Hi Dad, Its me again.. How are you doing in Heaven? That is kind of a silly question.. I know you are wonderful up there. There is no better place to be.. If only I could be with you , at least for Christmas. It will soon be here , and i am afraid to face it without you here . I have been trying to keep going with a little decorating, and baking soon, but it is only because I know how much you Love CHRISTMAS and spending time with all of us. Last year, when you and Mom were in the home , we were scared that you would not be home for Christmas, but because of Prayer and God's Love and Grace, you were able to be home with us. If I would have known, it was gonna be the last Christmas with you, I would have made it the best Christmas ever. I NEVER dreamed it would be your last Christmas with us. Daddy I still wonder WHY, and I always will until I am up there with you to get the answers. All i do know , is life is and never will be the same, especially during Holidays. My heart wants you home, my mind wants you home. If only i was assured you would come home well. I would not deny you perfection nor Heaven Daddy. It may not be very long that we will be together again, but no one knows when that will be Except God. Even at that, it seems like an eternity since ive held your hand, kissed your cheek, heard you laugh, saw you smile, heard your voice, and heard you say I love you Baby Girl..  Oh Daddy, My Heart is broken in a million pieces. It hurts but is numb. My mind is gone from here. My body hurts from the pain of losing you. I never knew my eyes could cry so many tears, I never knew my heart could be broken in so many pieces, I never knew my life could feel so wrong and empty. If I knew any of this, I would have done more for you, I would have given you my life, I would have never left your side, I would have talked with you forever, I would have held your hand through life, I would have did all i could to make your smile never fade away, and i would have done all i could do to keep your sweet amazing strong,caring, loving, sharing, honest Heart beating. But I failed you Dad. I your Daughter Failed you. I Pray you can look down and know I love you so so much, I have loved you from the moment i entered this world. You and I had a special bond . A bond that only a Daddy and Daughter can have. Even though you may be gone from sight, you are not gone from my Heart nor Mind. That bond may be stretched long distance now, but it will never break. I wish i could climb up those strings that hold it together and see you. I would never come back though... 
Wow, Dad, i just realized how much I wrote. I better let you rest now.. I am sure you are helping do what you can up there. Even though God said it's your time to rest, you will be wanting to help. It is just who you are. I will be going to your grave soon and writing soon as well. I miss you so much Dad. Goodnight Daddy, I love you... UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN...
              Love , Your Baby Girl

hi babe i go for some tests today it is really cold today i miss you very much i love you fly high my love

Hi Dad, It's me. I am really missing you tonight. My mind is on you and how Christmas is never going to be the same again. I am trying to stay strong , and do what i would normally be doing for the Holidays, but Is there really any thing normal anymore? Nothing is.. Nothing makes sense, nothing is ever going to be normal, nor make sense, until I am in Heaven with you.. Oh what a glorious day it will be. Did you see we put a little tree and stuff on your grave , for Christmas? We decorated the Blessing Boxes too. Oh we got two orders for them ,in Spring. I just wonder if you can see them? I am sure you are smiling down on them and us.. You would be telling us, not to make such a fuss over you. Well, that is asking the impossible. We love you and miss you so much. You cared for and loved everyone so much. You gave without hesitation to everyone, and we just want to keep that part and your memory alive as long as we are alive. You deserve that and so much more..
I am going to let you rest now Daddy. I will write soon. I miss and love you so much. Goodnight Dad. UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN......
                                        Love, Your Baby Girl..

Heavenly Thanksgiving Daddy,
This is very hard to be writing tonight. I would usually be writing on your facebook page , to tell you Happy Thanksgiving. Last year you were not here with us, but we were able to visit you in the hospital. Now I am will be going to your grave tomorrow. I set and remember you during the Holidays and special things you would do. Every Thanksgiving, we would get the turkey out of the oven, and 1st thing would be to get the skin off and take it to you. You always loved it the best, then you would get the heart, & liver.. You always made us laugh cause you would eat it with the look of a crazy ( for heart and liver) man. You always wanted to be the one to carve the turkey and would neatly separate the dark and white meat. We would all set around the table eating and laughing and talking, and then shared the duties of cleaning up just enough to make room for the desserts. But you always jumped in and did the dishes. You would say since the woman cooked, the men cleaned.. There are so many more memories daddy,that I could write, but right now, i just want to tell you how much I miss you. This is very hard on all of us. I never imagined any Holiday nor any one day without you. It's not supposed to be this way. We are all supposed to be together and share the time as a family. a whole family. Mom, Dad, Kids, Grandkids.. Not with you gone. How can this be real Dad? I know you are not sick anymore and you are at the most amazing Thanksgiving Feast, and I would never deny you Heaven, but WHY DADDY WHY. This hurts so bad, I never imagined one heart could hurt so much. If I had known the last Thanksgiving with you would have been the last, I would have made it the best ever.. Now i don't have that chance. Daddy Please forgive me for taking Holidays for granted. If I had only known.. My body hurts from missing you, and loving you so much. I Pray God can show me Peace and joy this Holiday season.. I will write soon Daddy, its hard to type through the tears.. Goodnight daddy, I love and miss you beyond the clouds.
        HAPPY HEAVENLY THANKSGIVING DADDY...
                UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN....
                 Love, your Baby Girl

hi my baby it is nice today i baked an apple cobbler and cranberry relish for thursday i am going to make pumpkin pies tomorrow i miss you so much fly high my love

hi sweet man it snowed and it is cold today is kennys birthday he is 26 we are having dinner with them and cake your favorite cherry i miss you babe next week is thanksgiving and even though i lost you i thank God for the almost 50 years we shared  fly high my love

