Its Easter now and you're not here. another heartache another tear.
Holidays without you, just not the same. Filling out cards, still writing your name.
Not much laughter as we set to dine, no more hiding eggs for kids to find.
Missing you carving the Ham this year, and passing it around for all to share.
Seeing you open ,your Easter Gifts, that smile on your face, I sure do miss.
As I set and think of these things, I realize what it all means.
You're now in Heaven for Easter and all , Since you answered , God's great call.
How amazing it is , you got the best seat, setting with Jesus at the Easter feast.
The one on the Cross, for our sins , had to die, Now you're setting by His side.
Easter with Jesus, in God's Kingdom, wanting to be there, Come Jesus Come.
Singing to Heaven is all i can do, Until I can be there at Easter with Jesus and you.

Happy Heavenly Easter Daddy. I can only imagine the grand feast you are having.
Just to be seated at the same table as Jesus , is such a beautiful image. I miss you here with me for the Holidays, and I would love you to come back. I will never deny you Heaven, and free of sickness, and pain. No more sorrows, no more tears.
Although I cry so much for you, It puts a smile on my heart to know , You are with the One who died for me to live. Now you are alive in God's Kingdom and rejoicing every day with the Angels. 
I Can not wait to see you again Dad.
When you were in the hospital bed , right before you went to Heaven, I had to tell you "it's ok to let go Daddy".  That is the worse thing I ever had to say to you. I can promise you one thing , Dad. When I get to Heaven, I will never let you go again. 
I love you and miss you so much Daddy. Happy Heavenly Easter.......
                                Love, Your Baby Girl
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Hello Dad,
It's me again. I apologize for not writing in a while. How are you doing in Heaven?
I know that is a silly question. It's Heaven , it can only be Glorious, wonderful, beautiful... I have been missing you a lot these past few weeks. Grief share is starting up again, so I signed up again. It really helps me Dad. I will be giving a testimony at Church this Sunday for Grief Share and how it helps me. I along with mom and Gary will be becoming Members of the Church on Sunday as well. I wish you would be there too, but i can only imagine the Church you are in now.
You would be proud of me Dad. I have become a strong Christian woman and i want to serve the Lord more and more. It's a great feeling. I wonder if you can see any of it? If not, you will know, when I am walking with you in Heaven. Oh my Dad, what a glorious thing to be walking with Jesus. I must say, I am a little jealous, but I know God has great plans for me.
The weather here has been the usual 4 seasons in one day. You know I don't like that.. You never minded it though.
Mom & I were at your grave today. The wind was bad yesterday and I wanted to make sure nothing got blown down or away. I put an Easter cross on there for you and took the Valentines stuff off. 
Going there is still hard and I am sure it will be always. I can not get used to visiting you there. But I know where you really are, and will be there with you one day. Can not wait!
I will write again soon Dad, I am going to write a little to Jojo, and head to bed soon. Goodnight Daddy, I miss and love you forever.
                 Love, your Baby Girl
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Hi Dad, It's me. 
I just wanted to tell you how much I am missing you today. There are some days where I miss you more than others and today is one of those days. It's really cold down here , and they are calling for more snow. I was so excited to see snow, but now I want it to be warm. You know how this cold weather bothers me so much. You never wanted me out in it , and would always get upset when I would go out to shovel snow or clean snow off of cars. Thats how you were with all of us though. You never liked seeing us do things like that. 
Oh Dad, I miss you so much. There are so many things I want to show you and tell you. I set and wonder if you think of me ? I wonder what things are like in Heaven? I wonder if you're setting with Jesus right now? I wonder if you're with family and friends right now? I wonder what the weather is like? Does it snow in Heaven? Or is it always sunny and warm ?
So many questions.. I guess I will know when I will know it all when i get there.
All I know is, I miss and love you so much . I can not wait to see you again one day.
Until then, I will keep the memories in my heart and hold you forever .
Goodnight Daddy, I love you so much. 
                                    Love, your baby girl
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Happy New Year in Heaven Daddy
In an hour and a half it will 2024, but my mind is stuck in 2022 when you were still here with me. My heart is not in it , to ring in another lonely year without you Dad. I miss when we were young and all of us would set up til midnight and toast the new year with sparkling grape juice. We thought we were so grown up cause we got to drink what the adults were drinking. But we were together as a family. Now everything is different. I am setting here alone( with Lil'Pappy) writing to you. I can not remember ,the last time i had someone with me to ring in the new year. Everyone has their own family now, and others just go to bed.
I wish you were here dad, at least to be with Mom. But she is sleeping too.
Anyways, I wonder what Heaven looks like this time of year. Do they celebrate the new year? I should celebrate, only because, it is one year closer to you.
I will be at your grave tomorrow. You're the greatest Daddy a girl could have asked for, and I am missing you and love you so much Dad. 
I will write soon.  Good Night Daddy and Happy Heavenly New Year.
              Love , Your Baby Girl
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Merry Christmas Daddy.
Although this is the second one without you, it feels like the first. Last year was hard but not like today. Now that the shock has worn off, and I realize, you won't be back, It seems like this is the first Christmas without you. I have been crying all day. this pain of your absence is killing me. I thought I was ok, but I am not ok. I have been trying to be strong , but I broke down today while wrapping gifts. Realizing I was just about finished wrapping, but something was missing. I didn't have a gift for you this year. You always made Christmas special. Never wanting the best, you were so happy with the smallest gifts. No matter what it took, you would always find us that special gift. As kids, we think, the best gifts were bought in stores, wrapped in pretty, paper and placed under the tree for Christmas morning, where we though Santa had put it. As we get older the little things mean more than anything bought in a store. We learn that the best gift was when Jesus was born and when he died for us. Thinking back now, and remembering all the wonderful memories you left us, we realize even though you are in Heaven, you are still giving us the gift of those Memories of you. We also realize God gave us you as a beautiful gift so many years ago.
I am missing you so much Dad. I bet Heaven is even more beautiful at Christmas, Jesus Birthday. Getting to spend Christmas in Heaven with Jesus and you is what I am waiting for the most. Just to be in the presence of the best "Present" Jesus is what I long for. I am sending Christmas hugs to you and loving you .
I will write again soon Daddy. Goodnight for now but never forever,
I Love you..                 Love, Your Baby Girl
                  MERRY CHRISTMAS IN HEAVEN
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hi daddy,
how are you ? Silly question, I know. I know you are doing great, youre in Heaven , and there is no greater placed to be. Michelle and I did your grave for Christmas. We both said that if you saw it, you would tell us, it was to much and laugh that silly laugh. Dad, I sure do miss that laugh. I miss everything about you Dad. I want you here always , but recently, I have been really wishing you were here. I think its because of so much going on. I want to run and tell you about it all. I can tell you when I get there, but none of that will matter then. I won't even have any of it in my life anymore.
But anyways, i am going to go for now. I am not feeling real good. I will write again soon. I love you so much dad. I miss you beyond the clouds.
Goodnight Daddy.
                    Love, Your Baby Girl
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Another Holiday without you here,I don't want to celebrate.
Same as it was this time last year, Just another heartache.
Thinking back to the times we shared , not just on holidays.
Remembering how much you showed you cared, I really miss those days.
Since you left and darkness appeared, you were my lifes light.
You gave me strength through the years, I have lost my will to fight.
Family time was your thing, with everyone here, The glue that kept us together, no longer keeps us tight.
Thanksgiving was your favorite year after year, Now it's my least of all spent without you near.

