I miss you! A lot. Today, is a hard day. I find it difficult writing anything here. You know you’re in my heart ♥️ and I think of you often. I love you to infinity & beyond. Blow out your candle and make a wish. See you when I see you. Miss you x love your guts xxoo

Hi Nephew!
I know I’m very late, I made a post for your birthday and never shared it. So… ya that got posted just now. Ik you’re laughing at me. I’m a dout da do I know this, you know this It’s been 2 yrs how can that be? Some times it seems much shorter or much longer. Time moves different now. Depending on the day I’m having. I read our texts x miss you more. We all miss you so much! I wake up every day and I see your face. I have pics all over. We’re sending hugs to you x Zach and a ton of love! You’re safely in our hearts and there you’ll stay, til we meet again. Hugs and ♥️. Your favorite Aunt

My handsome nephew•
Happy 19th Birthday I’m sure there’s gonna be a huge party tonight, take it easy on the angel wine. I look at your photo everyday and wish I could talk to you, well…. I do a lot I’m still waiting for you to answer me lol. We’re finally moving to Fla. I know you’ll make every mall trip with me! I love you so much, and miss you beyond measure! What a blessing you are to our family. I thank Zachary for reaching out and knitting us back together. No amount of time with you would ever be enough! You’re loved, liked, adored, cherished and today and everyday I carry you in my heart ♥️ Give Zack attack a big hug from us and of course there’s one for you too! Gucci baby, I’ll always be grateful your my nephew. Rest up. 

Yesterday, 11/11 was Ivanna’s 19th Birthday. It doesn’t get easier. I am missing him so much. His fun, creative spirit, his warm heart, his caring nature, all of him. My deepest gratitude to all who reached out. Nothing means more than to have your loved ones remembered when they are no longer physically here. I added a slideshow in the video section of some random photos. It’s hard and also healing to remember so many wonderful times in Ivanna’s too short life. If you’re visiting Ivanna’s memorial site, please light a virtual candle, share a photo, a thought or a memory. It would mean the world to us.

Dear Ivanna,

This photo popped up today and it brought back so many great memories of our last trip to Cape Cod. I remember you telling me how much love you felt in P-Town. I remember you telling me it was the best vacation ever (but you said that after every trip :)).

Tomorrow is your 18th Birthday—11/11. Such a special day and so impossible that you are not here for me to shower you with all my love. How excited you would be getting ready to celebrate with friends. Six months with you on the other side. I miss you and cherish you with every breath. Keep the dreams and signs coming sweetie.
I love you so much ✨❤️
Your Momma

Ivanna, Ivanna, Ivanna… happy 18 to such a special little soul. I will always value my memories of you. You taught me so much in my first years of teaching and I won’t forget your hugs and smile. The core of you is love and it’s all you ever wanted for everyone; teachers, friends, family. So many silly times and even not so silly times- but all you were ever trying to do was to understand your world. It was incredible to watch such a young child take on such a big undertaking. You will always be on my mind and heart. Happy happy birthday! 

Dear Ivanna, Happy 18th sweetie! I picture you celebrating, laughing, dancing, and goofing around with your brother. As the days pass, you stay in my thoughts, and you will always have a very special place in my heart. You and Zach remind me of what is important - and how to continue to live with love, joy, and purpose. Big hugs and love up to the universe and beyond! Love, Stacy 

Ivanna,
I met you on zoom once but I know you the most from your mom. There are so many wonderful memories she has shared. I wish I could have met you in person. 
I am wishing you a happy heavenly birthday. I know you are surrounded by love. Even in the midst of grief I hope your mom takes some comfort knowing you are in a place of peace and love.
Jason

Happy Birthday sweet girl - how empty so many lives are here now without you. Your are so missed I hope you are making so much noise where you are. I feel so blessed to have seen you a couple of times on zoom and felt through your mom that I knew you and the things you loved and enjoyed. I am so glad I got to witness your creativity.
Sending you so much love on your special day   

My daughter, Kelly, and I were walking from our home in Mountain View to Zachary's home in Mountain View. It was maybe 2006.  We were going to "babysit" for Zach and his younger sibling, Ivanna. I only knew Ivanna as the cute little girl who darted around the house when I came to tutor Zach. On this sunny afternoon I had the pleasure of spending a few hours of quality time with Ivanna. This memory has become my go to memory these past difficult weeks. It is a happy memory of the wonderful Estrada/Rosenfeld family. It makes me smile, even laugh. When Kelly and I arrived, she knocked on the door. As we walked in Zach was soon in the entryway, jumping up and down and reminding me of a previous activity. There was no special event to mark the day. We were just four people spending time together. Kelly kept asking for Coke, Ivanna shared an issue of American Girl, Zach walked from outside to inside and back again and I tried to not be controlling. At one point we all sat at the table for a Diet Coke. There was some conversation, some laughs, some quiet, some sipping. After a few hours Paul and Rita returned. Kelly and I left and walked home on that sunny afternoon. I now knew Zachary's Ivanna as more than just a darting child. I hold that memory close to my heart. It is my way of attempting to deal with a  tragedy thrust upon two wonderful parents.  

One of my earliest memories of Ivanna was at my son Philip's 8th birthday party.  The kids could not get the pinata to burst and the desire to scoop up all of the candy was very strong!  Every kid had taken a swing at it and there wasn't even a dent in this thing!  As sugar desperation started to settle in,  I suggested we do away with the blindfold and let every kid just go for with a full line of sight.  As the first few took a swing I noticed Ivanna pacing then looking as each of the previous kids took their turns.  He was studying the pinata for potential weak spots!  He was actually strategizing and figuring out how to approach like it was a mission.  When Ivanna's turn came, he took confidently took his spot, and with one swift swing that hit dead center in the bottom part of the pinata, bursting it wide open! Most of the kids froze briefly before diving for the candy, that's how surprised they were! It was so funny!  That was the moment that I learned this child had moxie! I saw it again and again over the years but, I will never forget that first time. 

A big hotel in Guatemala, a sea of babies with their soon to be parents. The two most beautiful babies hands down were you , Pebbles and Bam Bam , Nicholas. I can still picture you with your hair in a little ponytail sticking straight up from the top of your beautiful head. I’ll never forget the time I was in the hotel room with you and Bam Bam, your Mom and my sister went out to look for food to bring back. I thought this would be a wonderful opportunity for me to get to know you. As soon as you realized your Mom left the room you were so mad. You walked into the bedroom with the guest phone, picked it up and started giving whoever answered “what for”! I tried every trick I knew to distract you but you just kept on ranting on that phone until your Mom came back. How I wish I knew what you were saying! 
In those moments I saw a little girl who was fierce and passionate and loyal. As I watched you grow up that never changed and I adored you for that. My only wish is that those traits would have seen you through the turbulence you had deep inside of you to sustain you until your spirit found equilibrium. May you have peace now my little Pebbles. You are so deeply loved by so many. Please find Zachary