Love Always!!!! 

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Love ALWAYS AND FOREVER

Two years ago, I fought to hold you inside of me just one more day, but you said oh no! It was indeed a scary day, but yet a lovely day as my first born made his way into this world. It was a bitter sweet moment, as I recall, because as I reflect, I never even heard your cry. They whisked you away to the NICU and I didn't even see a glimpse of you. I remember asking later and I was told of your low apgar score. You could have never taken your first breath, but you fought to at lease give us the opportunity that you did and fulfill your purpose/assignment.

The doctors fought to stop the bleeding, remove the fibroids that were housed with you, and ultimately closed me up. As I went back to my room, though I was there, my thoughts and prayers were with you. I remember how I couldn't go see you but I sent my family to check on you. The videos and pictures brought back made me just want to be there with you all the more! Then the moment that I finally saw you. Your tiny 1 lb 5.9 oz body in that big incubator. None of that mattered because you were here!

I can still remember the moments your dad and I would go to see you and you would be kicking, arching your back, and swatting at the tubes. The first time the nurses turned you on your belly, mmmh. It still brings a smile to my face. I saw your fight as you made it through your first surgery. As I reflect on your fight, I continue to fight today. That we may continue to grow in love. We are better because of you, even if it was short term.

I can celebrate this day, because it at least gave me the opportunity to meet you, to see you. I remember the moment I finally got the opportunity to reach my hand through the window of the incubator. You embraced my thumb and burnt your finger prints in my heart. Even today, as I write this, I pause to feel your embrace both on my thumb and on my heart. I hate I never got to hold you near my heart until your last moments, but nevertheless. I glory and rejoice that I was lucky enough to have you in my life, even if it was for only 27 days. That was at least 27 days that I did have. Many didn't even have that soo I continue to say "all is well" and continue to glorify the God that knows all things and knows what we are able to bear.

I "light this candle" today to celebrate this day that you came into our lives. I "lay a flower" in remembrance of the life that you lived February 19, 2015 - March 17, 2015. Though the flowers may die your spirit forever remains with us.

Happy Birthday, Isaiah Simmons!
Love Always Mom and Dad ~

Hey Grandson just wanted to say hello and tell you that I love you I just had a birthday but of course you already know this keep looking down upon us. Always in my heart your grandmother Shirley love you

Though you are far away, you are ever so near.  Today, February 19, 2016, your dad and I gathered today to light a candle in your honor.  We released a balloon after releasing to each other. Resting in God's arm, our sweet first born - Isaiah Simmons.