Hello Daddy,
I just wanted to write a little tonight to tell you how much I love you and miss you. Its really cold outside and there is snow out there, I know how much you loved to see the snow. I baked some of your favorites today. Homemade Bread, Cinnamon Rolls and Pepperoni Rolls. They didn't turn out like i hoped but are still edible. You would always say that, no matter how bad things turned out, cause you didnt want us to feel bad. You always did everything you could to protect us and our feelings. I think you came to visit me today. I was crying while baking and as i looked out the window at the snow flying, I saw a Beautiful Cardinal in the snow. I know it had to be you because it was the most vibrant red I have ever seen on a Cardinal. Thank you for always letting me know, that you are still with us. It is so hard Daddy,here without you. Especially with the Holidays coming up. I am gonna get you a little gift for when you come back home. What would you like Daddy? I will get you anything at all. I can not wait to be with you again. I am so excited to see the day that i can see your smile, here your laugh, hold your hand, kiss your cheek and hug you forever. Daddy, why did God take you away? If you can, please let me know why...  I am gonna go for now. but not forever. I will write soon and I will be up to your grave as soon as it warms up a little... Goodnight daddy, I love and miss you beyond the clouds. UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN..
           love, Your Baby Girl

we had some snow today it is really cold we didnt make it to the grave today but my heart is with you today i really dread the holidays but i will try just to carry on your love of the holidays babe fly high today

as the seasons change i know i cant share them with you i remember how we enjoyed each season. words can never say how much i miss you babe. my life will forever grieve you. i miss us planning Christmas and your big sandwiches on Christmas Eve.  Thanksgiving is in 2 weeks and there will be an empty chair . my heart is not in the holidays cause i miss you so much babe fly high touch the stars i will forever love you.

Nothing seems to be the same, It all changed when you went away.
No more brightness from the sun , Blue skies turned to gray.
What used to be a melody, now a sad tune.
Night skies are darker now, without the lighted moon.
Flowers bud but never bloom,like they hit a frost.
Butterflies and bees don't fly, as if they all were lost.
The grass on the other side is greener , or so they say.
But nothing is the same since you went away..

Dad, I miss you so much. These past few days have been so hard on not only me, but Mom and Sis too. The realistic sting of your death hit us hard when we saw your headstone in place. With the Holidays coming up, it, is making it even harder. Tomorrow will be 3 long, dark, lonely months since you have been gone. As I Prayed and cried ( so hard ) lastnight, I asked God to send you back for the Holidays, and then he can have you back. But in all honesty, if He would send you back, I would make sure you never left again. Daddy, If I knew last CHRISTmas was gonna be your last, I would have made it an extra special day for you. I would have made every day extra special for you. If only we could turn back time... I am lost without you Daddy. I never knew a heart could hurt so much, and I never imagined that you would not be here in my everyday life. It's just not right. Our Lives are changed forever now. How can this even be true? How can you not be here? How can this be real? Why now? Why ever? I would have gladly taken your place , and you can stay here with Mom and everyone..Maybe they wouldn't be feeling so much pain. I don't know the answer to any of these questions, but I do know, I love you so much Daddy. I miss you beyond the clouds and I miss you more each Day. Get some rest now Daddy, I will write soon.. Goodnight Daddy, I love you. UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN...
                    Love , Your Baby Girl

hi babe it is rainy today it is veterens day i miss you so much the headstone is on the grave it looks nice i wish you were here we all try to avoid talking about the holidays i know you are looking down  remember fly high be happy --- love you

Hi Daddy, I just wanted to write and say i love you and miss you so much. The closer it gets to the Holidays, the worse it is. I never imagined having a Holiday without you. I remember as kids, you spent a lot of Holidays away , when you had to go out on the roads,with it snowing. I missed you so much then, but i knew you would be home soon. Now it is completely different. You are home, yes , but not here. It will never be the same here. I Pray God takes me soon,Daddy. i just want to see you, hold your hand, hug you. kiss your cheek, and hear you say I love you too, when i say, I love you Pappy... I sure do miss hearing your voice.. I just talked to Jojo a little bit ago. I told him how much my arms are hurting. The temps are changing again, and you know how i suffer from that. I am not gonna write much Daddy, just wanted to say I love you... I will let you rest now. Goodnight Daddy, I miss and love you. UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN..
                        Love, Your Baby girl

Hi Daddy,
It's me again. Daddy,today has been a rough day. Noone knows ,but as I was cleaning house today, i did a lot of crying for you. You know, your Fire Fighting Brothers and Sisters had a donation drop off for your Blessing Boxes today. Brian and Stacey delivered all the stuff to the house. Right after they left, Playing on KLove was a song that I listen to and think of you always. It reminds me how the Fireman and woman all love you so much. The son g is Friends by Michael W. Smith. The part that makes me cry ( everytime) is where he sings, " Though It's hard to let you go, in the Fathers hands we know, That a Lifetimes not to long to live as friends". It was meant to be one right at that time.. Your friends had just left here after opening their hearts today to get the donations that they did.. I know you were with me today Daddy. I was sad, and as i set on the porch, a few rain drops falling, I looked up and there it was . Not one but two beautiful Rainbows. I know you helped to paint them, because they were the most beautiful rainbows I have ever seen. They were so bright, as if they were neon. Bright like you were and always will be in my life. Oh Daddy, I miss you so much.
Tomorrow at Church, there will be a 1st Responders Appreciation service. If you can , try to watch it from your view. I would love to set and watch it with you up in Heaven.  I would love to see everything with you from there. I know I will have to try and be patient ,til I am called home, but I am looking forward to that Glorious day. To be in the Presence of Jesus and be able to hug you and hold your hand as we walk the Golden Streets... OH Daddy what a Glorious time we will have.. 
I am gonna let you go rest now, but I will write soon and visit you at your grave. Goodnight Daddy I miss and love you so much...
UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN....
                  Love, Your Baby Girl

hi babe it is a nice day i was in the garden picking some last of the veggies and i was at the picnic table awhile the leaves are falling now we are putting up another blessing box tonight they are doing good i miss you my love if you can hear me talking to you at nights i bet you think --she never shuts up== my love fly high today and know i am ok ---love you

