Today marks 6yrs since we lost you princess, 6yrs seems a long time in reality, but in my head it was yesterday..... i never stop thinking about you or counting how old you would be (5yrs 5mths and 5 days old), i never stop thinking about how you would look, your personality, your obsessions and favourite things you would like. If only god let you stay with us, if only. I hope you like your cabinet, i know to some its just a shrine of nothing but to me and your dad its everything, its you. Your dad wont touch it he says its your resting place besides my tummy where you last was before you passed. But we needed something to help us grieve ans this was it. It has helped and continues to help us, just running out of space, i hope you like you new items for your cabinet we got you. We love and miss you everyday, we always include you with stuff and talk to your brothers about you so they dont forget they have a sibling in heaven. I pray everyday for just a miricale baby (you) to come back to me or a rainbow baby but obviously god has other plans and im not meant to have anymore. Anyway princess even though ive not been on here i always post on facebook and always think of you, ive had a few butterflys visit me over the years, and ive had a robin this year oh and a squirrel was that you too?. Thankyou princess for all the beautiful things to keep reminding your old mum that your around sometimes. We love and miss you baby girl lots of love mummy, daddy & your big brothers ♡♡♡♡ xxxxx

hey precious girl, im so sorry its been so long! thankyou for every feather youve sent my way,thankyou for visiting me when you have had the chance its a very comforting feeling. i miss you terribly. i hope you recieved your birthday balloon and i really hope you liked your birthday presents i bought for you. not a day goes by i dont think about you. others may have forgotten but i havnt. how can i forget a part of me?. i love you my angel keep on shining brightly! <3 xxxxxxxxx

Hey baby girl I'm so sorry I've left it so long I lost the website link and then a lot of stuff has been happening. Thankyou for the visit the other week when u came into the home ur very lucky as domino and lucifer could have got to you. Hope I got u out safely thankyou so much for the visit I will never forget it! It was your 2nd angelversary on the 9th so sorry we didn't mark the occasion I had a drink tried to block the pain out I know I shouldn't as it dosnt help but it just took the edge off. Miss you so much darling I'm missing out on all the firsts with you. Another 7mth and you will have been turning 2! Going to miss all your firsts it don't get easier you just learn how to get by if I didn't have ur brothers I'd have come to you by now. Miss you and love you lots! Sending angel kisses to you and look forward to seeing u soon! My butterfly

Well me precious girl as you know weve been having a tough few weeks I was down with a chest infection then on the 22nd nov on ur nannan shells 50th birthday your youngiest brother fell and broke his arm you sure was watching over him that day baby girl keeping him safe, then a week later this tues just gone we was bk at hospital as he had a fever his oxygen levels was low he was very poorly and I thought I was going to loose him too but again you are keeping him safe and keeping.him.here with us and I cant thankyou enough it would have been ur first earthly christmas with us this year u would have been 8mths and 3wks old at christmas old enough to open ur own presents :) wish u was here our guardian angel. I hope you like the things ive bought for ur shelf will be doing it every year as I know ur with us. Keep watch over ur younger brother keep him safe and protect him with everything u have. We love and.miss you everyday baby girl forever in.our hearts till we meet again. Love mummy, Daddy & all your brothers xoxoxoxoxoxoxox Our Precious Angel Baby Princess xoxoxoxoxoxoxox

Well baby girl its your first year in heaven happy 1st angelversary!!! So sorry i havnt been commenting i lost the link and couldnt remember the site name. Its been one heck of a year your edd was hard very hard you would have been 5mth 8 days old today would have been weaning you with baby rice and more! So wish you was here with us. Hey! Im having a keepsake box made so i can buy things for you every year! How i miss u so much i wish i could just for 1 day get to hold you, touch you, hug and kiss you.....guess it will have to wait until its my time to be with u. My healths getting worse so want to loose weight but i dont know where to start and my confidence is really low and my motivation to eat healthy is rubbish! Wish i had a magic wand to get rid of all my fat lol. Hope u have been treated well up there and you are getting lots of love. Thankyou for all the feathers you have sent me over this past year they have been beautiful pure white ones just as pure as our baby girl!! Well ive got to get ready to take your brothers to school so ill catch you later. Love you with all my heart and soul love mummy xoxoxoxoxoxoxox

Hey baby, im sooo sorry its been so long that i left you a note....ive been through alot. Needing councilling i got throught it still have my off days but i always remember it wasnt my fault and it was something that just was unpreventable. Its coming upto ur due date on the 4th of april and i worrying that i might go off the rails abit. I love u sooo much harper my special angel baby in heaven. Will love u and leave u for a little while.....lots of love and big hugs from mummy,daddy and all ur big brothers xoxoxoxoxoxoxox

Merry Christmas little one <3 xxxx

Merry christmas my little butterfly, hope u got spoiled wrotten up there today. Me & ur daddy was thinking about u today, so sorry we didnt get a balloon to send to u today for christmas to play with but we promise to bring the new year in with you by sending a balloon up to u. We love u soooo much our little angel in heaven. Always in our hearts forever always until we meet again. Love mummy, daddy and ur big brothers too xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox

Hey there my little pudding, so sorry ive not wrote in a while ive been soooo busy. Thankyou for my feathers please dont ever stop sending me them. As u know im going to be seeing a councillor next week as i dont think im coping very well my little rose bud. Ur daddys having a hard time with his health too these last few days please watch over him i cant lose him too. Hope u like ur angels i had given for u. I will be sure to buy u something for christmas harper. Miss & love u more and more each day lots of love mummy, daddy & all ur brothers xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox

