I am not sure why God brought you back into my life that night just to have things end like they did. Nearly two decades and it still hurts my heart so much. You were so upset and I knew you had been drinking. I begged you to let me come and
get you. I would take you anywhere you wanted I just wanted you to not be alone. You asked me why I would do that when our friendship had not ended well. I told you because God would not have connected us after all this time of there wasn’t a purpose. I should have pushed hard. You wouldn’t let me. You promised you were going to go to bed. You had my number. I hate that you are gone. I hate that I failed that night. 

Today marks 16 years since we lost you, I will keep the memory of you alive for as long I live.  You only had 24 years on this earth, you didn’t get the chance to marry or become a father. That is what I mourn the most the live you didn’t have,  we love and miss you