Hi Daddy,
It's me, your lil girl. Not so little anymore. I just wanted to write and tell you, I decorated the tree for your grave tonight. I am gonna make a wreathe too. You will love it Dad. Today has been rough on us. Just one of those days where we did alot of crying. I am really worried about Mom. She is grieving you even more. Its getting harder on her each day. I do not know what to say or do to help her. All I can do is Pray for her and do the best I can for her. It is hard on us kids to see her this way. I can not say I know her pain. I know the pain I have for losing you, but she is married to you.. I am just a daughter.. I can not imagine that terrifying pain she has and the aching in her heart for you. If there is any way you can, could you please send her a sign that you are ok and are with her always? Any little sign to tell her you are waiting for her and love her so much?   I Pray you can Daddy. Jojo is supposed to give you a kitty kiss for me.. I can not wait to see you again and hug you. I want to hold your hand and walk the streets of gold with you. This sunday in Church, we are having a 1st responder appreciation Day. You will be remembered... I wish you could be there...  But, i am sure you will be watching from Heaven. I am gonna go for now Daddy, I am tired tonight.. I will write soon and i will be to your grave in the next day or so.  I LOVE AND MISS YOU SO MUCH DADDY..
Goodnight sweet Daddy, I love you BUTTERFLY KISSES ARE SENT TO HEAVEN..
UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN... 
                           Love, Your Baby Girl

I know you're now completely pain free, but this pain I feel is killing me.
You went away and took me too, I am not me here without you.
Life down here ,has taken a new path, Feeling lost , where am I at.
Trying to take all the right roads, none so far has lead me home.
There seems to be more dead ends, I don't know where my life begins.
When you left, you took all the rights, All thats left, is an endless fight.
I struggle more every day, I'm getting to weak to find my way.
I got to find a way to you, That's all that's left for me to do.
I'm Praying God will show me the way, Here on earth, I can not stay.
My heart is crying to be again happy, Crying to be with you, My Daddy.


Daddy, I miss you so much. Today has been a hard day. I have been crying alot. I wonder if you can see all the people who miss you so much, and love you with their whole hearts. Your Fire Fighter,brothers and sister, really are stepping up to Honor you. I know if you can see them, that you have a huge smile upon your face and joyful tears in your eyes. Your brothers and sisters at EHVFD, are missing you so much and each of them love you beyond words. They are going to open the doors to the fire station and take donations to help build and fill your Blessing boxes. What an amazing heartfelt thing for them to do. I can only Pray that you can see this all take place. It's all for you Dad. You left a mark all over and each person that met you ,loved you so much. You had so much love for us and everyone, that it will forever live on in us. Your memory will never be forgotten, and spreading your love and caring will never stop. When God took you, he took the best man I ever knew. The only man I could completely, honestly trust. Oh, Dad, I love you so much and I miss you beyond the clouds. Get some rest now,Daddy, I will write soon.. Goodnight Daddy, I love you.
                       Love, Your Baby Girl

hi babe we got another box yes i have my sweater on and i am warm love you i love you to the moon and back

hi babe it is a nice day here we put up another blessing box last night at calumet i miss you last night was bad i know you are pain free now and that is a great comfort to me fly high my love

Today we celebrate your life here on Earth, as in Heaven you celebrate your rebirth.
This year is not the same,the pain we can not hide. This year we sing Heavenly Birthday to you at your graveside.
Your life here may have ended, but your love will carry on, We feel your presence here , even though you're gone.
Happy Heavenly Birthday, the words we all sing, your birthday gift this year are your Angel Wings....

Happy Heavenly Birthday Daddy. This year you are now in Heaven celebrating your new life .I never imagined that there would ever be a time we would celebrate your Birthday without you. It's not the same. I miss the way you would love to open your gifts and always say , Oh i like that, and always make sure you told everyone thank you.  Daddy, it does not seem fair . that such a great man ,had to pass away. I NEVER imagined living my life without you.. Deep down, I am still Praying it's all a bad dream... I want to wake up and you be here , laughing, smiling, joking, talking, watching your favorite shows, listening to music, showing us cat videos and just being you.. I miss all of those things, I miss holding your hand, kissing your cheek, hearing, I love you too, when i tell you I love you Pappy/Daddy. I miss your feet out over the edge of the bed and tickling them as i walked by, I miss everything from the day you passed, back to when I was a little girl. I miss YOU, Daddy. Life here has been changed forever. Nothing will ever be the same with you not here. My only Peace is knowing, you are in Heaven, and I will see you again one day. I can only Pray , it wont be very long.... I Love you Daddy... HAPPY HEAVENLY BIRTHDAY......