Hey there my little angel....
mummys had a really tough few weeks, im struggling still trying to come to terms with all this keeping my mind occupied. Me and your daddy had a blip as you know, i think ur trying to help us. I hope things get better. You would have been 17wks and 3 days tucked up in my belly we would have found out if u was pink or blue which hurts so much. We would have been buying clothes and stuff getting ready for you to be with us in this big wide world. Instead your in heaven watching over us no child should go to heaven before there mummys and daddys its not fair :( thankyou for all the white feathers so pure white they look beautiful. Keep sending them me my little angel. I love you harper phoenix forever and always till i see u in heaven. Lots of love,hugs and kisses sent to heaven from mummy,daddy and all ur big brothers xxxxxxx

Hey my little butterfly, thankyou for the feather on my back door step this morning it made me smile :') i love you soooo much!!!. Mummys having a real crap day today but i know ur here watching over me. My best friend made something for you to me today and she made me cry im sure u have seen it and love it as much as mummy does. Well im off for my tea and mummy will drop by again soon. Sending heavenly hugs,love and kisses from mummy, daddy & all your brothers xoxoxoxox ❤

Hiya my little angel. Well u gave me a amazing day yesterday u truly are my angel!. Thankyou for the feathers and for the visit yesterday, remember your not to try get in the house as you wont be able to get back out without damaging ur pretty wings! But im so happy u came to visit me just after i had a bad moment. I knew it was you!. Miss you everyday sweetpea. Speak soon. Love hugs and heavenly kisses from mummy,daddy & your brothers xoxoxoxoxoxox

Hey my little angel. Thankyou for the visit today u was so beautifully white and fluttered by at just the right moment to remind us ur here. Gosh it will be 3 weeks wednesday u left us to be in gods arms, but ur always in my heart forever and ever till i have u in my arms. I would have been 11wks today and today would have been the day we would have seen you for the first time!! Wish u could have held on till then just so i would have had something here to show everyone u was here and had a heartbeat!. I had a family member say a aweful thing to me the other day and im guessing u heard it. It wasnt very nice and hurt my broken heart even more. Me and your daddy will keep your memory alive with us each and every passing day. U was our baby even if u didnt make it to us i carried u for 9 weeks! Wish it had been more. Miss you my beautiful flutterby. Keep visiting mummy love you lots harper phoenix xoxoxoxox

Well harper i went and had my tattoo done today it looks amazing, hope your happy with it my little angel. It will be 2 weeks tomorrow that i lost u and im still just taking day by day. Me and your daddy are always thinking of you. Id have been having my first scan on the 28th, your brothers birthday but unfortunately ill be cradling your blankie thats been made for you but to me all the way from a lovely lady in the usa helping mummies who have lost angels....hope you like it the butterfly resembles you. Love and miss you to the stars and back love mummy and daddy and all your brothers xoxoxoxoxox

Hey my darling angel, thankyou for my beautiful feather yesterday! Ive never seen a feather soooo white & fluffy before! Thankyou thankyou thankyou!! I think about you every minute of every day!! Miss u my little angel above. I hope you like your picture on our room wall so ur with us forever.....speak soon baby mummy & daddys off to bed we love u to the end of the universe and back xoxoxoxoxox

Well sweetheart ive gone and bought a memorial necklace with a saying and a footprint and a little heart. Im going to go have it engraved with ur name and im also booked in for my tattoo just for u so ull always and forever be with me. Mummy loves you harper and thankyou for the gorgeous white feather on wednesday. Love from mummy, daddy and your big brothers xoxoxoxoxox

:'( still no easier harper, slightiest thing sets me off, feel so stupid and daft afterwards but then i remember its just my grief and how im dealing with it. Ive decided to make a memorial garden for you and place a little white rose bush with some memorial items in there so ur brothers can also send u little gifts every year. Weve also decided that on ur anniversary we will be letting off 2 balloons 1 from me and ur daddy and one from ur older brothers to send to heaven to show u how much we miss and love u and show u that we will never forget and we will always remind the boys that u was here with us but only a very short time and we will see u in heaven one day. Love you more than anything my baby lots of love from mummy,daddy and all ur big brothers xoxoxoxoxoxox

Well its day 4 and the grief dosnt get any easier yet.....i miss you terribly! My bump not growing anymore. Still keep crying,still keep thinking is this just all a dream.....i wake up in the night crying for you, why did it have to happen to us?. I know people say stay strong and you will get through this, i feel its going to be along road ahead. I hope your being looked after harper just as much as you would have here with us. On your due date is going to be the hardiest, when i should be giving birth to you and holding u in my arms, smelling your baby soft skin and seeing ur long dark hair, holding and touching your little fingers and toes, kissing ur soft little lips. Seeing ur eyelids open to look around and seeing ur gorgeous brown eyes.....its going to tear me up. Im finding it hard looking at babies and i also pregnant ladies as i keep thinking it should be me. Im missing you terribly harper, until we meet again stay safe fly high, love and hugs sent to heaven love from mummy xxxxxxxxxxx

To my angel baby, even tho you left us only a short while ago and im still hurting, I will come by here and always speak and leave you warm loving hugs and kisses to send to heaven above. I wish heaven didn't need you back so soon and let me keep you here with us, your brothers would have loved to have meet us as much as me and your dad. rest peacefully my little angel and remember I will always and forever love you, thankyou for making me a angel mummy and I now realise what love really is and how much a person can mean to someone even tho I never got to meet you I got to hold you in my tummy for a short time which felt amazing, speak soon harper love mummy xoxoxoxoxoxox

To my little harper, you will be sadly missed your in a good place remember daddy loves you lots n lots like jelly toys hugs n kisses my little angel....