DEAR ISAIAH
ISAIAH I MISS YOU A LOT AND I
WISH THAT YOU WERE
STILL HERE I LOVE YOU
ALOT
TO ISAIAH FROM JOSH.
Dear Isaiah
Isaiah i miss you a lot and I wish that we wish that you where back and I love you. to Isaiah from Joshua.
Dear Isaiah,
I miss u papi so much, I'm sorry for eveything that you went through and had to experience. I wish I could of saved u, I wish u were here instead of there. I wish I knew then what I know now, I would have been there, I would of saved u. Just know that when I got there, I tryed but it was too late, you were gone already. Now I only get to be with u, when I'm dreaming. I miss hearing your voice, or seeing your smile, or even hearing you cry. I'll never get to tell u again" I love u " & for u to tell me back "ok". Every moment I ask myself " Why did this have to happen?" (you were just a baby) "Why was this done to you? WHY? WHY? I feel I never told u enough how much u meant to me,you were someone very special in my life, you were MY BABY & you'll always be. The day I lost you, I lost apart of who I was. All I wanted was a normal complete family but now I realize my family will never be complete again, without you here. Sometimes I sit at home looking at your picture wondering why you couldn't be apart of my future. Uncontrollable tears stream down my face, while my heart beat starts to race. I ask God, " Why he had to take you from my life"? It was more painful then stabbing me in the heart with a knife. I never got to tell you "GOOD BYE" that really meant FOREVER.
Your big brother & big sister miss you alot. It hurts them you're not here anymore, I can see their pain, I wish I could bring you back,so I didn't have to see them hurt anymore. But I realize I can't, all I can do is tell them "Your little brother is in heaven now with God, he's an angel looking over you." They love you so much! And your big cousin, misses you too, she's always remembering when you would go over to her house to play, and you would make her spin you around in circles.
I never knew how hard it was to lose someone you love, until the day u went to heaven. I miss you more & more each day & all I can do is pray. In my heart you shall forever remain.
" GONE BUT NOT FORGOTTEN"
Love Mommy
I can't hold back the tears. Reality is here my little boy will never be here again, he's not coming back, this is not a dream, all I can do is grieve. I miss his smile, holding his hand, or hearing his voice, but most of all I miss him being here. I cry everytime I tell myself, " If only he had lived "
The heart breaking loss of Isaiah will always remain a part of me.
My life changed I"ll never be the person I was.
Don't say "I know how u feel" because you don't. Many have lost parents, grandparents, anuts, uncles, & friends, but never child. So how can u say u know how I feel?
Don't say "You'll get over it" because I won't. Life will have to go on. The cooking, cleaning, the common routine will take my mind off my son, but the hurt will still be there.
Don't say "You're other children will be a comfort to you" because they may not be. Many times after you lost a child, you become easily to lose your temper with your remaining children. Feeling resentful that they're alive and healthy when the other is not.
Don't say "Never mind, you're young enough to have another baby" because that won't help. A new bby will never replace Baby Isaiah.
You should say "I'm here, I care. anytime, anywhere" We can talk about your son, We'll talk about memories. I won't mind how long u grieve. I won't tell you to pull yourself together. And perhaps I'll feel comfortable with u & find my burden has eased.