today we will do a graveside birthday celebration fior you my love we will share this with family and friends we will give our guest a little take home memorial and some refreshments and yes cake i miss you my love tomorrow --your birthday will be 50 years i said yes to your proposal these 50 years have been great to say the least i wish we had 50more together but our God saw you getting tired and weak i know you have no pain now --- fly high babe i love you to the moon and back

sunshine today and no snow i miss you like crazy today it is a kind of day we would have had coffee at the picnic table and make a walmart run i feel like i cant go on without you my love days get harder and nights get longer i have cried so much these past few days i thought i was getting a cold fly high

well babe it looks like it might snow it is really cold i know you always liked to see the first snowfall of the year in just a few days we will celebrate your birthday i miss you so much fly high my love

Daddy, It's me, Annie
Oh Daddy, I miss you so much today, actually these past few days, have been really hard. This week and weekend will be super hard. On Friday, it will be you and Mom's 50 years of meeting, Then on Sunday, It will be your Birthday. We will be celebrating it on Saturday at your grave..  I am worried about Mommy.. She is depressed and all she does is cry for you. I dont know what to do or say to help her and make her feel better. If there is any way you can, could you tell her , you are ok, and that you are with her always.. Daddy , I never imagined having to live life without you. At leaste not this soon in life. I only got to have you for 44 years and 10 months. 2 months short of 45 years.  Thats never long enough for a girl to have her Daddy. I just want to hold your hand, kiss your cheek, hug you, see your smile, hear your laugh and hear you say , I Love You too, when I say , Daddy, I love you..  I miss every little thing about you. It i still so hard to walk in the house and not see you . It's to quite. I dont hear your voice, I dont hear your music playing, I dont hear your TV on, I dont hear you saying, Sissy , come look at this, and then you show me a silly video of an animal. You always saved the videos for us to see. I miss seeing your cute feet hanging off the end of the bed. Everytime, i would go into the bedroom to set with you, I would tickle your foot... you would shake your foot and laugh.  I miss getting your Breakfast, Lunch, Supper to you, I miss seeing you enjoy ice cream, that you would have us go get. I miss going shopping and always finding something special for you. I miss you ordering little things through the mail and being so excited to show us. I miss hearing you say , Now put that down, when i would run the vaccum in there. I miss seeing you shuffle your feet to come to the livingroom, to spend time with us. I miss you always telling jokes, and never missing a beat, to have a quick comeback when someone said something, and you knew you could take it and make a silly comment. I miss you loving us so much, I miss you giving whole heartedly to everyone, I miss you making your famous sandwiches at Christmas Eve dinner. Oh those sandwiches , made of, hot sausage, salami, cheese, and smelts.. Only you could have made a sandwich like that Daddy. I miss our cookouts. You always had to be one of two or three grilling . Everytime you grilled, you always made sure there was more than enough for everyone, even if it meant we had so many leftovers, which was good for the next day. I miss going to stores with you, I miss going to the mountains to see the leaves, I miss going with you any where. I miss it all, I miss you Daddy...  Most of all I miss your presence here. It will never be easy. The ONLY Peace in it all is knowing where you are. And knowing one day( hopefully soon) I will be with you again, for all eternity.. We are going to be putting up 2 more Blessing Boxes for you . I am sure you can see the three we have up already. Your Brother and Sister Fire Fighters are really great and so appreciative to be involved in the placement of the boxes. They do it in Memory of you and to Honor you. Daddy, you have left a huge footprint behind, that NOONE will ever be able to fill. We have approval for 2 more boxes next week. We are really Blessed with all helping out, from putting boxes up, to donations of food, materials and money to help buy material and food. Oh daddy, I Pray that you can see and know how many people truly love you. So many are feeling the pain of losing you.. Oh my, i just realized how much I wrote to you tonight. I better let you rest now.. I will write soon Daddy.. Goodnight My Daddy, My Hero, My Friend, I Love and miss you forever.. UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN..
                    Love your Baby Girl...

babe i want you to know i love you so very much i miss your touch and your voice i miss our evenings together i know you have no more pain that is a comfort to me the nights are the worst but by the grace of God i make it through i am going out with the kids tomorrow -it wont be the same without you fly high my love rip

If I could have stopped you from facing death, I would have given you my last breath.
If I could have given you one more day, I'd give you one more to make you stay.
If I could have kept you fully awake, I would have never slept if that's what it would take.
If I could have given you strength to stand, I would have given you my feet and hands.
If I could have made you have one more meal, I would have fed you till you were filled.
If I could have seen just one more smile, I would have made you laugh for a long while.
If I could have heard your voice again, I would have listened with no end.
If I could have taken the sickness from you, I would have taken the suffering too.
If I could have sung you just one more song, I would have sung it all day long.
If I could have held your hand a little longer, I would held on a little stronger.
If I could have loved you my very best, I would have given you the heart from my chest.
If I could have kissed your face so sweet, I would have kissed both of cheeks.
If I could have heard the words ,I Love You, I would have told you all day through.
If I could have done all this you see, I would have asked God to leave you and take me...


