Such a sad and emotional day today Jack. Saying goodbye to such a lovely boy Gary Brown. Still can't quite believe he is gone. Another lovely soul taken far to soon. He got such an amazing send of, so many people's lives he touched. Take care of him and Angela. Marion is devastated. Watch over her and help her ..
Love you to the moon and back. Xxxxxx
Another year gone without you. 5 years still doesn't seem real. I miss you so much. My heart is broken. Love you to the moon and back.
Love and miss you more each day ♥️♥️♥️
Well Jack another family member gone. I hope you have got Linda with you all. It was such a shock when she passed. But as she said she was just waiting. Take care of all of them Jack. Love you to the moon and back.. xxxx
Happy Easter Jack. Miss you always. Love you to the moon and back. Xx
Merry Christmas Jack. Still hurts so much you not being here. Will be going to Joannes again for Xmas dinner. They won't let me be on my own Xmas day. Well 1 year clear hopefully when I have my mammogram next month. Here's hoping. Love you to the moon and back. Xxxxx
Another year we should have had. 47years we would have been together thought we would have had longer. Miss you so much. Love you to the moon and back. Xx
Happy Fathers Day Jack. Love you to the moon and back. Xx
Happy birthday Jack. Another one your not here to celebrate. I miss you so much. People think "aww its been nearly 3 years she should be over it now" but it doesn't work that way. I will never "get over it " i think about you every day . I think i talk to you more now than when you were here.lol Going to the shops shortly to get balloons for the boys to send to you. So remember to catch them. I LOVE YOU TO THE MOON AND BACK. Always.xxxx
Hi Jack sorry I haven't visited for a while but I still talk to you all the time. Well everybody's plodding along as usual doing there own thing. So much for me always saying I'm fine, I found out just before Xmas I have breast cancer. That was a shock. I'm going for surgery in a few weeks so hopefully all will go well. I'm not quite ready to leave yet. I could really do with you being here but I know you will be with me when my treatment starts. I miss you so much. Love you to the moon and back. Xxx
Happy Anniversary Jack. Would be 46yrs today. Still can't believe you're not here with me to celebrate. I keep saying it but i miss you so much. Today is bad but next week will be worse. 2 year will have gone by that you have been gone. I really try to believe you are still around me but its very hard. The only thing that keeps me going is knowing i WILL see you again. Loveyou to the moon and back. Xx
Hi Jack im missing you so much it hurts. Im so tired putting on this face. People just dont understand how empty i feel. I just want to be with you . I was so happy you came through when i got my reading. I know you said how glad you were about how i looked after you when you were ill but i feel so guilty. I should have done more. Its one of those things"if only" i should have done this or said that. Sometimes i get so angry. I love you to the moon and back. Xx
Happy birthday Jack. Another one without you. Will be taking some flowers down to you later and Jack wants to send you up a balloon so mind and catch it.I try and keep your memory alive for him and Ben . Even though Ben was very young when you left us he still knows who you are. Hes turning out a right wee character. These next few months are really hard to get through with your birthday, our wedding anniversary then that awful day you were gone. Miss you always. Love you to the moon and back.Xxx
Hi Jack its been a bad few days. Brought myself to clear your wardrobes. Didn't realise you had sooo many clothes. Alot of them brought back a lot of memories. Shirts you liked things you wore on holiday. I was a wreck by the time i was finished. Even worse when the guy ffrom the charity shop came. He must have thought i was nuts crying over clothes. but it just made it feel so final, that you were really gone and wouldn't be back. I miss you so much it hurts. Love you to the moon and back. Xxx
Hi Jack another xmas without you its so hard. It was awful getting up this morning knowing you weren't going to be downstairs opening your presents. Afraid I had a wee cry . Went to Joannes for dinner again Stephen and Cathy were there to. Its great to see the boys opening there presents. As usual things were needed to be built and batteries put in. That was your job at Christmas. LoL Been invited to Elsies tomorrow don't know wether to go or not. I'll wait and see. I suppose I should try and get some sleep. Im not doing much that just now. Miss you so much. Love you to the moon and back. Xx
Hi Jack sorry i havent written anything for a while but im not doing so well just lately.Your in my thoughts all the time. I cant bring myself to clear your things yet dont know when i'll be able to do that. It makes may feel closer to you knowing your clothes are still hanging in the wardrobe.Iknow that might sound stupid to some but its how i feel. I was in bits today clearing out letters and stuff addressed to you so i dont know how im going to clear your clothes.I cant get over how lonely i feel. theres just a big emptyness that nobody else can fill. I miss you so much. Love you to the moon and back.xx