Happy Heavenly Thanksgiving Dad. this is the second one without you, and its not any easier than the first. I remember how we would get the wishing bone out of the turkey and let it on the window seal for about a week ,( til it dried) and then we would each hold a side and break it. We always got a laugh out of it. Getting to carve the Turkey was your thing. The first thing you would do, is grab a bowl of the skin and eat it while you carved. Then you got the neck, heart, liver,etc and just loved chewing into it. I still don't know how you ate that stuff. After our meal, you and cousin Ralph would always rush out and do the dishes, so the women didn't have too. ( That was every Holiday)
I remember the times you couldn't even be with us for dinner , because you were out working, when it snowed. I hated that so much. I wanted my Daddy home with me.
As I set and remember all these things and so many more, I realize, how Blessed I am to have had you for almost 45 years. The wonderful memories you left me will forever be part of me. You may be gone from sight but you are always here in thought and in my heart. You loved everyone so much, that your love never dies. It will live in me until I am with you again.
I just can not truly believe that you are not here. I guess when you love someone, you never really want to believe the truth of them being gone from sight. I just want to hold your hand again, kiss your cheek, hear you laugh and see you smile. I want to hear you say , " I Love you Baby Girl" . I want to run to you and tell you everything about my day, I want to talk to you about hard times and share all the good times, i want to ask your advice, and have you help me with little things. I want to bake cookies and bring you the first ones , to be my taste tester. I want to see your face light up , when you open a gift and see that it is something you wanted. I want to see the look on your sweet face , when you hand out gifts to everyone. I want to see you make one of your famous Christmas Sandwiches, I want to see you kiss Mom under the mistletoe and when either of you open a gift from the other one. I want to hear you say , Thank you everyone, after you open your last gift.
OH Daddy, all these wants, will never be again. If I had knew two Christmas ago, was going to be your last, I would have made it so much more special. We really thought we wouldn't have you or mom that year, you had covid so bad. But God gave you to me and us ,knowing it would be your last. It breaks my heart that I didn't do anything special. I guess I was so excited just to have you there and not in the hospital, I didn't think of anything else. I apologize Dad. 
As Thanksgiving arrives, I want to send a Special Thank you to you in Heaven. Thank you for being the best Daddy a girl could ask for. Thank you for loving so much, even when i didn't deserve it. Thank you for working so hard for our family to always provide. You and mom always gave up things you needed for us kids. Thank you for always being there for me, Thank you for teaching me so much through the years. A lot of what I know today is because of you. Thank you for all the great memories you left with me. I will forever live on them. Most of all Dad, Thank you for being you. There is no one that could or would ever take your place. God broke the mold when he made you, and now that mold is retired. God only makes the best, and I had the best . The best Dad for 45 years. You gave me and taught me so much to be thankful for. 
I Thank you Daddy and I am sending Thanksgiving Kisses to Heaven.
Goodnight for now ,but never forever. I love you Daddy
                           Love , Your baby girl
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hello Dad, It's me again.
I am sorry I have not written in a little while. I wanted to write today , to see if you saw Church today? We had Hero Sunday today. I took your picture with me and Mom & I stood for you as they Thanked Fire fighters. You would have really loved the little children, Dad. They had a little parade around the congregation, waving flags and holding sweet Thank You signs . There was one with all fire helmets on it. I was handed a perfect Thank card from one of the little angels too. You just would have enjoyed the entire service. There was cake too. oh Dad you and your cake. always a great memory. I really miss you Dad. It will soon be another Thanksgiving without you. I still never imagined this. I know you are in the best place, but you're not here. I don't want to sound selfish ,by saying that, I just miss you so much Dad. I would never deny you Heaven and the Presence of God . I will never deny you Peace and pure joy, I will never deny you No Pain, nor sickness.
I still ask why, at times, but deep down I know why. God has a plan for all of us. If its our time, there is nothing we can do. I just never imagined being only 45 and losing a parent. I guess when you love someone so much, you never imagine them gone.

I bet your Thanksgiving Dinner is unbelievably. huge and an endless array of dishes upon dishes. Wow, what an image to have, and to be seated with Jesus is just an amazing joyous thought.

I will write again soon dad. Im gonna drop a few lines to Jojo now. Good night Daddy, I Love and miss you so much..

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            Love, Your Baby Girl

Today we celebrate your special day, But now we celebrate in a different way.
The Cake, and candles, and a card or two, can no longer be given to you.
Instead we send our gifts above. For your Birthday this year we send our love.
It's a simple gift we have plenty of, so on each day, we'll send more above.
Up in Heaven, do they celebrate, will have your favorite cake?
I wonder if the angels will Shout, Happy Birthday to you, as you blow the candles out?
For your Birthday this year , you're celebrating with the one who first brought you down here.
Just as Jesus gives his greatest gift from above, We send the best we can , we send you all our love.

