daddy and I would have done anything to help you...anything...if we had known what was really going on. But, I also know that this is in God's overall plan...I get it, but I don't always have to like it. I know God isn't requiring that of me. After all, I am only human and this human misses her baby as I know her dad and so many others do as well!
I love you so much!
Mama will <3 you forever