Hi Jack monday would have been our 45th anniversary i missed you so much i cried myself to sleep. Cant believe you were here last year but not this one. The last year has been the worst of my life.Just cant describe how lonely i feel even with everyone around me i still feel lost.This date last year you went into hospital for the last time. I just keep feeling i could have done more. I feel so guilty. It will be a year since you left me in 9 days. its so hard. Im sure you would have coped a lot better if it was me that had gone. Im not coping at all. I love you to the moon and back. Miss you so much. xxx
Joannes Wedding
Happy Birthday Jack
Hi Jack im sorry not been on here for a while but i get quite upset when im writing things down as i wish i could just tell you face to face. the song i put on puts all my thoughts into words. Even listening to it starts me of. I miss you so very much. Sometimes i wish i could just be with you then i think how much it would hurt the kids .Wont be long till Joanne n Ross get married thats going to be a very emotional day,you wont be there and its also Fathers Day. She didnt know that when she booked her wedding. Daddy's little girl will be a married woman. Oh god how i miss you. Love you to the moon and back. xx
Hi Jack well time spassing but i dont feel any better. i still miss you so very much,i dont think that will ever change. I get so lonely at times even when ive got family about me if that makes sense.Jacks school had a "WEAR SOMETHING TARTAN FOR BURNS DAY". I got him a lovely waistcoat he looked so handsome. You would have been so proud of him. HE was singled out in assembly for being the smartest.lol He still asks about you now and again you know kids they forget things easyly. miss you . love you to the moon and back. xxx
Hogmanay and everything is quiet.Wont be going to Joannes so will be going to bed. We never did anything much anyway at the bells did we? We brought in the new year together i had my one drink and went to bed and you stayed up for a few more. But at least we were together. I'll have my one to wish you Happy New Year then go to bed. missing you isnt getting any easier. Love you to the moon and back. For ever and always. xxx
Well Jack we all managed to get through xmas without you with a lot of tears shed. It wasnt the same you not being here. For one thing there was nobody to build Jack n Bens toys.lol Now its just the new year to go. I'll be going down to Joannes probebly to babysit as i think William is having a night in his. You know that doesnt bother me anyway i cant be bothered with drink. Every day is a struggle but i suppose i will get through. Miss you. Love you to the moon and back. xx
Well Jack its been really hard the last few weeks with my birthday last week and christmas coming up. 46 years and that was the first one we havent been together.im going to Joannes on xmas day but i will just be thinking of last year when we were all together.i will prob fall apart most of the day. only for the kids i dont think i would go. Every time i think of it i just cry all the time. dont think i'll ever run out of tears. I miss you so much i dont know what to do.love you to the moon and back. xx
I play this all the time just to hear your voice . xx
Hi Jack feeling low today .I hope you liked what i did with your ashes i just didnt know what else to do. We never really discussed that except for you saying dig a hole in the back and put you in. lol Theres been a few things happening about the house is it you? I think it is you letting me know you are with me. I know you'll be with me for ever. Miss you with all my heart. Love you to the moon and back. xx
Hi Jack feeling quite low today. Just couldnt sit in the house today had to get out even though it was pouring down all day. I dont think i'll ever get used to being here on my own.Some days are worse than others but trying to keep it together. Pretty hard though.Been trying to focus on the kids for xmas thats hard to .You usually have some good ideas for them .Its not going to be a very good one this year without you.I love you to the moon and back. xxx
Hi Jack i was at doctors today .loaded with the cold. She was asking how i was doing i told her im not doing good. Its been 12 wks come thursday since you left us but i can still see the look in your eyes when you looked at me. It was as if you were checking to see if i was still there and i felt so helpless all i could do was asure you i would always be there for you. Even now i feel as if i should have done more.But i dont know what. If only someone could tell me why you had to suffer for so long before they finally told us what was wrong.Even though i was there holding your hand as you took your last breath i still cant quite believe your gone. It is so hard knowing i cant just go and talk to you. Even though i still do every day.I miss you so much . I love you to the moon and back. xx