Hello Daddy.
I could not sleep with thinking of you, so I am writing to you. Today is 9 weeks since you were taken away. The pain is not any easier. In fact I feel like it has gotten worse. Knowing your Birthday is coming up, The anniversary of when you and mom met, Holidays, Your wedding anniversary, moms Birthday, and just everyday, it is really hard. I don't want to decorate anything, for any Holiday, I don't want to celebrate anything, I don't even want gifts. I just want to be with you Daddy. There are still times, I think I will go to Moms and see you there, with your feet hanging off the bed, listening to music, and showing me funny videos of kitties. I always looked forward to you saying, Come here, I want to show you some thing, then you would laugh that relaxing laugh and smile that contagious smile.  It's all the little things I miss the most. Going somewhere and coming back,to show you what I got you, or telling you things that had happened during that day. Daddy, I miss you so much. Words can not explain it....  I will let you rest now, but I will talk to you soon. I Love you Daddy. UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN..
                          Love, Your Baby Girl

Hello Daddy, How are you doing in Heaven?  I can imagine you up there helping Jesus do things, and making everyone laugh. That is who you always were down here. So many people love you and miss you so much.. Mommy is really starting to give up Daddy. I am scared for her. It's not the mommy I know and love so much. It hurts me to see her this way..  It also hurts me, cause, I promised you that I would take care of her . I feel like I have let you and her down. I don't know what to say to help her. All I can do is keep Praying for her. Maybe you can send her a little sign that you are ok and for her to feel better. I know you are still protecting her from way up there. You have always protected all of us.... I miss you so much Daddy. I find myself looking for you and listening for your laugh,every time I go to see mom. Which you know I am down there every day.. We got two blessing boxes up already and two more built.. I want to keep them going as long as possible. I think you would be happy with them and I know you are smiling down on us now, saying they are great kids, good job .. Oh I Pray you can see them daddy.. Its because of you that they are being put up. But to be honest. I'd rather have you here... I don't want you to come back and be sick though... You suffered enough in your life..  Daddy, I will let you rest now. I Promise to write very soon... I will be visiting your Grave too, so I will talk to you there too.. Goodnight Daddy. I miss and love you more each day.... UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN....
                     Love, Your Baby Girl

Hello Daddy, How are you? I am not real good today. As you know, its my birthday. But it is hard to have a happy one without you here. I know in my heart , you are here and looking down smiling, but It's still not the same without you. Nothing is. I remember waiting to see your Happy Birthday Baby Girl post on FB. I miss you calling ( if i wasnt down to see you early) and telling me happy birthday. I miss you being there to watch me blow out the candles and sing happy birthday. I actually looked on FB to see if you had put a post on. I guess a girl who is missing her Daddy, can dream .. Oh I wish this all was a bad dream, and I will wake up and you be here.  The ONLY joy, is knowing where you are now. I know you are no longer sick, in pain, and you no longer feel sadness. I just want to be able to hear you say, I Love You back when i tell you , I Love You Daddy....  My heart is Glorified knowing that one sweet day, we will be together again. Until then, I will go on Loving and missing you.. I will do all I can do to keep your memory alive in the community, The love you had for us was so strong, that It will live on in us forever... I will let you rest now Daddy. I will write again soon.. Goodnight Daddy, I miss and love you. UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN....
                        Love , Your Baby Girl

Our lives our written for us, before we're even born,
Written by the One we call Our Loving Lord.
Each word is written with care and love in every line.
If we read it slowly, the storyline we'll find.
There may be many chapters, or maybe just a few,
Every page we turn, will lead us to anew.
When God wrote the preface, he knew yours would be long,
Only God knew the right would come from wrong.
The day of your passing, I would feel an angry rage.
I never dreamed I be turning the last lonely page.
Now you're life in Heaven, A brand new book,
This one so different , the cover a beautiful look.
Now you have met the Author, He has always been your friend.
And now with this new journey, your story will never end....

Daddy, I love you so much. It has been 8 weeks today since you went to be with The Lord. I know He was ready for you, and you were ready to go, but when you left, my heart broke into a million pieces. I never imaging, Id be without my Daddy at the age 44. There were so many things we didn't get to do, so many things I want to tell you. Now I can't even see you. I can't hold your hand, I cant hear your voice, nor your laugh. I can no longer kiss you cheek and tell you, "Goodnight Daddy, I Love You'. And I can't hear you say, I Love You Too ... Those missing words in my life from you is hurting me so much. My Birthday is in a few days, but I don't want to celebrate it. I just want to be with you Daddy.. I love and miss you so much.. I am going to let you rest now. I will talk to you a little later before I go to sleep.( like I do each night).  Goodnight Daddy, I love you so much. UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN..
                        Love, Your Baby Girl

babe everyday gets harder i miss you so much i really get sick i know you are in a better place but i miss you fly high babe rip

Hello Daddy,
How is Heaven? I can only Imagine..   Daddy, You should see the little kitty Gary and I got today. He is white, gray, and black, and a little fluff ball. Guess what I named him? I named him Pappy.. I know you would love him. When i picked him up today, i started to think, I cant wait for mom & dad to see him.. Well mom got to, but when i realized, you are not here to show him to, i started to cry. But then I wonder if you seen him and sent him here for us? Oh Daddy, you would love him.. So, how are you doing? are you staying busy, are you with loved ones? Oh I bet its beautiful up there.. I am really worried about Mommy. She seems to be getting worse, with missing you... I dont know what to do or say to help her. all i know to do is Pray for her.. She really needs to get to Church and keep going. Everyone there loves her and welcomes her with open arms. I know you are waiting for her, but i don't want her to go too. She wants to be with you so much. Gary, Mom, and I went to your grave today. We placed a potted Mum and a big pumpkin up there for you. We all know how you love Fall..  Well, Daddy, I am gonna let you rest now. My arms are hurting from this temp changing up and down. I will write again soon. GOODNIGHT DADDY. I MISS AND LOVE YOU SO MUCH.. UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN.................
                                  LOVE , YOUR BABY GIRL

babe today was hard i went shopping with the kids and every corner i turned there was something to remind me of you and how i wished you were with us
i know you loved sams club and the last time we were there you had to stay in the truck cause you were having a bad day with your breathing today i kept thinking i needed to buy things you would like then i remembered you wasnt going to be there when i got home i miss you so very much fly high my love rip

i miss your laugh and your smile --i miss your jokes --i miss the tender voice that called my name--- but i really miss YOU i wish heaven had visiting hours
i love you babe

I still search for the words to speak, even now at 7 weeks.
I still don't know what to say, since the day you went away.
I still can't find the way to talk ,ever since away you walked.
I still listen when the time is right, to hear you speak to me at night.
I still hear a silent song, playing through my mind since you've gone.
I still watch for a sign, you are here, somewhere I'll find.
I still see your smiling face, even though I'm alone in this place.
I still look for you here, I know you must be near.
I still feel your hand in mine, even though they're empty I find.
I still believe you are still here, This is all a bad nightmare.
I still know ,you will be here, when I wake up ,you're standing near.

