Our beloved BMW goes tomorrow I cant part with it it was ur life, just a little life but we ands Brandie went everywhere, now it goes for nothing and my life goes with it, noone else cares, how can I live here alone without you and the car, Brandie and me canrt survive. We both should have taken a flat in London, now there is nothing and I think I will have to stay in BrightonWxxxxxxxxxxhy oh why did you go

Where are you Jack? Youu have left Brandie and me completely alone, show me some sign, I cant live in this world without you Love you foreverxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

I keep watching old movies over and over again, the Joan Crawford ones recently. Life has no meaning without you, soon the car will go, I have such memories of it, I bet Ill end up living here alone with Brandie and thats how it will end.  Why were we so stupid why didnt take one of those flats in London? Now I will be alon3e here forever.  What do you think about that?

I miss you so much there are no words, you did everything and I let you, why didnt you plan ahead? Now I am alone and lonely and devestated for the rest of my life

Dont you think the Dr should have referred you to a cardiacx clinic and you could have had op and still be here.WHY DIDNT YOU DO IT!!!!!!!!!!!! I wont go on long with a life of such misery.

GIVE ME SOME SIGN THAT YOU ARE WATCHING OVER ME AND BRANDIE, we have noone to look after us now.  I cant shed enpugh tearsxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx     

I bet you are pleased I get all my food from Morrisons now, carer shops for me, and I hate it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Watched Baby Jane and Grand Hotel and thought of you so much, now am going to watch Mildred Piercexxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Death is nothing at all
I have only slippedaway into the next room
I am I and you are you
Whatever we were to each other
That we are still
Call me by my old familiar name
Speak to me in the easy way
you always used
Put no difference into your tone
Wear no forced air of solemnity or
sorrow
Laugh as we always laughed
At the little jokes we always enjoyed
together
Play, smile, think of me, pray for me
Let my name be ever the household
word that it always was
Let it be spoken without effort
Without the ghost of a shadow in it
Life means all that it ever meant
It is the same as it ever was
There is absolute unbroken continuity
What is death but a negligible accident?
Why should I be out of mind
Because I aM OUT OF SIGHT?
IAM WAITING FOR YOU FOR AN INTERVAL
SOMEWHERE VERY NEAR
JUST AROUND THE CORNER
ALL IS WELL.
Nothing  is past, nothing is lost 
ONE BRIEF MOMENT AND ALL WILL BE AS IT
WAS BEFORE
hOW WE SHALL LAUGH AT THE TROUBLE OF
PARTING WHEN WE MEET AGAIN!                                



   


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I bought you some pretty daffs, they are out now, but you mised the spring, also missed the worst hurricanes, floods and storms.

Well I did it finally bought an I phone, havent unpacked it yet, am scared, but will very gradually get to use it, I know how you loved that you could speak to it
Had Carelink put in today , I wear it round my neck, has a button, also key safe with spare key.  So I am wearing arounndmy neck, would never have needed these things, my darling, if you were still here. I miss you so much its unbearable The world is not the same without youxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx . 

when I waTCH YOUR MOVIES i MAGINE i AM WATCHING WITH jACKXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX

Hope you discussed movies all day, so sorry you missed Last Vegas, will get it for you.  Also must get Blue Jasmine for us to watch againxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Jack and I were married 47 years ago today, a lifetime, and all we went through, living all over England, Australia, Israel.  Jack did so many jobs, airline, hotel, and we travelled alot to many places in the world.  Our wedding was at Caxton Hall, very posh in those days, lots of stars were married there, and we went to Rome on our honeymoon and went back for my 75th birthday!! It was the last time we would ever travel anywhere, he was ill but would never admit it, he was obstinate and did it His Way.

We lived in Dolphin Square, also very posh then, many politicians lived there.

My darling Mum died less than 2 months later and my Dad 2 years later, and then our darling Amanda was born in 1969.
Well it wasnt boring it was a life and I shed all my tears now because cant believe he has gone.xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx    

Jack travelled the world 40 times as chief steward with British Airways, visited every continent and most major world cities.

Jack loved the USA especially Vegas, it was his kind of town and Sinatra his kind of person , as he says he travelled each and every highway, he would so have loved to live in Vegas.

How he love d Bogey, the old movies, and so do I, we had so much in common, there is noone else to share these things with and it would never be the same 

The last movie we saw was Blue Jasmine, we both loved it so and Woody was another great hero of ours.
Jack and I talked the same talk for nearly 50 years, hope he is with Frankie, Bogey now discussing movies, perhaps he has even met Elvis and talked about Vegas  !!! noone else feels the same, we were a different generation but never old, always very young in outlook, but his poor heart gave out, he should have been here for many more years, such a great, lovable man who is missed foreverxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx