I was not able to hold you til after you passed, I was not able to show you off, I was not able to tuck you in.... Hayden; Theres so much i will NEVER be able to do with you,.... So much I wanted to do... And your brother, watch over him please? He needs you, just like I do and your daddy. We are all suffering,... We all miss you,... Im trying to be strong and act like Im all big and bad, But its not working, I know your heaven and out of pain but I cant help myself and wonder why I wasnt able to help my own child... I am glad your out of pain my angle. What you went through in these short 3 months was unfair.... You didnt do anything to deserve this... You deserved to be a happy baby... But now you are.. right? hows heaven my angel? I wont give up.... I will try and try my hardest for you and your brother, Your guys are my sunshine, my starshine, my LIFE<3 I will never be able to forget you, though we only shared a few months.... You'll always be my baby....

-Lovee Mommy