Oh Daddy. Its 7 weeks already since you left me. It does not seem that long. I know you are in a better place, but I'm so broken. My Heart will never beat the same again. The weather is getting colder now,which means Fall is here and winter is around the corner. I know how much you loved fall. You just wanted to see 1 more snow fall. You get to see it before we do now. I was at your grave today and they got the footer poured for the headstone. It won't be long now , until you have that. Daddy, what is Heaven like? I bet its the most beautiful place you have ever seen...  I can Only Imagine. Until I am with you again.    Well Daddy I am gonna let you go for now so you can rest. I will write soon. I love you so much and forever Daddy.
Goodnight Daddy,
                           Love, Your Baby Girl....

Hello Daddy, How is my Hero doing tonight in Heaven? I am really missing you tonight. I do not know how to even act at times. My heart is so broken. It will be 7 weeks on Friday, since you left us. It still feels like a bad dream, a nightmare. I just Pray , I wake up soon.. I Pray I wake up in Heaven with you Daddy.. I will let you rest now, I hope Jojo is with you and napping on your lap. I am jealous Daddy. You have jojo and he has you. I don't have either of you anymore.. Get some rest Daddy, I will right soon. Goodnight Daddy, I love you and miss you so bad. 
                         Love, Your Baby Girl.

Daddy, I love you so much. My life is never going to be the same. The bond we had will forever be unbreakable. We may be miles apart, but never separated. You will forever live on in my ❤️. . You lived a very accomplished life. First as a Son, a Brother,A Husband,a Father , a Brother, An Uncle,A brother-in-law, a Father-in-law, A Grandpap,A Nephew,A Grandson, A,Cousin,& A Beautiful friend to so many. Everyone who got the chance to meet you and know you,has been Blessed. Your memory will forever live on in me and everyone who knew you. You're Body was tired, but your soul so strong. I know where you are now. It's so heart breaking to know you're gone,but I am rejoicing,with knowing you are in no pain,no sickness, no sorrows and no tears. I promise we will see each other again one day. Until that day, REST IN HEAVENLY PEACE. I FOREVER LOVE YOU DADDY .

Your smile is the sun, that lights my everyday
Your eyes, the stars at midnight ,that brightens my way.
The clouds soft and gentle, just like the hands I would hold.
Strong like thunder arms, would protect me from the cold.
The gentle breeze blowing, is like your peaceful song.
A stronger wind ,just like your laugh, carry's me along.
The snow will be falling, oh so white and clean,
Each perfect little flake, Like the feathers on your Angel Wings.… See more

This weekend was always a family event for us. We would go In town, and watch the parade, and always walk through the glass festival. You would always get a hot sausage, and you never left there without buying things for us. You always made sure you got mom something she had her eyes on. This is the first year , you will not be there. I honestly do not know, how I will handle it. Part of me wants to watch the parade in honor of you, Dad, but the other part doesn't want to be there without you. It is not going to be the same without you, running out into the street to get candy for all the kids around you. You knew so many people and everyone you knew, loved you. No matter if there was 1 or 101 fire trucks in the parade, they knew you and would always throw a huge hand full of candy.. Oh Daddy, Why did you have to go? I would have gladly taken your place, so you could stay here with Mom, and the family would not have to be feeling this pain of losing you. Today was a really rough day. It's six weeks now since you left us, and entered Gods Kingdom. I know you are in a better place Daddy, but I am missing you more each day. Today we helped mom, clean some thing sand it was tears ALL day. I cried in the shower , in the car, in the store,and everywhere today. Life with you was so amazing. You were always there to protect us, to love us, to support us, to pick us up when we would fall, to teach us , and to be the best Daddy any girl could ask for. Now life has changed forever,and until I see you again, it will never get better. I miss you so much Daddy. I Pray you can hear me when i say I Love You Daddy. What i wouldnt do to hear you say , I LOVE YOU TOO...
I will let you rest now. Goodnight Daddy, I love and miss you beyond the clouds.. UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN.....
                    Love,Your Baby Girl

The change in weather is here. You always loved the Autumn leaves in the mountains. I remember our family trips there and stopping at the bakery for cinnamon rolls. I can’t imagine the beautiful sights in your vision right now. I love you Dad.

i love you so much --i miss so much the nights are the worst i keep remembering our life together -- it was awesome rest in peace fly high touch the sun

I can not tell if it's the rain outside, or the tears falling from my eyes.
I can not tell if its the thunder cracking, or the pounding in my chest.
I can not tell if it's the lighting flashing , or my days turned to night.
I can not tell if its the wind blowing , or my life passing by.
I can not tell if it's the clouds rolling, or if I'm running to you.
All these things, I can not tell, I just can't tell you......