Happy Heavenly Birthday Daddy. I am missing you so much. I miss you each and every day, but these past few weeks have been really hard. With each day closer to your Birthday, I find myself crying more and more. I know Heaven is the best place to be, but I would still rather have you here. I will never deny you the Beauty of Heaven, the presence of Jesus, the life of no more pain, sickness, and sorrow. I know through all this heartache and pain, there is glory in knowing , I will see you again and then get to celebrate each day with you. I know in Heaven, we will not need it to be a Birthday to celebrate. Being in Heaven will be the best reason to celebrate Jesus.. We all need to celebrate Jesus down here too.
We will be at your grave tomorrow to have a birthday celebration for you. Goodnight Daddy. I love you more than words can say. I love you beyond the clouds every day.
HEAVENLY BIRTHDAY DADDY..  I LOVE YOU
                     Love,
                       Your Baby Girl
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Hello Daddy, How are you doing in Heaven? 
I wanted to write a few lines tonight. Tomorrow is 4 years that I lost Jojo. I still miss him Dad. Can you give him a big hug for me? Maybe he will give you a kitty kiss. I remember how he loved you so much. Anyone or any animal that was in your presence loved you. If they didn't it was their fault. It will soon be your Birthday. You would be turning 72 this month. Oh Dad, i miss you so much. I never knew a heart could physically hurt from missing someone. But It honestly does hurt for you. Life will Never be the same as it was when you were here. Things are different, feelings are different, life, is different. One thing that remains the same is the love I have for you. The thought of being with you again is a constant thought. Knowing that to be with you again, means I will be with Jesus too. What a glorious day it will be.
I am going to go to your grave this week and we will be there for your Birthday.
I'm gonna tell you goodnight now, but not forever.
I love you Daddy and miss you so much. Sleep tight In Heaven tonight.
                                       Love ,
                                          Your Baby Girl.
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Hello Dad,
It's me again. Please forgive me for not writing for a little while.
So, we started a class now called Grief Share. It is every friday for 13 weeks. We go the Church to meet for it. It really helps to not get over but get through the pain of losing you. That still hurts to say and even more to realize. It will soon be 14 months since you have be gone, yet it seems like yesterday. I think it is because of the sting still being with me.
Your Birthday is soon. We are going to have a little get together at your grave. You would be turning 72 on the 23rd. Oh Dad, I miss you so much. Is it wrong to still ask Why? Everyone who knew you , knew what a wonderful man you were. You loved and cared for everyone. Everyone who knew you loved you, and those who didnt wish they would have gotten the chance to know you. There are people now, who say they would have liked to have met you.
It is this time of year that is the hardest on me. with your Birthday, Fall Season, and Holidays coming, i think of you more than normal and miss you so much more.
I have been starting to get more involved in Church . Mom, Brenda and I are doing food ministry now. Mom and I do Basket Ministry, I help with serving meals , I help with clothing closet ( when I can ), I am helping get the word out for different events, and will be helping at events. I truly enjoy being there and doing Gods work, Dad. You would love the Church. Everyone is wonderful. We have the best Pastors as well.
I can only imagine what your Church is like up there in Heaven. How glorious it must be to be with Jesus. I can not wait for the day I can walk with Jesus and you.
How is everyone up there? My Grandparents, aunts , uncles, cousins, friends, and fur babies ? How is Jojo and Bobo? I can see them with you always. As i said before I am jealous that you are all together. 
Well, Daddy , i am gonna go for now but not forever. I am going to write Jojo a little note now. Before I go, Please remember something for me. Remember, how much I love you and miss you. I Pray that I was a good enough daughter for you. I long to be with you again Dad.
Goodnight Daddy, I love you forever.
                                 Love , Your Baby Girl
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Hello Dad, It's me again. your baby girl. So, how is Heaven ?  Silly question, but like the song says, " I Can Only Imagine".  These past few weeks have been really rough. I have been missing you more than I usually do. I am not sure if its because of Fall being here soon, or thinking about your birthday coming up in October. You loved Fall so much. I remember every year, how you would go get three Mums . One for Mom, one for Michelle , and one for me. You loved going to Shrams and letting Kenny and Micky pick out ANY pumpkins they wanted. It was a great family time that made so many great memories with you. Oh Daddy, It is not supposed to be this way. You should be here with us.
Gary and I have been working on getting a new tub put in for Mom. We ripped all the walls out with ease, but when we tried to take the tub out, NOPE it was not going to be an easy task. But with God's help ( I said a little Prayer), and cutting the tub in half, we got it taken outside. It was surely a heavy bugger.  I was telling mom, how you would be right in there helping , if you were here. 

I was making banana bread the other night and was crying about how you loved it so much. I wanted so much to cut a piece and run it down to your window (as I always did). I did take some down for mom, but it was not the same as seeing your eyes light up and say "OH My Sissy , That is Good" .
So many memories you left with us Dad. I believe we are all guilty of taking simple things for granted . Now that you are not here, We all realize, how Precious life and family and friends truly are. 
I wish I could turn time back to when you were here, but I know even if I could, It was Gods timing. God needed you then and anything anyone would have done differently , would not have changed that. 
I ask God, if I was a good enough daughter. I ask Him if I did or didn't do something , to cause your death. I ask God if , There was something I could do, to have you back.  Being human, I guess those are not wrong questions to ask.
I sometimes do not understand why Good people have to die. But then I realize, God is getting his people together in Heaven.
I just miss you so much Dad. I love you so much and Can not wait to see you again. I will let you go talk with Jesus now. Goodnight Daddy, I love you..
                         Love, Your Baby Girl
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Hello Dad,
Today has been a rough day. I have been thinking about you alot today. Then as i was cutting apples for one of your favorite pies, i started crying. I was listening to my Christian music and the song, Scars In Heaven came on. I had to stop cutting apples for a lil while. You not being here is one thing I will never get used to. Although it has been over a year now, I still can not believe you are never coming back here. Knowing you are in Heaven is the only thing I can be happy about. I would never deny you the Peace and joy you have now. You no longer have any sickness, pain, nor sorrows. No more tears will fall from your beautiful eyes. No more scars upon your strong but gentle hands, No more sorrow in your loving heart. You are safe now and will never have to suffer anymore. I am so proud to say , That you were and will always be the best Daddy a girl could have. I am Honored to call you My Daddy, My Friend, & My Hero.  Thank You Daddy , for all the love you gave me and so many, Thank you for leaving me with so many wonderful memories. I will forever have them in my Heart.
I can not wait to be with you again one day. I am going to go for now, but never forever. Goodnight Daddy, I miss and Love you
                                 Love, Your Baby Girl
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A year has come since you've been gone ;Where do we start to carry on.
They say the pain will go away ; I don't believe the words they say .
How can it ever go away ; When missing you is part of each day .
My heart knows you are at peace ; but my mind says, Come back Please.
I know you are not here physically ; but you are in things I see.
A rainbow placed so perfectly ; a cover of protection over me .
Fluffy white clouds in many shapes ; your way of making sorrow escape .
Rain falls gently from the sky ; Letting me know it's now joy you cry .
Sun light shining an extra while ; That's when I know, I see your smile.

Dad, I do not even know how to function much any more. You are in everything I do and everything is of you. There is no way to explain the pain I have inside. I honestly never knew my heart could feel literally broken in pieces. I have missed loved ones before and even grieved them, but this hurt and broken feelings are ones that words can not explain. 

You were always there to protect me and keep me from harm. You would never let anyone hurt me . You would do all you could to keep any sadness fall upon me. You have always been there to lend an ear, give a shoulder to cry on, arms to hold tight, a smile that made any situation brighter, a calming voice, a daddy, a friend , and a Hero to me and so many..
When we were told, there was no more they could do for you, to keep you here with us, it was the most devastating words we could ever had heard. I did not want to believe that my daddy was leaving me. It could not be real, it was all a bad dream, I was not going to be without my Daddy. Knowing that there was nothing anyone could do , it made me feel so helpless, and lost. I was in denial , and refused to believe you were slipping away a little more each day. 
Dad, I am so sorry, I could not save you. If i could have died in your place , I would have.
My heart hurts each day more and more.
I just want to tell you , Thank you for being the best Daddy a girl could ask for. Thank you for the amazing 45 years we shared together as Daddy and daughter. Thank you for loving me, even when I made you sad or upset , Thank you for always working so hard to take care of Mom, and us kids. Thank you for always providing for us ,even when you didn't have much. You always found a way to get what we needed and even some things we wanted. Most of all Daddy, Thank you for being You. 
The next time we meet, I promise to hold you and never let you go again. To walk in God's Kingdom with you is what I am Praying for most of all. I love you and miss you so much Dad. Tomorrow we will all gather at your grave and remember you and celebrate the amazing memories you left with us. 
Goodnight Dad, I love you.
                                Love,
                                     Your Baby Girl
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If I could write a letter to you today. there are a million things that I would say.
I could tell you about my week, or of the dreams of you, as I sleep.
I could tell you all about the weather, or how I miss our times together.
I could talk of my new friends, or how this pain will never end.
I could say about the news, or I could tell you how I am missing you.
I could ask you a million things ,or just ask ,Do the Angels sing ?
I could tell you about my life, or I can ask, What is Heaven like ?
All these things I could say and do, I would simple say , I Love You

Dad, It will soon be a year since you left me empty. I truly do not know how I have even survived this pass year. I surely does not seem like a year already, but yet it seems like forever since i saw your face and kissed your cheek. Each day feels like another year has passed... How is it even possible to be living without you? forty five years was not long enough time to spend with you. If i could change anything about that time with you, I would do all i knew to do to keep you here. I know God has our days numbered for us already, and we can not control that. I know you are at Peace now, You no longer have pain, sickness, sorrow, nor fear. No tears will ever fall from your eyes again. Tears fall from my eyes more and more these days. Whoever says , It gets easier is so wrong. It gets worse with each new day. I miss you so much Dad. There will be a celebration of your life on Saturday the 12th. Your family and friends will be there .
I guess I better go for now , but not forever. Goodnight Daddy, I Love you..

                                            Love,
                                             Your Baby Girl
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Hello Daddy,
Well today is 1 year since you went to the hospital for the last time. I just wanted to tell you, I never meant to hurt you by telling you, that you would be right back. I honestly believed it was going to be like all the times before. It breaks my heart each time I think about it. How awful you must have felt , knowing I lied to you. Please forgive me Daddy. Is that why God took you? I Pray some day some way , I will know for sure.  In two weeks, it will be a year since you left us . How can it even be possible.? You are supposed to be here , we are supposed to be laughing and talking, you are supposed to be here to tell us your silly Dad jokes and show us the funny cat videos. Life is not supposed to be this way. You, my daddy , are supposed to be here with me. Life just doesn't make any sense.. 

I will write soon Dad.. Goodnight I love you ..
                                   Love, Your Baby Girl
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Today was 11 months that you left us Daddy. I still can not believe you're gone. It does not seem like almost a year, yet it feels like each day is a year. I Never imagined my life without you. I never thought that at the age of 45, I would be without my Dad. How can this even be possible ? I hear it said, The Good Die Young, But you were better than Good, you were and will always be the best. The best Dad, Husband ,granddad, Son, Uncle, brother, grandson, nephew and friend. Each day i think, " Is this the day Dad will come home"?  It is not supposed to be this way. You are supposed to be here with me, talking to me about daily things and problems faced in life, laughing at silly videos you found on the internet, making funny dad jokes, holding my hand to keep me safe, kissing my forehead to tell me goodnight Baby Girl, I love you, Hugging me when i am scared or sad. You are supposed to be here so we can do projects together, like painting, building something, putting insulation in, digging a hole for a pond, cutting grass, or whatever we could do to spend that Daddy Daughter time together.
All of that is gone now. I am so thankful for each moment I had with you Dad, but it will never be enough time. I know you are not sick anymore. I know you are no longer in pain and feel no more sorrow. Asking God to send you back would be selfish of me. I would never deny you Heaven. I just want to see your face one more time and feel the warmth of your Daddy hugs. My life has been forever changed now that you are gone.. All i can do is remember each moment with you and hold on to all the wonderful memories you left for me to smile upon. Knowing you are in the presence of Jesus now, is the Only thing that makes me smile. Even when i cry i am smiling inside . I Pray that one day , we will be together again. Until that day Daddy, I will forever love you , miss you and hold you in my heart.
Goodnight Dad, I love you.....
                              Love, Your Baby Girl
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Another day without you, another Holiday.
Since you left this earth Dad, nothings been the same.
Families celebrating, loved ones gathering.
It's really just another day, without you here with me.
Grilling in the back yard, on a grill or two.
You the grilling master, it's what you loved to do.
Now that night has fallen, Its now your favorite part.
You'd use a flare to light em' , each fuse you would start.
You would laugh each time, we shouted with cheer.
Now things all are different, It's not the same this year.


Heavenly 4th of July Daddy. This was one of your favorite holidays, to spend with family and friends. You always loved doing the grilling no matter how long you had to stand there in the heat. everyone who knew you, knew that was your job each cookout. I still think about how each time you grilled out, you would somehow ALWAYS drop a hotdog or burger on the ground. It is like we almost waited for it to happen. Every time , you would say ," Uh Oh,There I dropped one on the ground" . But then you would laugh and made us laugh.
You would not set down to eat until every thing was grilled and there was enough made for everyone. At times, you would grab a hotdog or burger and stand there and eat.
You always loved family and friends together, and made sure it was the best Holiday for all. When it was time for the fire crackers , you would always get in the trunk of the car and get a flare out to light each one. You would be the designated fire cracker starter..  Just another act of protecting us. 

Things are never going to be the same here Dad. Its soon 11 months since you left us. At times it seems longer and yet again it does not seem that long. There are times that seem like each day is another year without you. I am missing you so much. I never knew my heart could hurt so bad. I physically have pains from missing and grieving you. The only way that will end is when I can be with you in Heaven. What a glorious day that will be...

I will be going to your grave on Tuesday Dad. I'm going to go for now, but never forever. I miss and love you more each day. Goodnight Daddy.
                                     Love, Your Baby Girl
    UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN...... HAPPY HEAVENLY INDEPENDENCE DAY !

Hi Daddy,
I just wanted to tell you I miss you and love you so much.  I can't wait to be with you again. Until that day, always know, you're in my Heart and mind forever. I love you Dad.. Goodnight for now....
UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN... 
           Love,
                  Your Baby Girl

Dad, with Sunday being Fathers Day, I am missing you even more. I realize that this is the 1st Fathers Day ,in 45 years ,that I will not have you here to celebrate. You are the perfect example of what and who a father is. You're love is so amazing and strong for everyone. It is breaking me in pieces ,knowing that I will not be able to celebrate you , My Daddy, My Hero, My Friend. I never imagined this would ever be this way. You're supposed to be here ,opening Fathers Day gifts, you're supposed to be here having dinner with us, you're supposed to be here ,for us to show our love and appreciation for you. But you're in Heaven now. You are now spending Fathers Day with Our Heavenly Father. Dad, I will forever celebrate you, as long as I am alive.
You may be gone from sight, but you are always here in my Heart and Mind . In the above sentences, I used present tense, because you're still here . You loved so much ,that your love will forever grow in my Heart and all that knows you. 
I miss and love you Daddy,
Heavenly Fathers Day Daddy...

The tears have never stopped, they probably never will.
This pain within my Heart, forever I will feel.
Making sense of it all, Will never be taking place.
With you not here with me, There's a dark and empty space.
You're laughter would always echo, through these many walls.
Now it's lonely silence, except for the tears that fall.
When something new arises, i want to run to you,
But now I'm stopped in my tracks, by the memories of you.
This world is not the same and I always feel alone.
I won't be me, Until God calls me home.
Back with you , my Daddy, Is where I long to be,
Back with my Hero and friend ,for all Eternity..

Dad, i am missing you so much. It is now 10 months since we lost you. It seems like only yesterday at times, that I saw you take your last breathe. Its a feeling I never want to feel again. I will forever be shaken by that moment, The moment your Heart stopped, mine did too.
As I set and think about that final breathe you took , I realize something.
You took your LAST breathe ON EARTH, But you also took your FIRST as, Jesus breathed NEW LIFE in you, as you entered Heaven. The new Life in Eternity.
I Cry because you are gone from sight, but I smile cause I know you are with the One who gave us life from the beginning. The One who died for us, The One who gave me you for 45 years to love so much. I Thank God for each second I had with you Dad. Although it will never be enough time spent with you here on Earth, I know that when I am called up yonder, I will be with you for all eternity.
Just like the song, "Hymn Of Heaven". How I long , to breathe the air of Heaven, and stand beside the Heroes of the Faith. To look upon the one who bled to save me, and walk with Him for all eternity"... 
Dad, I never was ready for you to leave. I will never be the same, Life will never make sense, The pain will never go away, the tears will never stop flowing. But as long as there is life in me, I will be awaiting the moment I see your face again.
The moment I can hug you again, hold your hand again, tell you I love you again, here your laughter, kiss your cheek, and here you say I Love You Baby Girl again.  Oh dad , what a glorious day that will be. I love you so much Daddy.
I will write again soon. Until then, know I will forever love and miss you.
Goodnight Dad, I love you.
                          Love, Your Baby Girl
UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN..

Happy Memorial Day Daddy,
Its a whole new meaning of the day now. I am missing you so much. This will be the 1st one without you. I still can not make sense of it all. I never question God ,because he knows best, but i still wonder why? Why now? Why you? Why couldn't you be healed? I know you were very sick Dad, but God got you through so much before. It is not supposed to be this way. I need my Daddy. I need you here with me. I only TRY to celebrate holidays for Mom. It will never be the same . NOTHING WILL. I am sending Heavenly Memorial Day Kisses to you. I love you Dad.
Goodnight , Dad.
                         Love, Your Baby Girl
UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN

hi babe i miss you i wanted to tell you the blessing boxes are becoming a success fly high love

Hi Dad,
I usually write a long note, but tonight I just want to tell you I love you and Miss you so much. Gary and I got the yard done for you. I know you would love it. If only you were here to see it. 
Goodnight Daddy, I love you so much. 
                                Love, Your Baby Girl
UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN...

As I look up to the sky , I see what reminds me of your eyes.
They are brighter than , what I have seen .Knowing now what it means.
You placed them there for me to see, a somewhat connection from you to me.
What others see as stars at night, I see the twinkle of your eyes.


Hello Daddy,
It's me again, Your baby girl Annie.
it has been nine months now since you went away. Whoever said it gets easier, was so wrong. I believe it gets harder each day, as I realize, you are never going to be here. I am never going to hug you, i am never going to kiss your cheek, I am never going to hold your hand, I am never going to hear your voice or laugh. I am never gonna hear you say, I Love You To Baby Girl, when I say, I love you Dad.
Life does not make sense anymore, and it never will. Everything here at home is about you, a part of you. Being out in the yard, i look around and see all the things you planted here, all the things you built. I miss setting in the yard with you . I miss having coffee and great conversation on the porch. I miss having meals on the porch. I just miss it all Dad. I miss you and love you so much. I don't even know what to do anymore. When i try to do something, i instantly think of doing them with you and I start to cry.
It's is not supposed to be this way. I need my Daddy.
Mothers day is sunday and is going to be rough. I remember the last couple years, you were not able to go to the store. You would have me or Michelle get a gift for mom. You would always write it down and hand it through the window ( so mom didn't see) or call and tell us what to get. This year is all wrong now.
Dad, I am sorry, I could not save you. If I could have done anything to save your life, i would not have thought twice about it. If love alone would have saved you, you would still be here. So many people love you Dad.
I know, that i love you so much and I am hurting so bad inside. It hurts more everyday.
Life is never going to be the same with you not here.
I am going to go for now,but never forever.
Goodnight Daddy, I love you so much....
                             Love,
                               Your Baby Girl
UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN......

Hello Daddy,
I am sorry I have not written in a Little while. I am missing you so much each new day. As i was cleaning the trunk of your car, I saw things with your writing on them, and all of your fire fighting things. All your CPR mask, gloves, ropes, etc. I had to set down awhile ,because I was crying so hard.
They instantly brought tears to my eyes and my heart.
The day before that, i could have been sure , I heard your voice on the scanner. It was just the way you would say, "Oh boy". I know it was you dad.
About two weeks ago, i had taken pictures of the sun setting, and when i posted them, I noticed the one cloud looked so familiar. Taking a closer look, It was you in the clouds looking down. Everytime I start missing you even more something appears, that tells me you are with me, you are with all of us. Even the glimpse of a Cardinal, or even just a whisper of its song. I know you're there Daddy.
I love you so much. I keep feeling sad and thinking , I wish i could have been a better Daughter. Would that have been enough to save you? If Love alone could have, you would be here now. So many people have love for you still today. and I am sure the love for you , will come with us to Heaven, when we see you again. OH what a Glorious day that will be. To be with Jesus and you.
How wonderful it must be to be with the One who died for us. The One who,gave himself, to save our souls. I can not wait to walk beside Him and you Daddy, for all eternity..
I will be to your grave after these rainy days stop. I am going to go for now Dad, but never forever. I miss you and Love you so much. Goodnight Daddy.
UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN.
                       Love your Baby Girl

i miss you so much it has been 8 months i thinki will see you walk through the door or hear you say hey babe fly high my love

LOVE, FLY HIGH

LOVE YOU BABE

As a child, you never knew, the pain from others, that you would go through.
You endured pain and tears, but grew stronger through those years.
The day had come ,when it all would change, You met the one to take your name.
You took her hand and said your vows, a loving life you can live now.
Through the years three children arrived,Helping you feel even more alive.
Time goes on and things do change, but your love for us always remained.
Being our Daddy, Our Hero , and Friend, we never dreamed, your life would end.
The day had come that changed for us all, You would answer God's call.
Now it has been eight months ago, life without you ,we do not know.
It's not supposed to be this way, we need our daddy every day.
We Pray that God will return soon, to get to spend eternity with you.

Hi Daddy,
I am missing you so so much these past few weeks. Easter was rough and now on April 12th, it will be 8 months since you left us. Life was changed forever that day.
I Pray that God would send you back, but only if you were well again. I would never deny you the Gloriousness of Heaven and being in the Presence of God. So, instead I Pray that God will return soon, and I can be with you again. Until then, I will be missing you and loving you so much.
The bond that you and I share will never break. It may be stretched right now, but one day it will be back to normal. I love you and miss you Dad.

Goodnight Daddy. UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN..
                              Love, Your Baby Girl

Another Holiday is here, but you're not here with me,
I still find it hard to believe, How can it really be.
Every day is hard to face since you went away,
The hurt inside is doubled with each new Holiday.
I miss your shining smile and that contagious laugh,
I miss the joy in your eyes. They made the memories last.

Happy Heavenly Easter Daddy. I am missing you so much. Easter was always one of your favorite Holidays, and you always made each one special. I still can see you sneaking around the yard,hiding plastic eggs for us. You always found a way to hide them, but yet so we could easily see them. I remember how you and mom would get us each a chocolate bunny . Some of my greatest memories, is when we would all dye eggs together. We would laugh at colors we created, and be amazed at the designs left on each egg after they had dried. 
Oh Daddy, I truly miss you and everything you did for all of us, to make things so special. Even when you and mom didn't have much money, you would always find a way to make our Holidays, Birthdays, and everyday special for us. So many years, you gave up things you needed ,for us kids. You and mom both went without coats, new shoes, special foods, clothes, etc. to give us kids all we ever needed. What I truly remember is the love you had for us. There was not a day that past, that you didn't show how much you loved us. You worked so hard every day to provide for us , and you never gave up. Not many people can say they had the best Daddy, But I can, and I do. You were, You are and always will be, MY DADDY, MY HERO, MY FRIEND.  
This is the first Easter without you,and like each day of my life, It will not be the same as when you were here. I bet your Easter Dinner is an amazing buffet.
How awesome it is , to be with The One, who died on the cross for us. I can not wait until that Glorious Day comes, when I am with Jesus, and I can be with you again,for all eternity.  I miss you and Love you Daddy.

Happy Heavenly Easter Daddy !
                    UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN..
                               Love,
                                      Your Baby Girl

Hello Daddy,
It's me , again. How are you doing in Heaven? Dad, I am really missing you so much these past few weeks. Sunday was 7 months that you left us. At times it seems longer, and yet it seems like just yesterday,that you were here , laughing, loving, talking, caring , and joking with us. I never question God and his plans for us, but i just don't understand, why you had to go. Why now? Why ever?  I realize, God saw you tired and knew you needed to rest, so now you are resting forever in God's Kingdom. I know you were so tired of fighting Dad. You fought a long battle , with all your sicknesses. You never wanted to be sick, or pretty much bed ridden. You were sick before, but that Covid really took your health on a down spiral. You really never recovered from it. I am Thankful for the 8 months ( after covid ) that God gave me ,with you. Although it was never enough time, I am thankful for each second with you Dad.
You may know already, but I go in for back surgery tomorrow. I know that you will be watching over me. The thought of you not being here , hs me so sad and missing you so much more. You were there my 1st one and waiting here at home the 2nd one. Now you are in Heaven and I wont be able to kiss your cheek and hug you before and after surgery, like before. I wont get to hear your Prayers for me , like last time, I wont be able to hear your voice when i call from the hospital. I wont get to come home and see you... I miss everything like that Daddy. I miss everything about you , everything that you said, and did. Your silly jokes, your sweet smile, your special laugh, your gentle hugs, and strong Prayers. I miss talking with you, I miss sharing things with you , I miss bringing you things home, I miss making you breakfast , I miss taking you and mom shopping , and to dinner. I miss your presence here. Life has been changed forever... Daddy, I miss the life I knew with you in it..
I can not wait to be in Eternity with you one day. What a glorious day it will be. 
Daddy, may i ask you a little favor ? I asked Jojo the same thing.. Could you send down a little healing Blessing down for me tomorrow? This surgery has me nervous. I know God is with me, and I know you and Jojo are watching over me. I have a huge circle of people Praying for me as well. 
I have to get up in the morning early, so i am going to go for now, but not forever. I will write soon. Daddy, I love and miss you so much. Goodnight daddy....
                   Love, Your Baby Girl
UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN....

Hi Dad, Its me again.
How are you doing in Heaven? I am sure everything is beyond well up there. I miss you so so much these past few days. Thinking of my upcoming surgery, has me wishing that you were here. I miss you being here to tell things to, to talk to and to get support, Prayers and advice from you. I have all that with Mom, but sometimes, A Lot OF TIMES, a girl needs her Daddy. Mom & I were at your grave today. The weather was beautiful here today. It was 73 today. But tomorrow is gonna only be 32 or so. You know how i dont like the cold weather. How is the weather there? Silly question, huh? Have you been with Jojo and Bobo ?  I bet they love having you there with them again? I know I am jealous about it. But I know one day I will be with you for all eternity. Oh How i can not wait to see you again Daddy. I love and miss you so much. Can I ask a little favor ? Can you send down an extra Blessing when I go in for surgery? I am a little scared this time.. I know God will be with me, and I know you will be watching over me too... I am just nervous I guess..  Then again, I know i will get through it .. 
I am going to let you go for now Dad, but I will write soon. Goodnight Daddy, I love you..  UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN.
                     Love, Your Baby Girl.

Walking around this world to see , if you have really gone from me.
Lost in a fog , what does it mean, Am I really just in a bad dream?
Reaching out for someone there . Will it be you as I get near ?
Looking for the reason why . Will I know If I look at the sky?
Thinking about this pain inside , Will you be there to help it subside ?
Kneeling down, I lower my face . Can you see the tears in place ?
Closing my eyes, and raise my hands, The words I speak , can you Understand ?
Asking God for a simple request, Please tell my Daddy ,He is the best.
I have another Prayer before I go, Can You tell my Daddy, I Love him so?
Thanking God before I awake, for all the sweet memories we got to make.
Just one more thing, I have to do, Is to Thank God for the time I had with You.


Hello Daddy,
Its me again. In a few days, you will be gone from here for 6 months. I still can not believe, you are gone. Daddy, I know you were sick, and God saw you so tired, but this pain in my Heart is not getting any better. In fact , it is worse. All, I know to do anymore is just Pray for God to take it away. Missing you and loving you so much will never go away. I have been really missing you a lot these past few weeks. I was at your grave the other day. I will go up in a couple days. I am gonna go for now, but never forever. Goodnight Daddy, I miss and love you so much. UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN.
                                  Love , Your Baby Girl

Hello Daddy, It is me again. I am really missing you so much. I keep thinking of times we shared and the way you made everyone laugh. You always knew what to say and when to say it to cheer us up. I miss your smile, holding your hand, talking, laughing, and even crying with you. As I walk through places, see something you liked, i start to cry. There will never be a second that goes by, I am not thinking about you. Daddy, life has been changed so much since the day you went with Jesus. I will never forget the moment you took your last breathe. Oh how I Pray, I can turn back time. I would have done things differently. I love and miss you so much Daddy. I am patiently waiting for the day I see you again. What a Glorious day that will be.. We will be going to your grave tomorrow. It is a little had for me right now, because of the pain i am in but I will always go to your grave. I am gonna go for now Dad, but not forever. Goodnight daddy, I love you.. UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN..
Love, Your Baby Girl..

babe happy 50th those 50 years were awesome i miss you so much back then you pulled me out of the mud i had made alot of mistakes but not with you fly high my love

Hello Daddy,
It's me again. Well as you know, tomorrow will be you and moms 50th anniversary. I know you are not here physically, but you are here spiritually in our hearts. Dad, even though, some may say you didnt make it to your 50th, i believe you still did. The love that you and mom share will never die. You love her so much that even death can not change it. I am sure it is gonna be a rough day for mom, and it is expected. We are going to take her out for the day , to easy her heart and mind. Daddy , i never imagined days like this. Days that are meant to be so special, and spent together with you. It is still so hard to believe that you are not with us, to celebrate with you.... If there is any way possible, could you send mom and us a sign, that you can see how much we all love you so much, and miss you beyond the clouds ? I don't want you to see any sadness, pain, nor sorrow, I just want you to see our hearts loving you. I am sending you many Anniversary thoughts and Blessings. I love you Daddy. Heavenly Anniversary Daddy. UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN.
                      Forever Love,
                      Your Baby Girl

Today has been a crying day, it's been 5 months since you went away.
The mending of my Heart ,will never be ,until you're back on Earth with me.
I know in life ,that will not be real ,but in my Heart ,It's how I feel'
Although it's stretched from here to Heaven, Our special bond will not be broken.
Ever since the day I was born, you always kept me safe from harm.
Since, the day you said goodbye, I am feeling scared inside.
I Never felt such aching pain, never had tears fall like rain.
Each new day, is another to try, giving my all to just get by.
The only thought that puts a smile on my face, is knowing you're now in a Heavenly place.
I promise to join you there one day, Then and only then, my pain will go away..


Hello Daddy,
I am really missing you today and the past few weeks. Today was really rough , since it was five months ago today that you left . while at the store with mom today, a song came on the radio and i just stood there in the middle of the aisle ,crying so hard. I didnt care who saw me and I didn't care what anyone thought. All I knew at that moment was, I am missing you terribly. It still feels like a nightmare. I wont say , like a dream, because dreams are usually good things. The only good is knowing that you are with Jesus, and you are no longer in pain and have no sickness and no sorrow. It has been raining all day and we are supposed to get some snow... It makes me wonder , Do they get snow in Heaven? 
I will write soon Daddy, I am gonna write to Jojo a little. I will be taking somethings to your grave soon. I didn't tell you, but I will be going for back surgery again. I am not sure when though. I wish you were here with me... I know you are with me up there.. I love and miss you so much Daddy. Goodnight for now.. UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN.   
                                         Love, Your Baby Girl..

hi bab fly high my lovee i miss you so much i have to go for more tests today it is raining

Hi Daddy, Its me again, your Baby girl.
I just wrote a little to Jojo.. I want to say thank you for sending down blessings for Lil' Pappy. He had a clean bill of health today at the vets. Dr. Geary said he is very healthy and we are taking great care of him. He also said he is a sweet kitty.  He weighs 6.5 pounds now. He really is growing. Thank you for sending him to us Dad. He is so much fun to have around.
Well its the New Year now, and they are calling for snow this weekend. We are taking Mom & Gary out for their birthdays on sat. I really wish you could be there too. We are going to Olive Garden, and I know how you loved it there. Pasta was your favorite thing to eat. I am sure you have the ultimate buffet up there though. I made you a new wreathe today. Its for Valentines Day. I think you will like it. 
Well Dad, as i told Jojo, im not going to write much. My arms are hurting tonight.
I really miss you Daddy and have been crying a lot these past few days. Happy Heavenly New Year.. Goodnight Daddy, I love and miss you forever. UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN....
                               Love, Your Baby girl

i miss you so bad it is 2223 now i think about all the holidays we shared and with the kids good memories fly high babe

hi babe i made it through Christmas and mickeys birthday it was not easy to do without You i am going to see Pam and Bill today so many things to say like i miss You so much---- I gave the kids money for the gifts  i am doing ok we did have snow babe i love you  i miss you i talk to your picture all the time our anniversary will be here soon  bye for now 

