No amount of words could ever describe Helena accurately, she was beautiful, spunky, sweet, funny, smart, talented and full of life and the list goes on.
Although it has been close to 6 years since I last saw her I can still picture her like it was yesterday. I can still hear her voice, her laugh, see her face, especially the face when she was up to something! We had such a wonderful life as friends, so many adventures. You see, Helena had a way of taking a boring moment and turning it into alot of fun.
I will never fully grasp the idea that she is gone, it is just too painful. I try my best to always remember the good times, and there were many of those. Sometimes I catch myself laughing out loud thinking of some of the things we did and then I get a catch in my throat as I realize once again that she is gone.
Helena had many friends, many that I am sure are still shocked over what happened and still cant believe her life would end the way it did. Although Helena was alot of fun, you could always count on her to be at your side through thick and thin. I remember one time I had been in a car accident, my roomate answered the phone and told her, but before I made it to the phone, Helena was at my house (in the dead of winter) dressed in shorts, a short coat and fluffy bunny slippers, that was a typical Helena moment.
When Helena first died, I wished I had never known her, the pain was so intense, but now I know that I was truly blessed to be her best friend. I can't imagine what my life would have been without her. As for now, I feel that she is always with me in spirit but nothing will ever replace the real thing.
I miss you Helena so much, you can't even imagine. Remember when you used to be amazed that I never cried ? All of that changed the day you left, I have not stopped crying since.We will meet at the beach!