Daddy, I am missing you so much tonight. Today has been emotional. Everywhere we went today was a reminder of you. Mommy and I were crying alot today.  Daddy, life is so hard without you. You were always there to protect us, and to keep us safe. When you left us, you took us too. There is an empty void in my Heart , mind, soul, and my life. There will never be a life , like I had with you in it. I know in my heart, you are still with us, Daddy, but not being able to see you, kiss your cheek , hold your hand, hug you, see your smile, hear your laugh, hear you say, I love you too baby girl, everytime i told you I love You. Daddy, Im scared without you here. I don't know what to think, do or say. I am trying to be strong, but at times, i can not fight it. I have to talk about you, and cry about you.. I miss you so very much Daddy. Please always know, that I will never forget you, and never stop loving you. Goodnight Daddy, Until we meet again.... I LOVE YOU......
                         Love, Your Baby Girl.

Life with you will be no more, a new found heartache I must endure.
I never dreamed I live this fear ,living life without you here.
Every thing of you I miss, is now a million mile long list.
Everyday there's something new, I am missing about you.
I now turn these memories, into treasures you left for me.
They are worth much more than gold, each priceless one i'll forever hold.
I cherish each thought so preciously ,Just like you a Masterpiece.
With every thought, I feel your love ,being sent from Heaven above.

Hello Daddy,
It's me, your baby girl.
I usually write on Fridays, but I just felt it on my heart to write tonight.
I was at your grave today and talked to you there, but I wanted to tell you how much I love you and miss you again ,before i go to bed. It's not any easier , like some say it is. Infact, It seems harder. Each day that you're not here, is another longer day and night. I only Pray that you could here the words I say to you. If there is a way, could you Please let me know, that you can hear me? I know , you're ok, since I heard your voice the other night. It woke me up,And I know,you are watching over us all.. Could you please send another sign though? I am gonna let you get rest now Daddy. I can not wait to see you again one day. What a Glorious day that will be.I will write again soon Daddy. Goodnight daddy, I miss you and love you so very much....  UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN... 
                     Love,
                           Your Baby Girl

I miss you Pap! I miss your laugh.

Hello Daddy,
How are you doing in Heaven? I Can Only Imagine, the beauty you see up there. Today was a difficult day. I cried all day, when cleaning moms room for her. I found your things all over. I cried at the store , cause I saw things you loved to eat. Like when I saw a Crunch bar. I remember looking everywhere for them, and at times could not find them. Then out of no where, i see one today. ( instant tears).. So, tomorrow i go for a Tattoo for you.  I am so excited to get it but yet I am so saddened by the thought of why I am getting it. I would much rather have you on my arm than a tattoo for you...I redid the wall at moms today. Its a wall of pictures and stuff of you and the family, and things you loved, like Fire Fighting, Bobo, & Cardinals. I got to get a picture of Jojo on there yet.. Yet again, its the same feeling as getting the tattoo. Its all bittersweet. Much rather have you here. I will be up tomorrow to see you at your grave. I was gonna try to make it up today, but got really busy, helping Mom. But, i am gonna let you rest now Daddy.. I will write soon. Please meet me at Heavens Gates when I am called home.. I just talked to Jojo and told him the same thing.. I PROMISE I will be there one day.. Until then, always remember, I love you beyond the clouds and miss you beyond words. Goodnight Daddy, I Love You
                            Love,
                      Your Baby Girl....

babe i miss you so much the days are filled with tears of grief and nights are so long and lonely  i wish we could have made it to our 50 years but God needed you love you so much rip

Hello Daddy, Well today has been a month since you got your Wings, and today has been very sad. So many thoughts of you, so many memories. Tonight as I was cleaning out a box, I found all the decorations from your birthday party. What really hurts is, you never even got to see them and enjoy them. You and Mom had gotten so very sick that day, and you never really recovered from it. If I could turn back time, i wonder if theres anything , I could have done different to save you? If love alone could have saved you, you would have lived forever. The love you had for so many, is what has been keeping us going. Although your love lives on in us, There's an emptiness that i can not fill. Daddy, you have always been ,the light in my life, and now everything is so dark. My Heart has never felt so much pain. When I think about all the things I miss about you, I wonder how can i still be breathing? How can I smile, laugh, cry, or anything? The only way is with thoughts of you. One thought that makes me smile, is knowing where you are now. Knowing you are no longer in pain, no longer sick, no more suffering of any kind. You have no bruises, broken bones, blood clots, no stents, no filters, and no ostomy... That is why I can,smile, laugh, and cry... All your life, you have had to fight with sickness. Not anymore Daddy. My life will never be the same without you. No more Daddy jokes, No innocent laugh, no hugs, no kisses, no holding your hand, no nothing. How can it be real, that the Only Man, i have ever completely trusted, is gone.. I don't question God, but at times, I want to ask Him Why? Why now, Why my daddy, Why God Why? Then I think and try to realize, God was ready for you, and nothing anyone could have done, would have changed that. I never imagined having to bury you at the age of 44. I always thought, I would be old and gray, and still have you with me. Life has changed forever now, Daddy. I will let you rest now, but remember and always know, I LOVE YOU Beyond The Clouds.... I miss you so much, that words can not explain it.. Goodnight Daddy, Until We Meet Again... I LOVE YOU DADDY......
                                Love,
                           Your Baby Girl, Annie