Hello Daddy,
Well I got through Christmas, but it was not easy. The only thing that truly got me through was the Prayers from Family and Friends. It was a sad holiday ,yet a joyous one knowing the reason we celebrated at all. I just keep thinking , How amazing and glorious it is to know, you are now celebrating with Jesus. The tears sure fell for you though Dad. It was quiet and not much laughing like we did with you. Every subject or action ,brought us a reminder of you and the tears would fall again. I went to your grave the other day (Yesterday) and the snow had your headstone covered. All of your things were covered with snow and frozen to the ground. i was sad, thinking you were cold. I wanted to get a blanket and put on you. Daddy, I know you're not up there, well your earthly body is, but you are alive in Heaven, where the sun is shining always. I just don't want you to be cold up there.
When the ground thaws , I will go up and fix your things better..
In a few days it will be New Years. They say whatever you are doing at midnight on New Years, you will be doing all year. Well, I will be missing you all year then. To be honest, even if they didnt say that, i'd still be missing you all year. In Fact, the rest of my life..
I love you so much Dad. I miss you beyond the clouds. I will let you rest now, but i will write soon. Goodnight Daddy, I love you. UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN.
                   Love, your baby girl
        

Merry Christmas Daddy. I bet Heaven is even more beautiful this time of year. How Glorious it is to spend Christmas with the Reason for the Season, Jesus. I can only imagine what it is like up there. The celebrations , the Love, The beauty.. I know that you are happy and Healthy now Dad, but I am missing you so much. This 1st Christmas without you has been really hard. I miss the laughter, the smiles, the love, the talks, and so much more , that we all shared at Christmas. I miss the way your eyes would light up when you opened your gifts, it was almost child like when you got anything to do with Fire Fighting or some kind of tool. No matter what it was, you always appreciated any and everything. You always made sure that Mom and all of us kids and grandkids had the same amount to open and would always get so excited to give us our gifts, and watch when we opened them. You always made your famous sandwiches and we all laughed as you ate them with a funny look on your face. You made sure we all saw you eating them. If I can remember, They were made up of, Hot sausage, salami, pepperoni, cheese, and smelts. Oh Daddy, i sure do miss them huge sandwiches. I am sure no one else has ever ate them . Dad, I know that it was only by the grace of God, and all the Prayers that I made it through this Christmas without you. I tried so hard not to cry, but that was asking the impossible.  I had plans on going to your grave today, but because it was so cold , i will have to wait. We were up there on Thursday and i turned the lights on on your tree. I will go up this week when it gets warmer. I know you would yell at me if I went out in the cold. I have not been even able to go to church. You not here for the holidays is so hard to face , Dad. But we all made it through, together as a family. it was very somber though. I miss you with us so much. not just at the holidays , but everyday. i can not wait to be with you again.  lil pappy got you a little fire truck for Christmas. We placed your red chair and lit a Memorial candle for you.   i am wondering if you cold see it flickering ?  We will light it again on New Years. Every year that we are here celebrating Christmas without you, we will light it. I am Praying that it isnt to many times. I am gonna go now Daddy, but I will write soon. Merry Christmas In Heaven Daddy, I love and miss you.
Goodnight, Daddy. UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN.......
                         Love, Your baby girl

well babe it is Christmas eve it is below zero and yes i left the water run it will be me and the kids this evening i need the time with them it wont be the same i will miss your big sandwiches and the laughter we all shared it is so cold the cats are cold i satyed up last night to keep an eye on the water and tink was right with me toots resigned to bed well babe i can only imagine what is like there on our Lord birthday fly high my love

Hello Daddy, It is me again.How are you up in Heaven? I am sure you are doing great. I can not say that about me down here. The closer it gets to Christmas , the harder it gets. I never imagined one Christmas without you, Dad. You made the Holidays so much fun. Like on Christmas Eve, when you made your famous sandwiches. We always had to laugh . You always loved Holidays and family time. The traditions we had with you are gone now. We will start new ones in your honor and in memory of you. Dad, i am so sorry I could not have saved you. If love alone could have, you would live forever. I don't question God, but yet I wonder why you had to go. Why now? You were and are loved by so many people. When you left , you took hearts of many with you. I have been baking , but each time i do, i cry ,thinking of how much you loved cookies and being the taste tester for me and mom. I miss gathering a few of each kind and taking them down for you and mom. You would always say how good they were,even if you did not like them much. You never wanted to hurt our feelings by saying you didn't like them. But then again, you were not very picky when it came to cookies. I am sure as we have our Christmas meals , there will be plenty of tears going around. Dad, it's not supposed to be this way.. You are supposed to be here with us , laughing, smiling, talking, making dad jokes, and everything you did to brighten our days. Now it is all darkness. Do you have a tree up there ? Are there lights put up? Do you sing Christmas songs ? I was just talking with mom today and we were saying, how amazing and glorious it is that you are spending Christmas with Jesus, The Reason for The Season.. Yet, it is terrifying that you are not with us this Christmas and every Holiday from now one. I am gonna go up and turn your tree on at your grave for Christmas. I wonder if you will be able to see it from where you are? 
Well daddy, I am gonna go for now, but not forever. I will write very soon.. Get rest daddy, I miss and love you so much..
Goodnight Daddy, UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN..

hi babe i miss you so much it is snowing today only i week till christmas eve i wish i could look into your eyes and tell you how much i love you babe fly high

Hi Daddy, Its me again, your Baby girl. How are you tonight? I am not doing well. I have been really missing you badly. The closer to Christmas, the more i miss you. I made you a chair though. That way if you want to come visit , you can set in the red chair. I will be waiting for you.. There is going to be a memorial video at church on sunday. It will have pictures of lost loved ones this year and whoever wants to put a picture on it can. I sent 9 in of you. I wish you were there to see it too. But I guess if you were there to see it, I would not have needed to send in pics of you... Oh that would be so wonderful. Dad, I am really afraid to see Christmas. It is hard now, and each day closer is getting harder and harder to get through without you. What am i gonna do? I want to buy you a gift, I want ti bring you cookies to taste, i want to make Pezzelles with you, I want to fill stockings ,the way Gram seaton did for you. I want to see your face when you open your gifts. I want to hear you laugh so loud ,when you opened your gag gifts. I want to see you make your famous Christmas Eve sandwich. I want to fry smelts with you , and everything we did together for and during the Holidays. How can I do any of it without you? It has been 4 LONG LONELY DARK months without you. I can not imagine the rest of my life without my Daddy.. It is not supposed to be this way. I love you so much Dad. I am gonna let you rest now, but I will write again very soon. I miss n love you Daddy. Goodnight Dad
UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN..
                         Love, Your Baby Girl

hi babe its sunday the little kids at church had the christmas program today it was nice i know you would have loved it i miss you so much i wish you were here fly high my love

imiss you so much fly high my love