Today has been a trying day Daddy. We had to go pick the headstone for your grave today. Mommy chose a beautiful one, as she always does. It was very hard on her, but she got through it ok. Today is 4 weeks since you been gone. But Monday will be a month. It does not seem that long already. They say it gets easier as time goes on? I dont know who started that, cause to be honest, its getting harder and harder . I think doing final things like today, makes us realize , you're not coming back here., I know you are in the best place Daddy, but my heart is forever Broken and life will never be the same. I ask God to send you back, but you would be sick again, and i dont want that. That would be selfish of me. It was so hard watching you be so sick. What made it worse was I couldnt do anything to help you. If there was something I could have done to save you, I would have given my life for you to stay here with Mom. She misses you so much daddy. I do not know how to comfort her. I can do is be there for her, and Pray for her to find peace and comfort... I believe it is going to be a very long time for any of us to find that. I miss you Daddy.. I still can not believe you are gone. I never imagined losing a parent at the age 44. Its so unreal. I still think its a huge nightmare we are in. We will wake up and you will be down with mom, laughing, and joking like you do. I will kiss your cheek and say Goodnight daddy, I love You. You will say I love you too. I will come in and see your feet off the end of the bed, and i will set in chair and talk about anything and everything. All of these , I miss you notes, memorials, etc, will be gone.. We wont need them, when you are back with us, Right? Oh Daddy, if only this were true... How are you doing in Heaven? Are you ok? What have you been doing up there? Is Jojo ok? How about Bobo? There is so many things i want to ask you Daddy.. So many I want to talk about... I guess I will have to wait til i get there to know the answers. Oh before i forget, I am going Wednesday to get a new Tattoo. Its for you Daddy. Wait til you see it.. I think you will love it... But anyways Daddy, I will let you go rest now. I will write more soon and visit you tomorrow probably. until then, Please know, I love you so so much Daddy.. I miss you beyond the Clouds. Goodnight Daddy I love You........  
                                      Love,
                                   Your Baby Girl

i love you dad and miss you very much every day

If i could plant a garden, just with thoughts of you.
Each and every day, there would be a Million blooms.

I'd water it with tears pouring from my eyes,
There would be no need of rain from the sky.

I'd feed it with the love that you gave to me,
so much love, it would never go hungry.

It would bloom in Winter, summer, spring , and fall.
I'd grow enough to give, a bouquet to all.

The colors will be so vibrant, never seen so bright,
Just as in my life, you're still my shining light.

So, if i could build a Garden ,Just from thoughts alone,
Could I build a stairway, to lead you back home .....


Hello Daddy, Its me, Annie..  How is Heaven?  As the song says, " I Can Only Imagine". I am sure its breath taking. There is so many things I want to tell you, and so many things, i want to ask. I'm not sure if you realize, just how many people down here, love you and are missing you. Just today, there was a card in the mail from Dr. Jeremiah and his staff at Pain and spine, and a beautiful bouquet of flowers came to the house,from Von, Jerry , Max, Lynn, & Julie, our friends from Diamond Therapy.. They all are heart broken over you. There has been so so much love pouring out from everyone . You know something Daddy, You touched so many people through your life. Your family, your friends, and even strangers.  I dont think i have ever seen so many people reaching out to us, before in my life. We have lost many along the way, but when you left, I know the world stopped for us. The thoughts of you are endless. Just looking around , i see you in everything. I find myself looking at the sky, in hopes, id see a glimpse of you. To be honest, each time i see the sun shining, I do see you. Its shines so bright, just like your smile did. So now when i see the sun , I see your smiling face.  I go to your grave to talk to you,because I feel closer to you there. I know its not where you are, but its like a connection to you.. Mommy is ok, but not ok. She cries so much and it truly breaks my heart to see her crying. I know the pain , I am feeling, and I am just a daughter. I can not imagine the pain mommy is feeling.. . Oh Daddy, this still feels so unreal, still like a nightmare. Only Peace we have is knowing for certain, that you are walking with Jesus.. There is NO better place to be. The thought of knowing, that one day, I too will be walking with Jesus and you is making me a better person.. Not better than anyone else, just better than i was before. I too can ONLY IMAGINE, what it will be like... Knowing how much you loved music, Are you singing with the Angels? Ohh Daddy , what a glorious sound that will be... There is so much more i want to ask and say, but I am gonna let you rest for now. I have to write to Jojo yet too.  But before I go, Please remember me and know I LOVE YOU beyond the clouds. I miss you so much.. I wish i could kiss your cheek and tell you goodnight, like i always did, but since I cant, I will imagine i can.  Just close my eyes and kiss your cheek in my dreams. Until we meet again, i will go on loving you forever Daddy. 
Goodnight Daddy, I love you.........
                        Love, Your Baby Girl.....

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You came into this world, a beautiful baby boy, God sent you here to bring so many joy. You didn't have it easy until one special day. You met the one to show true love , along lifes way.
It was love at first sight,when you saw her at the dance, in a couple days you took that chance. You ask her to be your bride, and she said yes. In a couple months from then ,she proudly wore the dress. You soon became a Daddy in the following spring, In another two short years , came a baby boy , then in eighteen months ,another bundle of joy. The smile upon your face said you loved us so , never being afraid to always let it show. In the midst of it all you joined the fire station, just another act of true dedication. You held many positions, through the forty eight years. You never gave up ,even through all the sweat and tears. You always were a fighter , even when you were so weak, Smiling that special smile, even when you couldn't speak. We never dreamed we see the day, that you were facing death, as we stood beside you, you took your last breathe. Our lives are changed forever, knowing you're not here, its hard to see clearly through our falling tears. The only peace we have to go on, Is that you're in Heaven, all pain and sickness gone. We know that we will see you one sweet day again. we will forever love you, Our Daddy, Our Hero, and Friend.............